Home. What is home anyway? The city is what he tried to make his own tribe, failing and moving himself to be respected in the position he currently had.

For the first time, in what appeared ages, he was home early. A glass of water that kept him company while his girlfriend came back to talk. "Talk about what exactly? It doesn't seems she is really worried" He thought sitting on the frame of his window.

Looking down there, the busy street with people walking frantically and new gadgets trying to replace the conventional ways. The height of the building could have made him nervous from his perspective, it instead soothed him.

"I could easily just fall and…be gone. An accident" He thought drinking more water.

The liquor around the house was always full, very few bottles opened. None of them drink alcohol to soothe the night or easy their pain, they had them for the few occasions Toph or friends wanted something to drown in.

His night routine, every three or four days consisted in drinking juice by the window, mourning a future that never was. The question remained… Why was he so in love with her after three years? She could be a new monster or a phony crybaby who drank herself to sleep.

Suki had changed, that was for sure. For the better or the worse, he wouldn't know until they met again at his sister's wedding…if she even planed to attend of course. The closure Yue had tried to give him helped him at first but right now wasn't doing it…Stop the fantasies and start living the moment.

"You need to let go, come out of your shell and be willing to let yourself hurt by those people you say you love" The doctor answered to Sokka who was speechless, a bit angry at how unamused he was.

"Are you listening to me? I can't! Everything is horrible and it was a matter of time until I am left alone in here." Sokka said standing up "This was a waste of my time"

"Sokka sit down. I bet you this wasn't the first time someone actually told you to move on." He coldly said as Sokka sat down frowning "You need to find a way to do it"

"That's why I am here genius" Sokka replied sarcastically "I hope science has a way of dealing with this. I just want it to get over with"

"What if I told you that this is never over?"

"Never over…" Sokka repeated to himself, his eyelids briefly closing at the memory of endless heartbreak and loss.

"This must be a joke. Goodbye sir" Sokka said standing up, already bummed out

"You can keep joking about it but it will never go away until you learn how to live with it" He replied before Sokka closed the door, his eyes watery at the thought of never being able to better himself. He jogged towards the new Yue bay that he had created for his lost love, breathless and sweaty from the doctor's office.

"Yue! Please, show up" He screamed at the sky, multiple people looking at him oddly. "Damn it" he whispered moving away from the view, jogging again to numb his frequent thoughts.

Kill yourself, nobody would find the body.

Starve yourself, it would be seen as an accident for overworking.

Drown yourself, an imaginary attack could help you cover your cowardness.

"Why am I running?" He questioned out loud, stopping to breathe. What he hadn't foresaw was his crying.

He felt impotence at his current state. He again tried with what seemed right but it wasn't enough, he wouldn't be enough to be with Suki.

The door opened and Electra entered surprised at seeing Sokka by her window, staring wide eyed.

"Are you drinking this early?" She questioned closing the door, locking it tight. "I hope your stomach is not empty"

"It is empty" He replied, chugging the last of the juice "But I'm not drinking, I don't drink"

She looked puzzled, raising an eyebrow. "Since when?"

"Since I have been going to this doctor I told you. These pills have…helped me" He said shyly, not liking it too much of admitting he was on medication. "Alcohol would be a waste of my time and money invested"

"You are medicating yourself?" Electra asked shocked "That's why you have been so…different."

"Define different please" Sokka stated "I have grown up, pills don't play too much on that"

"Well, you are quite flexible" Electra said thinking out loud "Not just in court but in your daily life"

Sokka nodded with comprehension, remembering those times he could count with the palm of his hands were he was indeed flexible: When fighting master Piandao and scheming with team Avatar.

He sighed, feeling as if he had reversed his personality since growing older. Is that what being an adult was? Making mistakes and just shrugging them off and hoping for the best?

"But we won't talk about me, instead of you" He said getting closer to her "Let's sit down to discuss it properly"

Electra nodded sitting down on the sofa, waiting for him to talk.

"I have noticed your change in attitude and confirmed it these past days regarding some habits" Sokka started, his face tense about the topic they would talk about "Is there something wrong?"

"I have told you I am fine and pretty hungry actually" Electra replied with the same stoic face she had. "What is making you worry?"

"You. Electra, you are really thin. I know I have been the hardest to love and…that's what is worrying me. That I am affecting you" He said touching her hands for support, his blue eyes showing how worried he was.

