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A/N: THIS IS IT! This is the chapter where Rowan and Steve come up with their plan on how to get together! Exciting right?! For all of those who worried about Steve's reaction, he is going to realize that he's being dumb and yes, he still has a lot to make up for, and Rowan still needs to stop being so shady so we still have some way to go before they're happily together. There will be a few more bumps in the road (I think there's only one major speed bump after this) but I also promise that there is going to be a lot of fluffy bits for you guys to read so I hope you enjoy those.

So I had a guest give me all these plot ideas, and ask a lot of questions, a while back in a review for chapter 86. I just wanted to say thank you for all the ideas (I'm not really stuck though, I just said that to make the April fools update seem a bit believable) I will say that you called out quite a few future plot lines that will be coming up in later episodes. But you had a few questions that I'm going to answer today, but because they're slight spoilers I'm going to be putting them at the bottom so people who don't want to read them can skip them. Look out for that at the end of this chapter!

Chapter 89

Rowan got released three days after their last case. Chin had taken her back to his place where she was told that the bar she was working out of had fired her… again and Alex was running wild trying to convince them that her music was his in the event of her death. Chin then had to admit that he had knocked Alex sideways when he attempted to break into Chin's place looking for her songbook while she had been in the hospital. It was now always on either her possession or Danny's… or Chin's. He and Grace visited Rowan every day, and when she was cleared to drive again by a doctor, they were going to go on a Sing-Along Saturday, because he couldn't drive, tradition dictated that Rowan had to drive.

But Steve had not come back to see Rowan. He was sulking, Rowan was sad, and Danny was completely fed up. So when he and Grace showed up to Steve's place for Sunday Night football, he was ready to tear Steve a new one. He had just convinced the idiot that he and Rowan belonged together. Why the hell was he pulling away now? All over a decision she made in the heat of the moment while practically brainwashed.

Steve met them at the door and sent Grace off to fend for herself to get food between Kamekona and Flipper and before Danny could ask him to talk privately a minute, Steve was already asking him a question.

"Hey how's Amber?"

"Uh… she's fantastic," Danny answered not sure why Steve was bringing it up now.

"Wow, nice smile, you perked up the second I said her name. You got a serious thing for this girl?" Steve asked.

Danny looked away with a sigh. "No, I mean, I got a thing. I don't think I perked up," he said, he then took in Steve's know-it-all smirk and decided that needed to go.

"How about you and your serious thing? How's Rowan?" Danny snapped and Steve avoided his eyes. "What's going on there Steve?"

"Uh… I hear that she's… uh… she's been discharged," he said. "Heard she's doing well…"

"Cut the crap, why haven't you two worked things out yet?" Danny cried and Steve winced again.

"Because Danny… I don't want to be with someone who was going to leave us for Wo Fat," he admitted. What he really meant was him. He didn't want to be with someone who was going to leave him for Wo Fat.

"Okay, how long did Wo Fat have her at that point?" Danny asked. Steve muttered about two months and Danny asked again: "And how many times did she try to escape him and fail?"

"Well she said about four times, but I don't see…"

"And how many times did that man save her from some guy assaulting her?" Danny asked.

"Twice… but you're not understanding…"

"No, I do understand, Steve. I understand how you feel and I understand how Rowan felt too. She was alone, she thought you moved on without her, she got abandoned by your mother and this man was being nice to her and taking care of her and showering her with gifts. It's understandable that she got a little… confused," Danny argued. "And I happen to have it on good authority that Rowan has been seeing a shrink that has been assisting her with getting rid of those feelings."

"Well… I mean… she still talks to him…"

"Okay. Remember when she was in the hospital and how bad that felt?" Danny asked interrupting him again, Steve floundered with that question. "Remember she said that she hated you and got you suspended but you still wanted to make things work with her because you can't get her out of your head? Remember how it felt finding her in those tunnels when you thought you lost her?"

"Yes Danny, I remember," he whispered, his head hanging.

"So, why are you wasting your time dithering on something that could have happened but didn't?" Danny asked. "Cause me and Chin, we are DONE with this attitude of yours. You are fucking miserable, partner, but I'll tell you what. When things are going good with you and Ro, you're a fucking dream."

"Yeah, I'm a dream?" Steve asked clearly going for sarcasm cause the conversation got way too real there for a moment.

"Yeah a dream. So hurry up and fix it before she finds herself a new main squeeze and you get all pissy again," Danny said patting his friend on the shoulder. "Hey, one last question…"

"Shoot," Steve said ushering Danny into his house.

