AN: Only two points for this chapter (besides a trigger warning for a panic attack episode).

When Mama Dina tells you to go back to bed, you go back to bed.

Dommy Mommy Dina.

Ah, and also some more soft smut toward the end ? we got ourselves a strap Dina this time, ergo my important key point above.

Summer - August

Ellie's eyes snapped open before she gasped for air. She immediately grabbed her chest before wheezing as everything began spiraling downhill. Her jaw clenched and she turned around to look at Dina. That's when she saw a flash of that night and she winced. Dina and Jesse were dying. She shot out of bed before storming out of their room, holding onto her chest tightly. In seconds, she was running downstairs and once she was in their living room, she ran over to one of their cabinets before grabbing the pistol hidden inside one of the drawers.

Her breathing was a mess and her eyes were bloodshot, ready to spill tears at any second. She bit down again, swallowing back the bile in her mouth and blood drawn from the inside of her cheeks. She then racked her gun before readying it and surveying her home. She took a few careful steps forward, grunting when she saw a flash of white and then red. She flinched as if someone struck her before she pointed her gun to the left.

She shook her head again as flashes of the crazed man continued taunting her from afar. He was laughing, staring at her straight in the eyes with this mudded look. He was mocking her, laughing in her face with white foam coming out of his mouth. That's when she saw Jesse and her body instantly froze. He was looking at her with this pained look as if he was begging for help.

Ellie could see it in his eyes. "Jesse…"

Her breath hitched as she stepped into the kitchen. One step after another, she could feel the icy winds freezing over her skin. The wind picked up outside and it howled at her, reminding her how cold that night was and there was nothing she despised more than the cold. Her ears began ringing and her vision grew fuzzy. Tears were beginning to fall and she had to force herself to not break down and move on. He was still there. Dina was here and if she didn't stop him now then… then she would… JJ would be…

All she could hear now was her heavy breathing and rapid heartbeat.

Thump.

Thump.

Thump.

She could hear Jesse calling out to her. "El… lie… El… Ellie… El… Ellie!"

Someone reached out and touched her shoulder, getting Ellie to take a sharp breath and snap around. She pointed the gun at him and began hyperventilating as her tunnel vision grew harsh. Her finger curled around the trigger but right when she was about to pull it, a familiar voice pulled her back to reality.

"ELLIE!"

Her entire body twitched and she jolted in place.

It was Dina.

A sharp gasp shocked Ellie back to reality. "D-Dina?"

"Ellie…" Dina's voice trembled with caution as she held her hands up like she was trying to calm down a raging bull. "You're okay… no one is going to hurt you. You can put down the gun…"

Her eyes wavered as Ellie swallowed down the bile burning her throat. "I…" It took a second for her to come back to reality and once she did, she gasped when she realized she was pointing a shaky gun at her fiancé. She immediately pulled back, taking multiple steps back as if she had seen a monster. "What have I—" Her breath hitched again before gasping harshly.

"Hey shh shh shh shhh…" Dina finally closed their gap before gently grabbing the pistol from her hand. She quickly pulled Ellie into a one-armed hug, briefly glancing at the gun before turning on the safety lock and setting it aside on the counter. "It's okay Ellie. You're safe. We're okay." She urged more firmly before cupping Ellie's cheeks and pulling her face toward hers. "Look at me baby, just breathe."

Ellie had a hard time breathing as she hyperventilated. "B-But I—"

Dina pressed her body flush against Ellie's. "Shh shh… hey…" She looked into her eyes with the purest look out there before wiping away some tears spilling down her cheek. "Come back to bed. We'll talk about it in the morning, okay?"

A pained whimper left Ellie's face as she finally reached up to grab Dina's hands. "But—" Her body was trembling and her hands were shaking horribly as she choked a sob. "I can't— I gotta go. I—"

"Tomorrow," Dina repeated in an adamant voice and a serious look on her face. "We'll talk tomorrow. Let's go back to bed, please?"

