A/N This was originally going to be Here For Me, but I didn't like how it was going in order to turn into that. But I thought it was pretty sweet anyway, so I thought if publish it. Took me so long because I couldn't think of a title, my aunt finally named this!

Mike POV

"Look after her for me, Mike."

I gave Cam a smile. It was the day of Tracy's panic attack, and I was here with her while she finally told Cam the truth about how she'd been feeling with her away. She'd done really well, but I could see the worry in Cam's eyes.

"Of course I will." I gave Tracy a squeeze as she hugged me. She'd clearly been going through a lot for the past few weeks, and I was angry at myself that I hadn't noticed. Today had shocked me, scared me even, and I was going to make sure I could do anything I could for her from now on.

"Thank you." Cam gave me a smile back.

We sat in silence for a bit as Tracy calmed, and then talked for a bit more. I could feel in her just how tired she was, both physically and mentally.

"I think we'd better get you to bed." I looked down at Tracy. Her eyes were closed. "Hey, you can't go to sleep here."

"I'm not."

I gave Cam a smile. "She'll call tomorrow."

Cam gave me a smile, though it was full of worry and sadness. "Look after her."

"I will. I promise"

"Mike doesn't break his promises." Tracy opened her eyes and sat up slightly. "And he's said I can go to him if I need him."

"Then you'd better make sure you do, Tracy. I don't want this happening again, please."

"It won't." Tracy looked up at me for a moment, her eyes silently asking to talk once we'd said goodbye to Cam.

I nodded.

"I'd better let you go." Cam gave Tracy a smile. "I'll see you tomorrow, Trace. I love you."

"Love you too."

"Bye. And bye Mike."

We said our goodbyes before the screen went blank. I could feel Tracy's body begin to shake.

"Hey, it's ok." I gave her a squeeze. "I'm here. I'm not going anywhere. And Cam is still at the end of the phone so to speak, and she still really loves you."

She looked up at me for a moment, then directed her gaze to the floor. "I, I didn't say earlier, I hadn't really thought about it. I think I've been having panic attacks for weeks."

"Weeks?"

"After every nightmare. I could never breathe properly."

"Nightmare?"

"I thought I'd told you about them."

"No. You didn't mention anything." I sighed. "You were actually quite closed, Tracy. Didn't tell me how you were feeling at all. You've been much more honest with Cam."

"I'm sorry."

I sighed again. "Just talk to me, Tracy. Please."

"Now?"

"If you'd like to. But if you're too tired I understand."

"Can I get changed first? I want to talk, but I think I'm just going to collapse afterwards."

"Of course. Do you want to talk in your room, or down here?"

"Down here. The sofa's more comfortable to sit on."

"Go on then. I'll wait for you."

Tracy took a few minutes to get changed. She came back and curled up, pulling a blanket over herself.

I gave her a smile. "You ok?"

Tracy took a deep breath, exhaled just as deeply, and then began to speak. She told me of nights alone, nightmares and panic attacks, a couple of times she'd had panic attacks in the day. I listened to her, giving her the opportunity to tell me what was on her mind.

"I, I'm scared, Mike. I'm scared it's going to happen again. I don't want another one. I don't..." Tears began to make their way down her cheeks. "The one today was so awful, I couldn't even stand..."

"I know. I caught you. It was scary, Trace."

"I don't want to do it again."

I pulled her towards me, allowing her to rest on my side as she began to cry.

"I know. I know. Just calm. You're ok. I'm here."

"I'm so tired. I should have said we could talk upstairs." Tracy went to push herself off the sofa, her legs shaking.

I held her back. "Just calm, Tracy. Just calm. You'll get upstairs once you're calm."

"No, I'm tired Mike, I need to go now."

I held her again. "You will get upstairs even if you're asleep, Tracy. You're not heavy."

She relaxed, finally seeing what I was getting at. Her tears soaked me shirt, but her sobs were lessening slowly.

"Just settle. Use me to help you get to sleep if you need. And if you need me in the night you know where I am."

"I don't want to wake you."

"You are under strict orders to wake me, Tracy. If you need me, you wake me."

She nodded, then rested her head on my chest. It was beginning to feel heavy, as sleep finally caught up with her.

"Just get some rest. Don't worry about anything. I'll make sure everything's ok." I began to gently stroke her hair, trying to help her feel safe.

It only took a few minutes for her to fall asleep. I smiled at her, continuing to stroke her hair. It was calming me too to have her here, to know she was safe.

As I felt her fall into a deeper sleep I gently moved her, then once I'd stood up I picked her up. Her head rested on my shoulder as I carried her upstairs and into bed. I carefully placed her down, then pulled the duvet over her.

I gave her a kiss on the forehead. "Night night. Sleep well."

As I left the room I looked back to see her, relaxed and still. I made my own way to bed, hoping she'd listen to what I'd said about being here for her tonight.

I'd just have to wait and see.

"Mike? Mike."

I opened my eyes. Tracy was on the floor in front of me.

"Hey. You ok?"

"I had a nightmare." She placed her hand on her chest briefly. "My heart, it's, it's..."

