Set season2 but changed some character timelines/ storylines
I will put music she will listen to a lot of the time in the story and maybe play it as you read the story as it will help understand her emotions and really match the vibe.
Tw:ed,sh, panic attacks,drug usage,cigarettes
Rosie Shepard Montgomery, you know her name but not her story.You know her families stories bit do you know hers.Anger is rattling through her brain as her parents fighting lead them to forget the thing which they were so grateful about.Neglected and forgotten Rosie learns other ways to deal with her pain.
Back-flash-8 months before the New York Scandal
Rosie 13 yrs
Rosie was listening to cry by cigarettes after sex on her earphones as her parents had there usual screaming fits.It was all her fault,all arguments were due to her actions her fucking up everything she does in life.She believed this as she was forgotten in the midst of the battle.She sat with her head leaning against the stair bannister tears filling up her eyes.This time the arguing was different,Derek eyes didn't have the usual softness they were full with hatred and disgust.She saw Mark leave the house earlier knowing he fucked her mum.She screamed and sobbed why she did this as Derek just got home from work overhearing the conversation.They wouldn't be having this argument if it wasn't for her dumb sob show.
Biting her nails anxiously Rosie watched as her Dad aggressively threw her mum to the raining pavement.As she got back inside he said he would leave and Rosie begged for him to stay but he didn't even have to decency to look at his own daughter.Almost ashamed of her,he left without a word ignoring the family he spent decades of his life with.
Rosie felt numb,she couldn't talk to anyone,her Mum cause this horrible breakup and her Dad couldn't even say goodbye to her.She sat in her room with a wet towel and decided for the first time she wanted to release her anger through harming herself by taking apart her pencil sharpener with a screwdriver .She angrily slashed a razor to her upper thigh knowing no one would care,She winced in pain but felt a burst of relief watching the crimson beads of blood appear on her leg.No one would even realise the fucked up trauma the once innocent 13 year old was going through.
Present day
'I have loved you for many years, maybe I am just not enough'
Rosie was in the spring term of 8th grade in Biology.She tapped her fingers on the desk looking outside the window as the teachers wrinkled finger passed back the end of term exam.Fuck, she got a D.She has a death sentence waiting at home if they care enough to realise.
Her mum and dad went to couples therapy every week.She knew it didn't work,they knew it didn't work,their marriage was unfixable long before counselling was mentioned.Derek had been banging some girl half his age called Meredith anyway.
Rosie had been skipping lunch ever since in the locker rooms when the popular girls said to her that they would rather be dead then a obese unfuckable ugly bitch like her.She just threw away her lunch on the way to school and her parents were never there in the morning to monitor her breakfast.She was still eating dinner but that was planning to change.She was already self conscious thinking her thighs were to big,stomach not small enough,boobs too big,neck to short,teeth not straight.Those girls were jealous cause in reality she was a truly beautiful girl.
She had blond hair cascading down her back with balayage and layers.She had shimmering bright blue eyes which could light up the darkest room.She was five foot seven and truly looked like a Victoria secret model.That doesn't mean she ever had the confidence to feel like one.
She walked home from her new school which she hated fully hearted waiting for her parents wrath due to the once straight A student going down to a D.