I walked out of the library with Tenten, Ino and Sakura holding my hand over my eyes to block the sudden sun. The girls said bye I gave a goodbye nod and headed home, we took some time to learn poisons, I may or may not use it but it is something cool to learn about.

I sadly can't add poison to my water and don't use enough tools and weapons.

Tenten also sat on the fence, she said it just did not feel like her but she will look into scrolling a little more. I asked Hayashi to talk to her but for some reason I almost felt unwelcome. It has been sitting in me all day and I don't know what changed.

But I have been so busy lately that I don't see him that much.

At least he said he would talk to her. There is not enough sealing experts, I have seen how cool they can be and I don't get why it is so rare.

I passed Kakashi's home and he was still not back, I strolled slowly thinking about him before I moved to train alone. I was sweating from the heatwave and exertion of to many pushups when Kuro landed in front of me.

I jumped up and attacked this man so fast I almost startled him, he tightly hugged me back.

I stepped back and hit him in the chest. "Where the fuck have you been?" I smiled.

He shook his head like whatever he just did was nothing but annoying. He talked me into making him Pizza and we can catch up.

"What is this?" He mumbled as it cooked.

"Oh, for the last little while when free I was making this game called chess in my world." I picked it up. "I am not good at wood working but I figured you guy's would love to try it." I pulled out my failure of a queen that looked more like a piece of poo. "I only have a little made so far."

I put it back when he nudged me and pulled out the Shogi board I bought to try and understand. Iruka was teaching me so we sat down and played it as we talked.

It felt nice to catch up, I found myself looking at him a lot when he looked away, he almost looks older, is that a new haircut? How long has it been? His shirt is not gray anymore but black.

"Kiyo then fell off the cliff side, losing one shoe." I started to chuckle, he smirked at me. "Anzu had to heal a broken rib."

"Ya, I don't know why I find that so funny." I shook my head and I tried to not smile but I just pictured him falling away like a starfish having his clothes fall off as he spun.

"Play the game you alien freak." He smirked at me making me laugh harder.

We downed the pizza and headed to the bar, I have not drank in ages and I was having to much fun with him to stop. I walked in behind him with a smile as we spotted Anko at the bar, the two seats around her empty.

I took her left next to some randomly familiar man, I scanned him over as he wore a blue bandana as a protector and some random Ozzy glasses. I gave him a friendly nod as he stared at me before turning and yelling at Anko for coming alone.

"Hey sexy." She slurred before looking at Kuro. "And cutie." She rubbed his hair making him pull away and make an annoyed noise making her laugh and we ordered drinks.

"How's my big breasted penguin?" I smiled at her. The man next to me made a noise but I Ignored it.

"Please at least make me a bird that can fly."

"Oh, you have penguins here?"

"Yes." She looked confused. "So you called me that hoping I would not understand, bitch." She smirked and finished her drink.

"Where are they?"

"Land of snow, where else?"

"Ah, did not know." I spotted the man next to me was just staring at me again, I faced Anko trying to ignore it.

We were having a laugh riot while drinking, I was laughing so hard at one point Kuro told me not to pee myself.

She stared at me for a while making me give her a question in my eye's as I sipped my drink. "You learning alright?" She asked.

"Take a look at my secret technique." I slurred as I stared at her and she stared back, her eye's moved around me and it was quiet for a second.

"Your not doing anything."

"I know." I joked.

"Idiot." She chuckled.

"Something everyone knows." Kuro spoke.

"Eat a donkey's ass." I said in English making him laugh.

"Stop doing that." She said angry and sipped her drink. "I feel so out of the loop."

"What on earth did you just say?" The man next to me was staring at me again, I think, I could not see passed his black glasses.

"I wish I knew." Anko spoke up.

I just shrugged.

He did not look away I almost felt a little weirded out when he pushed his glasses up with his middle finger. No one said anything and he did not look like he was being rude so it just made me smile noticing no one does that here.

It made me smile enough I introduced myself, his name was Ebisu. I checked him over trying to remember where I knew this face from.

"What is the most stupid thing you have done while drunk?" She asked me as she swayed.

