Thursday 1st January 2015
10.15PM
"Seriously Smithy" Anna-Marie spoke, his eyes moved to her and she glared towards the woman sat on a table a little way from their own "I am here and I am your girlfriend". He glanced towards where Callum and Nate played pool and then back to the blonde in front of him. "I'm sorry" he whispered "Anna-Marie, I really care for you but" she interrupted "Don't you dare Smithy, I have been there for you, she didn't even trust you enough to tell you she had been raped". He sighed "I can't keep this up". She frowned "So what? We are over". Smithy nodded "I love Stevie and even if she never forgives me, I will never give up trying to win her back". Anna-Marie lowered her voice "She doesn't want you Smithy". He sighed "I slept with Stevie last night and as much as I don't want to hurt you, I don't even regret it, I love her and nothing and no one will change that". She rose to her feet "You are a fucking pig" she shouted. Anna-Marie stormed towards the small blonde sat a few tables away with Mickey "Are you proud of yourself?" she shouted "You really are a tramp". Smithy pulled the blonde PC away "Oi, this is on me, you got something to say, say it to me". She nodded "You are an arsehole Smithy and you don't deserve to be happy and even if you do get back with her, you will never forget this time and it will haunt you that you betrayed her and you betrayed me", she threw her drink in his face before storming from the pub. He glanced round the many people staring at him before to his wife, who sat looking shell-shocked. "I'm sorry Stevie" he whispered before quickly leaving the pub.
He was half way down the road when Stevie caught up with him, "Hey" she pulled his hand and he turned back to her "You okay?" she asked. "Not really" he replied. She sighed "Why did you tell her?". He frowned "Because I can't string her along anymore and it will never be her Stevie and I understand we may never be together again but that doesn't mean I am okay with being with someone else". She sighed "Smithy, I wish I could turn back the clock". He nodded "Me too but hey, if nothing else, I'll always be here to look out for you, I promise". She smiled "I love you so much Smithy". He grinned "I love you too Stevie". She moved into his body and he kissed the top of her head, he held her close for several minutes. "Right" he spoke as he withdrew, "I better get going, have a good night Stevie". She nodded and she gently touched his face "I'll see you soon Smithy".
Monday 5th January 2015
7.30am
Smithy had isolated himself, luckily he had the weekend off and had managed to avoid seeing anyone. Everyone knew he had cheated on Anna-Marie with Stevie. Most had seen her display at the pub on New Years Day. He was ashamed that he had cheated and felt guilt towards the woman, she didn't deserve to be stuck in the middle of this but he would never feel regret, he would never regret a single moment he spent with Stevie. "Morning" the sergeants voice sounded his room. "Morning Jo" he replied. "How you doing Smithy?" she asked gently. He shrugged his shoulders "How am I meant to feel Jo? " he paused to recompense himself slightly "Greg is a free man because of me, I fucked Anna-Marie over and I have lost Stevie, what's the point in me carrying on?". Jo moved and sat opposite her inspector "The point is Smithy, that Greg is a free man and that is on you but you did it for the right reasons, you fucked Anna-Marie over yes but actually she shouldn't of got involved with you knowing you were coming out of a marriage, she must of known what was going to happen, I did and finally you haven't lost Stevie, she is a mess, she needs you to be strong and give her the time she needs". He sighed "I would give her all the time in the world Jo, I love her so much". Jo nodded "I know and so does she".
9.20pm
He sunk back another beer, the pub was near to empty but then it was a Monday night and the rain was hammering down, most people would be tucked up at him but he just couldn't face being there. "You know, that isn't going to help?" her voice startled him as she pushed up on to the bar stool next to him. "Starting to think nothing will" he replied. "What's going on Smithy?" she asked "I thought you were doing okay" she continued. "I am" he said simply. "I spoke to Jo, she is worried about you, we both are". He sighed as he sunk back another mouthful of his beer "I'm done Stevie" she frowned "What do you mean?". He looked her in the eye "I love you and I know you love me too but I am the reason you were" he stopped, unable to finish his sentence "I brought that bastard into you life and I can't ever forgive myself for doing this too you". She frowned "Oh Smithy" she took his hand "You didn't do this, he did". She saw a tear escape his eye "If you hadn't of married me, this wouldn't of happened". She took a deep breath, she wiped the tear from his face with her free hand "Smithy, there hasn't been a single moment that I have regretted marrying you. Greg raping me was not your fault and I need you to stop blaming yourself". He kissed her hand "Stevie, I should of protected you, it is my job to protect you". She nodded "Yeah, it's our job to protect each other and love each other and be there for each other and I need you so much so please let me help you". He nodded as he moved into her body and they cuddled close.