Leah Clearwater Pov
*Flashback*
26 years ago
I opened my eyes at the sound of my bedroom door closing, and I groaned as the light from the window blinded me.
I laid vertically across Jacob's chest with my hand on his stomach.
Last night happened so fast that it seemed like a dream to me.
I lifted my head a little, glancing towards my door, then up to the top of my bed.
Jacob's tan skin and wild shoulder length black hair, was still sound asleep.
He looked adorable.
I've missed him a lot.
I smiled, for the first time in our lives we were intimate and it was more than I could ever dream of.
I slowly sat up carefully not to wake him, noticing I was completely naked. All I can remember of us colliding like fiery meteors last night. None of which went the way either of us planned.
Vampires were on the war-path and Jacob always saves the day.
I held onto some of the covers, pulling them with me.
"Leah?" Jacob says, suddenly awake. "You alright?" He asks.
Sitting up, leaning into me tenderly.
His palm caressed my right shoulder. It was hot against my cold skin. "Yeah, I'm fine." I said, running my hand through my tossed hair.
We've never seen each other like this before, completely raw and vulnerable.
Part of me is moments from an anxiety attack, while the other half feels like this was a long time coming. Like I spent the whole night at an expensive Spa, with hot-rocks on my back.
I'm nervous to have exposed everything, but he kept ripping my pages at the seams.
Physically, mentally and emotionally, I was alright yet still very timid about it all.
"Are you sure?" He asked, worried as if I just got out of a hospital or something. "If you're sore you can let me know. We… last night was… heavy."
I eyed him. "Heavy?"
He rolled his eyes caressing my hair for a moment. "Seriously, there was so much inside.. I didn't think I would only lead with my body instead of my mind."
I sighed.
It's embarrassing for him to treat me like some damsel in distress, now he regrets how passionate things got.
"Don't worry Mighty Alpha." I said sarcastically. "Honestly. My body and mind are just great. Don't worry so much." I say looking at him.
He narrowed his eyes, wondering if I was lying.
"I'm not as weak as you think, alright?"
"I know that, Leah." He lied. "A lot happened last night. I'm just checking. I'm allowed to check."
"I know, and you don't have to. It's annoying, you're making me feel... .." I trailed off searching for the right word.
"Fragile?" He says.
With a sigh, I nod. "Yes, and weak."
"Sorry, I know it's-"
"Annoying." I said cutting him off. "Give me some credit."
He sighed heavily, then looked away from me ruefully.
"What?" I ask, not liking his regretful expression.
"Nothing." He muttered still not looking at me.
"Telling me." I said curiously as my irritation wore thin.
When he smiled towards me as if I said something beautiful, I kinda narrowed my eyes. "Spit it out, Black?"
"I was just thinking about last night. How much ground we covered. I couldn't think of a better homecoming. I've been away from this place for three years. After the imprint-bond broke with Renesmee." He smirked amused. "I've missed you a lot. I actually thought you weren't going to tell me the truth... but you did. You didn't hold back about how you felt about me all these years. I respect that, and every bit of the truth." He smiles taking me into his arms. "I hate that I hurt you without even realizing it. I guess in a strange way I hurt myself more."
"You didn't make it easy. Yet, You did ask for the truth and I'm so tired of hiding everything." I clarified, with which I groaned out of embarrassment then gave him a light playful shove. "You are worth every little bit of that truth." I say, continuing to hold onto the covers.
"Right back at you. You have no idea how hard it's been without you. I worried for you. I had dreams of you, of us together again. No one has ever been to me what you are right now. A reason to breathe again." He says seriously, then glares ahead straight towards my barely empty closet.
"I've missed you too. I guess we did cover the most ground in like-"
"Ever!" He cut me off and I looked over at him.
Of course his deep brown eyes were gloating and very cocky. "A part of me felt like we were mated for life- did you feel it?"
I bet five bucks that he thinks he has me wrapped around his finger perfectly. "You amazed me." I admitted. "Not that I have much to compare to, but that last night was indescribable."
"So, Do you have any more secrets I should know about?" He asked.
I narrowed my eyes. "Such as?" I ask.
Jacob laughed to himself.
The most beautiful sound I've missed for five years.
"Any past riveting situations from college that I should know about? You were all alone, making new friends… with a whole new slate. I wouldn't be surprised if you made memorable memories." He said, trying not to seem anxious.
