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A/N: So we're 50 chapters in y'all. And yes. I know they're still not together. I'M SORRY! The good news is, I've written all the way to chapter 72 and they have FINALLY had their first proper kiss. They're still not together yet, but they are on their way there :D As of Today we are officially going to be doing double updates, hopefully all through 2019. I'm also hoping to do some triple updates, and even some weeks where I do an "Update every day". I'm trying really hard to keep us going, but I make no promises about it cause I got stuck on Chapter 70 for two weeks and I feel super behind. But hey, when I was stuck I wrote like 7 future chapters for later in the season and for in season 5 so that's something right? Anyway, enjoy the update, as always tell me what you think cause I love hearing your input and I'll see you on Tuesday!

P.S. GUYS! I only got two votes on the level of smut and they're WILDLY different. Please tell me what you guys think about the level of smut. I wanna know what you guys would like. Are we for full smut or do you want lower doses? I gotta know guys!

Chapter 50

Rowan woke up and turned her head over to where Alex was sleeping. He had fallen asleep in his clothes. No doubt too tired to change when he got back from his gig. She usually went to his gigs but she got back from the prison late last night and had been too tired to go. He had an arm draped over her body in his sleep, loosely. Not the way Steve used to cling to her. Not the way she was used to.

She really needed to stop faulting him for doing things not in the way she was used to. It wasn't his fault she was used to Steve. It was hers. And she couldn't keep holding him to that standard.

She slid out from under his arm, not because she didn't want him holding her, but because she felt guilty. There was so much that she felt guilty for. She felt guilty that she still wasn't over Steve. Alex deserved her full emotions not just the parts she could give him. She felt guilty for visiting Wo when she knew it upset Steve as badly as it did. She felt guilty for visiting Wo Fat when she knew the Governor thought she could change him into a better person, and she should accept him for who he was the way he accepted her. Guilty for not trying harder to get home. Guilty for leaving her family behind, for being stuck here because she had fallen for a man who hadn't fallen for her.

Well… Alex deserved so much more than what she had to offer. But for now, she had to do something, so she'd make him breakfast. So she snuck into the kitchen, and quietly went about making him pancakes, with a bacon smilie face and banana eyes. His favourite.

Today was a baking day. She had been baking a lot lately, it had gotten so bad at one point she was baking every day. Which had not been good for anyone, everyone was putting on weight because of her. So she had started to bake just once a week. On Saturdays. But baking was something she did when she was sad. No one had caught on to that yet.

She couldn't be too sad though. Because Kono had invited herself over for baking days. And every Saturday she never failed to show up. That meant at some point in the next few hours Kono was going to be at her door and she'd be asking her some distinct set of questions that Steve had sent with her.

Since she wasn't talking to Steve at that moment, not since he arrested her and all of that, he had to find some way to know what she was doing.

Rowan was halfway through finishing her pancakes when the knock came at the door. She put the pancake she was currently making on the back burner and went to answer the door. She hadn't thought to change because Kono had seen her in her pyjamas a million times but when she opened the door it wasn't Kono waiting for her.

"Hi," Adam said. He was dressed nicely, grey slacks and a blue dress shirt. "Kono caught a case, so she sent me instead."

Rowan blinked her eyes. Oh My God. Why hadn't Kono told her that? She still had bed head, no makeup, and she was wearing short shorts and one of Steve's shirts. This was not the image she wanted Adam to associate with her.

"Uh… okay… uhm…" she said. "Alright, you come in. And I'll… uh… you know what. Can you finish that pancake on the stove? I'm going to go get changed really quick."

"Sure thing, take your time," he said as he walked towards the stove.

Rowan did not take her time. Once she was out of eye-sight she threw herself into the room she shared with Alex to find something suitable to wear. She threw on the first pair of shorts she could find and then the first shirt that matched. She didn't have time for makeup but she was definitely going to do something about her morning breath

From the bed Alex groaned. "Can you be quiet?"

Rowan crossed to him and kissed his exposed cheek. "Sorry. I got happy pancakes for you when you're ready to wake up," she whispered to him.

"Ugh… I'm too sick for sugar," he snapped and then rolled further into the bed to get away from her. Rowan sighed. Well, she deserved that, kind of. Not really, but she'd let it go. She quickly rushed to the washroom dragged her fingers through her tangled curls before hastily braiding it back the best she could. She gargled some mouthwash, promising to brush her teeth once she got a chance to and then returned to the kitchen, putting on an air of confidence like she didn't just rush through her whole morning routine.