"What's going on with you and Grover?" he asked which one him a confused looked from Steve. "Well, first you invite him over for Thanksgiving. Then you guys, uh, partner up and now he's in your kitchen cooking chili and watching the game. People are going to think the two of you like each other."

Steve turned back to where Grover was serving out the chili he just finished making and then back to Danny. "He's not that bad."

"Oh no?" Danny said clearly going for the same sarcasm Steve had been using earlier. He had lowered his voice for this convo because he clearly didn't want Grover to hear him.

"No, he's not that bad. I mean, he's a bit… he's a bit thick-headed, but he makes a great chili," he said. Steve was the king of thick-headed people so Danny found this hilarious.

"Oh, that's good. So he's like you, but he can cook," Danny said and then Steve was frowning again.

He glared at Danny as he walked in. "You wanna eat? You wanna eat today?" he asked him.

"No I want you to call Rowan and patch things up," Danny said. "A happy Steve means a happy Five-0, and, since you probably don't know this, I'll tell you that she's happier with you too."

He smiled at his daughter who was sitting down with her bowl of chili now and ignored the aggravated sigh coming from his partner. He thought that went rather well.

"Got room for two more?" Kono asked appearing at the door and everyone turned around surprised. She stood there with Adam's hand in hers smiling at the ohana she left behind to go find him and everyone charged her at once.

They all exchanged hugs and kind words, Chin and Kono hugged long and tightly before she finally got him to let go and Danny was all smiles. His family was finally coming together. Now if he could only get Rowan and Steve on the same page.

H5O-H5O-H5O-H5O

It had been a whole week since Rowan had been released from the hospital. A whole week of people hovering over her and wondering if she was okay. A week of daily check ins with Wo Fat because he had been out of the loop, only knowing that she was in the hospital and in a coma but he couldn't get updates because he wasn't about to call Steve for them. She solved that problem but giving him Chin's number and calling Kong so he could make a special patch that would connected Chin to Wo Fat if there was ever an issue. Other than the days when she snuck out of her doctor's appointments early to have some time to herself, the only rest she got was the Sunday Football day at Steve's like four days ago. She had not been left alone since. Set one ready-to-make oven pizza on fire because she fell asleep and forgot it was in the oven and that was it, you're branded for life.

She was looking forward to a nice night eating takeout food with Kono and Chin while watching TV. The doorbell rang, and since Rowan and Chin had ordered food a while ago, she assumed it was the delivery guy. It was not. Rowan blinked her eyes at Steve and wondered why he was at the door. Was he here looking for Chin? Did he know that she was technically homeless? She could see the Camaro parked outside and knew that Danny had brought him here, but it didn't answer the question of how much Steve actually knew.

"Uh…" was all she could get out of her mouth before Steve put a hand up to silence her. "I know I haven't had the best track record but I swear I'm not here to arrest you and I'm not going to yell at you either."

Oh well that was good. But that also meant that he was here to see her. "Uh… well… okay. But uh… what do you want then?"

"I was hoping that you and I, that we could go for a walk? Maybe talk some things out?" he asked. "Uh… I know you got a thing with Chin tonight but do you think he'd mind?"

Rowan once again was stuck on the "Uhh…" when Chin came forward and said: "Nope, I wouldn't mind. We're still waiting on the delivery and Kono anyway."

Rowan frowned to him. She wasn't sure she wanted to go on this walk, she was tired and her head hurt. But she put on her flip-flops, took the sweater Chin was handing her and then followed Steve out onto the porch and towards the back yard and the beach.

They paused for Steve to take his boots off at the sand's edge and then the two of them were walking. Rowan kept shooting covert glances at him. She wanted to know what this was about but she also was too afraid to ask him.

He brought her to a stop by a palm tree and then sat down under the shade tree, leaving her no other option but to stop and sit down beside him. As soon as they were sitting, he turned to her.

"I don't know how to say this right, but I'm going to try, bear with me okay?" he said. Rowan blinked her eyes at him. She didn't know if this was good or not.

"I… I don't like what's happened to us," he suddenly blurted out. Oh, my, god, what? "I don't like what I've become or how badly all of our interactions end. And I don't… I don't really know how we got here… but I know I want it to stop."

Rowan stared at him. "Me too," she whispered. "But you know… I know you like to blame me, and Wo, and Alex, but it's not all their faults. You helped too Steve."

"I know…" he whispered.

"You keep arresting me," she found herself whispering. "You… you've gotten really… abusive."

