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A/N: How are my wonderful readers on this Monday? So we're here, at the end of this episode, yes I know they never listen to her when they really need to but that's them being difficult. The next chapter is absolutely adorable, so hopefully it makes up for some of the bullshit we've been through and what will be coming next. Don't forget to leave me a review and I'll see you guys on Wednesday.

Chapter 195

They had no choice but to turn back after hours of searching because the helos needed to refuel. Everyone was in a panic. They had found the wreckage of Kono's boat but no Kono. At first they were worried, but then Danny confirmed that the paddle board wasn't there and each and every single one of Rowan's dreams and visions had Kono on the paddle board. Discovering that had given them some hope that Rowan's visions were correct and she survived the initial storm and that they'd find her soon.

But being forced to go back had taken that hope away.

Chin had been so upset that when he asked Steve if Rowan was awake, if he could go to wake her up and ask her help, he reluctantly went home to check on his girlfriend even though he wasn't ready for that magnitude of argment.

He had taken Rowan home after her incident. After confirming with Chin that Rowan's use of the void had been simply because she was trying to isolate the strings and find Kono, she was not opening portals or trying to leave. He left her home, after tucking her in and kissing her lips softly simply so he could feel like she was there and got Nahele to promise to watch her, which he was certain resulted in the kid curled up in bed beside her. He had also briefed Nahele on the situation and promised his kid that they'd find Kono and bring her back.

He had waited for some sort of text message, he had sent one to Rowan for when she woke up. A simple, good morning text me when you get this. And had got nothing though he did hear that Nahele had gotten to school, so either he hitched a ride or Rowan was up and ignoring him.

When he got home he found that Rowan was, in fact, awake, having dropped Nahele off at school and was, in fact, ignoring him. When he got in through the front door, she barely acknowledged him and well… after his outburst last night… he kind of deserved that.

That and Rowan seemed utterly distracted by a bag she seemed to be packing in the kitchen. A bolt of worry ran through him, she wasn't trying to leave him again right? Cause she knew he'd never let that happen.

As soon as he darkened the doorway of the kitchen Rowan said: "I don't want to argue with you."

Well good, cause he didn't want to argue either. "What are you doing?" he asked instead.

"Care package… for Kono," she said and he nodded, good, not leaving him, just being a thoughtful friend.

"You uh… you remember anything from last night?"

"Like you yelling at me?"

"I thought we weren't going to argue," he said softly and she turned her wounded blue eyes to him. Okay, so maybe there were arguing today. "You weren't helping the situation, you were making us feel worse, and we didn't need that, that didn't help Kono."

Rowan turned her eyes away from him. "Fair."

"I shouldn't have yelled at you… but… Rowan I was afraid… I felt… I felt helpless and you… it was like you were trying to make it worse."

"I get it Steven," she said and then turned her back on him. But he didn't want her back turned to him, he wanted her in his arms. Because that simple act of turning away from him brought back visions of a stormy night, his chest constricting tightly and seeing his girlfriend firing bolts of electric energy out into the storm.

He crossed to her quickly and wrapped her up, his chest to her back just like last night, and for a moment he just held her tightly.

"You really scared me," he whispered. "I thought… I thought you were trying to leave…"

"I wasn't," she answered.

"Then what were you doing?" Steve asked because Chin had not been able to explain it in a way that made sense to Steve.

"I was just trying to find Kono. Do you know how frustrating it is to stand on the side with all this knowledge and power and to not be able to use it to help? I could see it, one pink string for Kono lost in that tangle of storm strings and I couldn't get to it and I just… I don't know… I got mad. I got mad and then… I unno… it was like something else took over. It took over and was showing me what to do and then it just all went away."

He knew what sent that away, him, him making contact with her. Because Chin had been clear about one thing and that had been that Steve shut her powers off, which meant all those times Rowan hadn't been dreaming right was probably because of him. As if her feeling guilty about Reyes had nothing to do with it, as if Rowan hadn't admitted it was the guilt over Reyes that caused it.

"I'm guessing since you're here you haven't found her?" she asked.

Steve shook his head and Rowan sighed at him. She went to move out of his arms but he held her a little tighter and pressed a soft kiss to the soft spot behind her ear.

"So what would someone need?" Rowan asked squirming out of Steve's grasp. "She's been lost at sea for what? How long would you say? Okay, so she lost the outrigger not last night but yesterday night. That means she was out all of yesterday and last night and I think… I think most of today…"

She was rambling, that wasn't good. A rambling Rowan was a freaked-out Rowan. Steve reached out and grabbed her hands. "Rowan we have search and rescue teams searching for her, both on the water and in the air. They're out there now. And if you come with me, you can help me. I'm positive that if you were in the bird…."