"Your arm is looking good," Adam commented, plating the pancake.

Rowan nodded. "Yeah, I don't need the sling as much anymore," she admitted.

"So, what are we making today?" he asked changing the topic entirely. Rowan's eyes narrowed. If Adam was here to fish for information, he was doing a horrible job at it. As the son of a Yukaza boss she thought he'd be better at it.

"I promised to make Grace cookie dough cupcakes," she said. "Don't tell Danny, he explicitly told me not to."

Adam laughed. The sound rich and warm, kind of like Steve's in the night time. God she needed to get Steve out of her brain. Luckily Adam was talking and he sounded nothing like Steve. "You and Grace must be close, I believe Kono mentioned you do the Aloha girls with her," he said.

"Yeah, I'm a volunteer troop leader. I'm in charge of guitar playing and snacks," she said. "And I'm not allowed at anymore camp outs."

Adam laughed again, this time deep and booming. "Yes. I heard you and Steve are both banned."

Rowan hid her smile as she went about collecting all the ingredients and utensils she'd need to make the cupcakes. She didn't know what to say. She didn't want to talk to Adam about Steve she wanted to forget about him and the pain in her heart over him. She had to get over him. She had to.

"Speaking of Steve, I suppose I was curious about a few things," Adam suddenly. Rowan was so startled by the admittance that she dropped the mixing bowl on the counter, where it clattered terribly.

Rowan glanced up to him and found him staring at her with a thoughtful stare. "Kono asked me to ask you a few questions," he admitted. "Sounds callous but they're worried about you and you're not answering their questions. So they've resorted to subterfuge."

Ok that was fair… except flat out asking her wasn't exactly subterfuge. "I understand, what are your questions?"

"Mostly about Wo Fat," he said. "Something about him sending you packages. About you visiting him in prison. They're curious as to how the Governor thought that could be a good idea?"

Rowan scowled. Of course it was all about Wo Fat. "They also asked about your arm, how things are going with your music. When the next gig you'll be singing at is. So it's not all about information for Steve."

Ah so Steve had mostly sent him and Kono here and he wasn't every the slightest bit interested in her personal life. Great. Wasn't that just a blow to the ego? Rowan shook her head lightly. It was okay. It was to be expected. He had Catherine. She had Alex. She was sticking to Wo Fat like glue, that had to be pissing Steve off. Why would he want to know about her social life if she was angering him the way she was?

"I went to the Governor because Steve only answers to him and God. The Governor was just easier to access," Rowan told him. "I… well… l made it seem like Wo Fat could be reformed. So he lets me continue to visit him."

"I never did business with Wo Fat, but my father did. My father… he feared him," Adam said. "Called him ruthless. Is that not how he is with you?"

Rowan shook her head. "No. Not anymore. Not for a while," she whispered.

"But he shot you," he reminded her.

"He was cornered. He's a sociopath with no internal compass that points to right or wrong. He was cornered and he thought hurting me enough to send me to the hospital would keep Steve and the other Five-0's from following him. And he was right," she said. "It was a terrible thing, but I believe he's sufficiently sorry for causing me that much pain."

"And why do you say that?"

"The way he said it. The way he acts. It… well… it reminds me of my brother," she said. He opened his mouth probably to ask her if she actually had a brother but she couldn't think about Trevor without crying and she didn't want that to get back to Steve. "When he's with me I feel like I'm home. Like really home. Like no matter what I do, illegal or not, he'll have my back. In fact he encourages the illegal. It's quite terrifying. But I think he cares about me in his own weird way."

They were quiet for a minute before she dared to whisper: "Please don't tell Steve. He wouldn't understand. He doesn't understand. And if I tell him about my family he'll make me look for them and I just… I just can't."

At that moment the door opened and Alex came out in his shirtless wonder. He was definitely built because Steve was jacked compared to him, but he had some nice definition and tone to his body. Still he was nice to look at so she did that now, hoping that the smile on her face was an appreciative one and not an absent one.

"Ohh, you're not Kono," he said. "I got excited to see Kono in her special cooking outfit."

Adam raised one of his eyebrows in concern and turned that look onto Rowan. "Special cooking outfit?" he echoed.

Rowan smiled. She opened a drawer and handed him an apron and a pair of oven mitts. The apron turned him into a mermaid and the oven mitts were lobster claws. He saw them and almost laughed. "Ah, that's what you mean," he said as he went about putting them on.

