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*POV BELLA*
Much to my dismay, the week goes by the same. Not a word from Alice. I think she spared a glance at me once in class when I dropped my pencil and hit my head on the table picking it up. Eddie let me borrow his hand as an ice pack for about 10 seconds. It all happen to quick for me to really notice. But not a word from her. Not even a text. I think I could've choked in front of her and she probably wouldn't have helped. It felt like the weekend was never going to come. And yet I prayed for it's arrival. Seeing Alice and her smile use to be the best thing ever. But now seeing her… seeing her smile with him, for him… it's like a knife twisting in my heart. Everyone in the know of our situation has tried their best to keep me smiling. Esme even going as far as making me breakfast every day and sometimes dinner. She would send Eddie over and sometimes Rosalie and Emmett. I can easily pick up on lingering Alice's scent. Just Alice no Jasper. And it's helped. But it's not the same. Running around in my wolf was the only thing that kept me from going insane. Luckily for me, today is Friday. After today I wouldn't have to see either of them till Monday. This weekend will start with a day spent down at the Res with Jess, Leah and the guys. No idea what I can do for Sunday but I'm sure someone will think of something for me.
Jess mentioned making some surprise cookies for me today. The reminder causes me to quickly jump out of bed and get dress. It's a good thing, I can run on little sleep because my sleep pattern has been completely off. I have the hardest time going to sleep and then the hardest time staying asleep because of the nightmares. They don't come every night but still doesn't help. Jess has offered some sleep aids, but they don't do much. On top of the feeling I get every night, something calls me to my window. The same time. The same tree. And it holds me there for hours. At first, I wondered if it was Alice. But based off her actions during school. I doubt it's her. I still wear her cologne. I still dress in hopes she looks at me. But no luck. When I get to Jess, she's outside holding a tub of cookies. I notice that she's been really dressing up this week. Of course I notice. Hard to not notice. Mike and Tyler have constantly been trying to ask her out, but she's turned them both down each time. I told her, she should at least take one of them up on their offer. She simply states it would ruin our mission.
Jess: hey good looking!
Bella: hey pretty girl, sleep well?
Jess: surprisingly yes. What about you?
Bella: uh, I slept?
Jess: you have to relax some. Stop stressing.
Bella: yeah, I know. Welp, luckily today is Friday.
She smiles at me and hands me a cookie. I taste some raspberry and a hint of cinnamon. Interesting combo but still really good. When I ask if I got it right, she just smiles. We get to school and surprisingly, Alice and Jasper are hanging in the parking lot. Alice in conversation with Rosalie. As we drive pass them, Jasper puts his arm around Alice, pulling her closer to him. I park and quickly go to open the door for Jess. Wanting to get away from them quickly.
Jess: hey Bella, I have something to tell you. I didn't want to say anything while you were eating or driving for that matter. Uh, I got a call from Beth last night. Lauren is coming to visit her. I know you don't care to see her, but I just wanted you to know in case you did.
Her words hit me like a ton of bricks. I actually miss a step and stop breathing. Jess gives my hand a squeeze, a soft plea for me to snap back. And it causes me to move again.
Jess: breath Bella. As far as I know, it'll be about next week or the week after. During some school break of hers.
She's the last person I want to see right now. Out the side of my eye, I catch Eddie and Rosalie looking at me. I know they all heard Jess. And I know they all heard me stop breathing. Probably even seeing how I almost trip. And who knows what Eddie is probably hearing in Jess' thoughts.
Bella: thanks Jess. I'm good. Come on let's get to class.
I squeeze her hand and try my best not to look over at the stares I'm feeling hit the back of my head.
Bella: hey Eddie, I know you all heard. And I know you heard somethings in Jess' thoughts. Please don't tell anyone. It's something I rather not talk about or people knowing. Especially you know who.
Eddie: of course Bella. By the way, she's sorry excuse of a human for doing that. I'm here if you need someone to talk to.