"No, we don't find her in the air. I know that much," Rowan said prying her hands out of his grip and turning away from him. Steven sighed. Goddamn it. He hated it when her visions were right. She had been so upset they wouldn't listen, he had been so angry with her for taking matter so far into her own hands that she purposely hurt herself, but now, with Kono in danger and Rowan freaking out… well… he wished they had listened to her. He wished they had stopped Kono from sailing.

"Now, I have already put water in the fridge, and got a cooler and ice to put it into when we go off to get her. I have aloe vera for the sunburns, I was thinking of packing some of your rations for her, cause they have all the nutrients she'll be missing and it'll be hard to gorge on those, right? I figured I'd take a few of those disgusting protein bars you think you've hidden from me. I also have a change of clothes, all my softest stuff, cause of the burns right, and then shoes cause she needs shoes, I picked my moccasins cause I figured they'd be the comfiest, and a blanket for the shock. What am I missing?"

Steve just stared at her. He crossed to her, grabbing her hands and forcing her to stand still and just as he suspected the second he got her to stop moving tears flew into her eyes.

Steve pulled her to his chest and held her tightly. "It's going to be okay, we're going to get Kono back, okay?"

"I know, but I don't know when we find her and I want to get her back now and I'm just… what if something happens? What if something already has? What if I'm wrong again?" she said wiping away her tears.

Steve pulled her into his arms. He felt so guilty about last night. Rowan had been trying to help them, had been trying to make them listen, but as per usual they had ignored her. She had been working tirelessly for weeks to avoid this, had put herself in harm's way to stop Kono from going through this and what had he done? He had yelled at her because she made him feel guilty, like he had completely forgotten what she was like when it came to protecting the people she cared about.

But the second she flattened against his chest, the second he put a hand to the back of her head to soothe her, a shock ran through them both and he knew then that Rowan had gotten a vision.

So much for Steve stopping her powers, she just got a vision from him!

She pushed herself out of his grasp, immediately going for the fridge to empty out a bag of ice into a cooler and drop waters in afterwards. "Come on, lets go. We gotta go to the beach."

And that time, Steven listened to her.

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One ferry later and Rowan had them on Molokai. He had called Chin, told him that Rowan had a heading but not to hold out hope. If this turned up nothing he'd be back to help search. He'd bring Rowan with him. Get her to have some sort of vision, get some better heading out of her. He'd've been crazy to not hear the excitement and hope in Chin's voice when he found out. Despite himself, Steve was hopeful as well, Rowan had never been wrong before.

But they were on their third beach and Rowan was standing around looking confused. He realized then that while Rowan had gotten a vision she had absolutely no idea where she was going.

"No this isn't right either…" she murmured to herself and then turned back to head for the truck.

Steve tried to not be mad at her, she wasn't doing it on purpose, but this, this wasn't helping them. This wasn't helping Kono.

So when they got back in the truck, before turning the key so they could start to drive what was probably aimlessly he turned to his girlfriend and asked: "Do you know where you're going?"

"Well… I don't know the name of the beach but I'll recognize it when I see it," she said. "Maybe just drive up to the next area?"

Sighing Steve did as he was told and Rowan looked at him. He was so angry with her, but she wasn't sure what was really wrong. Was it the whole situation? Was it because she had used the void? Was this still about the coma. She wished he would just tell her, and she wanted to ask what it was she had done to make him so… upset… with her but she didn't want to argue. Not now. Not when she needed him to drive cause he had insisted on taking his truck.

Still he did as he was asked, driving to the next beach. He let Rowan get out and then watched as she rushed down to the surf. But he stayed behind, leaning against his truck, effectively leaving her to do this by herself, clearly believing that she'd be asking him to drive again.

Rowan looked out to the horizon, craning her neck to see over the swell of the surf. The sun was high in the sky, she didn't know the time she was supposed to come but she knew it was soon, she knew it. This was the right place she was just early.

"Rowan," Steve called. "I get it, okay?" he said coming to stand beside her. "But your dreams haven't been very… uh… accurate recently, okay? And you're worried, you're worried about Kono. Now I think this is great, that you want to do this that you want to rescue her so badly, but as you can see she's not here."

"She's not here yet!" Rowan clarified and Steve groaned.

"Rowan! We don't know where she is, okay? We could actually be out there looking for her, but instead you have me here wasting our time!" he snapped.

"Fine. Then take the care package out of the truck and leave it here, I will call you when she washes up."

Steve just groaned, "Fine, fine!" he snarled storming away from her. Rowan just stood there, arms cross over her chest watching the waves, waiting, waiting for Kono. She was supposed to be here, this was the beach, she just knew it.