"Geeze, no need to worry I have no interest in girls who could easily kill me with a flick of a wrist," he said as he crossed to Rowan. He kissed her cheek good morning and whispered: "Did I hear something about happy pancakes?"

"On the counter. They might be a bit cold," she told him.

"Don't even care. That's what microwaves are for," he said lunging for the plate. "I swear to god, if someone told me that you put crack in your pancakes I would just say I knew it and then demand you make me ten more."

Rowan shook her head and began to measure up her flour. "What do you have lined up for today?"

"A noon shift," he answered absently shoveling another mouthful of pancakes into his mouth.

Rowan abruptly stopped, double checked the time on her phone, the new one Alex had bought her with Wo Fat's blood money. "But Alex, that's in thirty minutes."

Alex dropped his fork looked at the time on the clock and then yelped a string of curse words. He rushed out of the kitchen with his pancakes heading for the bedroom.

"Don't take those in there. I'll pack them up for you!" she called but was met with a hurried response of: "No time!"

She went into the fridge and pulled out the lunch she had made him and then waited patiently with Adam smiling on beside her like he was enjoying this thoroughly. Alex came rushing out of the room, all ready to go, looking dashing in his skinny jeans and tank top. He threw the plate in her direction that Adam snatched out of the air before she could fumble with it, and Rowan tossed the lunch bag at him.

"Bye babe! See you after work!" he called and then he was gone.

Adam put the plate in the sink and in the wake of the quietness of the apartment he said: "You don't have to worry. I won't tell Steve."

And then he clapped a hand to her shoulder.

Just that touch send electricity flowing through her. Immediately images were overwhelming her, videos were mashing up playing over one another. She lost her breath, it was just gone, she couldn't breathe. There were so many terrible things flashing in front of her eyes ending with one terrible bloody gunshot.

Rowan gasped and backed away from Adam who was trying to steady her. She looked up to him surprised but what she had just remembered. The memories of a TV show she was starting to forget. It had been four days since she had forced herself to have a vision and the one from Doris hadn't been even half as potent as this one.

"What is it? What's wrong?" he asked.

"You're going to kill your brother," she whispered. Adam took a step away from her horrified shock dawning on all of his features.

"No I'm not," he said in a shaky voice.

"You do. He's going to try and kill you. He's going to try to kill Kono. So you kill him first," she told him. "And then you go on the run."

"No. No," he said shaking his head. "You're wrong."

"I'm never wrong," she said her voice barely above a whisper. Adam shook his head. But he must have been able to see that she wasn't going to listen to reason.

"I need to leave," he said quickly taking the apron off and tossing it at the counter.

"Okay," she said absently. "But Adam… he's framed Kono for murder."

Adam paused at the door. He stared at her, his eyes wide with fear. He said nothing as he shut the door behind himself and then Rowan was left alone once again. Like she always was in this apartment. All alone.

She looked at the baking supplies on the counter. How was she going to back cupcakes with one arm? How was she going to save Kono from this? What came first? Doris' heist or Kono's almost arrest? Did it matter? This wasn't supposed to be her life anymore.

She wished someone would tell the visions that.

H5O-H5O-H5O-H5O

Steve walked shoulder to shoulder with Danny. Danny, who was down in the dumps because Gabrielle hadn't come back like she said she would, had been grumpy and sulky all morning. Steve was trying to be supportive. Trying to make him feel better. But he wasn't good at that sort of thing. This was a Rowan thing. But he didn't want to say to Danny: "Hey do you want to talk to Rowan about it? I can't make the call for you, but I'll cover for you if you guys wanna chat on the phone while the rest of us deal with the crime scene."

He couldn't do that though. He wouldn't. Because if he couldn't talk to Rowan, then no one else should. That was selfish. He knew it was. But it was how he felt. It upset him to know that Kono would be with her right now baking and laughing and asking her questions. He wanted that. He wanted Rowan's laughter. Rowan's smiles. It killed him that he couldn't get that anymore. More than he cared to admit.

"Did she give you a reason?" he settled on asking. Because that was pretty standard right? Someone didn't just up and stand someone up for no reason. And a nice person, which Steve thought Gabby to be, gave their boyfriends reasons for standing them up.

"A reason why she's staying in Morocco or why she stood me up at the airport?" Danny snapped back and Steve tried not to groan. Of course, Danny was going to make the question offensive in some way. His hand itched for his phone. Just to dial Rowan's number and go: "Here, deal with him." But Rowan wouldn't pick up his calls anymore.

