AN:So, I've been rewriting all these fics. You'll be seeing some changes in the story line and hopefully I get in the missing details I forgot the first time around.
Prologue
I've been throwing myself into work.
No me queda de otra because I can't afford to dwell on anything that I'm feeling.
I haven't completely given up hope of getting Aurelío back but it was not going to happen anytime soon. Those fucking lawyers…
With Ryan… we were doing long distance. Pendejadas pero, its not like I was going to leave AI just to follow him around.
Eso jamas.
I wasn't going to chase after any man, wasn't going to change my life around to accommodate him or anyone else.
No lo hise con aquel puto and I wasn't going to start now.
And then… fucking unresolved feelings from a stupid teenage girl that thought she was in love.
Y quien dice que no lo estuve?
That damn kiss…
So… not thinking about any of it… Yep, that's how I was going to move forward.
Quien dice que no puedo, eh? I shoved all those feelings and memories down years ago…. I'd just… I have to do it again.
This thing with Ryan… claro que lo extraño and I…
I can't say it back! Those three words… the 'I heart you' that he can and does.
Often.
So what the hell?
…she didn't drop his gaze. She couldn't… their breaths were synced, his heart beat in tandem with hers,..
"...Te amo…"
He smiled at her, his forehead resting against hers and his lips pressed a sweet kiss to the tip of her nose….
But I couldn't say those words now….
That stupid girl… dijo 'Te amo' and then he was just gone…
Yeah, I know. Obviously there's some connection there but, like I said, not thinking about these feelings. Ok?
Fuck, who am I kidding?
The drive is too long for me not to have all sorts of thoughts tormenting me and once again I'm cursing Angel for assigning me delivery duties. Why couldn't he just send flowers, like any generic dude?
Maybe I did need this sidetrip.
The last sidetrip…
Why couldn't I just say it back?