She ignored him as he dragged out the care package to her. When he was done getting everything to her he sighed. "Come on Ro, let's just… let's just go back to the Coast Guard and get you up in the air or on a boat. You'll have a vision for sure, a real vision. It'll be better for Kono then you waiting here on the off chance she washes up."

Rowan shook her head. "She's coming here. There's no point in leaving if she's just going to end up here."

Steve groaned, clearly past frustrated with her. He took four steps away before stopping and saying: "Last chance Rowan, I will leave you here," he snapped but Rowan just stayed facing forward trying really hard not to cry.

"Do what you gotta do, Steven," she whispered. It actually physically wounded her when he walked away to go back to his truck.

She waited to hear Steve's truck door slam and for him to start it up and drive away, but it never came. Instead she spotted something out on the horizon. She squinted at it, forced herself to look at the strings and sure enough a little speck of pink was waving in the air leading straight to that little black dot on the horizon. It was her!

"Steve!" she screamed turning back to him. Steve, who had paused at his truck apparently torn on leaving her after all, looked up. "Look, look there."

He stepped way coming back towards her his eyes looking out to where she was pointing. Shock and understanding dawned on his face. "It's her, its Kono!" she cried running towards the water and waving her arms while calling her name. She was far out but Rowan could see her waving her hands back at them and calling out. She couldn't hear what she was saying but Rowan was pretty sure it was her name.

In seconds Steve and crashed past her, shoeless, shirtless, tossing his phone to her. "Call 911 tell them we'll be bringing her to the nearest hospital. I'll go and bring her in!"

Rowan left the surf, she immediately tore into her care package, she ripped out the blanket, the water, the aloe vera and the slippers. She dropped it all in the sand and then waded into the water, to watch as Steve reached the board. While he treaded and checked Kono out Rowan put in that call to 911 as requested before calling Chin and sending a text off to Adam to tell them that they had found Kono. By then Steve was pulling Kono and her board back to land. Rowan waded a little farther, water bottle ready in one hand, bottle of aloe in the other ready to slather Kono in it.

But as soon as she got close, Kono's sobbing form hit hers. "I knew you'd find me, I knew it!" she said and Rowan just held her back silent tears streaming down her face as she held her friend. Looking up to Steve and his glorious shirtlessness who had doubted her and had almost left her behind.

"I told you," she growled, she meant it for Steve, who had the good grace to turn his eyes away from hers, but it was Kono who said: "I'm never going to doubt you again."

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Between Rowan's incidents and arrests and Steve's job I don't think I could handle anyone else in my new family getting hurt or lost. Please be careful Auntie.

She was already breaking that promise. Poor Nahele, who's life had been marred with tragedy and fraught with stress, was going to get another pile of it heaped onto his young, frail shoulders.

But it was worse for her, out there in the terrible darkness, no stars to guide her, crying for Hawaii. Crying for anything familiar to return to her.

Where are you Hawaii?

Where are you Rowan?

Somewhere in the distance came a cry. A cry supernatural and unreal. She was hallucinating, she knew it but she swore she saw a burst of orange electric right before the clouds cleared above her and there they were.

The stars.

Oh, that had to be Rowan. Rowan you beautiful, wonderful electric goddess! Sending help in the strangest ways. After this, when she got home. Kono would never, ever doubt Rowan again. She'd never give Rowan up to Steven again. She'd be the best goddamn best friend anyone had ever seen. She'd deserve the title Rowan had bestowed upon her.

Before she knew it, the sun was high in the sky. She was burning again, she was thirsty and she was hallucinating her mom again. Her mom showing her the way. But that wasn't all she saw.

Kono saw land. Kono saw people. Kono saw a familiar red head waving out to her from the ocean waves orange electric sparks flying from the halo of light around her head.

That beautiful electric goddess. She knew. Kono knew that Rowan would find her. She always knew.

It was Steven who paddled out to get her. Kono was deliriously happy to see him. He looked her over, put a water bottle in her hand and then let her greedily drink it down while he swam her back to shore. For those few brief moments she could rest. She could lie back on that board, her hand over Steven's to remind herself that he was real and not a hallucination. She was safe. She was found. And she could finally relax.

She fell into Rowan's arms as soon as she hit the beach. Rowan who held onto her, crying happily for her return. Kono would have cried too if there was any water left in her.

After that everything was a blur. She was sure it was Steve who carried her back to whatever vehicle they had taken that day. But it was Rowan she remembered, slathering her in cooling creams and wrapping a blanket around her. But Kono wasn't afraid or worried anymore. She happily let sleep take her, knowing that Rowan and Steve would get her home.

