Back to the Start Chapter 6: Miracle Cure, a glee fanfic

We were in Glee rehearsal trying to learn some steps. I found that there was one thing that I wasn't suddenly amazingly good at and that was dancing. I was kind of relieved that I still couldn't dance. I knew that was a weird thing to be proud of, but it was a bit of relief to be bad at something. I couldn't wonder if anyone would think that I was weird for telling them that. I just didn't want to be perfect. Anyway, it seemed like we were still going to be against the halfway house and school for the deaf at Sectionals.

"Guys, you need to focus." Mr. Schue declared.

"Why? Sectionals is going to be really easy." Santana argued.

"That may be true, if you don't focus, you're going to get killed at Regionals." He pointed out. I couldn't help but wonder if there was anything that I could do to help. I could tell that a lot of them weren't taking things seriously. "You need to be at the top of your game."

"That looks so good." Katie remarked. Mr. Schue looked at her. What was she doing? "Sorry, I was looking at styling tips on YouTube."

I was also…kind of tired. Trying to do well in school was hard work.

"Have you been getting enough sleep?" Chrissy asked as we started to go to class.

"Probably not." I admitted. "I'm just trying to get all As this semester, so I'm staying up late to my homework."

"Faith, you don't need to get all As." She pointed out,

"I've never been a good student before and I really want to do this." I replied before I let out a yawn. I suddenly remembered something that had happened around this time. "Do you know if Mrs. Schue is the new nurse?"

"I haven't heard anything about it, but she might be." Chrissy declared. I wondered if there was a way to avoid what I thought was going to happen. I wanted to not take drugs for this. I didn't know if they could be considered performance-enhancing drugs, but they were probably dangerous. Come to think of it, I was a little surprised that Mrs. Schue had only gotten fired for what she had done. She probably should have been arrested for it. I also wondered if Quinn had talked to her at all because she hadn't mentioned anything to me about adoption.

When we got to after-school Glee rehearsal, Mr. Schue started to talk about competition, with photos that really didn't have anything to do with competing forces. There was a picture of Bill Clinton and some other guy, a grizzly bear, a shark, lightning and a pool.

"How is lightning competing with a swimming pool?" Katie asked.

"Just go with it." Mr. Schue ordered. "You guys have become complacent. "You cannot underestimate your opponents. Need I remind you that the school for the deaf defeated our school in football, so we don't need to be underestimating anyone."

I still didn't understand how that happened. Were they signing their plays to each other? It was true that no one on the football team knew sign language, but that was incredibly embarrassing. I let out a yawn.

"Okay, let's split up. Guys on the left side and girls on the right side." He instructed us. We were a bit slow to do it. "Come on, let's go."

There was a bit of an uneven number between us. There was me, Katie, Chrissy, Quinn, Rachel, Jasmine, Brittany and Santana on one side and just Sam, Ben, Adonis and Mike on the other side.

"Okay, this is a bit uneven." Mr. Schue noted. "One of you needs to go over to the other side."

It would probably be easiest just for Katie to go to the other side. She was really starting to look like a girl now. She may have been wearing a padded bra. I had looked into gender dysphoria a little and found that there were things that could make her grow real breasts, but I didn't know if she was on any of them. I noticed the guys were all huddled together.

"We pick Faith." Ben remarked. Oh. I assumed that they wanted me because I was supposedly the best singer. I didn't think that I was the hottest one. I walked over to them. They probably didn't have realize how well I fit in with them. I was pretty sure they wanted me to be like the lead singer of band that otherwise only had dudes in it.

"So now we have two teams. In a few days, you will each perform a song of your choice." Mr. Schue explained. I was surprised that he wasn't having us perform mash-ups. I was glad because I never really liked them. "I want you guys to go all out. Bring costumes, choreography and everything. Whoever wins the competition gets to choose the number that we choose for Sectionals."

You know that was something that hadn't happened, but then again both teams cheated. I supposed I kind of got to choose, but that was still at Mr. Schue's suggestion.

"Well there's a bit of a gender bias here." Rachel pointed out. He was probably just going to ask Miss Pillsbury to be the judge again. Though, maybe he might ask Coach Tweedy. He could also possibly ask Miss Pillsbury and Coach Tweedy to do it.

"There is a going to be a special guest judge." He stated. At least he didn't say it was a celebrity because he didn't know any celebrities.

"Who is it?" Brittany asked.

"You'll just have to show up to find out." He retorted. In other words, he didn't know. I yawned again. Okay, this studying was kicking my ass. I mean I did feel like it helped because I was pretty sure that I got most if not all of the answers correct, but I wasn't sure if I was cut out for something like this.