Clearly he must have meant other guy situations, as in dating. "How would the thought of me dating be riveting?" I laughed.
"Picturing you with anyone to be honest is very riveting." He shrugged, leaning his back against my headboard. "I'd probably have to get laser surgery if so." He joked.
I pinched his nipple.
"Ow." He laughed. "I was kidding." He says reaching for my waist.
"Sure." I laughed, scooting up to him to lay my head on his bare warm masculine chest. He has some nerve, though I love him for the thought. "No. It's safe to say for five years I haven't dated anyone." I smiled snuggling into him, as he wrapped his arms around me.
"Or... been intimate with anyone?" He pressed. "Me of all people know you can be with someone once and have it mean absolutely nothing."
He was talking about his first sexual experience with the hybrid. I shuddered at the image. He must have felt so guilty at the end. Renesmee was like an adult/child with hypopituitarism in reverse.
He obviously wanted me to make it clear that I've been completely single and alone. What is it with guys wanting to be your first and only.
" me, the only thing that had any hot action from me was that... parasite. Not that I consented to that. It was hard being remotely attracted to anyone after that night."
Jacob sighed a reply. "I get that, and I wish I could kill him again." The vampire's name was Dominik. Jacob killed him last night during our argument about the past.
Jacob assumed I moved away because of Sam when in reality it was due to my hidden feelings for him.
"It's really too bad there's no such thing as a vampire compulsion for them, I would have taken that.."
"You would? You would want to forget everything? Even if it was only to expose him?"
"I don't know, I guess just so I could have kept those nightmares about it at bay. It was all I could think of .. oppose you." I say wanting to keep the mood light, with the now dark subject.
"I'm sorry."
"No, it's fine. Being assaulted by a vampire -let alone one that could read your mind... was beyond revolting. The last thing on this planet that made it even more pathetic was it was my only sexual experience since my days being with Sam. I went through it all on my own. It kept me in the deepest depression. It wasn't until my roommate Elena's cousin Javier gave me a good talk to help me realize that I needed to come home to heal from the pain. She didn't understand at first what was going on with me until I finally told her. Now, I'm happy I'm home." I confessed.
Jacob kept quiet, it was hard to wonder what it was that he was thinking.
"You know, my roommate-Elena always dropped hints that her cousin Javier and I would be a perfect mate. I did think about it.. Him and I. Especially one night when he slept over. I was really sick, so he stayed late and we watched television. Nothing sexual at all, I promise you but I thought I could for once let go of the past. When he hugged me, it was the sweetest thing a friend could ever do for me. He had a crush on me but somehow knew I had feelings for someone else. Nothing ever happened romantically because I couldn't forget about you." I smiled, pulling him towards me, to kiss his cheek.
Smiling relieved, Jacob reached over to hold my hand in his. "I really wish I was there to protect you from what happened. That attack. I had no clue that a Russian vampire Coven even existed. I would have killed them all." He says slowly.
"You can't save me from all psycho leeches. They'll take whatever they want." Even if he was in the room that day, he wouldn't have been able to protect me.
"They do so until they are killed by a protector. There should be a tribe in every state."
"I agree."
"Can you tell me how it happened that night?" He narrowed his eyes, staring down at the bed sheets, not making eye contact with me as he asked.
I nodded. "I was walking home, at night.. I was in the park… a light pole flickered and I knew trouble found me. The bloodsucker could read my mind… he could have known any defense tactic that could be used against him.." I clarified. "He… bit his teeth here…" I put my hand to my neck, then let it drop.
Jacob held my palms again.
"The last thing I remember was screaming. When I woke It was in some strange house with surgical stuff all around. The assault happened and then I woke up and Alice Cullen was there to the rescue. It was all very unexpected."
Jacob exhaled. He wished he could have prevented what happened. He couldn't have. The attack could have happened here in La Push too.
"That day no longer bothers me, I don't have nightmares about being stalked anymore. You really shouldn't feel guilty, healing is a daily journey." I say.
"Well I do feel guilty. I'm the reason you moved away. You said so last night. You couldn't take me being around... The Cullen's or the facts that I imprinted on Renesmee. It nearly killed you to watch me living a life for the monsters we protect people from. I got that. I was even disgusted by myself at times. I understand why you couldn't tell me how you felt, but regardless.. you decided to go to college across the country because of me. It bothers me that I couldn't stop any of it. You didn't deserve it. You were only trying to move on and have a life outside of… shapeshifters and sparkling vampires."