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I found her Chin! I found her!

Why had they doubted her? They had all raced to the hospital. Where Kono was sedated and given fluids. Steven waited for them out in the hallway, but Rowan sat cross legged in the hospital chair still in that grey sweater, Band-Aids littering her arms, chest and legs, her eyes never once leaving Kono's face.

"She's dehydrated, badly burned, malnourished, but alive," Steve told them. Immediately Adam had pushed past him and into the room where he took a seat by Kono's bed to hold her hand. The others stared at Steve, Chin in particular. "She talked a little bit… got a little bit of the story out of her… Rowan was uh… was right… about everything."

"And you should have listened to me," Rowan said moving into the hallway. Though Steven's hands stayed firmly rooted in his pockets Rowan absently attempted to lean against him, clearly too tired to stand up on her own. When Steve didn't sling an arm around her, liked he usually did, she straightened. "Just… listen to me next time please."

That got her a few nods from the others but Chin, he swore he'd always listen to her. He was never going to doubt her again.

"I'm uh… I'm gonna go home," she said, not looking at Steve but instead walking away. "I'm pretty tired and… Adam's here… and all her family. I'm just gonna…"

She didn't even finish the sentence she just shuffled away. They knew that look, that tone, something had happened, with her and Steven probably. Had he told her that she wasn't family again, had he somehow put the idea that she didn't belong with them back in her head? And why wasn't he following after her, why wasn't he making her stay?

"Kono would be dead if it weren't for her," Chin growled to Steve. "I don't care what bullshit argument you two are having, get her back here. Kono will want to see her when she's awake."

Steve said nothing, but went after Rowan. Chin turned back to Danny and pinned him with a dark glare.

"Make sure they both come back," he ordered and then headed into the room to sit with his cousin. He didn't want to make this about Rowan and Steven and he was getting really tired of them getting into arguments like this and taking all of them down with them.

They either needed to figure their shit out or break up.

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Two days after being released from the hospital, two days after spending her time bouncing between Adam's arms and Chin's watchful eyes, Kono was finally allowed to do something fun. The Five-0s had hit her with so many good ideas on things to do on her first official night out with her co-workers and friends, but she picked the one thing everyone seemingly forgot about.

To be fair, though they were reminded frequently, a lot of them forgot about Rowan's Focus groups, they were always busy with cases and their own lives. Though Steven really had no excuse for missing as many as he had. Rowan hadn't even offered her Focus Group as a thing for them to do, in fact she hadn't even planned on coming to the outing. And well… Kono wasn't having that, so she forced everyone go to the La Marina Tiki Bar.

She got them in a seat by the stage where Rowan was in the middle of a set. Kono knew probably a bit more about the gigs Rowan called Focus groups. She knew that her players were kids that wanted the chance to play but didn't have a full band yet, or just wanted the practice. She knew she picked the songs she was iffy about, would present them to the crowd and see the responses. And she knew that Rowan wasn't expecting it so she loved the happy smile that dawned on her face mid line.

I beg to dream and differ from the hollow lies. This is the dawning of the rest of our lives. On holiday!

This set was from her punk rock stream that Kono knew was a request from Alex. Kono had assumed that Rowan wouldn't write for Alex anymore after the attempted law suit for the rights to her song, but if she were practicing them she must have been.

Kono looked around to all her friend's faces. Particularly Steven who had always loved Rowan's punk rock look with those ripped up fishnet stockings, the dark high waisted denim shirts, and this grey tank top with a million cut outs and safety pins stuck into it. Her hair was wild and frizzy, her eyes were smoky, and she was shades paler then she usually was.

Rowan finished her song and the music changed to a slower version. "Alright my wonderful listeners. We played this song last week but I think I've fixed the issues with it, don't forget to tell me what you think!"

The crowd around them cheered and Rowan slipped into the next song.

I walk a lonely road, the only one that I have ever known. Don't know where it goes, but it's only me, and I walk alone.

"She does this every week?" Steve asked as if surprised. Did he not know what his girlfriend did?

"Yeah, unless she's in the hospital or she's too sick or injured to come up here," Kono said. "Didn't you know that?"

Steve stayed quiet but instead let Rowan's voice serenade them as they ordered drinks. Kono tried not to scowl at Steve. She had come to realize that all of them took Rowan for granted, they mistreated her and her network and generally made her feel like an outsider all the time. But no more, at least from Kono. Kono would do everything she had to to protect Rowan from Steve, Rowan could run to her in her time of need, and if she could swing it she wouldn't miss a single gig. From now on Kono was never going to take Rowan Pierce for granted again.