I sigh in relief, knowing he'll keep his word. There's a good chance of seeing her and my mental health is already in a tornado. Her returning is truly the last thing I need. Rosalie comes in, quickly taking a sit next to me. She looks at me, I'm sure trying to figure out how to ask or what to ask. I pray she lets it go but clearly my prayers aren't answered.
Rose: sooooo… who's Lauren and can I kill her?
Bella: haha, I appreciate the thought but not worth it. She's no one important.
Rose: she's important enough Jess felt she had to say something and important enough the news almost made you fall.
Bella: not important. Can we drop it? I really rather not.
Rose: ok, I'll let it go for right now. Just know I care about you greatly and I will kill her if she hurts you.
Bella: haha, thank you gorgeous.
Class seems to drag. Feeling Rosalie's eyes on me the whole time. Probably trying to see if I'll react in any way. When the bell rings I jet out the class. I hear Jess call my name, at the last minute turning to look at her. I miss a step and run right into Alice. Her hands reach out to steady me. Lingering for a second too long. Her eyes look up to meet mine. While a part of me wants to jet off, run away from the hurt I know I will feel once she pulls back. Another doesn't ever want to leave this moment. This whole week, I've been longing for her touch. For her eyes to look at me. I see a million questions but also regret and sympathy. As if she's searching mine to ask if I'm ok, if we're ok. Before either of us can say anything, Jasper pops up, out of nowhere. She quickly drops her hands and takes a step back. He pulls her next to him while glaring at me with murderess eyes. I chuck at his jealously. I look back at her, but she doesn't move or say anything. So, I just turn and walk away. Jess catches up to me. Halfway jumping on my back. She gives me a tight hug and kiss on the cheek before parting to her class. When lunch comes, Eddie and I walk over to the table with Jess. Surprising but not surprising Rosalie and Emmett are there too. I pull out Jess' cookies and start eating. Letting them all have their conversations. Jess puts her hand on my leg and in the same instance I smell her. I look up and she's standing right behind Eddie. I see him tense and relax. Too quickly for a human to notice. She looks at me before looking away to Jess.
Alice: Hey Jess, I was wondering if you're still up for going shopping with me? Possibly this weekend?
Jess: uh, me and Bella have plans this weekend.
Alice: oh of course. I was hoping to go dress shopping. Just wanted to at least get a month in advance planning for the fall dance. And I'm sure Bella has already asked you and you'd want to get started too.
Jess: well…
Bella: actually, I haven't, I'm not the dancing type but since you brought it up…. Jess would you be my date to the dance? Unless you want me to do one of those lame big display asking things. I'm sure I can come up with something.
Eddie: since when do you even go to dances Alice?
Alice: I wanted to try something new. Figured we could all go together in a group.
Jess: to answer your question, yes Bella I'll gladly be your date. You can still do a lame big display asking thing though. Kinda curious as to what you'd do.
Eddie, Rosalie and Emmett laugh at her comment. Meanwhile I look up at Alice and I see an annoyance? Jealousy? Was she expecting me not to ask?
Jess: Well, there you have it Alice, we can go dress shopping. Just not this weekend. Rose will you be coming with us too?
Rose: of course, I'll drive.
Alice nods her head and walks back to Jasper. Who I see has his glaring eyes set on me like always. I laugh and look back to our table. The others are looking at each other with a "wtf" face. All but Eddie. Emmett breaks the ice, asking if anyone knows the answers to Mr. Thomas' surprise quiz. Lunch ends on a chill note. I put my hand out for Jess to hold as I walk her to class. When I walk up to class, Jasper and Alice are what looks like arguing. Jaspers stops as he sees me. Eddie walks up putting his arm around me and drags me to class.
Eddie: come on good looking, we have some shopping to plan. Suit or dress?
I roll my eyes at him and gentle push him off.
Bella: a suit.
Alice: white with a light shade of pink. Jess will pick a light pink dress. I've seen it.
Twice again, she's somewhat acknowledged me.