"I agree, but it's not your job to pity me either. I don't want it. It happened and I'm beyond ready to move forward." I stated. "I don't want to obsess over what I can't change."
"Neither do I." He exhaled. "I still remember the day you told me you were going up Makah Reservation years ago, I hated that you expected everyone to not question anything. Mainly me. I was so worried about you then because I had fallen in love with you and it confused the hell out of me. You almost died, and you have no intentions of ever telling anyone.. Especially me. That hurts. Missing you and our bond cut more than a thousand knives. When Carlisle informed the pack what happened to you all I could see was red."
I looked over at Jacob as he laid his head back against my pillow.
"As much as I'm happy that you're not that bitter girl - I'll give anything to go back in time to change us." He says pulling me closer, and I couldn't help but smile.
"I changed because of you Jacob. You never tip-toed around me like I was a porcelain doll. You were afraid to hurt my feelings. You made me want to keep fighting. You helped me snap back with an iron tongue because I needed to feel my pain. I will always love you because of that."
"Promise me, that no matter what happens… you'd come to me." He said, and I didn't know how long he would continue in this pain.
We said things last night that we wouldn't stay with each other.
"I promise." I vowed.
"We let our guard down last night, and it's going to be a struggle but I want you to trust in me again." He says ever so softly.
I smiled at him. "I want that too. I want to trust. No matter how mind-boggling and nerve wracking last night was, telling you the truth about why I left La Push and never came back made me feel so good." I admitted. "At one point I started to deny my salacious feelings for you, but of course you weren't having it. That's how I knew it was time. You've grown up so much.. I can honestly fall in love with you again." I say, moving closer to him again, collapsing on top of his ribs.
Everything was envisaged like he really spilled his guts out to me last night, in hopes we could build something. If I wasn't the one who left to hide my true feelings I would've thought he was yearning for me, but it's obvious that that was just underneath.
"Please, please do. I've never stopped loving you, Leah. I don't want to feel this though. The -want to go back in time and change things. I want to just love you now and be with only you then never stop." He says.
"Do you mean that?"
Thinking about how sensational he made me feel, it would really suck if he changed his mind about the thought of wanting me down the road.
Already knowing how much overwhelming sorrow I would feel if another leech came into town and he did all he could to be with her. My tragic story of us even being friends would be over.
"It never felt like my place to be here, to want more from you.. for me to ever think to be an us with so much going on." I admitted.
"Leah, your place has always been right beside me. No matter what insecurities we have or had or why. Here is home, it has always been your place." He corrected me. "I love you, I'm in crazy love with each strand of hair on your head. I don't want to be away from you ever again. Please, be with me."
Jacob kissed the top of my head and the butterflies in my stomach went crazy.
I waited so long for him to say those words.
"I see that now." I said scooting myself up to his chest and laying my head underneath his chin. "I love and want to be with you too." Those words were now easier to say out loud than to imagine in my mind.
"I have work tomorrow… Come with me." Jacob says fast. "We can go to my apartment tonight and talk about everything we've forgotten in the last five years. You can come to my job, see how I do what I do, then we can go out for lunch." He is extremely hyper at this new plan of his.
"That sounds lovely, but to allow your boss Daniel Camlens to dislike me before he even gets the chance to meet me? No thanks."
"I'll introduce you. To him and his teenage daughter Lizzie. It'll be fine. Besides, I've met your boss." He stated.
I nodded. "Mason is not my boss, he's my manager. Besides, he's quitting soon. He keeps talking about joining the police academy."
"Alright, well at least still stay with me tonight and after I get off work I can bring you back here. Though with your lunch breaks and mine, we can have daily date routines."
I currently work at Port Angeles mall while he works as an auto mechanic an hour outside of La Push.
I laughed. "You're outta your mind, Black. I'll get sick of you."
He smiled knowing that was a lie.
"Though I look forward to spending my lunch time with you…sometimes." I smiled happily.
He kissed my forehead and suddenly out of nowhere, we heard laughter coming from downstairs.
Jacob sighed. I tightened my arm around his waist.
"Great." He said placing his left arm on my lower back.
I slowly lifted my chin towards his neck. "What is it?"
