Snow seemed like she wanted to say something more and he just watched her like he was hypnotized. What did she mean, she wasn't there yet or she just didn't have it in her to admit it out loud? She said she wasn't ready to say it, not that… It was so unbelievable that he could even wonder about it. Ten minutes ago he was still contesting if it was a good idea to start this conversation at all and now his heart was beating like crazy, because maybe all of his dreams came true.

"Why… how did you never say anything?"

"I thought I had no chance. And for many years I didn't know what I felt for you, I just knew you intrigued me and I wanted to be close to you."

"So when I asked you if you wanted to sleep with me it must've been… I don't know how that must've been for you."

"Unreal."

He assumed that this conversation would stress her, and it's not like she wasn't nervous at all, but after the initial wave of fear she was way calmer than he imagined.

"What do you want, exactly? Do you want us to be a couple?" What else?

"Yes."

"I don't get why you would want that."

"I don't know why I wouldn't."

"When you are already having sex with me, I… nevermind."

"I said I love you, Snow, I care about you beyond sex." The mere idea that having sex with her could be enough was alien to him.

"We were sleeping together and you didn't tell me, that's quite deceptive." Here it goes, like everyone warned him.

"I know."

"But then again, I would probably do the same thing." His eyes opened wider in surprise at her not being mad at him at all. "It's not easy for me to understand what I feel for you, but you make me happy." Hearing that made him feel like he was floating.

"That's all I wanna do."

He wished to move closer, feel her touch on his skin and kiss her, but he didn't do it. They were fully clothed and keeping their distance, unlike most occasions they were together in bed, and that's how it had to stay for now. There were times to be all over each other, and there were times when it was best for him to keep his hands to himself, no matter how attractive she looked in that tight black dress.

"I imagine it was killing you inside."

"It was."

"But for what I've seen you still had enjoyment in getting to fuck me even if maybe not like you would want exactly."

"I loved every second, but there was a flavor of torture to it."

"I wanna say I'm sorry, but I didn't know that."

"Yeah, don't be. Incredible that you didn't catch up to it though, seems like you're the last to know."

"I was trying not to see it." He knew her well enough to not ask stupid questions like 'why'. "When I threw you out of my apartment…"

"What a trip down the memory lane."

"That must've been harder on you than I thought."

"I'd say so," he stated. "Don't worry about it."

"I didn't mean to devastate you, just hurt you a bit," she said and lay down, getting back under the blanket. He joined her, but still didn't reach for her.

"Gotta say it feels great to not hide it from you anymore. Like a weight off my shoulders." He didn't see a need to dwell any longer on how sad he was when he thought it was over. He'd much rather focus on the bliss that acceptance of his love ensured.

"At least I know you aren't just saying it to get into my bed." If anything he risked being kicked out of it. "You know you have to be committed to me and only to me."

"I already am." He was choosing his words carefully, trying not to ruin the moment by saying the wrong thing, but this just came out of his mouth. There was nothing else he could answer and he was pretty sure she only said it to get this reaction, which was fine by him.

"You would always know if I was unfaithful, but I'd have no idea if you were cheating on me."

"You might just trust me."

"I might…"

She moved closer and touched his chest, it made his heart stand still for a second. She was so close and her smell was so alluring.

"I'd say I hope it doesn't affect your work, but…"

"I wouldn't be here if it wasn't for you."

Bigby slowly embraced her, watching her reaction. Yesterday he would do it without thinking twice, but now he was more cautious than even when they had sex for the first time. He could never tell exactly how she felt, but he knew she wasn't scared anymore, which made him even happier somehow. From her heartbeat he knew she was agitated, it didn't seem like a bad thing though.

"I have a list of reasons why we shouldn't take it further, but I also just like being with you," she said, looking in his eyes. He wanted to kiss her, but should he? One way to find out.

"Can I kiss you?"

"Yes."

He leaned in and it felt like he's never done it before. His fingers unconsciously spread on her back. He sensed from her, he knew she was thrilled by their closeness and their lips softly touching. It made him crazy, way more than usual. Her smell was more intoxicating than ever. The moment they parted from tender kiss, he already missed it.

Did it mean though… He didn't actually know, she did not actually say what she wanted them to be. He could say a lot by reactions, but he couldn't read her mind.

"So, do you want us to be together?"

"I do, but we need to take it slow."