Electra tilted her head thoughtful "How can I tell him…trust doesn't do any good in a relationship. At least a faked one"

"Sokka, you aren't affecting me" "It's not all your fault" Electra thought before continuing talking "These weeks have been hard for both of us and the trial was something that wasn't helping my state of mind"

Her violet eyes were different. Sokka couldn't pin point the moment he had started to read behind the shy smiles, the cold stares and stoic face; Now he was sure that at least, he hadn't ruined another soul by his selfish behavior.

The lie was as clear as the water, confronting it was the bumpy road he could choose to ignore or go towards.

"You are lying" Sokka called her out, gripping her hands and leaning his body towards her. Electra looked uncomfortable "If we are a couple we should be able to lean on each other"

"I like that we don't do that" Electra said getting out of his hands, almost hugging herself. "It helps me balance how I feel"

"How you feel towards what?" Sokka questioned "Me?"

"Not you but…" Electra stopped foreseeing him interrupt her. It didn't happen and she was left without a conclusion to her excuse. Sokka kept looking at her, examining all of her expressions and words.

To see if they matched. They still didn't match.

"Electra, be honest. What are we doing?" Sokka asked, his voice breaking in admitting something he had been thinking for a while. That maybe it was for the best to be as friends and let the idea of them go.

"We are trying" She quickly replied, frowning "That's what lovers do, try until you can't"

"Electra-"

"Or what? Are you already yearning to dump me now that we have become public? I can give you that if it's your way of venting against me" Electra said exploding, her voice shaky. Sokka looked with his poker face, having enough of fighting for the weekend.

"Elec-"

"You want to meet her again don't you? You are wanting to see your friend since I grabbed that letter by accident. I wonder where are you keeping it safe now, probably your shoe rack because that shit stinks so much" She spit angry, the frown accentuating how much anger she had built over the course of the two years.

Sokka opted to stay quiet and listen to her venting. She seemed to need it the most.

"You have been always a cheater, I can't believe I fooled myself into thinking you would be loyal to me, you cheated on Suki with…"

"I did not cheat with Suki or you" Sokka interrupted, his sensible fibers being rouffled "Do not make those kind of accusations"

"Then why are you asking me what are we doing?" Electra said shouting, exploding "Everyone with eyes knows that you still love her, damn it. Get over it!"

"Because I know that I will probably never get over Suki…" Sokka interrupted standing up, his eyes never leaving hers "That's a reason why I am asking you what are we doing as a couple"

"One reason?" Electra said with anger "What other fucking reason you have?"

"I already know Electra"

The way he said it sent chills down her spine. "He knows what?"

"What do you mean?"

"Don't play fool with me. I know"

"What do you think you know about? Is that something your therapist told you?"

"Since that day at the spring festival that you kissed her in front of me. I am in no way judging you but it was something odd from someone born into the North"

"Uh…."

"The way you stare at her is not even close to how you did when we made love for the first time"

"I was nervous! I never thought of sleeping with you because as much as you are handsome I didn't have any strong feelings for you yet!"

"Electra I don't love you" Sokka said finally, both of them breathing heavily at his words. Electra choked, not being able to mutter anything. "That doesn't mean I will leave you…"

"But I love you" Electra replied shakily, her eyes watering. Sokka sighed, looking down at her hands before grabbing them, firmly staring at her.

"No, you don't. I do see who you actually love" Electra gasped, tears falling down her face. "You look gorgeous in love…"

Sokka smiled, his eyes shinning with tears that were either of happiness or sadness, he still had to know why they appeared in that moment. Electra was horrified.

"I don't love Toph" She whispered in shock, getting away from Sokka, both hands over her mouth.

"I never said who you loved, which proves that you think about her" Her scared reaction activated his protective switch, getting closer to help her sit. Electra let him help her, sitting down with her head feeling light.

Sokka kneeled by her side, carefully watching her to see if other burst of emotions would come out of her. The silence in the room lasted hours, his eyes feeling heavy but not enough to lose focus on helping her friend.

"Sokka, I don't love your friend" Electra whispered, finally looking at him "I appreciate her a lot" she said in denial.

"There is nothing wrong in loving a girl. I would have suggested someone that wasn't Toph but your choice" Sokka joked with a smile, Electra stared unamused.

"I don't like girls, they are pretty and fun to hang around but not my choice" She said in denial, her right hand shaking at the fist she made.