"Are you okay?" Ben asked me.

"Yeah, I've just been staying up too late studying." I answered. "Anyway, I need to go to football practice."

"I'm never going to be used to you saying that." Sam remarked.

I headed to practice and I found that even when I was sleep-deprived, I was still pretty good.

"Faith, I need to talk to you." Coach Tweedy remarked.

"What's up?" I asked.

"You look tired. Are you okay?" She inquired.

"Yeah, I've just been staying up late to study." I answered. I had also watched a Marvel movie. They were kind of addictive and The Avengers wasn't even out yet. I was pretty sure that Disney had just purchased Marvel and more greatness was ahead. Although I wasn't looking into the future that far, I did hope that I lived long enough to see such a thing.

"Well if you ever feel like you're being overworked, let me know. Your health is not worth us succeeding since I know you're going to do very well." She told me.

After practice, Chrissy and I headed home together.

"So do you know what song you're going to do for this?" She asked me.

"I don't think I should tell you that." I replied, even though we hadn't actually decided that.

"Come on. I'm your sister. I won't tell them if that's what you're worried about." She stated.

"You know you're not really my sister." I pointed out.

"Yes I am. Faith, you need to get it in your head that we're not going back. This is our home now and everyone knows us as the girly and slightly tomboyish Hudson twins." She explained. At that point, I frowned. I kind of wanted to cry. "Sorry. I didn't mean to snap at you."

Even though I was pretty sure that she didn't mean to upset me, what she had said to me had done that. When I got home, I took out my phone because I felt like I needed to talk to Quinn.

"So how is everything?" I asked her.

"I'm just tired. I think Coach Kiernan might be starting to notice something is up." She replied.

"Well something is up." I pointed out.

"I know but I don't want quit cheerleading just yet." She explained. "How are you?"

"I'm a little tired too. How are you so smart?" I asked her.

"You're smart too." She assured me. It was a nice change of pace because we were dating, Quinn used to always call me stupid. I knew that she was stressed out, but it didn't make me feel good. "I gotta go. Mom wants me to help with dinner."

That night, I had a little bit of trouble sleeping again. This time I was pretty sure it was because of what Chrissy said. She had given me some anxiety. I mean I had suspected that I was never going back but hearing her say it made me sad and also nervous.

The next day, I was feeling tired once again but for a completely different reason. I didn't want to blame my sister for it. She was right that I probably needed to think of her as my sister. Part of me wondered if I should just try to forget my old life and see if I could live as Faith. I didn't know if that was possible, but it would definitely be easier. No. I couldn't do that. I had to remember who I was. Mr. Schue was doing a lecture about music. That was something that he would actually be good at teaching. It was then that I noticed something. I heard talking and noticed Adonis and Mike were in front of me suddenly. Had I fallen asleep?

"Faith, you don't look so good." Mike told me.

"What's going on?" I asked. "I'm fine."

"Well we need you to be awake because we need you to sing some Paramore for us." Ben declared.

"Am I going to be the only one who's singing?" I questioned. That didn't seem like it was the point of the assignment.

"I suggested a duet, but the other guys were afraid that our registers would clash." Adonis stated.

"Maybe you should go see the nurse." Sam replied. I really did not want to see the nurse. I wanted to stay away from Mrs. Schue because I knew that talking to her would be no good for me.

I sighed because I was pretty sure that they were going to continue to get on me unless I went down there. I needed to try to be firm. I wasn't sure how I was going to get out of this without the medicine but I needed to find out how. I knocked on the door when I got there.

"Hi." Mrs. Schue greeted me. I couldn't help but notice that she looked a little different. I mean she looked the same as before, but she looked…heavier. Was she actually pregnant? "How can I help you?"

"Mr. Schuester?" I questioned like I was surprised to see her.

"Yes, that's me." She stated.

"My name's Faith. I have Glee club and Spanish with your husband. What are you doing here?" I asked. "So I've been kind of tired. I was wondering I could take a nap."

"How about you tell me about your sleep habits?" She questioned. I liked to think that I had better sleep habits than before. "What time are you going to bed?"

"I mean last night I went to bed at 10:00 but I was just having a hard time sleeping. I just want to take a nap." I reiterated. I was trying my best to stand firm.

"Do you want to sleep through your life, Faith?" She challenged. I was pretty sure that I was starting to get angry. I had some things that I wanted to say to her but I was pretty sure that I would get suspended if I said them.

"You know what? Forget it." I declared as I got up.

"Wait. I have an idea. You can take some of this. It's pseudoephedrine." She offered.