Bella: ugh pink? Can I just do white and like red or something? I'm sure you and Rosalie can get her to pick a different dress.
Alice: nope light pink. You'll be ok.
I smile down at her smirk. The smirk from before, that makes my heart swell. It's currently beating at a jackhammer pace. Jasper stares or more so glares between Alice and me, before walking off. She sighs and walks into class. Eddie chuckles and pushes my shoulders to walk into class. When we sit down, Eddie and Alice jump into one of their silent conversations. I pull out my book and give them their moment. Alice doesn't say anything else to me. And when class ends, Jasper is already at the door waiting for her, icy draggers staring at me. I smile smugly at him. Stopping short of Alice.
Bella: thank you for the advice, ma'am. I hope you can join Eddie and I, in our shopping. Nothing like a lady's opinion on a special outfit.
I don't wait for a reply, just walk past them to my locker. He comes storming down the hall, bumping into my shoulder as he walks by. Before I can walk after him, someone grabs my arm. I instantly know it's her by the tingles I feel. My wolf holds back a dangerous growl. When I look down at her, her eyes are pleading. It instantly melts my anger away. I wonder if she hears the whimpers my wolf makes at not only her touch but the disappointment in not tearing him to shreds.
Jasper: Alice let's go!
I pull my arm out of her hand ready again to throw him through a wall for yelling at her but before I can step to him, she walks in front of me. This time putting her hand gently on my ribs. The pain in her eyes send a chill deep into my heart. Pain from not talking to me? Pain from his actions? From her actions? My eyes are torn away from her in time to see him almost stomping over. Alice turns to see him but before either of us can say anything, Eddie is in front of both Alice and me.
Eddie: I would suggest you turn around and walk home. Before you make a mistake you'll truly regret.
Jess walks up behind me and I sense Rosalie and Emmett too. Alice's back is lightly pushed against me. Whether holding me back or scared at the situation, I'm unsure. Jasper has his hands in a fist and if looks could kill, I'm sure I would be 50 feet under. Alice takes a step forward around Eddie.
Alice: Come on Jasper, let's go home.
Before I can grab her arm, Rosalie pushes Alice to me, and steps right beside Eddie. By now all the students in the hall are watching the whole interaction.
Rosalie: Jasper go home. Go for a run. Go for a drive. I don't care what you do but Alice is not going with you.
Jasper: you think I would hurt her? You think she's safer with this mutt?
I feel Alice and Jess tense beside me. I don't care for the word. I don't care for anything that comes out his mouth. I only care for Alice and what she's feeling right now.
Rosalie: I advise you to walk away Jasper. Not only have you disrespected my friend but you're being beyond disrespectful to my sister. The one you say you love so much. You're 2 seconds away from having my foot shoved so far up your ass, shit will be coming out of your mouth.
I hear Eddie, Emmett and a few others trying to hold back laughs. Many failing. Jasper's eyes are now dark and without looking at any of the Cullens, I know their eyes are too. I feel Alice freeze and Eddie turns to her. She's having a vision.
Alice: Rose, its ok. He won't hurt me. Jasper let's go. *She holds up a hand before Rosalie can speak* Edward would you ride with us?
He nods, grabbing her hand and starts for her car. Jasper spares one last glare at me before walking off. I feel Jess' hand on my back. I'm sure happy the situation is over with. Rosalie whispers she'll call me before walking off and Emmett following.
Jess: well, that was…
Mike: I told Tyler I had $20 that you would whoop his ass.
They all chuckle and I just shake my head at them. My human friends, who have no idea what almost just happen. The danger they all would've been in. A chill runs down my spine at the thought of any of them being hurt by my actions. We all walk out to our cars, noting that the Cullens' are all gone. Jess and I talk about the whole situation on our ride home. I remind her I'll be by 10 or 11 tomorrow to get our day started. I text Charlie letting him know I'll be down at the Res. Wanting to let Jake and Leah know what happen. I send Rosalie and Eddie one, to let me know if things are ok.