Steve looked properly upset by that. "I know. I do. But as soon as Wo Fat got involved, I lost my damn mind. There's no other way to explain it. I know it's not an excuse but… I just… he's taken so much from me… I didn't want him to take you too. He ended up taking you anyway."

"Wo Fat hasn't taken me anywhere," Rowan grumbled. "I'm still right here. I'm still me."

"No you're not," Steve cried. He jumped to his feet. "You have become more and more like him with each interaction. That network, the way you act… Rowan… you're one incident away from becoming him, you know that, right?"

Rowan sighed. "Okay, you know what? Sit down, I got a tale to tell you."

When Steve just stared at her she patted the sand beside her and repeated her command. "Sit, Steven."

Sighing as if it were the greatest burden Steve sat himself back down beside her. "This better be good," he muttered.

"Look, I don't tell people this. Not even back in my… uh… well wherever I come from, so don't go repeating this and seriously… don't laugh… or look at me weird. Promise?" she asked. Steve nodded and she took a deep breath. "Uh… well… There's another reason why Wo Fat and I get along so well. Why I seem to take to this whole criminal life…"

"No Shit you took to it," Steve mumbled and Rowan hit him to shut him up.

"Look… the truth is… uh… well there was a bit of an incident when I was younger and uh, my parents were obviously worried so they got me tested. Which was when we were made aware that I had sociopathic tendencies," she told him. Steve stared at her his eyes wide because he clearly hadn't been expecting that. "Uhm… you see… as it turns out… I tend to forget all about morals if I think my friends or family are in danger."

"Sociopathic tendencies…" Steve echoed.

"Mhmm… I know my rights from my wrongs, and in all normal situations I have a perfectly working moral compass. But threaten my friends or family and well… I throw that moral compass out the window. I still know right from wrong, I just don't give a shit anymore," she explained. "Obviously my parents paid a lot of money to try and fix it, but, really, all I learned was how to hide it. Other than that situation that landed me in a serious car accident, my friends and family aren't usually in life or death situations so it never really came into play… but here… you… Danny… Chin… you all get in danger on a daily basis and well… that side of me comes out more…"

Steve sighed and took a deep breath. "Okay… I'm trying to keep up here, but I'm having trouble."

"Which part are you having trouble with?" Rowan asked. "The part where I just admitted that I have the capability to be exactly like Wo Fat? Or the part where I say it's just sometimes and not all of the time?"

"No. I've seen your capability Rowan. I have no trouble imagining it. What I don't understand is how it brought you and him together?"

"I guess… I guess that's why we get along so well, Wo and I. I don't have to try to hide that side with him, he just… he just gets it and I get him. Sort of. I mean, I understand, I just don't sympathize."

Steve thought about her confession for a bit. He seemed to drink it in before turning to her. "I'm not going to lie, it scares me, Rowan," he said. "To see you like that. To see him mirrored in you. I mean, I feel a little better knowing that it's more a part of you and less his influence but still. You're not like him, you're not like me. You don't have what it takes to back up your rash actions. His safety network will only get you so far and you won't let me… you won't let me help you."

"The point of this is that I don't need your help," she reminded him. "I'm pretty resourceful. Even without Wo Fat. Even without my visions. I'm just as good at getting out of trouble as I am at getting into it."

Steve shook his head. "You're going to get yourself killed. And then you'll be another person Wo Fat has taken away from me."

Rowan sighed at him. "If I get myself killed it won't be Wo Fat's fault. It would be mine," she told him. "I'll say it again, he didn't take me away. Okay? He didn't. I am here. I mean, I chose to move out but I didn't move out of your place because of Wo Fat, I chose to move out because I wanted to do things on my own. And it wasn't really leaving you per say, it was giving you the chance to… you know… live your best life. With Catherine. Like you wanted."

"Like I wanted?" Steve echoed. "Who ever said that was what I wanted?"

"Uhm… well… everyone," Rowan said. "Alex, Wo, even your mother. They said as soon as Wo Fat took me you, she moved in with you. So I just… just assumed…"

"I didn't move her in, she… she chose to move in. It was to comfort me… I was a wreck when he took you Rowan. Ask anyone. Danny, Chin, they'll tell you. I was an absolute disaster," he admitted.

Rowan winced. She had a feeling he hadn't taken it well but what was she supposed to say? "It doesn't matter. You picked Catherine."

"No I didn't," Steve whispered. "That day in the hospital, after you got shot, when I told you that you had confessed that you had feelings for me, I was going to tell you that I had feelings for you too."

All air had left Rowan's body. Oh god. He… he… really?

"You… you were?"