It was a plea and Ellie could see how desperate Dina looked but as much as she wanted to pull away and hide and run, she gave in as a shaky response left her lips. "O-Okay…"

Dina quickly leaned up to kiss her forehead. "Atta girl." She then gently pulled her toward the stairs, "C'mon." She nodded her head in that direction before tugging at Ellie. Her legs practically gave out and Dina ended up catching her from falling over. "I got you." She then pulled Ellie's arm over her shoulders and helped her up.

It took quite a bit of effort but once they were back in their room, Dina laid Ellie down. Ellie was still shaking terribly with a guilt-ridden face as she looked at JJ who stirred awake from the fuss. He had been lying there on their bed, crying all alone and helpless. Her breath hitched once more, realizing what she had done before reaching out to him.

"I'm so sorry JJ…"

When her hand touched his cheek, she pulled back as if she had burned him for some reason. Her fingers curled into a tight fist, nails digging into her palm before Dina slid up behind her. She pressed up closely against her back before grabbing Ellie's hand and gently guiding it back to JJ's side.

"Shh shh shh…" Dina shushed her before wrapping her free arm around Ellie's waist and cooing at both her fiancé and baby. "It's okay, go back to sleep. I'm right here for you." She then began peppering kisses on the back of Ellie's neck before softly whispering to her. "You're okay… We're okay, we're safe."

Huffing haggard breaths, Ellie did her best to calm her thundering heart. She let Dina guide her hand until she touched JJ's crying face. She wasn't sure how long it took for her to regain her sense of normality but by the time she did, JJ had stopped crying and had fallen asleep. Dina, however, was still awake, comforting her with kisses, soft cooes, and words of affection. She felt safe for once before she let her heavy eyes close.

When Ellie finally woke up in the morning, or rather later that day, she noted a few things. JJ was awake and attempting to fumble around while Dina was sound asleep and pressed firmly against her back. She hadn't moved back to her side of the bed and her breathing was leveled. Each time she breathed out, it tickled the back of her neck, and that made Ellie feel warm as she held onto Dina's hand tighter.

JJ finally noticed that Ellie was awake before babbling some noises.

That made Ellie flinch before she quickly reached out to him with her other hand. "Shhhhh…" she softly whispered before speaking in a quiet voice. "Mama is still sleeping bubba."

Her son only flopped around a little before wiggling his butt side-to-side. He ended up trying to move around again before collapsing from his own weight. Ellie chucked at that before gently patting his stomach. He then let out a few happy noises before Ellie sighed in contentment. She enjoyed this peace and safe haven for all of its entirety when Dina eventually stirred awake.

"Mmh…" Her voice was groggy, "El…?" Dina breathed in deeply before shifting around and hugging her fiancé tightly. "Babe, you okay…?" She kissed her neck repeatedly as if she knew Ellie had been awake for a while.

Ellie could only sigh in shame at what she had done last night. "Yeah… I'm okay." She ended up grabbing Dina's hand and rubbing it affectionately before shifting slightly and turning her head to face Dina. "About last night… I'm sorry."

Dina breathed in Ellie's scent before cracking an eye open. She nuzzled into her before mumbling, "For what? You don't have anything to apologize for." Her half-awake and raspy voice did things to Ellie.

"Well… for pointing a gun at you… and ruining your sleep… and making you stay up so late… and being a mess."

Dina sighed as she nuzzled into her fiancé. "When are you not a mess?"

"Okay, rude… but fair." Ellie huffed before fully turning around to face her. "I just…" She looked down, away from her eyes the moment she thought about him.

Blinking once, Dina was finally more alert as she watched Ellie's expressions carefully. She ended up brushing away some hair out of her face before gently pleading, "Talk to me." She then cupped her cheek before rubbing it affectionately.

"I…" Ellie's eyes flicked up to meet Dina's before frowning in shame. "I just… Some nights, I dream about it and when I do… it, it takes over me." She sighed and rubbed her face before picking nervously at her fingers. "I see him and he's there, right in front of me. Us." She took in a shallow breath before shakingly continuing, "And… he's about to hurt you like he did Jesse and I—" She choked on her words before shutting her eyes and swallowing. "Jesse begged for help." Her words were slow but firm. "And… he's laughing at us. He wants to hurt us and I couldn't let that happen so I…" Her voice trailed off and Dina closed in to her side.