*POV ALICE*
Edward: Alice get in the back please.
Jasper glares at Edward but doesn't say anything. I don't say anything, I just throw the keys to Jasper and hop in the back. He jets out the parking lot, Emmett and Rose right behind us. Luckily, most of the students are still in the hallway. I look forward and see the big argument that's about to happen. I sigh deeply. Knowing Edward just saw everything. I should have known better. I just missed Bella. I didn't think it would be this big of a deal though. It's not like I'm going to her house in the middle of the night. Being her friend only in school is being her friend from afar?
Edward: it's not your fault Alice. You did no wrong talking to your friend. Jasper should've controlled his jealously better.
Jasper lets out a loud growl.
Edward: I dare you to do it Jasper. You know you cannot take on me, Emmett and Rose.
Alice: Edward please.
Edward: no Alice. You don't hear the thoughts in his head. Rose already texted Esme and Carlisle.
We make it home in no time. And I spot Esme and Carlisle already outside waiting for us. Thankful, there will be no damage caused to the house. I take my time getting out the car. Not wanting to deal with what's about to come.
Carlisle: Jasper, I want to know from you what happen. Rose already told me what she knows.
Jasper: what's the point? You all already made up your minds that I'm in the wrong.
Esme: that is not true Jasper.
Jasper: yes, it is. Alice gave me her word she would not talk to Bella anymore. Yet today she went out of her way to converse with her multiple times. Even touching her.
Alice: First, I did not say I wouldn't talk to Bella anymore. I agreed to put some distance. And I didn't go out of my way. I got a vision of her asking Jess and them needing my help picking out their outfits. Plus, I had already promised Jess to take her shopping. And I only touched Bella out of necessity. Mainly to stop her from wolfing out in the middle of the hallway because you purposely bumped into her and continued to egg her on!
Esme: Jasper!
I instantly see Jasper tense and I know I hurt him just now. I'm not on his side. I feel the wave of hurt forming in his eyes.
Jasper: She wants you Alice and you willing flirt back with her. Give into her. How do you expect me to feel? You're MINE Alice! MINE NOT HERS.
I hear the gasp from my family. Mainly from Esme and Rose. Both having men in their past who have stated the same.
Alice: Jasper, I'm…
Rose: SHE DOES NOT BELONG TO YOU! YOU'RE NOT EVEN TOGETHER. SHE'S NEVER EXPRESSED THOSE FEELINGS TO YOU. AND IF SHE HAS, SHE IS NOT PROPERTY OF YOURS. YOU CAN NOT TELL HER WHO SHE CAN AND CAN NOT TALK TO!
Jasper's eyes darken and I see Rose flinch back. I see the fear in her eyes. I jump into a vision of her eyes darkening and running at Jasper, ready to attack. Before I can say anything, she runs at him. Edward grabs her arm, holding her back. Jasper growls at the last minute, almost attack. Emmett, however, grabs Jasper and pushes him up against a nearby tree. Carlisle quickly runs to them, putting his hand on Emmett's shoulder.
Carlisle: that's not the answer son. Let him go. We're here to talk.
Rose: he made me fear him, Carlisle! He played with my emotions. That's not someone who wants to have a conversation.
Esme: JASPER YOU WILL NOT USE YOUR POWERS ON THIS FAMILY! AND ALICE IS NOT YOURS TO CONTROL!
Alice: Jasper please… Emmett…
Emmett lets him go and Jasper straightens out his shirt. Emmett walks back and stands slightly in front of Rose. I notice that yes, everyone is facing Jasper. Edward looks at me and I see that he's about to run down what everyone is thinking. I flinch at Rose's and Emmett's thoughts. Even Esme and Carlisle. I'm not surprised at Jasper's though. I look at Jasper and his darken eyes lighten. Not the gold they should be but at least better than black. I feel his guilt and his silent plea to forgive him. I look around at family, silently letting him know, he needs to apologize to them.