I looked at Kuro. "Telling him I once peed myself laughing." I shook my head as he chuckled. "He never let's it go." That made Ebisu laugh beside me along with them. I smiled at him to not make him feel unwelcome.

It brought him into the conversation. We ordered some chips and just drank. I have not had such a good night in a while I did not want to stop drinking. Noticing I have been spending my time with kids lately and I missed adults.

I missed these two so much.

The strange man beside me got into a fight with Anko about who can drink more. So they had a drinking contest as I sat in the middle. He tried to keep up but it was a stupid idea to have a drinking contest with Anko, women is an alcoholic.

He almost fell back in his chair when she won. His stool wiggled making me grab it. "Come on, get a grip on your self." She said to him as he almost fell again.

"Don't encourage him." I smirked back and he made a noise. Ebisu looked at me for a second stiff before blood came out of his nose as he fell backwards knocking him onto the floor making us all laugh a little surprised. "For once that is funny." I smiled making them laugh more.

"That happens a lot here." Anko joked.

"Around you I am sure." Making her nudge my arm.

I looked down on him unsure if I should help when I noticed and tilted my head. "I remember you." I said quietly. The last time I saw him he was passed out in front of the hot springs where Naruto was yelling at Jiraiya. "I guess this is a normal place for you to be." I smiled turning to Anko while keeping an eye out so he wont be stepped on.

I yawned as I pressed my arm from a small cut that was bleeding before looking down at the knocked out and weak chakra of the man below me. I think he was last, I stared in the direction of where the women I was protecting should be, I was pulled far away.

I am sick of these kinds of missions. It was a B so there was a high chance of a fight and I just faced it, a couple times. I want to steal and sneak, that makes me feel badass, this just makes me feel bad.

Looking down my shirt was slightly torn around the breast area glad I was on a mission with all women, I tried to fix it before I stretched and slowly walked off. I moved fast along the ground when I felt a small chakra on my sense so I slowed down, it came right for me.

"I don't want to fight again." I mumbled when this young man landed to the right of me a large staff in his very tanned hands, his pretty yellow eye's filled with a need to fight. He gave this small smile like he could take me with ease as he eyed me over.

I guess from this angle he could not see my protector on my left thigh.

"Wait." I said making his face lock on mine. "Can you see me?" That made him stand up straighter confused. "So you can see me?" I faked excitement and stepped to him slowly. "It has been years."

"Wha... what do you mean?" He looked around confused.

"I died many years ago, trapped to wonder lost in this forest." That made him step back scared as he eyed my blood stains and torn shirt.

"Really?" He looked so spooked about to run before he glared at me like he was going to defend his life as he checked me over. "Your a leaf ninja." As his eye's crossed my leg. "Your dead?"

"And I am hungry." I spoke as I faked a creepy look making him step back.

One more step and the man ran off yelling. "Fuck that."

"Good." I Yawned. "Can't believe that worked." He looked like a weak bandit, I am sure he was not one of them going for the girl and I am pretty sure I could take him but why bother. I headed the direction I needed this time I hopped back into the tree's and moved to find out where they went.

Sakura, Shizune and I were walking along the dirt road heading back to the village at a lazy pace. Slightly over a week and I was glad we were almost home. My heart would not let me stop thinking about Kakashi, glad I never got to kiss him as this was a long time between seeing him. He never got back before I was sent on this.

The fact that these two were talking about medical shit my mind was free again to drift and I wanted it to stop. My mind wont stop wishing to see his face, touch that skin and the more I thought, the dirtier it got. I almost sighed in annoyance when I could feel my nose was on the verge of bleeding.

"Bullshit." I whispered but they did not hear me, I focused on the conversation trying to understand what they talked about. "What is an easy small medical jutsu?" I asked mostly looking for a distraction.

They looked at me. "There is some simple ones for cuts and bruises." Sakura spoke.

"A few for chakra regeneration." Shizune spoke. "Both needs a perfect amount of chakra control." She looked me over. "I don't think your quite there." I looked at the ground sad and nodded. "Not that you are not good." She spoke trying to make me feel better so I gave a small smile telling her I was not offended.