"As slow as you want." As slow as they could, when they were already at it. Fucking hell, he was so happy.

They kissed again, more passionately this time. Their legs intertwined and he pulled her even closer. She opened her mouth and it turned him on a bit. He tried not to think about how hot it was, cause she said she wasn't in the mood, but her wonderful smell wasn't making it easy for him.

"Now I'm starting to feel sorry that I'm on my period."

"Not an issue for me." Was it a mistake to say that? Well, it was the truth.

She raised her brow, but only for a second.

"It is for me."

"Then we can challenge ourselves and actually not have sex the night we planned on not having sex." He moved away from her, but only slightly. He still wanted to have her in his arms.

"I guess we don't have the best record."

"I've got no regrets about it." Snow smiled at him and lay her head on his collarbone.

"I spent a whole day thinking about us. Or trying to not think about you while terribly missing you. I wanted to make myself believe there was nothing to think about." She almost laughed. "For a while I wondered if it was on your mind as well."

"You're always on my mind. Especially this month I focused on nothing else. I've been trying to figure out if you could ever feel anything for me. Today, because you called just to see me, I surmised that you probably have to feel something."

"Yeah, that was… warranted."

She kissed him once again with her soft lips, combing his hair with her fingers. He put his arms around her waist and forgot about the rest of the world. It got heated again, she was melting in his arms, but he didn't want to stop, even if it couldn't lead to sex. He could tell by her smell that she was feeling the passion too, so if she deepened the kiss to fire him up and leave him hanging, she would be left just as unsatisfied as him.

It was so peaceful and warm, with their bodies tangled together and their hearts beating as one. She reached for his hand and took it in hers as if the moment wasn't amazing enough. It was lovely but sexy in the best way.

"Are you turned on, too?" Snow asked after parting from him.

"Uh-huh."

"Fuck, I want you, Bigby," she whispered.

She kissed his neck and put his hand on her breast. Nothing wrong with it, but it took him by surprise. When she started unbuttoning his shirt, he wondered where exactly she was going with this, but he was up for whatever she wanted.

His fingers playing with her nipple made her noticeably more aroused. Even through her dress and bra he could feel how it hardened, he also got to hear her moan quietly.

Once she unbuttoned his shirt, she went back to kissing his lips, with her hand reaching lower, to touch his half-erected dick through his pants.

"I have this fatal flaw that makes me want to suck cock when you touch my tits."

"Curious that you started it, then."

"Shut up."

Snow kissed him again and started to unbuckle his pants. The kiss was warm and sweet, but also lustful. Touching her breasts kept him aroused, not to mention a hand stroking his dick.

He loved to see her initiate sex. There was that boldness he loved about her. She felt a desire and went after it. She was just so… excited. Hot, willing and maybe in love with him. It was so mind-blowingly joyous, he could barely contain it.

He did not imagine his confession of love going this way, ever. How did he imagine it, exactly? He pretty much didn't at all. He just felt there was a chance for… something and he knew that he couldn't drag this charade forever.

She parted from him and lifted herself to get out of bed. She stood up and took off her dress through her head, revealing a set of black lacy underwear. She looked sexy in everything, but seeing her in lingerie would be enough to give him a hard-on if he didn't already have one.

Snow unhooked her bra and he stupidly stared at her. She wasn't unnerved by it, if anything she seemed happy he was watching her body as she walked to her closet and took a pink vibrator from one of the drawers, one he's never seen before.

"Sit on the bed," she said, so he did.

Snow kneeled in front of him and slid his pants and underwear down to take it off completely. She could now position herself comfortably between his legs.

"Be a gentleman and hold my hair." He put it in a ponytail with his hand. "And keep touching my nipples, you have one hand left. If you want to, you can move my head, that's fine."

Before she started sucking him off, she turned on the vibrator and slid it into her panties to stimulate her clitoris. She was holding it with her left hand, her right hand was on his cock.

She got so good at this. He didn't feel even the slightest touch of her teeth as she played with the tip of his dick. She was making love to it, sucking it and at the same time sliding her tongue along frenulum, putting it out of her mouth to lick it, stroking the base with her hand. And all of it was multitasking, as she was pleasuring herself as well, while his only job was to hold her hair and breast.

When she started taking it deep, he at first was cautious with his hand to not stop her from gasping for air, but after seeing for how long she could keep it in her throat, he took her advice and started to gently move her head along his penis. Judging by her eyes, she liked it. That was a turn-on, definitely. So was seeing her masturbating to his dick down her throat.

