"This was a mistake," Cullen said firmly "I'm sorry"

"Cullen" Kendra stressed.

He was having one of those moods again. Those moods where everything was wrong and it was all his fault yet Kendra knew it was the furthest from the truth.

"I'm sorry I shouldn't have indulged in my fantasies I-" He stuttered.

Kendra's heart ached. Cullen had repressed his feelings from the moment she knew him. It took him almost two years to finally accept his feelings for her. And when he finally did a sense of relief washed over them. Their friends, especially Dorian, had known it for years, yet Cullen's fear held him back like it did now. It held him back in the bedroom too Kendra was certain that during their cuddle sessions after sex, he was praying to Andraste begging her to forgive him of his sins. It was all quite sad really. Their session last month went further than they typically went but Kendra didn't mind - she wanted it. Creators she craved all of him inside of her burying deep inside her sweet cunt. During Dirty talk Cullen let slip that he wanted her to feel his flesh. He wanted her to feel his seed growing inside of her until she was ready to burst with child and Kendra happily indulged.

When he got up this morning for his run her handprints and bitemarks were still fresh she couldn't help but smile at her handywork she had never experienced that level of lovemaking it was intense yet also just as passionate at the same time. She knew that it would be a while until she experienced that again him inside of her with no restrictions no condoms just flesh on flesh as The Creators had intended. He was hard at first Kendra was almost worried that he wasn't going to fit in despite being average-sized but in the end, they finally got there.. She knew that the next time he would be on a work trip when she would be all alone stuck in their apartment that would be her masturbation material. She smirked as her eyes caught a glimpse of the still cum-stained Dildo Cullen had used on her last night. Kendra was still in the early stages of her pregnancy yet they had already needed to be more creative with positions.

Plus Cullen wouldn't stop treating her like a delicate little flower and it was frustrating her to no end. Of course, it was nice that he cared but at the same time, she wasn't a doll she wasn't going to break under his touch no matter how much he had seemed to believe that. She was always aware that through each session she could have possibly ended up pregnant there was always a chance even with birth control.

While the thought of pregnancy scared her to death she also knew that Cullen would be a great father no matter what even if he didn't quite believe it himself that was what gave her a sense of peace at night. Kendra lowered her head. She didn't want to press any longer she knew that if she gave the option of terminating the pregnancy Cullen would say yes but then in the morning he would regret it in a heartbeat.

"Cullen…Go to sleep you'll feel better about this in the morning" She tried to calm him.

"But what if I don't? What if I wake up and I still feel the same way about this?" He paused and waved his hand down at her pregnant belly which wasn't even showing yet but she couldn't even fit into her favorite pair of jeans.

"We're not ready to be parents Ken. We're drowning in debt. And what if we mess up? Mess up like my Dad did. I would never forgive myself and you know that" He wailed

Kendra pulled Cullen closer even as he wallowed her fingers intertwined in his blond locks.

"Look we'll get through this," She said softly as she kissed his forehead gently.

"How are you so optimistic about this?" Cullen asked as he looked up at her.

Amazement sparkled in his eyes.

"You're the one who'll actually have to give birth" He reminded her.

Kendra smiled "I'm optimistic because I know whatever The Creators have planned for us we can face it we always have. I'm lucky remember?" She asked as he tugged at her necklace with her thumb twirling around Cullen's lucky gold coin the one that he had given to her at the lake.

"Maker your such a cheeseball" Cullen complained as he shook his head.

"There's nothing wrong about being cheesy every now and then" Kendra teased as she witnessed a soft smile grow over his lips.

"Speaking of Chese do we still have any of that Brie left Alistair bought us from Val Royeaux?" Kendra asked.

Cheese had been her first and strongest craving so far and she blamed Alistair almost entirely.

Cullen's cheeks turned a deep shade of red "About that-"

"Cullen" Kendra whined as she swatted him gently.

Cullen got up from the bed and kissed her right cheek pulling back with a smile.

"Don't worry dear why don't I go to the corner shop and get you some more while I clear this head of mine?" He asked

"Alright then. I love you" She sighed as she slithered back under the warm covers.

"I love you too. The both of you my tiny little cheeseballs" Cullen murmured as he placed his hand on her stomach ever so gently.

Fine. Kendra reminded herself as her breathing slowed and sleep overtook her. They would be fine.