"Do you even want to learn med?" Sakura asked curious.

"Not really, just thinking how a simple one could be useful to know." Shizune said she could help me learn but she needs to see my chakra control before and we can't do that right now.

"You like to learn so many things." Sakura spoke kindly.

"Jack of all trades, master of none." I quietly spoke.

"I like that." Shizune spoke. "But true, you want to master something and not be weak in all areas so it is best to focus on what you have." I nodded feeling a little ashamed.

They started to talk again and again my mind wondered.

I smiled and walked up to Hayashi as he looked at veggies in the grocery store. I felt peppy as I said hi to him. For a second there was this look that made my heart drop before he gave me a weak smile back. "How are you?" I asked cautiously.

"Fine." He spoke with no emotion and put some beans in his basket, not even asking me back.

"How are you and Nara?"

"Fine." He spoke again turning his back to me as he moved a bit to the tomatoes, I stared at it sadly. What did I do to this man?

"Okay, bye." I turned grabbing some for myself and headed to the meat section, glancing back at him once when he said bye to me but he never looked my way. I grabbed a large bottle of alcohol as I passed it and headed out.

My mind tried to remember when he was kind to me last but I can't remember as I put away my groceries. I tried to think of what I did, other then telling him to break up with her but he was mad at me before that.

I pulled out my drink and took it to the bathroom and filled the tub for a nice bubble bath as I drank to myself. He ruined my mood now I am sad and confused, I loved that man, we were so close for a while. He was one of the few that embraced me when I got here. Why does he hate me now?

I felt Kuro wonder into my home, I sighed as I opened my eye's, my ears and most of my face was under the water. Slowly sitting up. "Give me a second." I slurred as he headed to my kitchen, I am sure to raid it.

I carefully stepped out of the bath and tossed some pj's on, they were the kind of fabric I have to pull on as they stuck to me in the humid room. I fell into the door making a large noise as I pulled them up.

I leaned on my sink and sighed as I looked at my foggy mirror, with a sad smile I slowly drew a heart in it. I stared remembering I did this with my mom when I lived with her and shared a bathroom.

Every once in a while I would do that so she could see it when she had a shower. Sometimes she would do it back.

I held back my sadness and with a small smile I grabbed the bottle and walked out.

He was startled as he stared my direction eating my chips, a question in his eye's I just shook the bottle that was getting quite low. He just chuckled at me and went back to looking around my fridge.

I fell onto my couch and stared at him for a long while. "You love me right?" I asked. He paused and stood up, giving a small glance back he almost seemed caught of guard making me chuckle. "I mean as a friend." He just stared at me.

"Go fuck yourself." He smirked at me and turned back away but it filled my heart from the sadness.

"I do that to much." I joked as I laid down. He made a small noise but I did not look at him staring at my ceiling, I leaned over grabbed the bottle off my table and chugged it some more.

I heard a noise making me sit up as he placed a pan on the stove and tossed some butter in, then grabbed a pot and filled it with water. "What are you doing?"

"For once I am making you the best thing I can cook." He looked at me like he knew I was sad. "It is only a version of rice but."

I laughed, of course he is not a cook, for some reason I never thought about it. "Can't wait." I smiled as I finished off the bottle. I watched his back before I brought my hands together and cleared my mind.

I tried to shift the world around him into a view from my world like I have before, here is a chance to try it. I showed him my last apartment from my world, my eye's shut tight as I pictured it around us inside my mind. I heard a small noise but I just tried harder.

Being drunk it made me focus better, oddly enough.

He made another noise but has not told me to stop. I finally opened my eye's as he stood there staring towards my door almost looking amazed in his unemotional eye's.

The jutsu faded now that I was not focusing. He looked at me curious. "I wanted to see if I could do it, did you see my old home?"

"I think so, it was like I was in two places, here and there." The butter sizzled making him face back to the stove. "That is a hard jutsu, you did well."

"Not good enough."

"Your t.v looked amazing, wish they were that thin and big here."

"You saw that?" I smiled and he nodded.