And it was turning her on, clearly, as he heard her pulling the vibrator closer and circling it over her clitoris. When she was getting closer, she closed her eyes and started to move her hips, barely keeping herself on her legs. She wasn't focused on his cock now, she wasn't sucking it, his penis was just moving over her tongue as she was making herself come with spasms overtaking her body.

Watching her orgasm only made him more aroused, so the moment she turned off her vibrator and went back to taking care of his dick, he started to feel he was close. A few stroking motions were enough to make him ejaculate in her mouth, with his eyes closed and a quiet moan. She swallowed his sperm and then slowly took his dick out of her mouth.

"It has been a while since I legitimately gave you a blowjob. I missed it."

"You're incredible."

When she went to the bathroom, he undressed completely, because when he was left alone wearing only an unbuttoned shirt and a pair of socks started to feel weird. He lay down on the bed, waiting for her to be done. She didn't just go to pee, wash her vibrator and get rid of ruined make-up, he heard her taking a shower, this time he wasn't invited.

He had time to think, but his head was completely empty aside from enjoyment of the fact that Snow wanted to be with him. It gave him such an immense feeling of happiness and relief. For centuries he's been living in conviction there was no point having hope, so now he was having a hard time catching up to reality.

When Snow was done cleaning herself, it was his turn to wash himself, so they could turn off the light and cuddle naked in bed before going to sleep. Technically not completely naked this time, as she was wearing panties to have a pad.

He gave her a kiss on his way to the bathroom, which made her smile. It was just so sweet, he wanted to be under the sheets with her already. Jesus, he would die for her.

Back in bed he lay behind her and hugged her. She pushed against his body to be closer to him and he tightened his embrace, burying his face in her hair. He was stopping himself from giving her more declarations of love to not overwhelm her.

"I really was forcing myself to not see how you felt. Probably for years."

"It's alright."

"You don't think it was a waste of time?"

"If it took this much time, it was probably meant to. We still have forever left." There goes not overwhelming her.

"I could say that if you wanted someone more open for romance you could go for anyone else so there's no reason to be sorry."

"I couldn't go for anyone else. You're the only one I want."

"I truly did pierce your heart, didn't I?" she said with a smile. He kissed her ear and cheek.

"Yeah."

"I had no idea I could fall for someone like you." Did she say that? After she told him… He wanted her to do it again, but he didn't want to exert that pressure on her. How did he ever get so lucky? What did he do to deserve her?

"I didn't think I would ever fall for anyone."

"How is it going to be now?" They were going to be happy forever, what else.

"What do you mean?"

"How do we act in public?"

"I don't know. How do you want us to act in public?"

"They are going to, they are talking about us anyway."

"So we let them figure it out on their own. I wouldn't tire myself overthinking it."

"Because you don't care what anyone else thinks. Easy for you to say." Yes, it was. He wished she didn't burden herself with unsolicited opinions as well.

"Wouldn't that be better for you? That they gossip about us dating, not, I don't know, that you like having sex?"

"Maybe, but I'm your boss."

"So? They are going to say what? It would only be illegal if you granted me favors and you said I'm not getting any raise."

"They might say your girlfriend bosses you around."

"I don't give a fuck," he said with a chuckle, because all he could focus on was that she called herself his girlfriend and it made him grin.

She turned to face him.
"Even I can tell that I might be overly worrying."

She traced the scar on his chest before kissing him. It was chaste compared to how they kissed before, even though now he had her naked breasts pressing against his torso.

"Will I see you tomorrow? After work, I mean," she asked.

"Of course."

"Bring yourself some clothes, I'll find you an empty drawer. There's no reason for you to wake up earlier and run around Woodlands to change every time." Was that her idea of taking it slow? But then again, they were already fucking.

"I will."

"It's a bummer that I'm on my period, but on the other hand I really like giving head. You might also try sticking your dick between my tits again. Now that I think about it, it might be a chance for me to keep you coming without you making it about me all the time."

He was irritated by the thought of him coming when she's not having a climax. This time she at least had her vibrator.

"Because you hate it so much when I give you multiple orgasms."

"I love it, but you can be insufferable about it.

"Once you're done with your period I will be even more insufferable, making up for the lost time."

"I'll handle it somehow."