"Pounding, I can see that from here."

"It won't stop."

"How long have you been awake?"

"Half an hour?" There was uncertainty in her voice.

"And it's still thudding?"

She nodded.

"Can I feel your neck? I've never been good at finding wrist pulses"

She leant forward and I placed two fingers under her jaw. Her heart was racing, and I could feel my fingers moving with every beat.

"Half an hour it's been like this?"

"I think so."

"Did you look at the time when you woke up?"

"It had just gone two."

I looked to my clock. It was nearing three.

"Right, we need to get you calm." I patted the bed beside me and she joined me. "Have you got any thoughts going round?"

She nodded.

"Can you tell me?"

"Just about the nightmare. And the panic attack. And that I've upset Cam and worried you and..."

"You haven't," I said gently. "We love you, Tracy. We just want to make sure everything's good for you."

"But, you..." Tracy put her hand back on her chest. I could see her struggling.

"Hey, we're not turning this into another panic attack." I put my arm around her, holding her close to me. "Come on, Tracy. Let's try and think of some good things, shall we?"

Tracy didn't answer me. I could see she was struggling to keep her breathing under control.

"Breathe, Tracy. In, and out. In, and out. In, an..."

Tracy hadn't managed. She looked up with wide eyes as her breathing sped up.

"Just try and breathe. Just breathe. In, and out."

"I can't."

"Ok, that's ok. Just keep trying."

"I can't!"

"Then just focus on my voice. Just focus on me, that's it. You're with me, you're safe, your nightmares aren't real and they can't hurt you. You're ok. You're ok. Just breathe if you can. In, and out. In, and out."

Tracy's breathing began to slow. As she held her hand over her chest, trying to control the last difficult breaths, I placed my hand back on her neck. Her heart was still racing.

"Just try and relax, Tracy. Just relax. You need to try and slow your heart."

"I don't know what's wrong with it." Tracy steadied her breathing. "I just can't get it back to normal."

"Come and lie down." I turned so my back was to the headboard, with space for Tracy to lie next to me. "Come on."

Tracy looked at me hesitantly.

"Come on. It'll help you feel better, I promise."

"I, I don't want to be any trouble."

"You're not. Just come and rest."

Tracy joined me on the bed, resting her head on me. I felt for her heartbeat again.

"Just try and calm, Tracy. Just try and calm. We love you. Cam and me and Gina and the kids. We all love you. There's no need for all this panic."

"You promise?"

"With all my heart. I love you."

Tracy's heart was still fast. I kept my hand on her so I could feel it. I leant over to give her a kiss, staying longer than I needed in an effort to calm her.

Finally the beating began to slow.

I kissed her again, then rested my head on hers as I had earlier.

Her heart rate began to calm. The force behind it went, the speed lessened.

Tracy let out a sigh. "Thank you."

"You're welcome, kiddo." I removed my hand from her neck, gently stroking her hair. "I just wanted you to feel a bit better."

I could feel Tracy's relief. Having her heart beating like that for an hour must have taken a toll on her body. She was clearly feeling a bit better now it was back to normal.

I looked down to see she'd closed her eyes. "You going to sleep here?"

"No, I, I'll go back to my room." She pushed herself up.

Instinct made me check her heartbeat again. "No you won't. Lie back down."

"But..."

"Lie down, please. I don't know what's wrong with your heart at the moment, but I can't have it doing that all night."

"But Mike..."

"Cam told me to look after you. I need you to let me do that."

Tracy settled. She closed her eyes again, her body finally relaxed.

"That's it." I took my hand off her neck. "Just rest. Just rest. I'm here."

Tracy reached for my hand. I took hers.

"It's ok. You're safe."

She opened her eyes. "You're not going to leave, are you?"

I gave her a smile. "Of course not. I can stay."

"You won't leave ever?"

I gave another smile. "Never, Tracy."

She relaxed, clearly satisfied with my answer. I gave her another kiss, using it to calm me as well as her. She was here, and that meant I could keep her safe.

I hadn't managed to keep her safe today, and it pained me that she'd had to go through what she had. But here, now, I was able to. As long as she allowed me to help, as long as she told me what was on her mind, I knew I'd be able to help her.

I looked down as I felt her weight relax onto me. I gave a smile as I saw she was asleep, breathing slow and even, heart rate calm.

I settled down myself, knowing I needed sleep so I could be there in the morning for her. So I could be there whenever she needed me to be.

It didn't take me long to get to sleep now she was here. Having her here meant I knew she was ok. That she was safe. That she wasn't going through something I was unaware of.

I was going to do my best to make sure I was aware of everything she was going through. I just hoped she would let me.

Tonight though she had. Maybe I'd began to drill into her that I was still here for her, that I wasn't going to leave.

I'd never leave. I'd told her that. And, slowly but surely, she was going to believe that.

I gave her a kiss as I settled down. A kiss to say I was there. A kiss to say she could come to me. A kiss to say I loved her.

So many things could be said with a simple kiss. And I meant all of them with all my heart.