"Oh Ellie…" She pulled Ellie into her chest before kissing the back of her head. "He can't hurt you or us anymore. He's gone. He won't ever hurt us again."

"I know Dina, I know… I know that rationally but he creeps up in my sleep." Ellie squeezed her eyes shut, trying to wipe him from memory.

"Well fuck him. The next time he shows up in your dream, I'll shoot him myself."

For some reason, that made her smile and snort. "Babe."

Dina rolled her eyes before starting, "If I wasn't so sick and weak at the time, I would have totally stabbed him with the hunting knife you tossed me. Admittedly, not my brightest moments but still."

That brought a soft chuckle out of Ellie's lips. "Babe…" She repeated as she pulled back to look her in the eyes. "What are you even saying?"

She let out a dramatic sigh out of nowhere. "Don't ever get pregnant, it sucks ass."

Ellie couldn't help but roll her eyes with a playful smile on her face. "Oh yeah, I'm totally going to get knocked up and birth your children after the amount of times we've had sex."

Chuckling at that, Dina wiggled her eyebrows seductively. "Mm hmmm, and they'll be the cutest little menaces alive."

Snorting at that, Ellie couldn't help herself before snarking back. "Yeah, they'll be cute 'cause they'll take after me."

Dina immediately smacked her arm. "Asshole."

"You love it."

Scoffing in her face, Dina leaned in to peck her lips. "I do sadly."

JJ finally announced his disapproval of getting ignored by both of his moms. That made Ellie turn around as Dina pushed herself up to look at him. "Yes yes, what do you want, baby?" She then reached past her fiancé before poking at his cheek. "Want breakfast?" He let out some disgruntled whines. "Okay, mama's coming." She pushed herself up before Ellie interjected.

"Here, let me." Ellie huffed as sat up as well. She then gingerly scooped up JJ before handing him over.

Dina cracked a smile before cradling him and pulling up her shirt. Once her nipple was exposed, she guided JJ's mouth to it before sighing and shifting around to get comfy. Shortly after, JJ whined before eventually opening his mouth and latching onto it. He started sucking more aggressively, smacking his lips and after a moment, Dina hissed. "Ow fuck—"

Ellie's eyes widened as she immediately reached out to her. "What's wrong? You okay?"

There was a slight frown on Dina's face as she scrunched her nose. "Yeah, I'm fine. He's just starting to teeth that's all."

"Oh." Ellie's face widened as she glanced down at her breast. She watched the way JJ was roughly sucking on her nipple before she licked her lips. "You uh… want me to… massage it later?"

Dina's lips immediately curled upward. "Massage what? My nipple?" She laughed with a slight shake of her head. "Ellie, that has to be the most ridiculous thing I've heard." Ellie pouted and just as she opened her mouth, Dina cut her off. "But is extremely sweet of you babe." She leaned forward to kiss her lips. "And if it's okay with you, I'll hold you to that offer later."

Ellie chuckled into their kiss before pecking Dina's cheek. "I'd be happy to."

It wasn't until a few weeks later on a random Saturday night when JJ was over at Robin's place for the weekend that Ellie had another panic attack.

Gasping for air, Ellie shot up from her bed. Her body was soaked in sweat and she woke up in a teary mess. A helpless whimper was all that left her lips. "Fuck." She wiped her face before carefully getting up out of bed and walking over to the bathroom. Once there she quickly doused her face in water before staring at her reflection. When she made eye contact with her own reflection, she flinched when she saw her face covered in blood. "Fuck!"

She bolted out of the bathroom, staggering back before gasping for air in their hallway. She grasped her face again before mumbling to herself. "No no no… nononono. Stop, you're fine. Everything's okay." Her voice cracked as if she was about to cry. "Dina said he's gone. He's gone. He's gone." Tears began to spill. "They're gone."

"Ellie…?"

Ellie quickly swiped away her tears as Dina came after her.

"Ellie, oh baby…" She quickly walked over and pulled her into a hug. "I'm right here, you're okay."