"You don't get to choose who you love…" Sokka replied with his eyes closing a bit, Suki's blushing face immediately coming to him. "You either try it or live with the regret of never making your move"

Zuko was stunned, seeing Suki on his lap, charmed by the way the lights and shadows mixed in her face. He wanted to wait for them to get to a room, but kissing her was something he couldn't do freely every day.

The hall should be enough for them to show how much affection it had grown between them in these three years.

"Turn the light off" She whispered between kisses, trying to lower his hand.

"We…I shouldn't. It's late and…" A moan escaped his lips as Suki kissed his neck, lowering his arm without resistance, the flame on his hand dying. Her legs straddled him on the floor, letting himself be overpowered by her strength and charm.

Her hands guided his, finding a place in her bottoms. Zuko carefully touched her, enjoying her as if they weren't in a hidden hallway between the walls of his home. Something so dangerous and yet, exciting for him.

Suki explored his chest below his robes, feeling every tensed muscle in his torso. She opened her eyes to try and see his face. Darkness was all that engulfed them, not being able to see anything. It might have been for the best if that didn't reminded her of Sokka and his hold on her.

Frustrated, her hands went even lower to where someone was patiently waited to be recognized. Zuko stopped her, his hands firmly grabbing her own.

"Suki, we shouldn't do it here" He said breathless, his own arousal was betraying him but he had to be the one level minded from them. "We should get a room, someone might bump into us"

She hushed him with a kiss, softly biting his lip before moving to his ear.

"Let me thank your patience" She purred, grinning into his cheek as she bit and licked her way down to him. She briefly came back to whisper again, asking for consent. He held a breath, feeling stuck between a good night or an excellent night.

The way her hair tickled his jaw and ear and how her hands roamed everywhere made it impossible to resist her, kissing her back, shifting his position as her hands found the buttons on his shirt and pants.

He had to see how she looked, again. His finger lit up a dim flame, a seductively Suki looking at him. The thin layer of sweat the was forming on her forehead made him smirk for a brief moment before losing himself in her lips.

"You are sweating" She said, pulling off the shirt to catch a view of him. "This will help you" Zuko held a breath, not feeling nervous about his body but at how she was gazing at him. Her hand trailed all the way down to the unbuttoned pants, grabbing the hem and slowly sliding them down.

She got closer and pecked his lips, slowly kissing her way down looking at his foggy golden eyes. She focused on her movements as her hand grabbed the tip of it, a low growl coming out of him.

Zuko wanted her, as much as she had pushed him away he always came back harder. "No pun intended" She thought grinning, earning a smile from Zuko.

Her mouth embraced his member, making him close his eyes and throw his head back at the sensation, a soft heavy breath escaping from his lips. As she worked down he opened his eyes back to be careful with the flame on his finger.

Doing that meant looking at Suki doing magic with him. His free hand pushed the strands of hair out of her face as she bobbed, feeling more excited than before at seeing her. Her mouth left him to tease him with her tongue on the tip.

"Agni, Suki, you are killing me…" He whispered, lost in how her mouth was around him, the circles that she draw hypnotizing him.

She pushed her head towards his hand, moaning as the warmness leaving him. The lustful look was pushing his boundaries of self control, tightening the hold on her hair as she grunted.

"Hmm?" Zuko rose an eyebrow with a smirk. Seeing her on his control made him lost it. His lit finger was blown off as he positioned both hands firmly on her head.

The lewd sounds and mixed moans were the only thing audible in the corridor, the small space multiplying it.

Suki was enjoying it. Her relaxed face and jaw were not how the rest of her body was, trembling with overstimulation of her crossed legs. Hearing him was also the next best thing she remembered experience in her life, his heavy breathing and warm body making her feel euphoric.

"Oh I'm close…" Zuko said slowing down, taking Suki out of her own high.

"I don't remember him coming from our first playdate…" she thought fully in lust, sucking with more pressure as he tried to muffle his moans with his hand.

"H-hey…are you.. Oh…" Zuko closed his eyes again, muffling his moans with his arm.

"Let me hear you~" Suki purred, getting deeper, earning a loud moan from him. "I like that"

"am I really doing this? Here?" Zuko thought trying to hold back, his teeth clenching from the pressure that kept building. "Agni she looks so hot"

This time the guilt will not hold back Suki.