"That's the stuff that they make meth from. I'm not taking any of that." I declared before I walked out.

I decided to just go to Coach Tweedy. I wondered if I should tell her about it. We could potentially end this headache before it even started.

"Faith, what's going on? Shouldn't you be in class." She asked.

"I'm just really tired and the nurse really wasn't of any help. I just need a little bit of time to rest. Can you write me a note or something?" I requested.

"I'll do it this time, but you need to start taking better care of yourself." She agreed. I nodded before I fell asleep in the chair.

The good news was that I felt a lot better when it was over. I might need to see if I could take another nap later, but for right now, I felt like I had my energy back. I went to meet the guys at lunch to rehearse the number with them."

We got ready to sing the number. Since we were singing Paramore, I was dressing like Hayley Williams with a hooded unzipped jacket, tank top, leather miniskirt and knee socks. Sam was playing guitar, Adonis was on drums while Mike and Ben would be dancing. I had to admit that it felt nice to rock out. I did have some shorts under my skirt so no one could see under it when I bent over to sing.

I'm in the business of misery let's take it from the top
She's gotta a body like an hourglass, it's ticking like a clock
It's a matter of time before we all run out
When I thought he was mine, she got by the mouth
I waited eight long months she finally set him free
I told him I couldn't lie he was the only one for me
Two weeks and we caught on fire
She's got it out for me but I wear the biggest smile

Whoa I never meant to brag but I got him when I want him now
Whoa it was never my intention to brag, to steal him all from you now
But God does it feel so good cause I got where I want him now
And if you could then you know you would cause God it just feels so
It feels so good

I watched his wildest dreams come true
Not one of them involving you
Just watch my wildest dreams come true,
Not one of them involving…

I started to dance with the guys a little while Sam played the solo. I had to admit it was the most fun that I had performing since becoming a girl.

The girls, Mr. Schue and Coach Tweedy all cheered when we were done. I was a little bit sweaty, but I had a blast doing it and the best part was I did it without having an pseudoephedrine. I didn't break the rules and none of them had either. Maybe there was a way that we could change this for the better.

"Wow that was amazing." Mr. Schue gushed. "You guys brought it. You girls better bring it tomorrow or we have opening number for Sectionals."

I knew this wouldn't be our opening number for Sectionals because I was pretty sure that was going to be a ballad.

I didn't have soccer practice, so Chrissy and I were just going home.

"So you did that by taking the pseudoephedrine, didn't you?" She asked me. I wasn't aware that she knew about that part.

"Nope, I just took a nap and we did it completely clean." I stated with a smile.

"You weren't supposed to do it clean." She argued. "Mr. Schue's wife is supposed to get fired for giving us drugs. Honestly, she should have probably been arrested for it, but she's definitely supposed to get fired for it."

"I don't want to put that stuff in my body." I told her. "I've done this before and it sucked and I don't want to do it again. I don't care what's supposed to happen."

"Changing fate could change your fate." Chrissy stated. I could not believe that I was having this conversation. "If this doesn't happen, who knows what else could change?"

"Well, it's already changed." I pointed out. "I can't go back and do a performance on drugs."

I noticed that she had a grin on her face. I had a bad feeling about that but I also had a feeling that she wasn't going to tell me what she was thinking. I got in the car as we headed home.

She didn't talk to me for the rest of the night. I just didn't know why she was so set in having this happen. I mean if she wanted Mrs. Schue to be fired, I could just tell Principal Figgins that she offered me the drugs. Plus, the performance that we had put on proved that we were good enough to perform without them.

When it came time for them to perform, I couldn't help but notice the look in their eyes. She didn't. They were all wearing leather jackets and lace dresses.

"So I would to preface this song by saying it's for every girl that has ever been hit on a by a guy that she doesn't like." Chrissy declared rather quickly. She had really done it. I supposed the only solace that I had was the fact that Quinn told me that she hadn't taken pseudoephedrine but instead folic acid. "In other words, Fuck you boys!"

Oh sweetheart put the bottle down, you got too much talent
I see you through those bloodshot eyes, there's a cure you found it
Slow motion sparks you caught that chill now don't deny it
But boys will be boys oh yes they will, they don't wanna define it

Just give up the gave and give into me
If you're looking for thrills then get cold feet

Oh no I do not hook up, up I go slow
So if you want me I don't come cheap
Keep your hand in my hand and your heart on your sleeve
Oh no I do not hook up, up I fall deep
Cause the more that you try, the harder I'll fight
To say good night

Cause I feel the distance between us
Could be over with a snap of your finger oh no

Oh sweetheart put the bottle down
Cause you don't wanna miss out

Okay, that number was chaotic and I also pretty sure that wasn't what that song was about either. I couldn't believe that Chrissy was set in the way things were supposed to go that she was willing to put everyone else at risk in order for it to happen. I was pissed at her. That was such a bratty thing to do.