"Yeah," was all Ellie could say through her pants. "Yeah…"

Dina started shushing her softly. "It's just a nightmare. It's not real." She then nuzzled her face into Ellie's neck before weaving her fingers into her hair.

"I know…" Ellie took in a shaky breath before hugging her tightly. "I know…"

"C'mon," Dina kissed her neck, "Let's go to bed." She tried gently pulling her back to the bedroom. "I'll hold you until you sleep."

"I— I don't think I can," Ellie confessed as she panted before tugging at Dina's shirt. "I can hear my heart beating and it's not good."

Breathing out a soft breath, Dina hugged her tightly. There was a moment of silence as she thought to herself before an idea crossed her mind. "In that case… let me take care of you baby." She finally pulled Ellie from her spot and carefully pushed her onto their mattress before climbing on top of her. She then leaned down to whisper into her ear. "Let me make you feel good."

Ellie's breath hitched as she slammed her eyes shut and weakly grabbed onto the side of Dina's shirt. Her fiancé only nuzzled in closer while pressing a soft kiss on her neck. "I'll take care of you El…you know I always do."

Her tone of voice only made Ellie tighten her hold. She nuzzled into Dina's warmth as she breathed in her comforting scent. "Okay…"

Smiling into her kiss, Dina kissed her a few more times before pulling back just enough to cup her cheek. "What do you want me to do?" She then glided her fingers across her freckled skin, all while hovering above her lips.

There was this feverish feeling Ellie felt as she panted for air. The panic and beat she felt were enough to make her drunk. As she held back her tears, her eyes couldn't help but focus on Dina's as she whispered her answer. "Kiss me."

Dina answered by claiming her lips with a gentle yet pleasurable peck. They sensually kissed each other, occasionally switching the angles from time to time, before Dina finally pulled back to whisper. "What else?" She kissed her lips one last time before peppering kisses down her neck.

At this point, Ellie's chest was steadily rising and falling as she kept her eyes shut. She breathed some huffs before gently tugging at the bottom of Dina's shirt. "I want to… feel you."

A smile cracked on Dina's lips as she leaned back, straddled her hips, and swiftly took off her tank top. She then tossed it aside before speaking in a soft voice. "More?" Her eyes fell to her bottoms to which Ellie nodded sheepishly. In response, she simply stood up before sliding off her booty shorts and panties in one go, dropping them to the floor. Once she was fully naked, she climbed back on top of Ellie before leaning down to kiss the crevice of her ear.

"What do you want next?"

A short whimper left Ellie's lips before she reached for her shirt. Dina saw that and quickly shushed her, grabbed her hands, and brought them up to kiss her knuckles.

"Let me."

Dina kissed Ellie's hand one last time before setting it aside and grabbing a hold of her shirt. She slowly pulled it up, making eye contact with her, before gently taking it off. Ellie only lifted up her back and arms so that Dina could take it off.

"More?" She asked again as she gently tugged on her shorts.

Ellie breathed some heavy yet shallow breaths as she held a hazy look in her eyes. Her chest was still rising and falling but sure enough, she eventually nodded her head. Dina did nothing but silently comply and slid them down her legs. Now that they were both bare, Dina straddled Ellie's hips again before leaning down to kiss her neck. She quickly hugged her before scattering kisses across her freckled skin.

A soft whimper left Ellie's lips. "Dina…" Her hands went up her sides, desperately rubbing her smooth and beautifully tanned skin as she shut her eyes.

"I know, babe." Dina kissed her neck again before nuzzling against her closely. "You're okay, I got you."

Ellie had a hard time breathing. She was still taking in short and sharp breaths as she fought off her panic attack. Dina could even tell how much she was struggling thanks to the amount of sweat seeping from her pores and from how hard her heart was thundering in her chest.

"You're okay El," Dina cooed again. "You're safe with me." She cupped her cheek and rubbed it lovingly.

It took some time but eventually, Ellie calmed down her breaths and when she did, she nuzzled into Dina while rubbing her affectionately. They took some deep breaths together and once Ellie leveled out, Dina kissed her for nth time tonight.

"How do you want me?"