"Suki…Oh…Sss…" He struggled to say her name as he climaxed, her throat feeling the warm liquid. Suki opened her eyes a bit surprised, his heavy breathing should have been a signal that he was close.

Light came back as he weakly held his palm up, looking at her with a tired but satisfied face. The mental image it gave her would not leave for a long time. He pulled her up and kissed her passionately, pushing her into the ground.

"H-hey.." Suki stopped him as Zuko looked with eyes half open, lustful. "Somebody could bump into us?"

"Now you care?" He whispered kissing her lips, getting off of her and rearranging his pants. He smiled at Suki loss of words. He helped her get up, her knees numbed from the position she was and helped her up, leaning in each other to arrive to a room.

Hers was closer on the road than his, so she opened it. Zuko, as always, didn't follow her, standing at the frame watching her with glee. "Post-climax Zuko sure looks calmer"

"….Did you…enj-joy the night?" Suki struggled speaking, feeling shy about them. His smile grew, brushing some hair out of his forehead.

"Did you?" He questioned back, her eyes wandering to her feet.

"I did" She admitted smiling, walking closer to him. "Thanks for the.."

"Sixth date" Zuko reminded her, putting his hands on her hips "or seventh?"

She kissed him softly as Zuko answered back, holding her closer. The warmth of his skin recently has been useful to focus on something else that wasn't what her doctor said to her.

"Night" They pulled apart, Suki entering her room and closing it after seeing Zuko walk alone to his chamber. She relaxed on the wall, sliding down until she reached the floor with her palms, calming her.

"It's okay Suki, no worry" She said crawling to her bed, removing her clothes as much as she could without standing up.

She hated the way she kept stringing him along. As much as she was excited to feel attracted and aroused by him, the slip of her mind in his climax made her realize how it was never really over for her.

Comparison is not a healthy mechanism to move on but it was obvious that in her first experience she would have after Sokka, and she hated herself for it.

Now everything seems to be a before and after Sokka. She thought too much about someone who, clearly, didn't love her.

"Fucking selective memory" Suki thought opening her eyes, staring at the ceiling while images of her nights with Sokka flashed through her head.

The charm in his blue eyes when she putted him over the edge, them kissing under the moonlight, his tanned skin mixing with hers…

"Zuko…focus on Zuko" She reminded herself for the third time on the night, frowning at feeling attracted at the jerk on Republic City.

She turned her body around and opened a drawer where an unfinished letter was laying, Suki had "forgotten" about it. She scrunched it again and closed it, laying face down on the bed and screaming.

"You don't feel the same anymore, get over it" She repeated nervous in her head. "Be selfish, you have Zuko."

Sokka sat still on the couch, eyeing every object in the room: Three books, an empty shelf filled with dust, plants covering most of the room, a big window on his right, a small jar filled with water.

"Sokka, are you ready to talk about it?" The therapist asked, leaning backwards.

Sokka gulped, sliding his hands out of his pockets, taking a deep breath.

"I am" The therapist gestured him to talk, observing him with all the attention on the world.

"I lost my mom when I was really young due to war, nothing new to you I assume" he started talking, his fingers playing with themselves "I swore since then to protect my tribe and my sister, Katara, who really took it to heart when she died"

"You didn't take it to heart?" He questioned while Sokka looked at him as if his head was of a wasp

"Of course I did! I just couldn't show it. I am the older one, I should have been the one to take care of her but…I sided with that. He seemed sad but said nothing towards us. We still fished, hunted and made weapons. We were going to join war until I was deemed too young"

"I remember you said that it pained you seeing your dad go away. You had hope for him to be alive but considered them death men"

"Yes" Sokka said relaxing a bit his posture "I was now the chief. The eldest and the leader. Suddenly I felt the weight of not only pulling my sister up, but also my community. Wives crying, fatherless children who I had to train in case another ride arrived. Almost every night I planned for ways to built a fortress and protect all of us because we were vulnerable"

Sokka stopped, remembering his first attempt at ending his life. It was something he wasn't comfortable talking again, saying it to Suki once in a high.

"Go on at your pace Sokka, there is no time limit" The therapist reminded him.

"There is a limit, that's why I am here trying to fix it before she is gone forever" Sokka murmured, gaining more courage to continue talking.

He decided to lay down and put his back to him, the first position they took after his hardship opening up about how the city was making him sick from being lonely.