"Took a second to know what it was, no wonder you would drop the conversation." We sat in silence. "I liked that chair." He spoke quietly, this time I made a confused noise. "It sat in front of a small t.v, it was blue and black with wheels."

"My computer chair." I smiled. "Ya I did love that chair, man it was a lot of money." I pulled a throw pillow over my heart and cuddled in nostalgia.

He just looked back at me like he understood something and just stared at me, I smiled at him as he looked back at the stove and I just stared at him with love in my drunken state.

I love so many people here.

I looked up at the clear bright sky, there seems to have many heatwaves lately, I wonder if that means it is summer here?

I wiped the sweat off my forehead letting my whip fall to my side like a limp noodle, I finally had a chance to try this again after getting back from a very short mission. Staring at it I slowly moved it up as I hardened it into a staff holding it in front of me I started to mess with the chakra to make the edges sharp.

It took a second but I think I got it and I moved to cut the rock next to me. It only gave a small cut so I focused and made it sharper before I tried again, this time it sliced through that rock with ease as the top fell onto the ground and rolled away.

I made a sword.

An awkward to hold sword but a sword.

I gave a small lazy smile as I tried to make it longer, it worked, then shorter it worked again but only slightly.

I have a sword that can change sizes.

I had been trying this for a while, trying every time I had the chance but I finally got it. Kakashi's voice in my head, I will fail over and over but sometimes, I may just get what I want.

I now need to take more sword classes as I only took one.

I focused on making it as small as I could while keeping the sharpness, I got it into a large dagger and then made it larger, sadly the width was the same just the length was different. I do know if I ever use this as a sword it was all I could do. I was back to being unsure how to do two things at once as this was a hard thing to do.

So it would only be the water sword or water fists.

But being able to move that whip between what it is and what it could be is amazingly versatile when using it. I felt accomplished today and excited to really try it out.

I headed to the coffee shop sweaty and gross when I saw him down the street. I paused where I stood and could not hold back my smile as I saw the backside of Kakashi.

He looked a little wrecked and was heading into the grocery store. I almost walked to him but I suddenly felt nervous about being so dirty and gross at this moment, I sniffed my shirt, sighed and rubbed my hair deciding to stalk him.

I sat on the top of the grocery store and waited a few people giving me funny looks as I hugged my legs with a creepy smile on my face. It was a bit of time when he came out and I followed him hidden as I watched him walk around.

He went to the weapons shop and then stopped at the clothing store. I was feeling bored and he never looked my way so I jumped down as he left it and ran at him, I moved and smacked his ass as I ran by him.

He made a noise like I shocked him as I looked back slightly holding my tongue the roof of my mouth with a large flirty smile. He looked so startled as I ran home.

Welcome back sexy.

I was looking around the book store, the man at the counter looked at me from time to time but I was unsure what I was looking for. Just trying to find something I would like to read, a good book I could slowly read on missions, unsure if I should go fiction or actually learn something real.

I recognized a chakra outside the door. The door opened and the bell jingled as the three of us in here looked his way. In walked Yamato making me smile at him, he looked around before his eye's landed on me and we shared a hello smile and nod before I looked around some more.

I lightly looked him over and he wore normal clothes this time and that strange metal hat thing, he was not in Anbu clothing but a jonin vest.

As he walked to a section like he knew what he wanted we shared a few looks as he looked around. I wanted to speak to him but I did not know what to say. I slowly moved towards him as he grabbed a few books.

"Hey." I spoke before I peered at his books as he held a few for architecture.

"I am asked to fix up some old buildings that burned down, just looking for interesting ideas." He spoke, the man can be so friendly. I just nodded as I looked around. "What do they have where you are from?"

I shrugged. "I don't know how to explain." He nodded. "How many floors?"

"Two, a few thin homes and a store." I nodded as I looked around this section, there was a lot about architecture I never knew they had.

"I think that is so cool." I smiled at him. "To be able to just make a home." I pulled out a book. "Me myself, I like an open concept kitchen and a great bathroom, large windows."

