Chapter 4: Hurt

I felt like I had been caught red-handed. Even though I hadn't done anything wrong. I looked over at Sesshomaru. He seemed unbothered by Inuyasha's accusations. More so at the fact that he had barged in all unannounced.

"Who gave you permission to come into my study?" Sesshomaru snapped.

"Don't ignore my question Kagome! Why the hell is going on here?"

I was getting annoyed.

"I am his teaching assistant. He's the new professor at the college. This is the class that I need so I can graduate."

I could tell he was a bit embarrassed. In true Inuyasha fashion, he didn't apologize or back down. He was all about avoiding holding himself accountable.

He folded his arms. "That doesn't explain why you've been ignoring me."

Sesshomaru and I both sat there just staring at him. I hoped he would just leave, but unfortunately, I was not that lucky.

I turned to Sesshomaru. "I am so sorry for this. I'll handle it."

He just gave me a simple nod. I followed him out of Sesshomaru's study and back into his room. He shut the door behind us.

I watched him take his shirt off. Something he hadn't done since he got with Kikyo. Was he doing that on purpose? He must have gotten soaked by the rain, but couldn't he have changed in the bathroom? He dug through his dresser grabbing a pair of shorts and a T-shirt. He grabbed the string on his cargo pants. Then stopped and looked at me.

"I'll be right back." He said leaving.

What game was he playing at?

He came back into the room and he was fully dressed. He jumped onto his bed pulling out his phone. I sat on the window nook looking at him. I watched him texting and smiling. There was only one girl who could be making him smile like that.

Was this why he wanted me in here?

I felt pathetic. I've been by his side since we were kids, but he never once looked at me that way. No matter how hard I tried. I was just his best friend and nothing more. I loved him. I have loved him since we were kids. Every time his father was too hard on him, I was there. When his older brother looked down on him I was there, no one else. Yet I had lost him to someone else. No, he was never mine to begin with. I bit the inside of my cheek.

"What the hell is this Inuyasha?"

"What do you mean?" he asked.

He didn't even look up from his phone.

I was getting irritated.

"Well, you just made a big show and I'm in here. Now what? Aren't we supposed to be talking or something?"

"Talking? About what?"

"Oh, I don't know. You tell me."

He didn't answer me. He just kept typing away on his phone.

"Who is it?" I asked.

I knew. I just needed to hear it. Or anything to speed this conversation along. I couldn't have him interfering with my job like this again.

He stopped smiling and finally looked up at me. "Why does it matter?"

I folded my arms and waited for him to go on.

"It's Kikyo. Who else would it be? She is my girlfriend."

He had emphasized the word girlfriend on purpose. Did he want me to come here just to throw it in my face?

He sighed. "Maybe you should just go home today, Kagome. You've been a bit much lately."

How was I a bit much? I've barely even spoken to you!

That pushed me over the edge. "You're the one who pulled me in here! I didn't even want to speak to you! I wasn't even talking to you! And what's that supposed to mean?"

He sat up putting his phone aside. "C'mon, don't play dumb Kagome. You've been clingier than usual since Kikyo came around. We are not together Kagome. So stop acting like it.

That stung. He just wanted to be a dick. He wants to teach me a lesson for ignoring him.

"How can I be clingy if I haven't seen you !? I never acted li-"

"You do. You always do. It's exhausting to have to coddle your feelings all of the time. I have a girlfriend now. You need to cut it out. Before she starts to realize what you're doing."

I clenched my jaw. "You never once told me to go away. You were perfectly fine stringing me along. So long as it benefited you. You had no issue calling me every time you needed something. When you need a friend, a shoulder to cry on. When you wanted to escape from this stupid house. I was there. It's always me who has been there for you! Now, you're sitting here saying these things to me that you know will hurt my feelings! Now suddenly I'm being a bit much because I don't want to speak to you! Give me a fucking break Inuyasha. "

He just wanted to hurt me.

"You hurt your feelings Kagome. Every single time. I'm a dick Kagome. So don't all of a sudden act like I'm behaving like a different person. This is me. This is who I have always been, and I am always going to be this way with you. I'm blunt. It's not my fault that you're in love with me."

My chest got tight.

He was right. This is who he has always been. For some odd reason, I chose to ignore it. What an idiot I have been.

"Yeah. You thought I didn't know? I have always known. You made it pretty obvious. That you were in love with me. You were always staring at me the way you do. I thought that if I just ignored you. That you would get over your little feelings but no. You've only gotten worse and that could be my fault. You had no one and I kept you close because I felt bad for you. Too close apparently."

"I hate you," I whispered.

"Yeah, sure you do. Who are you fooling? Even a blind man could see how you feel about me, and since you can't have me. You're keeping it in the family and trying to go after my older brother. Now you're using some stupid position as an excuse. I expected better from you Kagome. That's trashy. Or maybe you were infatuated with me since you moved on so quickly. I bet it hurts. The fact that it will never be you. I will never love you kiss you. Or hold you the way you want me to. Do to you what I do to Kikyo. You can just stop now. Stop trailing after me like some lost puppy. Just give up Kagome, for both our sake. Oh and leave my brother out of it too. Sesshomaru doesn't take too kindly to being used."

All I could do was just stand there and stare at him. I couldn't believe what I was hearing. He shoved his hands in his pockets and looked away from me.

He just wanted to hurt me, and he had succeeded.

I grabbed my things and ran out into the rain, and didn't look back.