"I mean, looking back, I definitely didn't lead into that conversation the right way. I often wonder how things would have ended if I just told you how I felt first," he admitted.

Rowan lowered her eyes to the sand. Yes, how would things have gone if he had told her? Would she have weakened? Would she have any of the things she had now if she hadn't been forced to stand on her own two feet?

"Why didn't you just tell me after? You could have told me the truth…"

Steve huffed as he thought her question over. "Well… you went off about how you didn't want me after all and all that stuff about Catherine and I guess… hearing you reject me before I could even tell you how I felt, rejecting me, wanting to leave me like everyone else I've ever cared about… well… that hurt a lot, Rowan."

Rowan put her arm around his shoulders and then rested her head against him. "I'm sorry. I'm sorry I keep hurting you."

"The problem is… is… well… I still like you and it… it really has me. You know? Whatever it is about you… no matter what happens or what you do… I still want you," he whispered to her, his head was angled towards her and when she looked up he was so close. Oh god, he was so close.

"I… uh… still like you too," she admitted. "But…"

Yeah there was a big but for her, just like she could see in his eyes that he had one as well.

"You don't trust me," Steve finished.

Rowan nodded. "And you don't trust me."

"Well do you blame me?" Steve cried.

"And do you blame me?" Rowan shot right back. "A P.I. Steve?! You had a P.I. following me… for what? Eight months?"

"Yeah… I paid a guy to follow you for eight months…" he admitted. "But I had to! I was worried about you, I wanted… I wanted to keep you safe and you were being unreasonable. I didn't believe that things were done with you and Wo Fat. He came to visit you in the hospital. And I just... why? Why, Rowan? So he could give you a sympathy card? That didn't make sense to me. And then you proved me right at every turn. Every irrational fear I had, proven right."

"I wasn't really talking to him. Until he was in the hospital, he and I we weren't… we weren't anything. I didn't want to see him, he was… well… he was following me. Like you were," Rowan told him. "And then… well… in the hospital…"

"You forgave him."

"Yes, I… mostly did. He owes me… he's still making it up to me."

"How? How could you look that monster in the eyes and forgive him? After everything he's done," Steve growled.

"Sometimes, when people don't know any better, if they feel like they have no other option, they hurt the ones they care about," Rowan said. "Trevor… he used to do that to me all the time. Lots of terrible things. Not because he wanted to. Not because he didn't love me. But because he didn't think he had any other option and a little bit because he didn't love himself. To me… Wo is like that. And a little bit like you…"

"Like me?" Steve cried. He leant back and away from her and then glared at her. "Take that back."

"Just hear me out. He's like you, except the version of you that you would have become if you didn't go into the Navy. You see… Wo Fat lost the people who cared about him. But he didn't have a Joe White to look up to, and a backup set of people to help him stand up. He lost the people who cared about him, who cared what happened to him and he learned to trust only himself. And that if he wanted something, he'd have to get it himself," she explained. Steve hated to admit it but Rowan had a point. If Steve didn't have the Navy, if he didn't have Joe, or Danny or Five-0, he'd be a completely different person.

Steve shook his head. "You talk to him all the time," he said. "And you can say what you want but you have him helping you with my cases so that means I'm coming up. You talk to him, you're loyal to him and I can't trust you."

Rowan nodded. "That's fair, Steve, but you're a stalker and emotionally abusive," she told him and he winced. "You lead me on, you tell me you don't want me, then act like you do, then push me away and yell at me. You've arrested me, stalked me, and berated me. You tell me you don't want my visions and then come to demand them from me, going even so far as to physically get them out of me. I've done everything I can to tell you to leave and you don't listen. You know for a while there I was genuinely worried that if I had to get help that you would stop them from coming so you could come yourself? And I think… I think that's played into why I kept using that Network, even though it made me uncomfortable. Because if I had them, I didn't have to rely on you."

Steve made this horrified face, one of absolutely terror and shock and she realized she had hit a nerve. She was right. "You would have, wouldn't you?" she asked and then chuckled. "You would have sent Five-0 just to have something over me, wouldn't you?"

Steve sighed. "No. Not to have something over you. Mad at you or not, your safety has always been at forefront of my mind," he whispered. "Just like you keep having visions because you're worried about me."

Rowan grimaced, well he had her there.

"Well we're a right pair, aren't we?" she said with a smile. Steve smiled back at her, a saddened sort of smile.

"Do you think you could get over me Rowan?" he asked. "Like… if we cut all ties? Do you think we could…"

Fear lanced through her at the very thought. No point in lying now. "No," she answered in a soft voice. "Whatever this is… whatever we have… it's strong, and it hurts to ignore it, it hurts to be away from you. Do you think… do you think you could get over it?"