He made me explain what open concept was but that is a normal way in this world. Even my home was open, then he asked what closed concept was and how there was many rooms, unsure if he liked the idea of so many rooms in a small place.

I ended up following him to the empty lot that was a few burned down home's, the fact they were all attached made massive damage it was like half the road. People were digging stuff out of the dirt and tearing down what was left so the man was not late to build it.

We sat down as he started to draw a floor plan for them all and I was excited to help build with him. I never had a chance to do this before and man it was fun.

He liked my idea of stairs to the roof where people can sit on, I mentioned flowers and turn it into a garden but he just does the wood work so it is up to them on what they want.

Kakashi was suddenly beside us, I looked up from sitting on the ground with a large smile at him as he stood over us. We were almost done with the plans and the details, he loves making little details, he payed attention to everything in the plans. I like that he plans to add some pretty leaf and vine decoration on the stairs.

"Hey." I was so excited to see him as he leaned over and looked at what we were doing, I looked at that masked face a little to long before I turned back.

A few people surrounded Yamato going over the plans making Kakashi and I back up and watch, I caught him glance at me making me smile back as we waited. I was almost nervous but he does not know my thought before he left that day.

I bit my lip glancing at him before I focused on Yamato.

Not long after I watched as these places slowly started to grow from the ground, all of them at once, I was mesmerized, it was an amazing and a bad ass thing to witness. The people will need to furnish and really redo the bathrooms from wood but damn that was cool.

I just looked around the road and stepped forward my eye's landing on the store at the far right end when he wavered a little.

"This is amazing." I said looking at Yamato.

I watched as he fell forward like a board and slowly face planted in the dirt arms to his side not even catching himself. No one looked our way as I just stared at him. There was almost something funny about the way he fell.

"You did not catch him." I said quietly to Kakashi.

"Neither did you." We both just stared at him. "Geez Tenzo, they work you to hard."

I heard a mumbled sound come from the face planted man.

Kakashi leaned on a tree as I sat in the grass in front of him.

"This may sound weird." I nodded. "Picture in the heart of your chakra five small dams each lower in water then the next." I closed my eye's and nodded. Now raise the chakra in the second damn, you really need to feel it."

I was having trouble. "Ya, the image is useful to a new person, give it time and really feel it, this is just the start." I nodded and focused really feeling it. It took a few tries before I finally felt a shift but I opened my eye's and it went away.

I breathed in and focused as well as I could to my insides, doing what Iruka taught me. I slowly pulled the water up as it moved above the first, I gave a nod not loosing it and I felt his warm hand place something in mine.

I then used that chakra and pushed it into my hand holding the elemental paper. I heard him speak making me let go and open my eye's, the sun was shifted slightly in the sky as I looked down on the paper.

He was leaning on the tree with his book. I looked at it and it looked like I just rolled it up. "Do you remember what that one is?" I looked.

"Earth?"

"Lightning." I looked at him curious, I know I wanted wind but this made me so happy. "That will work wonders with water." I nodded as I pulled it to my face, I was calm but excited as I stared it.

"You sure?" He nodded as his eye scanned my face. "I never felt like I would ever be near lightning as it is pretty cool." I looked back at the sky knowing time passed. "So, how long was that?"

"Around an hour, hour and a half." He shrugged and I nodded sadly. "Don't worry this is just the start." He looked up. "Most jonin can only use the first two, I figured it would take longer." He looked at me kind of long. "But lightning is my main, I can help you well in this area."

"I feel awake and vibrating almost, can we do anything else?"

"That is Lightning, how about I try and teach you the puddle jutsu, it is safer then transformation, you already have moved in the way it works." I stood up and got ready. "Just remember to not use it when it has not rained." I smiled and nodded, who knows, I may have just done that.

I sent a few hours with him as he trained me, I love just being around him. I always feel so calm and happy, I wanted to take him to eat after I figured out how to turn into a puddle. It was not perfect but I learned enough to try it later.

At least with Ninjutsu I can practice alone unlike genjutsu.

However he ran out of free time, he had to go. I guess he is being sent to the land of rain for some reason. Just telling me where he was going was to much information to me so he could not tell me more. He did look me over and almost looked like he wanted to say something but held back.