"Then Katara got her bending. I felt…useless. She was stuck here with me, on the tribe with an apparently useless power as there were no waterbenders left for them to teach her anything. It scared me, they might come again and search for her. Every night as she cooked our dinner I wondered if it was right for us to be on the tribe, exposing everyone"

He closed his eyes, focusing on his breathing to keep talking.

"So I tried to…hurt myself. Close to a risky bridge unknown to our village. I crafted it because it was one of the blind spots in our already defenseless city. I remember crying about being lost in what to do, and then I walked on it and it broke. Nothing happened to me, just got buried in snow because the fall was small. It needed more deep"

Sokka was tearing up apparently, as the therapist got closer and rubbed his back with a cloth placed on his hand. He decided to keep his eyes closed to avoid the shame of being a coward in his own world.

"Then…I…" his voice broke shaky "2 years later decided to be it. I was doing a nightwatch when the storm kept growing and growing rougher, I walked to a lake nearby, my wrist ready to be slashed and…."

Sokka didn't cry loudly. He never has in front of other people or friends, at least not when he was hurt. Today he couldn't hold back the emotion and grunted.

"And I didn't do it. I was a coward and I stepped back. I felt doomed to be stuck in that position where my plans just kept failing and my will to keep living would be over as soon as any ship touched the South Pole. I didn't want to see my sister die so I wanted to die first"

Sokka cried louder, sobbing and hugging himself on the couch, trying his best to repress the wails of pain he felt in his heart. A soothing hand patted him on the back as he continued crying for more minutes before his sobbing died.

"Then we found the Avatar. And…I said, I might as well die any day, from now, might as well make it count. I put everything in me to help and protect them, even if I third wheeled most of the winter with them" Sokka said sniffling and laughing, finally turning around to grab the cloth and clean himself.

"That winter was something that…showed me that caring, loving while in war was something stupid, that men and woman were equals….and how love was patient" He said smiling, remembering Suki's first kiss on his cheek and his weeks at the north pole.

"That seems to be contradictory, care to elaborate on why your feelings contradict?" Sokka looked at his eyes and thought hard, trying to find the right words on his feelings.

"I met two girls" He said smiling "One was mere weeks after leaving my tribe. How I wished I had asked her out sooner"

He laughed alone, remembering how intimidating at first Suki was to him. Her petite size didn't match her force or intelligence and it startled and intrigued him, because he wanted to be her. Adored and respected in a village that seemed to be "vulnerable".

They were the reason the fire nation almost burnt down the village searching for the Avatar, but while they defended them the Kyoshi warriors held themselves against Zuko's fleet.

"She is a warrior, a strong and passionate one. She loved training and honoring the memory of the Avatar they were named after, Avatar Kyoshi. Suki."

If the therapist was impressed that Sokka dated the leader of the Kyoshi warriors, he didn't show any reaction.

"She took me in the group, taught me how to properly fight with a fan and armor, even if at first she kicked my ass to teach me a lesson. I was like…damn. I want to fight like her, I have to be useful while traveling with the Avatar, might as well be the muscle of the team"

He laughed harder, sitting down and resting his head on the sofa

"Of course I wasn't. Even with the best teacher of the world that wasn't my duty. My instincts, my planning and fighting weren't my forte. Not as other people where in the same ride. My biggest point was me being the "inventor" or "Creator". Keeping up some of the spirits or catching us food"

"That seems something important to do in an expedition, without a lot of the resources and being as young as fifteen, that an impressive feat"

"It worked at least. The time we spent at the northern tribe was…I think the time my…darkest thoughts came back and vanished. I met this beautiful princess…and she was engaged. She loved me, at least what we call love in our youth, and wouldn't leave his fiancé to be with me so she could protect the tribe. She has been protecting them since"

He smiled sadly, unsure of saying again that her first girlfriend is the literal moon spirit would serve any other purpose.

"I bet that's a hard sacrifice. Have you talked to her ever since you departure from the northern tribe?"

"I have" Sokka admitted "At first without answers, just talking to the sky pretending somehow she would listen to me. Then she replied, 4 years ago I think after I felt guilty of forgetting how her face looked"

"Is she dead?" The therapist bluntly asked, making Sokka heart hurt a bit, not as much as the first time.