Ellie breathed in her scent a few times before sheepishly squeezing her.

Dina proceeded to press her lips into the crevice of her ear before speaking in a whisper. "Anything you want, just name it."

It took a second but eventually, Ellie wiggled beneath her before mumbling a whisper. "Take me."

Her words were barely audible and Dina only kissed her neck before leaning back to confirm. "You sure?" She then cupped her cheek before kissing her lips softly.

Ellie nuzzled into her hand with a gentle nod.

"Okay." She kissed her lips again before leaning back, "Hang on tight."

Dina quickly got up from their bed and opened the drawer in their nightstand. She then pulled out a strap-on harness before quickly putting it on. In no time, she was wearing a 6-inch dildo before pouring some lube onto it and crawling back into bed. Once she was settled between Ellie's legs, she pulled them apart before rubbing her cock along Ellie's folds.

"This okay baby?" She rubbed her thighs affectionately while rubbing her cock even rougher against her clit.

A breathless whine left Ellie's lips. "Dina…" She restlessly reached forward, trying to hold onto her fiancé closer and touch her and give her any sort of pleasure somewhere.

"Shh shh…" Dina cooed before grabbing her hands. "I said I'd take care of you, you don't have to worry about me." She then pinned Ellie's hands above her head before leaning down and kissing her lips. "Just trust me… leave it to me. I'll make you feel good."

A few pecks later, Dina kissed her way down her jaw and toward her breast. Once her lips were wrapped around her nipple, she parted her lips before gently sucking her hardened bud. That made Ellie whine again as she shifted around restlessly. Dina tastefully wrapped her tongue around Ellie's nipple before sucking and kissing it again. She gently nibbled on it before running her mouth a little south and biting her breast. She bit her again before kissing her way down her abs.

Her hands replaced her lips, groping and fondling her breasts. She gave them a gentle squeeze, circling and jerking them up and down. In no time, Dina's face was between Ellie's legs and she didn't stop fondling her breasts as she started eating out her cunt. She opened her mouth wide, latching onto her pussy, kissing and sucking her folds. She thoroughly licked and ate her pussy until Ellie twitched before jerking around again.

Dina ended up climbing back on top of Ellie before kissing her lips. They kissed again and Dina carefully pressed two fingers along Ellie's pussy. She rubbed her clit, stroking it up and down before pressing them inside her warm walls.

"You okay?" She gingerly pressed them in until they were buried knuckle deep.

Ellie hadn't made any noises and was panting softly as she wiggled in place.

"Babe, is this okay?" Dina asked again as she slowly stroked her fingers back and forth before spreading them apart.

A soft whimper left Ellie's lips as she nodded lightly.

"That's it," Dina leaned down to kiss her cheek. "Good girl," she pumped her fingers a few more times before eventually pulling them out and positioning herself. Sure enough, she rubbed her cock along Ellie's wet folds one last time. "Relax for me okay?"

Dina gave her a few testing thrusts before gently lining up her cockhead with Ellie's vagina. She then looked into her eyes before testing the waters and rocking her hips forward, sinking her tip into Ellie's cunt. When Ellie showed no signs of discomfort or pain, she began easing herself in while rubbing her clit with her thumb. In no time, her hips were flush against Ellie's.

"Are you okay Ellie?" She leaned forward to hug her and kiss her lips.

Ellie only responded with a slight hum.

"Babe, you have to let me know if I hurt you?" She kissed her jaw this time.

"I will…" Ellie sounded a bit weak but Dina knew that she was just vulnerable and scared.

"I love you," she peppered kisses all over her face again. "I love you so so much. You're safe with me."

Dina kissed her one last time before standing up on her knees. She then pulled Ellie's legs apart before gently rocking her hips back and forth. Once she was certain there wasn't any resistance, she held onto Ellie's legs firmly before rocking her hips at an easy and slow pace. Her cock was sliding in and out of her pussy with no trouble and Dina took that as a positive sign. She then eyed their intercourse, noting the precum dripping out of her pussy, before watching Ellie's face.

