I don't expect anyone to understand what the hell I'm talking about, but I will try to explain it as best I can.
I'm Nathan B and When I was growing up, I had a troubled childhood if anything, I don't even think I had a single moment that gave me joy from Wanye.
When I was 6 years old, my mother divorced Wanye. Admittedly, I had never really talked or seen my mom; the only exception to this would be her going to my graduations or giving me gift cards for my birthday.
Now let me cut to the chase. My "Dad" or Wanye is a Abusive narcissist. He will always say he loves you deep down, and he will never hurt you. But then he will slap you across the face if you dare to mention mom or get a C in math class.
Bella and Brain, despite being 4 years older than me, were not good siblings either. They would always blame me for mom leaving, slam me to a wall, or just torment me in any way they could.
Growing up, I wish I could have told one of my teachers what was going on, but no, I was too afraid of getting another beating, like that time I tried to call CPS before, but they just didn't do anything.
I hated listening to their insults, I hated being used as a punching bag for them, and I hated living there.
But I had my own way of coping. In my younger years, I would watch a lot of cartoons. I wanted to live in their worlds and have parents that would actually love me. To me, they were not just cartoon characters but actually real friends.
Eventually I got older, and by the time I got to the 8th grade, I stopped watching cartoons due to me being "too old." So my new coping mechanism was to bully other kids, and yes, I did get expelled for punching one of my classmates in the face because I was pissed at him for something.
Now the incident happened in 7/9/2012. I was at a beach party. Basically, I was ready to leave. It was getting dark outside. But me being an idiot, I decided to drink while driving. I was alone, so no one got hurt beside me.
The last thing to remember before fainting was drive at high speed and crashing into a Pole. When I woke up I was in a hospital room wearing an Oxygen mask. The middle of the Room was a tv playing some 60s sitcom playing on Nick at nite.
Then Out of Nowhere A catdog episode started to play, My god that Tribby episode.
For context sake Because I assume most of the people reading this don't know who Eddie the squirrel is.
Eddie the squirrel is a recurring character in catdog who always tries to join the greaser dogs aka one of the main antagonists of the show, But can't because he is either too weak or too small to join them.
The episode begins with Eddie playing some Pokémon card bootleg with some random background character in nearburg park.
"I Won I Won I Won!"
Eddie spoke in his usual hyperactive voice.
As Eddie celebrates his victory, he sees Catdog (mainly Dog) tired to a tree branch and Cat dangling, getting hit by the greasers using baseball bats, treating Cat like a pinata.
"Last one to knock Catbutt's teeth out. Get's all the chew toys."
Cliff yells.
As the greasers laugh and torture the catdog, Eddie walks up eagerly.
"Hey, can I do it? Can I!"
"Don't You Have School Today?" Get lost, pipsqueak."
Shriek said nasty
"No No No I can beat the Snot Out of catbutt Watch this"
Lube gives Him his baseball bat, Eddie tries to hit Cat but hits himself.
The greasers start to laugh even harder than before
As Eddie keeps trying to hit the catdog and keeps failing, The greasers quickly get bored and walk away.
As Eddie and the greasers Walk away Catdog quickly unties themselves
"Cat, why is Eddie so Weird?"
"I don't know, He was probably hit on the head as a child"
"But he is a Kid"
Dog joking said
It transitions to a new shot with Eddie standing out the greaser's hangout, knowing on their door.
Cliff opens the door, looks down at the squirrel, and with frowns
"What do you want, Pipsqueak?"
"Look, I know I messed up, but I can be a very important member. Just give me a chance, please."
The Bulldog stops and thinks for a second and grabs his other members to discuss putting Eddie on the team.
"Should we let Pipsqueak on the team?"
Shriek asks with this
"Will let's see how loyal he is first, Right Lube?"
"Yeah."
The greasers Look back at Eddie with grins on their faces.
"Alright Kiddo, Will let you join, but first you have to complete this list to become our 4th member."
Eddie gets into an army man's pose
"Yes Sir"
And Zooms out of the Hangout leaving a Trail of Fire
I'm basically going to summarize most of the things because I don't want to waste your time. A lot of the things Eddie did were make Catdog's life an absolute hell, drop paint on them, eat their book from the mail, and graffiti their house.
When the montage was going on, I got a strange feeling of déjà vu. The scenes are similar to what I did in high school. I dropped paint on a girl's head, I destroyed one of the library's books, and I graffitied Michael House.
The scene cuts to Eddie walking Back to The Greaser's hangout.
"Your Back, Allright!"
Shriek yelled
"Don't Worry, I did all the tisk, NOW CAN I JOIN CAN I?"
"Chill your jets kid, before you can join you have to do on last thing one last thing."
Cliff plays Out the baseball bat from when the beat up catdog at the beginning of the episode.
"For you to become a true greaser and you need to do is beat up CatButt"
Eddie, looking like a dumb puppy with the bat, runs outside to search for Catdog.
Catdog was walking in the middle of Nearburg at night, looking beaten up.
"Cat I know it's been a rush day, but don't let the greasers take you down."
"Or Me"
Cat and dog look, and they see Eddie looking like a horror movie villain with his silhouette covered in darkness holding a baseball bat.
Catdog, fearing for the worst, starts running away from him but ends up in a dead end alleyway.
"Hear kitty,kitty."
Eddie starts to beat the Living crap out of catdog
"I'm finally a greaser; after doing everything for them, I'm finally having a family."
"That's it! All this torment you put us through is for you to join those stupid mutts!"
Cat said with rage in his eyes, stopping the baseball bat.
"They treat you like a goddamn ragdoll, and you considered them "family." If you died tomorrow, they would not care at all."
Eddie is attempting to defend himself and the greasers.
"But they are the most powerful and coolest in nearburg."
"FOR CHRIST SAKE, THEY DON'T FUCKING LOVE YOU, NATHEN."
I'm not making this up. Cat said my name—my own fucking name!
"Eddie, you don't need someone to punch you round, bully you, and just treat you like an object."
Eddie drops his baseball bat and starts to think about all his interactions with the greasers.
"So pipsqueak, you finally had the guts to Pound Cat Butt. You're officially a Greaser."
As the greasers celebrate their new member, Cat and Dog look at them in disgust and walk away.
It cuts to a new scene of The Greasers Finally giving Eddie his Leather jacket at their hangout and celebrate eating a bunch of junk food. Expect of Eddie; he doesn't eat at all; he just sits on his chair staring at his food, not saying a single word.
Cliff see this looks ask Eddie if he was ok.
"Hey Pipsquek You allright?"
"No no I'm fine"
Eddie decided to leave the greaser's hangout. He wanted to trash his new leather jacket, but Eddie didn't have the strength to trash his new gift.
He walks away, and the ends fade to black.
I had to stay in the hospital for a few more days until I got better. After I was able to use my phone, I posted a simplified description of the episode on my Facebook page so anyone who knew what the episode was called could tell me.
Most of the comments I got were not helpful at all; those are the ones I remember before I deleted the post.
"Are you sure you didn't watch a weird version of Squirrel Dog?"
"Nice Fanfic"
"Yeah, I'm calling BS."
It has been over 10 years since I saw that episode. A lot has happened: I have moved out of Wayne's house, I have sent an apology to all the people I hurt, and I work for a charity that stops child abuse.
If you are still reading this, I will like to say thank you, and if you are in the same situation I was in, just know you're not alone and there is light at the end of every tunnel.