"Yes, she died protecting the moon spirit" He said proud and pained "She gifted me her presence to basically cuss me out and protect my ex girlfriend for me. Urging me to get help and well, 4 years later I took her word" Sokka said opening his palm, gesturing to him. "So with a bit of help of friend jumped from therapist to therapist until you"

"I appreciate your openness. It helps us both to help you overcome the problem as you should. Coping with loss is not something done overnight or in months, it's constant work, everyday" The therapist reminded him, Sokka nodded in agreement. "Okay, as you told me before, protecting your people is what has hurt you the most. First your mom, your sister Katara and then the moon spirit"

"Yeah…you can add Suki too. After.." he blushed remembering how dumb he looked at the Serpent's pass "Before we split up from the Serpent's Pass…I overprotected her. It was so much we eventually talk it out and we became a thing. A couple. Then she left with the kyoshi warriors and…she was captured by the fire nation"

"Is she okay?"

"Yeah, well no. Is not entirely the fire nation's fault, but mine also. We broke her out of the boiling rock my…friend and I. She was so happy to see me…once she told me how close she was to breaking apart waiting for a miracle. Afterwards…we won the war and fast forwards…I was scared to get too close to her"

The therapist wrote something on his paper and continued looking at him. Sokka rose and eyebrow suspicious

"I know I have attachment issues too! They told me like five years ago but to me that was stupid. Yes. I left her to be a whore around the globe but couldn't make myself to do it because of thinking of her. Then it just went down like a snowball…my darkest thoughts…a fucking cough that made me spit dark disgusting goo everytime I overthink about our relationship…"

"Slow down…I am not judging you. I am making annotations to see how is the best to help you. Slow down"

"Okay" Sokka breathed in and out. Stretching his neck. "Okay"

"Continue slower please"

"I was convinced Suki loved someone else. We were even in an experimental treatment were we stopped talking to each other but we did not follow it, writing frequently. She was…so…so hurt. By me. She was distracted, she did drugs…and what did I do? Flirt with this another amazing woman and…needless to say, we talked after breaking up for a year later and then I stopped writing to her"

"Why was that?"

"I…was recommended to do it. The last therapist told me that it would help me get over her"

"And how do you feel?" He asked, as Sokka leaned his arms on his knees. "I bet that hasn't helped"

"No. In fact, even when dating this girl i…kind of feel forcing myself more and more to love her. She deserves something better, both of them. That's why I stopped pursuing Suki" Sokka concluded feeling nauseous, the darkness creeping on his throat.

"Mmmm. Alright. It's evident you have trust issues, you struggle to open to people and your only way to show love is taking care of other people. You have done it for years because it was imposed to you as the leader of the tribe"

"Mhm" Sokka answered bothered. It affected him how broken the therapist was telling him he was.

"And you can't cope with loss. You struggle to break a cycle and move on from it. It's something pretty normal that has been taking to the extreme by this low self esteem you have that is hidden at plain sight by your jokes and sarcasm" he concluded, looking at Sokka "Yeah, we can work with that"

"Just shoot me already geez, I sound like a lost case" Sokka replied rolling his eyes frustrated

"We won't take away your sarcasm, but we still need a lot to improve. For starters, I want you right now to scream"

"What?" Sokka asked perplexed "Like, just scream?"

"Scream thinking about what has hurt you the most right now, recently" He instructed offering him a hand. Sokka took it as he inspected more of the room, the door they opened had a big mirror in front of him. "Look at yourself, look at the pain and learn to let it go. I'll stand here with you"

Sokka laughed at first, trying to shake off the nervousness he felt. The man stared at Sokka with a proud smile, he looked at his eyes for a long time. Blue eyes, something pretty normal from where he is from.

His breathing became more irregular the longer he stared at himself, he wasn't sure why it was that, as he was used to seeing himself everyday in the mirror to fix his look. It somehow felt different. An overwhelming pressure on his chest kept increasing as he struggled to keep looking at himself.

"Let it out son" The therapist said "It's going to be alright"

The longer he stared at himself he wondered if it was the image Suki thought of him, a clean man who would not hurt her as much as he did. She was probably with someone a little less good looking than him and probably shorter, unfunnier and a lot more careful with how he handlded himself around her.

With someone like Zuko, who would bring the world to it's knees just for her. Someone who wasn't selfish and cared for the opinion and feelings of those around him. Something he wasn't forced to learn or be, he was born like that. After all those difficulties, people still loved him.

Yet, Sokka couldn't learn how to be like that.