"Okay, I don't know what you girls did but whatever it was, keep doing it." Mr. Schue told them. They did not need that kind of encouragement.

To make matters worse, Jasmine was really chaotic at practice. She was scoring left and right.

"I need to get her tested." Coach Tweedy told me while I was on the bench during a break.

"Can't she get suspended if she's taking anything?" I questioned. I didn't want Jasmine to get in trouble for my sister's bad idea. "Maybe you should try talking to her and asking her what she's taking. Then you can tell her to stop taking it."

I didn't even want to talk to Chrissy about it because I was kind of afraid that I would hit her. I decided that I should see about getting a ride home with Quinn.

So I sat in her car on the way there. I knew that eventually, she wouldn't be able to drive anymore, but she also wasn't at that point anymore.

"So why aren't you riding home with your sister?" She asked.

"Quinn, can you answer me something truthfully?" I requested. "Did you and the other girls take something before that performance?"

"W…what makes you think that?" She stammered.

"I'm not going to rat you out to Mr. Schue." I assured her.

"Okay, fine. Chrissy talked to Mrs. Schue about giving us some Sudafed. Well, I couldn't have any, so she gave me some folic acid." She admitted.

"I'm gonna kill her." I declared through my teeth. "And she's going to get Mrs. Schue fired for that. So, are you keeping this baby?"

"I haven't thought that far ahead. I haven't even figured out how to tell my parents yet." She told me. "I know I'm not having an abortion, but as far as keeping it or giving it up for adoption, I haven't thought that far ahead."

She seemed like she wasn't lying. Maybe Mrs. Schue really was pregnant and didn't need to ask her for her baby. I also didn't think that Mr. Schue had a crush on Ms. Pillsbury because I had never seen the two of them together.

When I got home, I went to Chrissy's room where she was listening to music. I quickly turned it off.

"What the fuck is wrong with you?" I asked her. "I told you that we didn't need to take any of that."

"And I told you that it needs to happen." She argued. "Mrs. Schue needs to get fired for giving us drugs."

"Why? Why does it need to happen?" I challenged.

"Because I was told that if everything goes as it's supposed to happen, you won't die." She responded as some tears came to her eyes. "I am trying to keep you alive. You almost messed things up."

"Chrissy, I don't want to live my life the same way that I did before. I believe that you can change fate." I declared. "If you have to live your life a certain way, is it really living?"

"I don't know." She admitted. I wondered if she her crying was a side effect of the pseudoephedrine. I hugged her. "I'm sorry, Faith."

So as expected, Mrs. Schue was fired for giving them, and also Coach Tanaka, the drugs. Maybe she managed to avoid getting arrested because she was pregnant. I was pretty sure that she was really pregnant. The guy that she had sent to get them was arrested though.

During lunch, Quinn took me to the auditorium. She told me that she had something that I wanted to sing to me. She sat down in front of the piano and began to play.

Friday night beneath the stars
In a field behind your yard
You and I are painting pictures with the sky
Sometimes we don't say a thing
Listen to the crickets sing
Everything I need is right here by my side

I know everything about you
I don't wanna live without you

I'm only up when you're not down
Don't wanna fly if you still the ground
It's like no matter what I do
Well you drive me crazy half the time
The other half I'm only trying
To let you know that what I feel is true
And I'm only me when I'm with you

When I'm with anybody else it's so hard to be myself
And only you can tell

At Glee club rehearsal, Mr. Schue was there.

"I'm not declaring a winner. Even though only one of the teams cheated, I feel that this competition was a mistake." He announced. "Not to mention, this also had some extra ramifications that I don't think you intended."

"We're sorry that we did it, and I think it would be best to put this episode behind us." Rachel suggested.

"Well it's not that simple." Mr. Schue replied. "Principal Figgins doesn't think that I'm capable of doing this by myself anymore and he's decided that we will have a co-director."

"Who?" I asked. Who was going to do it since Sue wasn't here?

"Alright, I'm here. Let's get this over with." Coach Kiernan declared as she entered the room.

So Faith decided against taking the drugs, but unfortunately Chrissy's decision caused things to go bad anyway. The songs are "Misery Business" by Paramore, "I Do Not Hook Up" by Kelly Clarkson and "I'm Only Me When I'm With You" by Taylor. Please don't forget to review.