So sad he was gone again, it was nice he spent his free time with me.

"Bye sexy." I said quietly, I looked around as I stood alone before bringing my hands together and I melted into a puddle. It felt so strange and it took a lot less chakra then I would have thought.

That man now literally made me melt into a puddle.

I sat in my home on the floor around two pm as I focused and pulled my chakra up from the dam. It again was a slow process once I pulled it up I had nothing to do with it. I don't even know a small basic lightning jutsu. I should check the library.

My eye's stayed closed as I dropped it but I was vibrating again. I wonder how much and even if my water element messes with me? How much am I like water naturally?

Curious I started to try and pull from my third dam but for some reason I could not move it, let alone feel it.

I was not sure how but I wound up in my mind area. I never quite know how to get here on my own.

This place was confusing there was no light in the black space and yet I could see. Across from me was my tattoo floating in the air as I walked to it. I peered close and watched the words just move around it. They were so small and had so many it was hard to read.

I focused and tried to read, it moved fast and so small. "Cosmos." Floated by as I slightly spoke it out loud. That pulled me in as I stepped forward, bending over and making sure I did not touch it. I was distracted by a second strand of moving scroll with the word 'cognitive'

The switch between English and whatever they call there own language moved awkwardly to read. It was like it meshed them together in a way that makes no sense moving so fast, the translation is never perfect.

After trying to find anything that made sense I looked around the room wishing there was more when a door appeared startling me. I walked to it and stared at it to shaky to open it. My hand lightly wrapped around the door nob and with a nervous noise I slightly opened it. Peering in I was startled as I opened it to a large hallway, a never ending hallway filled with doors.

I fully opened the door and peered down it, it was a thin hallway made with stone and a purple carpet on the ground. I have been in my mind many times and yet this has never happened before.

I was still scared as I stepped forward. I passed the first few doors, each door was the same and yet slightly different and I was to nervous to open one. I stepped forward where I found one that had a caution tape in front of it, the kind from home.

I don't think they have them here.

I lightly touched it wondering why this door was warning me not to enter. I was startled as I felt it at my finger tips and then I was staring at my kitchen in my home. I somehow pulled my mind back to reality. I closed my eye's again but I could not get there again.

"The fuck was that?"

I slowly stood up from sitting cross legged, my body stiff like I had not moved for ages making me look outside as I slowly tried to get up. It was dark but had a faint light of morning. "Shit." I mumbled. I was in there all day and night.

I was wide awake and made some coffee as it was morning and I need to go do my morning shit.

I was standing in front of Tsunade and Iruka but they just smiled at me awkwardly confusing me more. "Every single jonin you work with." Tsunade started to say when Iruka cleared his throat. "And some chunin." She spoke giving him a look and then back at me. "Agrees you are more then ready to do the chunin exams."

I was startled, they are doing that again finally?

"We are getting it set up with the sand village, the only issue is you do not have a group." The smile that was creeping on my face at the thought of doing something so cool just dropped. "You have time to find one."

"How do I find one?" I asked worried.

"Look around at the genin teams, who needs a third person." I nodded but all I could think of was the ones I know. Then again I think Ino's team has a chunin, maybe I can join them. That made me smile again.

We chatted for only a short time before I was free to go as I thought about it, the more I thought the more I wanted to do this. It is a cool exam, the survival test is badass and then the tournament after is so cool so long as it is not interrupted again.

The first thing I did was move to find Ino at her home, I wondered into the plant store with the largest smile only to find out she was not back yet from her last mission.

I was a little sad at that but then I just moved to look at the plant section. I do love shopping for plants.

I bought so much of them, I think because I was sad and lonely. Kinds that can live without much water and sun. I spent my day repotting them into cute pots and placed them around my home. I stood in the middle and stared at them all another reminder of my mother making me feel a little homesick and a little proud my home was starting to look like hers.

They told me when I become a real chunin I have a better chance at getting missions I want. A lot less protection and more stealing is what I would choose.

Maybe I would be put on a permanent team.