He could hear much better than I could at the moment because he's been shifting lately. I, on the other hand, haven't been on four paws in years.
"They are talking about us, and pretty soon the entire reservation will know that we spent the night together." He inhaled heavily and I put my left hand on his chest. "Everyone here gossips more than young grade school girls."
"The pack?" I ask.
"Yeah, all downstairs."
I sat up a bit to be face to face with him.
"What are they saying? Are they talking about how much you cried like a baby last night?" I said jokingly and he laughed.
"Cried? People heard your moans all the way in Forks." He smiled, leaning into me to kiss my lips.
"Sure, sure." I grinned.
His body and mine feel so good, he couldn't keep his excitement and I couldn't keep my pleasure last night quiet.
"Good thing Sam wasn't here or he would have blushed with envy. He isn't saying much downstairs but I know he's here. You still mean a lot to him too." He said with a hint of cockiness.
I mean he did mention yesterday that it was okay for him to believe that I was staying away so long because of Sam, or that he thought now that I was back.. that I wanted to join the council because Sam was on it.
"Sam can't be still jealous of our closeness." I chuckled. "He has Emily for that. Besides, neither one of us has feelings that deep."
"You haven't been here in years, Leah. You have no idea what's gone on. Nothing has changed."
"Yet, it's all very different." I say. "You and Sam? What happened? You two bonded over my abandonment of both of your packs?" I ask.
When I left Sam's pack years ago to join Jacob's.. many emotions were clouded, yet it was clear that when I also left his pack as-well, Embry said that Sam was surprisingly hopeful that Jacob had done something to make me leave. Little did he know it was kind-of right, everyone knew I just couldn't stand by and watch the person I loved be in love with someone else.
"We both grew from a lot of things, at least I thought so." He says.
"I'm just happy that I can move on from him and you can move on from the leech and her precious descendant."
Even though he made it clear last night that he didn't care about any of them anymore, it's good to remind him that he was better off.
"You are truly over it right?" I ask. "They were a huge part of why I went away and I need to know that that door is closed completely." I say.
Jacob snored. "That door was burned down years ago. The Bloodsuckers are history. I told you yesterday, my feelings for Bella and Renesmee were another lifetime. They don't matter. I never made any sense in their world. Leah, you are my tribe. We slept together and I never felt more yours in my life. There's this invisible string tying our souls together. I'm never cutting that string ever again. I promise you." He said seriously.
"We've always been one. That is true. I just need this... us, to mean more to you than anything because I won't take another heartbreak." I confessed.
"Trust me, Leah. You are number one. Now and here on out. I am not going to lose you again."
"Dido." I smiled, giving him a breathless kiss.
"I used to wonder why it didn't work with Bella. Before I shifted. I was afraid of losing her friendship once I earned it. I was a kid then." He says, honestly.
"I know. Your feelings and heartache were real. It was how I felt losing Sam to Emily. After all this time, I need you to understand you and I needed that pain to get here." I stated.
Jacob cleared his throat, glaring deep into my eyes. "I hear what you're saying, Leah and you can trust me when I say… I could have done without all that. The past only taught me to hate… There's nothing in the world that'll want anything except love for you. Trust in my feelings for you when I say… It's our turn to set the world on fire." He said and I nodded as he kissed my cheek, then lips.
"So.. back to you and Sam …" I say, "You had years to get close but what's the real reason you two don't talk?" I ask.
"I think you already know the answer to that." He stated.
"Remind me." I retorted, other than the fact that Sam was my past and I wanted Jacob to always be my future. "Is it something you saw or something you overheard in his mind?" I asked hoping he'll answer me honestly. "Or something you're holding against him?" I asked.
"The reason is you." He said, "He thought about you way more than he did Emily. He thought after so long he could hide what he was thinking deep inside but he couldn't. I saw it, I saw it every time he entered the room. You're Sam's first love, Leah. He may never recover no matter how many children he has with Emily. Every time I shift around him.. I see his thoughts."
"It could be guilt." I suggested.
"It's more than that." He says.
"How?" I asked, tilting my head, glaring at him.
"Just think of it as how you felt when I was in love with Bella."
"That's different." I clarified.
"Only slightly. You were still jealous."
"No, I wasn't entirely." I disagreed.
"Yes, you were. Bella might have been someone you hated and still hate but even back then, she had someone that you wanted. Me." He said with a shrug. "You wanted the devotion I had for her... you wanted someone like me.. to feel for you like I had for her."