Carlisle: Jasper, son, you need to control your emotions right now and talk to us. I get that you feel some way in regards to Alice and Bella's friendship but violence is never the answer. As of right now, you should know you owe 4 apologies. One to Alice for your behavior and trying to forbid her from speaking to her friend. One to Rose for playing with her emotions and making her fear you. One to Emmett for disrespecting his mate. And lastly, one to Bella. Per our agreement with the wolves, we do not attack each other unless the treaty is broken. Fighting her, the alpha, and alone in a crowded hallway with innocent students around. Would start an all out war and endanger this family. Jasper's face is stone set. The stubbornness shining through his features. I give him a pleading look. Wanting to defuse the situation.
Jasper: Fine, I will apologize to everyone in this family, but I will not apologize to that mutt.
I hear three growls from my siblings and what I think is a tiny one from Esme who is behind us all. Edward slightly nods letting me know it was Esme. I'm not surprise. She already loves Bella. Hearing him use the disrespectful term is the last thing he should do.
Jasper: I never made that pact with the mutts. And I will not apologize to the mutt who's trying to come in between me and Alice.
I see the hurt and anger in his eyes. Esme is quickly at Carlisle side before anyone can say anything.
Esme: you WILL learn to control your jealously. Alice can have any friend she wants. She is not disrespecting you. And you WILL apologize to Bella. You will NOT use that term in regards to her. You might have not been here when the treaty was made but if you are a part of this family, you will respect it. YOU WILL NOT PUT THIS FAMILY IN DANGER!
No one says anything for a while. I see the defeat in Jasper's eyes. Edward looks over at Carlisle, I'm sure hearing something in his thoughts.
Jasper: Rosalie, I deeply apologize making you fear me. Emmett, I truly apologize for disrespecting you and your mate. Alice, I'm sorry for my behavior. You did not deserve me to make you choose. You didn't deserve the way I acted today. Most importantly, I apologize to you Esme and Carlisle. I'm sorry for the problems my actions have caused today. I will do my best to control my feelings. I don't know if I can apologize to that mu… Bella. At least not right now. I ask that you give me time. I hope you all can find it in your heart to forgive me.
Carlisle: if you will not apologize to Bella, then I have to ask Alice to do it on your behave. On the family's behave. As Esme pointed out, your actions will not put this family in danger. I doubt Bella will tell the wolves what happen. But if she decides to, she has every right. Especially if it came down to putting the people of Forks and the Res in danger.
I see the anger enter his eyes again. I'm sure at the thought of me apologizing to Bella. I look around at my family. Knowing it's going to take a while for them to truly forgive him. I walk around them and give Jasper a hug. His eyes soften. I tell him thank you and ask him to go hurting to calm down. He gives me a quick kiss and runs off. I stand for a minute looking at the direction he ran off to. Esme comes over and pulls me toward the house. Emmett pulls me into one of his bear hugs. Spinning me around, knowing it will cause me to smile. When he puts me down, Rose hugs me and places a kiss on my forehead before they both head in. Edward pats my head and follows behind them. Leaving only me and Carlisle. I turn to face him.
Carlisle: Alice, you are my daughter. You matter to me as much as the others. I did not create you, but I will not lose you. Not because of stupidity. We all know how you feel about Jasper. But we all SEE how you feel about Bella. You deserve to be happy Alice. If it's with Jasper ok, if it's with Bella ok. Just know you deserve to be happy. And we, your family, will always be here. Always respecting your decision. I'm here if you ever need to talk Alice.
He gets in his car, going back to work I'm certain. I walk up to my room. Putting on some music before laying down in my bed.
"There I was again tonight.
Forcing laughter, faking smiles.
Same old tired, lonely place.
Walls of insincerity, shift eyes and vacancy.
Vanished when I saw your face.
All I can say is, I was enchanting to meet you."
I grab my phone and type out a long text. Deleting it and trying again. It doesn't sound right either. Ugh. After 30 minutes I finally send a text.
Alice: I'm sorry for everything Bella.
Bella: yeah, me too.