"I've been trying Rowan, so I can confidently say: not even in the slightest," he whispered, and then he kissed her. It was so sudden, one second he was sitting beside, shoulder to shoulder, his nose millimetres from hers, and the next second his lips were softly pressing against her. Fireworks went off in her head, every synapse of her body was on fire. Before she could stop herself or him she had let him pull her onto his lap. She straddled him, her hands on his shoulder kissing him as he clung to her, one hand at her jaw line ever conscious of her injuries. Steve had not complained a single bit about the indecency of the act, pressing every inch of himself into her and that insistent kiss.

"Wait… wait… Catherine," Rowan whispered against his lips, her stupid conscious coming back to her. Where were those sociopathic tendencies when she needed them?

"I know," he whispered, pulling away from her. "Not anymore."

"No?"

"I was leading you both on, I broke up with her that night… before I found out about your injury," he whispered.

Rowan smiled softly at him, he was so insistent on the before, that she knew that her injury hadn't prompted this change. "That's good," she said to him and Steve answered her by pressing another kiss to the edge of her lips and Rowan tried not to press herself into it. There were things that she still needed to figure out.

"So… uh… what do we do now? I mean… what do you want to do?" she asked in a small voice because she was afraid. Afraid of both outcomes. Whether he said he wanted her or he didn't, either option scared her. She couldn't stop herself from tracing the lines of his rippling sinew of his chest beneath his shirt.

"You have to see how much this is killing me, Rowan," he whispered. He lumbered off of her and sat back down in the sand. "I want you so badly, but Wo Fat… I just…"

"No, I get it," Rowan said quickly, sitting up as well. "I do Steve, I feel the same way about you. How do I know that if we get together you won't get even more controlling or abusive?"

"And with Wo Fat in your life, I might actually get like that, and I don't want to be, you know that, right? That I don't want to be that person with you," he whispered. He looked so distraught… like he didn't know what to do and they were both so terribly conflicted.

"Okay, okay, so how about this," Rowan offered. "Friends. Me and you. Friends that maybe, sometimes go on dates and make out. And maybe, maybe if we're better, if we get better and we start trusting… maybe it can go farther than that."

Steve smiled at her, his eyes searched hers. "Yeah. I think… I think I'd like that."

That time when she let Steve pull her head down to his so he could renew their kiss, they both had a smile on their faces.

*Spoilers Ahead!*

So here we have some questions answered, some of this is going to be spoilers, avoid this if you don't want to know what's coming up.

Rowan's family from this universe is going to be making an appearance when I get to season 6. The Trevor missing his sister plot line will be officially closed somewhere in season 7.

Rowan's left behind family will be coming back, but they're a… after I'm done rewriting chapters kinda thing, essentially it's going to take them about 10 years to break through to get to Rowan, but they are coming back and there will be some travelling between realities for both Rowan AND Steve when we get to that point.

Catherine will be making all of her usual appearances, but the circumstances are changed around those times, and she is romantically attached to someone else. (I wonder who?!)

Rowan's low end jobs are for herself, she's doing them to build up a resume, and fo another reason which will be explained in season 5. Even at this moment, she actually is going to be working a very high end, and high paying job, Alex is going to be defeated by her very soon.

Doris will be coming back but that won't be until around Season 7 though she makes a few appearances in season 6.

Matty is coming in season 5 and will be frequently mentioned and around after that… he will also be getting romantically attached to a cast member, you guys can shoot me your theories on who that is going to be.

Gabriel is coming in soon and becomes and major player… except for the fact that he's going to piss off someone very powerful so he won't be as big of a thorn in Five-0's side as before.

Kono and Chin will be leaving but I am going to be bringing them back every now and then, and I am going to be changing a few plot lines around that. Both Tani and Junior will be getting their own OCs to fall in love with, and those characters have already been introduced to the story (bit parts only at the moment) and one of them is going to be a main character starting season 6. The other doesn't come around until season 7.

As for Rowan saying that Steve and Catherine get married, it's going to be revealed that she doesn't quite know the future of the team as seasons were still running when she left and she hadn't got to watch all of them. The Steve and Catherine getting married was a fan rumor going around at the time she was leaving, and she thought if she said it, Steve would be more willing to let her go.

I hope that answered all of your questions. If you have any more feel free to ask! Please tell me if you're super excited for any of these plot lines coming up, feel free to shoot me your theories and any wants and desires you'd really like to see in the story and I will do my best to try and fit them in if I can!