He screamed, his voice echoing in the small room as he kept looking at his expressions. Anger, frustration. He screamed again, the sharp pain of a heartbreak letting itself fold.

"You will improve yourself" The therapist screamed "Say it to yourself!"

"I will improve myself" Sokka screamed less enthusiastic, his eyes struggling to be still.

"Look at you and believe it!" The therapist scolded as Sokka focused on himself

"I will improve myself!" Sokka now screamed it with his heart, trying to believe he was redeemable at this point. "I will improve!"

"Yes you will!" The therapist continued cheering on, running to look at Sokka and grab him by the shoulders. Sokka was full of emotions: Fear, excitement, heartbreak, pain, skeptiness, everything cricled around his head. "Now scream, let your pain be shared. Grab my shoulders"

Sokka grabbed the shoulders of the therapist, looking at him but unable to let himself open up. It was a step a lot further than he had previously tolerate with any other.

"Think about your problems, your inhability to connect to people. Your failure on keep contact with Suki, your pain of loosing your innocence that young"

That set some trigger inside of him, his hands gripping the shoulders of the therapist with a harsh pressure, holding off the explosion. He started crying, feeling impotence again, his soft sobs starte to increase the volume.

It scared him how the therapist mimicked this expression, crying with him. At the same rhythm and pattern. Sokka cried louder and he did too, both of them kneeling in pain until he couldn't hold it anymore and screamed.

The grip became tighter and both screamed their lungs out in the room, at least for 15 minutes with periodic pauses to sob and take gasps of air. Sokka stopped first, being able to recognize the difference inside him in the past 3 years.

At least a positive one. He felt lighter, he even felt joy at being able to be comprehended. He maybe needed to really let it out.

"What happened?" Sokka asked confused "Why am I feeling like this?"

"Say the word Sokka, you are your own chief and nobody but you knows how to heal yourself" The therapist said helping him stand up.

"Relaxed. Lighter" Sokka said, his eyes still showing how confused he felt "We only talked about all the horrific stuff"

"That's why. You made a shell of yourself because you were always the one that had to be strong"

"But…that was a reason why I hurt her" Sokka said referring to Suki "I leaned on too much"

"You didn't. Not properly. At least of what have you told me in the last session, you have always been safe in how much you tell and feel regarding someone. That's why it's so hard to love for you, you want to feel safe but don't want to stop loving"

"Wait what?" Sokka asked more confused, the therapist walked him outside and to the door

"Go home and rest. Your homework is to not overthink and go with the flow. Break your limits and I'll see you in two weeks" he said opening the door to Sokka, the councilman nodded and walked outside.

"Well that was weird" Sokka said shaking his head and walking to Katara's complex, gazing at how the city had grown. The streets were always busy as everyone rushed to their work or to pick up their children from school. Something he never thought of experiencing.

Dreams. His last dream was make it out of war and then go with how the flow went. Why he rushed then?

"Sokka! Any message to Zuko or Suki?" Toph asked, bumping his arm as Electra and Aang eyes widened.

"Uh?" Sokka was taken out of his thoughts, realizing he had been sitting on the table while Toph prepared to leave

"I am going to the fire nation, visit a little our friends and deliver them the wedding invitation, any message?" Toph asked again as Katara sighed annoyed. "What? is a genuine question!"

"What about Noburu? I thought you would bot-"

"Let's not get romantic please" Toph interrupted "I will take that as a no. Later softies" Toph said walking out of the apartment followed by Electra.

"Hey Toph" Electra whispered walking behind her "What about Noburu?"

"What about it? Jealous?" Toph said annoyed as Electra halted, feeling exposed. Toph eyes widened at the change of heart rate in her.

"No" "Liar" Toph thought curiously. Why was she jealous "I was curious, if you ever felt the need to talk about it, you can come to me, we are friends"

The last remark of being friends rushed a bit Electra's heart and she hated herself for it. Sokka had previously warned her that lying to Toph was a waste of time as she would immediately pick it up.

"I will, thank you" Toph said amazed. Immediately walking out and closing the door in her face. She walked with a smirk on her face "I am stealing Snoozles girlfriend" she thought. The trip to the fire nation was being postponed for a long time and she missed her friends and training with Suki and Ty Lee. Working too much was boring.

"HEY! WHAT ABOUT WORK!?" Sokka screamed from the apartment shook, as Toph laughed and ran out of the building.