He sort of deserved that. Not really, but he got it.

"Either," he said with a shrug.

"She got offered a fellowship, she decided to take it. I guess she didn't wanna hurt my feelings. I mean, I sort of thought we had something nice going, but if I cannot compete with sandstorms and artifacts, I guess it was time to re-evaluate anyway, right?" Danny said.

Steve frowned. That was bullshit. She could have talked to him. She could have said something. She didn't have to leave him standing in at an airport with his daughter looking like a dofus. If Gabby ever came back it was going to be hard to be civil with her after this incident. Especially now that Steve was going to be stuck dealing with a sulking, depressed Danny for the foreseeable future.

"Hey," they said together to Chin and Max who were waiting for them above a rather deep looking grave.

"So the victim's name is Chad Torez. He's a security guard with Kalauna Excavation," Chin told them. "They were out here searching for something. Not sure what for, just yet, but the Governor had them out here surveying."

Hmm… that was interesting. The Governor had sent someone out there to look for something. What the hell could the Governor could be looking for way out here?

But Chin breezed right on by that little tidbit. "According to his supervisor, Torez was out on patrol last night when he radioed in a report about some trespassers. Based on some footprints, it looks like he was chasing them down, he fell into the hole and the suspects circled back and shot him," he said as he pointed out towards the field.

Kono appeared from behind Chin and Steve nearly jumped out of his own skin. She was there? Not baking with Rowan? Well how was he going to get his answers now?

"H.P.D. just found some fresh tire tracks about a hundred yards over. They're getting casts," she said. "It's weird, I spoke to the foreman. He said these holes weren't here a couple of days ago. He says they were still trying to figure out if there were more bodies here."

"More bodies?" Steve asked.

"Yes. Turns out the Governor got some intel a week ago which led him to believe that this may be a Yakuza graveyard. He sent them out to confirm, but they hadn't started digging yet," she confirmed.

"Where did the Governor get this info?" Steve asked.

Kono shrugged. "He didn't say."

Great, he was going to have to call the Governor. He glanced at Kono again who smiled and said: "Don't worry, I sent Adam to bake with Rowan today. He promised to be discrete in asking his questions and then relay them back to me as soon as he gets some answers."

Oh God. He really was as transparent as a window.

"Uh… Alright… uhm… I'm going to go call the Governor, figure out what's going on here. In the meantime, we're going to need to start excavating. Max are you good to begin?" he asked.

"I'm already making the call," he said pulling out his phone. Steve turned away. His face red, and not from the sun. He was on fire. This obsession with Rowan was getting him burned. He was tired of being made a fool over it.

This had to stop.

H5O-H5O-H5O-H5O

Steve had not been able to get a hold of the Governor. Kono had heard from Adam and it had not been good news either. He had apparently asked Rowan about Wo Fat and the Governor and then she spouted some crazy vision to him, which scared him off and now he was radio silent. Add in Danny's bad news from the morning, and he was pretty certain the Five-0 team was curse.

He'd know for sure if something happened to Chin, of course, but at the moment that theory had not been proven. It was just a gut feeling.

Steve wasn't taking this whole situation well. Something had him on edge. Something about finding out the Governor had sent people to investigate a mass burial site and hadn't told them about it. Danny had a feeling he had jumped to the same conclusion as Steve. That the reason it hadn't been mentioned to Five-0 was because it involve Rowan and Steve was terribly sensitive on matters that involved Rowan.

So like all the many times before, when Steve was on edge, and Danny worried Steve was going to do something drastic that would put Rowan in an uncomfortable position and made Steve look batshit crazy, Danny would step in and distract him.

This distraction took him straight to Max's Coroner's office, as he had information for them. Or… at least he better, because if he didn't Steve may just storm the Governor's office to demand answers.

"Hey Max!" Danny said as cheerfully as ever. "Got anything for us?"

"Actually yes, I was just about to call you," he said smiling at them.

"Well, do go on," Danny pressed, pulling Steve into the room and letting him stand stoically by one of the evidence trays.

"There were 11 holes. Each appears to have contained one body. My chemical analysis of the decomposition fluids within the soil suggest the bodies have been in there from anytime between six months to eighteen years.

"All right, so somebody's been using this field as their own personal graveyard going on two decades. Assuming it's our suspects, I'm guessing they heard the Governor was looking for something up there so they figured they'd move the bodies before the Governor and his people found them," Steve said.

