Chapter 10 Cilla P.O.V.
I could hear everything that was going on. I heard Kili beg me to wake soon, I heard Blackie's cries, and I heard someone from the company constantly in the room. But I couldn't seem to open my eyes to assure them that I was ok. Until now that is.
As I opened my eyes, I looked at my surroundings. By this time I was in Rivendell, and I looked over to see Dwalin sitting in the chair. I silently got up and walked outside, making my way to the garden. When I got there I sat and did nothing else. I relaxed, thinking about what I was going to tell the company.
Soon enough, I heard a commotion inside and new that they discovered that I wasn't there. However, Elrond had seen me no more than an hour ago and is more than likely telling them where I am. When I heard heavy footsteps, I looked up and saw the entire company there panicking. Except for Gandalf of course. Old Geezer was smiling.
I looked at them, and felt guilt. I had made them worry, and in some cases cry. I put them through so much pain. Maybe this time, I can make things right. Blackie rushed toward me and hugged me, and I slightly winced because of my broken ribs, but I didn't care.
She pulled back and started pacing as the rest of the girls hugged me, and Emily and I both stood and watched her.
"What in the hell were you thinking Cill?" I raised a brow. Blackie hardly ever cussed. "You had us all worried to death and I thought that you were going to die. Scratch that, you did almost die. Dammit Cilla, you can't just keep doing things on your own because one day we'll be to late. When will you finally except that people care? We love you and-and-and-" she broke down in sobs and I caught her as she fell, my heart breaking for the pain I put her in. As she cried, I decided to sing to her as we rocked back and forth, for it always calmed her down.
I never meant to be the one
Blackie sobbed harder as I went on.
Who kept you from the dark
But now I know my wounds are sewn
Because of who you are
I will take this burden on
And become the holy one
But remember I am human
And I'm bound to sing this song
So hear my voice
Remind you not to bleed
I'm here
Saviour will be there
When you are feeling alone oh
A saviour for all that you do
So you live freely without their harm
So here I write my lullaby
To all the lonely ones
Remember as you learn to try
To be the one you love
So I can take this pen
And teach you how to live
What is left unsaid
The greatest gift I give
So hear my voice
remind you not to bleed
I'm here
Saviour will be there
When you are feeling alone, oh
A saviour for all that your do
So you live freely without their harm
Saviour will be there
When you are feeling alone, oh
A saviour for all that you do
So you live freely without their harm
When I hear your cries
Praying for light
I will be their
When I hear you cries
Praying for life
I will be their
I will fight
I will always be there
I will fight
Yeaaaaaaahhhhhh!
As I finished, Blackies tears dried and she calmed down.
"Lass," I looked up and saw the company staring at me in awe, and Bofur continued his question. "Where did you learn that song? And why did you scream in it? Were you in pain?"
I chuckled, as did the girls. "That Bofur, was called Saviour, by Black Veil Brides. They are my absolute favorite band back where we were raised. And I screamed because that's part of the song. They have a lot of songs that scream, nearly all of them, in fact." They all nodded. Balin spoke up.
"Lass, do you think that you can sing a song that describes girls like you from the other world?" I looked at him questioningly. "As in, how you feel about it just being you girls against that cruel world?" Understanding came on my face.
"You mean can I sing a song that describes how we feel about not having parents." He nodded. I thought and Blackie and I looked at each other.
"This next song is called The Strays, by Sleeping with Sirens."
Hubcaps and ashtrays
I was born but I wasn't raised
The big wheel the black space
Tried my best but wasn't praised
Hell is so close to Heaven
Hell is so close to Heaven
Hold on don't look back
You know we're better
We're better than that
Lost and thrown away
You know we're better
We're better than that
We are the strays (whoah)
We are the strays
Train tracks to the stage
Play that role
The one you made
Long nights and the worst days
Lived it all but didn't break
Hell is so close to Heaven
Hell is so close to Heaven
Hold on don't look back
You know we're better
We're better than that
Lost and thrown away
You know we're better
We're better than that
We are the strays (whoah)
We are the strays
My whole life they said I'd be nothin'
Well I'm somethin'
And I would rather be the stray
Than be nothin' to no one at all
Us girls began doing the whistling part to this, then went back to singing.
Hubcaps and ashtrays
I was born but wasn't raised
Hold on don't look back
You know we're better
We're better than that
Lost and thrown away
You know we're better
We're better than that
'Cause we are the strays (whoah)
We are the strays
The dwarves clapped and whistled. Us girls smiled, and I yawned. It was dark after all, and all of this exercise with my injuries got me worn out.
Kili looked at me and smiled an adoring smile, and I gave back a hesitant one which caused his smile to widen as he walked up to me.
"Come amrâl. I believe it's time for you to rest." he offered me his hand and I hesitated. I did not know if what I did would deter him or not, but apparently not. Maybe this time I won't ruin it. Nearly dying made me rethink my decisions. So I took his hand.
As we came upon my room (of which Lord Elrond had told me I now had), we stopped outside my door, and I looked at Kili. He was looking at me with such adoration, and something also that I can not describe. I slowly, hesitantly, reached my hand up and stroked his face, causing him to close his eyes and sigh, leaning into my hand.
"Kili." I whispered, and his eyes opened. "I don't know, anything about any of what's going on between us. Perhaps it's because I've never had it before, or maybe it's because I'm just that clueless. But I'm willing to take a chance with this." His eyes lit up and he laughed, picking me up and spinning me around. As he set me down he kissed both my cheeks and my nose and my eyelids. This action caused me to smile. "But you need to be careful with me Kili. I am so insecure about everything, I will more than likely doubt everything you say."
He smiled and held my hands in his warm ones. "I know amrâl. I will do whatever it takes to make you confident in my love for you. Even if I have to fight mister Dwalin." he shuddered at that causing me to giggle. My eyes widened and my hand went over my mouth. I never giggled. This caused Kili to grin smugly and I slapped his arm.
"Goodnight Kili." I smiled and kissed his cheek, his scruff rubbing against my lips.
"Goodnight duzkak." I smiled and went into my room. After I was ready for bed I curled up and went to sleep.