Ellie's eyes were closed as she panted for air. Her face was turned away and it looked like she didn't know what to do with her hands so Dina quickly leaned forward and grabbed them both. They intertwined their fingers and Dina kept up a steady pace as Ellie began whining softly. Eventually, Ellie twitched before she practically moaned her fiancé's name.

"Dina—" Her breath hitched as a strained groan left her lips. She tightened her hold on her hands before forcing out, "H-Harder—"

Dina stopped rocking her hips, coming to a short pause. She then let go of her hands before rubbing her thighs and double-checking one last time. "You sure?" She then eyed Ellie's pussy, watching it tighten around her cock.

Ellie's chest was rising and falling faster than before but at least this time, her breathing was less panicked. She covered her eyes with her wrist, hiding her face before eventually nodding as if she was ashamed of her needs. "I— I don't want to think… I just want to feel you."

That made Dina's eyes soften. "Okay." She released Ellie's legs before leaning down to embrace her. "I love you." She kissed her cheek and once she readjusted her position, she lifted her hips before slamming into her with a rough thrust. Ellie immediately gasped from the sudden thrust before yelping and moaning when Dina started pounding her cock relentlessly.

"Oh— fuck!" Ellie gasped again before latching onto Dina as her dear life depended on it.

Groaning deeply, Dina quickly established a rough tempo. Every time she yanked her hips back, she slammed them back down, burying her cock deep inside Ellie's pussy. With every thrust, there was an audible clap, and with every clap, there was a wet squelch. Despite how tightly Ellie's legs were wrapped around her body, Dina didn't let them slow her down as she bit her lip and fucked her passionately.

"D-Dina!"

Ellie was desperate. A long and desperate moan left her lips as her hands slid down to Dina's ass in a clumsy attempt to help her fiancé fuck her. Instead, moaning was all she could manage with every thrust. Sure enough, Dina leaned down and started pressing feverish kisses all over her neck as she vigorously pumped her hips.

"Oh fuck— Yes! Oh my god, Dina!"

Multiple strained whimpers and moans left Ellie's lips as she heavily panted for air. Her mouth hung loose as she groped Dina's body and her body twitched every time Dina fell flush into her hips. She couldn't help but cry out loud before clawing her back. As she raked her nails down her skin, she moaned ruggedly before grabbing a hold of her harness. Her fingers immediately tightened around the leather before Ellie slammed her head back and cursed at the top of her lungs.

"P-Please! Dina please!"

Dina grunted an erotic moan as she breathed out a heavy breath. "Oh baby… that's it Ellie, good girl…" She jerked her hips at a slightly different angle, hitting Ellie just right where she loved it. That only made her fiancé buck and cry even louder as Dina kissed her neck again. "You're taking me so well."

Ellie couldn't stop moaning so loudly and she hugged Dina possessively. She knew for a fact that her precum was dripping down her pussy and her hands twitched like crazy before she bit down hard, dragging her hands up Dina's back. Her nails dug into her skin and Dina only her pounded into their mattress harder and harder. Within seconds, Ellie let out a euphoric loud cry before shaking violently. The moment her body shuddered, Dina leaned back and opened her mouth, roughly claiming Ellie's lips. She then slipped her tongue inside, cutting off her fiancé from shouting out loud as she worked her through her orgasm.

In response, a muffled and strained moan left Ellie's lips as she hung on Dina for her dear life, violently shaking from her most vulnerable orgasm yet. Dina didn't stop pumping her hips but slowed down her pace into deeper, concentrated thrusts. Each time their hips smacked against one another, Ellie sputtered until Dina slowly came to a stop, burying her cock deep inside her pussy. When she did, Ellie hugged her unbelievably tighter and sloppily kissed her lips. They lay there kissing each other feverishly until Ellie was seemingly knocked out in her arms.

When Dina noticed, she stopped kissing her before carefully flipping their positions and keeping her cock buried inside because Ellie was still tight from her contractions. She kissed her a few more times before eventually pulling up their blanket and tucking her fiancé in.

"Good night babe." Dina kissed her again. "I love you, I'm right here. No one's going to hurt you, I'll protect you." She kissed her time after time until she fell asleep herself.