Stuck – Stacie Orrico
I can't get out of bed today or get you off my mind
I just can't seem to find a way to leave the love behind
I ain't trippin', I'm just missin' you
You know what I'm saying, you know what I mean
You kept me hangin' on a string, why you make me cry?
I tried to give you everything but you just gave me lies
I ain't trippin' I'm just missin' you
You know what I'm saying you know what I mean
Every now and then when I'm all alone
I'll be wishing you would call me on the telephone
Say you want me back but you never do
I feel like such a fool there's nothing' I can do
I'm such a fool for you
I can't take it what am I waiting for
My heart's still breakin' I miss you even more
And I can't fake it the way I could before
I hate you but I love you
I can't stop thinkin' of you
It's true. I'm stuck on you
Now loves a broken record that's skippin' in my head
I keep singin' yesterday why we got to play these games we play
I ain't trippin, I'm just missin' you
You know what I'm sayin' you know what I mean yeah
Every now and then when I'm all alone, I'll be wishing you would call me on the telephone
Say you want me back but you never do
I feel like such a fool
I can't take it what am I waiting for
My heart's still breakin' I miss you even more
And I can't fake it the way I could before
I hate you but I love you
I can't stop thinkin' of you
It's true. I'm stuck on you
Every now and then when I'm all alone, I'll be wishing you would call me on the telephone
Say you want me back but you never do
I feel like such a fool there's nothin' I can do
I'm such a fool for you
I can't take it what am I waiting for
My heart's still breakin' I miss you even more
And I can't fake it the way I could before
I hate you but I love you
I can't stop thinkin' of you
I hate you but I love you
I can't stop thinkin' of you
I don't know what to do
I'm stuck on you
It had distressed her when Colin had mentioned that he was going to see Marina. Why on earth would he want to rehash last season's painful events. When he hadn't turned up at last night's ball her stress levels increased tenfold. Hopefully he had got Marina out of his system and could focus on finding someone who wouldn't try and trick him into marrying her. She headed down for breakfast, her heart skipping a beat when she saw Colin.
"Colin! We ah missed you at the ball last night." Well, she had missed him and his mother had probably noticed his absence, but they were probably the only ones. Eloise was continuing to try and avoid all possible suitors. She was starting to wonder which one of the Sharma sister's Antony was actually courting at this point and Benedict was successfully dodging his mother as well.
From the step she stood on, they were almost on the same level. "Yes. I fear I was not feeling up to it." Oh, had the visit not gone well? He wasn't his usual happy go lucky self.
"After seeing Marina. How is she Colin?" She did feel bad over last season and sincerely hoped that despite the circumstances, Marina and the babies were happy.
"She is … content." Content was not happy. But it wasn't an all-together bad thing either.
"Good. I am glad." And she was. Lord Crane had seemed like a decent man. "Perhaps seeing her was what you needed. To leave the past behind. To no longer feel the need to foreswear women." Or at least something a little least drastic.
"Lady Crane said she was content, but I can not help but feel like …" So it was Lady Crane instead of Marina. "Well, we were all so hard on her. Myself included. Perhaps if Lady Whistledown hadn't rushed to print her gossip, things may have turned out differently for her.' Yes, but if Lady Whistledown hadn't printed what she had, Colin would be married to a woman who had deceived him, with children he would have eventually worked out weren't his. Cousin or not, she had not been able to just stand by and let that happen. Not to him. She would not have been able to live with herself if she had. "For all of us, in fact." She doubted that anything would have changed for her. "But I suppose, there is no use dwelling on the past. I am, indeed, thinking of the future. Pardon me Pen."
Apparently that future did not involve her. He did not realise she had only wanted him to be with someone who truly loved him and was not deceiving him. Of course she was well aware that he did not see her as a possibility as a future wife. She hoped and wished that he would come to care for her as she cared for him. But she was a smart woman and it was a daydream. A beautiful daydream, but a daydream none the less.
She knew it had been a terrible idea for Colin to visit Marina. But she had wished that she had been wrong. This was all getting out of hand. And her heart sank as he walked away from her. Something he did on a regular basis.