Lazer focus was on. Good. And it wasn't on Rowan. Even better. Danny tried to hide his smile. It was a good thing this was a case. Nothing shook Steve off of a case. Not even Rowan. Thank God. Or there would be a problem.

"The problem is, how did the Governor know? We would have heard of any intel, it would have had to go through H.P.D. first, right? What criminal goes straight to the Governor?" Steve asked.

Danny internally groaned. Aw no. This was a dangerous track. It was the right track to be on, of course. But it was a track that lead to the only person they knew that had gone to the Governor recently and had ties to a criminal that had links to the Yukaza.

"It's Rowan. It has to be," Steve said, almost as if he read Danny's mind.

"I fail to see how you could jump to that conclusion," Max said.

"Because Rowan's been hanging around with Wo Fat, Wo Fat had ties with the Yukaza, it is more than plausible that he knew about this burial ground, hell he probably put one or two of the bodies in there. Rowan just went to the Governor to get permission to continue to see Wo Fat, that must be how she got him to agree. She gave him the location of the burial ground," Steve explained.

Yes. Actually, that seemed to be the most logical explanation. But it was an explanation that meant Steve was going to pull Rowan in for questioning again. Steve was a wreck after the last arrest, Danny refused to deal with that again.

"Okay, but do we actually see Wo Fat telling Rowan Yukaza secrets?" Danny asked.

"The only other explanation is that Wo Fat turned state-side and I think we both know that's highly unlikely," Steve growled.

Touché.

"We don't even know for sure that this is a Yakuza graveyard. Do we have an IDs?" Danny asked.

But they did. And it was the Yakuza.

Danny said a silent prayer for Rowan. She was going to need it.

HEY So JP mentioned that they're having some trouble keeping up with Rowan's back story and plot twists. So since I don't wanna put up a chapter that is just a profile I figured I'd do a little cheat sheet here for you guys. And then if she gets a little more confusing I'll do a more detailed one later on.

Rowan's Birthday is on January 21st, she is 9 years younger than Steve. She was 26 when we first met her in Chapter 1, she is currently 27.

Alex is 4 years older than Rowan, making him 30. In this world Wo Fat is five years older than Steve and 14 older than Rowan. Making him 41 when Rowan meets him for the first time.

Rowan is the youngest daughter of Trenton Pierce and his Wife Roselyn Pierce, who in the H50 world is Roselyn Carter. Trenton is a Cosmologist, which is a scientist that studies alternate realities, this has not changed in the H50 universe. Roselyn Pierce is a psychologist who no longer has a practice and just does charity work. It is unclear what she does in the H50 universe.

Rowan's older brother is Trevor Pierce. He is two years older than her. So when we meet him he's 29 almost 30. In both universes' he is a figure skating coach and choreographer. It is mentioned that he is a bit of a bad influence on her in her world, it is unclear whether or not he'd be in the H50 world too.

In the H50 universe, Trenton and Trevor performed an experiment that is ultimately how Rowan got pulled from her world to this one. It is implied that when Rowan was flickering and being pulled into the void that it was the Trevor from the H50 universe unconsciously trying to pull her to him.

Things that have been mentioned:

- There is some incident in Rowan's past that had her parents worried for her mental state. She doesn't like talking about this incident but it happened when she was about 13 and it's the reason her family moved from Toronto, ON to Victoria, BC

- Rowan has mentioned that she did a stint on Broadway - musical she appeared in is unknown but she was so home sick touring with the musical that her mother went with her - age this happened is unknown

- it is implied that Rowan is a very good driver and that she did not use that skill for good.

- In her universe, Rowan and Trevor were in witness protection after they get inducted into a robbery crew where Rowan was forced to be the get-away driver. This incident is how Trevor met his long term boyfriend Malcolm, an agent with the CSIS, which is the Canadian Security Intelligence Service. It is unclear how this came about, or how they got away, but it is mentioned that somehow, during this time, Rowan broke her leg which had ended her skating career. It is not mentioned whether or not Trevor had a similar experience in the H50 universe.

- Rowan bakes when she's sad. She sings when she's afraid or happy. She's extremely loyal. Rowan has mentioned, singing and skating as her money makers, it is unclear at what level she was doing so and what kind of money she makes though she has implied that her family is rich and that she might have been rich on her own as well. It is unclear whether she is going to continue down that path in the H50 universe.

- It is implied that Rowan did not do well in school.

That's all I can think about right now. Tell me if that helped :D