I nodded, truly agreeing with that.
"Now, think of Sam's emotions... Even though he has an imprint." He says.
I completely understood.
"When I look at you I don't see Sam, I never did." I noted.
"I guess that's the thing. You coming back was too simple. Sometimes I forget exactly who I don't want to be, but then I turn around and be that guy. This place brings it out." He said sadly looking away, and I was a little confused.
"A guy like who? A doormat that pleases everyone around him? You are not that." I say.
"I'm not like Sam and it kills everyone." Jacob stated.
"Not me. I like who you are. Thank heavens you're not like Sam. I don't love you because I think you're some kind of illusion that I made up in my head that's just like him. I don't want you to have to think on what Jacob Black should be turning into five years after Bella Swan or, three years after Renesmee Cullen." I stated. "Sam always does what's expected of him. You make your own choices and make up your own mind. I like that you know how to laugh and be happy. I don't want us to fall apart anymore because of the past. I don't know what it is that we're supposed to do about Sam's so-called feelings for me but if you say that they're there... Then I'll take your word for it and keep it in mind while he's around." I said honestly.
"You see?" He smiled. "This is what I know, and it never made any sense to step away from one another for so long. We belong together. Yet, I knew before that. I had doubts... and maybe still do a little." He confessed slowly. "I'm afraid you'll leave again. I need to hear you say you'll stay no matter what." He whispered. "Just to quiet my anxiety." He grinned.
I nodded. "How clear do you want me to make it? Just to quiet your anxiety and feed your ego..? Alright, here it goes... I left because of you, and I came back glad to finally get everything off my chest. I want this, I want you.. so I'm staying." I stated.
"Move in with me." He says.
My eyes widened. "What?"
"Just hear me out." He smiled.
"Oh, yes. I need you to explain this enormous proposal." I am amused even more.
"Yesterday you mentioned how much you didn't want to live with Sue, and from what I see this room is small and I know I live an hour away- but I want to get to know you again. I rarely come here to La Push, and I may move closer now that Rebecca has gone back to Hawaii for a while. My Dad doesn't say it but I know he's lonely. I want to watch after him and be with you."
"Jacob, if we move in together then we'll be a real couple. We will drive each other insane, already."
"Mmm-hm. I'm ready for it all." He nodded. "So what do you say? Come move to my apartment with me? Be with me indefinitely?"
I smiled. I literally just came back to town.
Yet, I didn't want to say no or waste anymore time away from him.
"You don't still snore, do you?" I grinned.
He laughed. "Guess you'll have to find out. Though I should warn you.. I like to stay up late to workout before bed."
I sat up, getting on my knees -crawling on top of him. "That's alright with me, I like to stay up late and read scary stories."
Jacob looked at me confused, but he then leaned back as I lifted my leg over his body to straddle him.
"I know where I stand, I know what I want." I smirked, wrapping my arms around his neck.
"Is that a final yes?" He asked.
"Yes! I'll move in with you." I smiled. "When do you want to leave?"
"After we get some breakfast." He shrugged with a smile.
He was once clueless and didn't get it, and I was the first to spot a wretch a mile away. Even when we were the leeches guard dogs, I swallowed my pride and stayed because Seth needed me, as did he. I was happy to breathe his air.
"You don't know how many dreams I had of you reminding me that you cared about me." He said and I leaned into him, kissing his softly angelic lips. "Every inch of me wants to be everywhere you are." He said and I nicely gripped a handful of his beautiful hair, kissing him sweetly.
"I can't wait to move in with you." I said gently, placing my tongue playfully in his mouth.
He groaned, moving his hands to my hips. "Good, because I can't wait for you to wake up beside me and have more mornings like this." He blushed. "Leah Clearwater, everything about you is more beautiful than words could ever explain. I'll go rent a van in town and help you pack."
Jacob stared at me and I felt an intense pull for me to make love to him again. "I'll start packing after breakfast."
He's so sexy when he gets all mushy and passionate-eyed.
"No rush.. I'll help you when I get back." He says.
I can tell by the alluring look in his eyes that he didn't care if I agreed to move in with him or not. He'd still be around.
He was going to show me how much he wanted me in his life, no matter what.
Jacob leaned into me. I met him halfway.
He smelt divine.
My cold palms on his skin. His heat was warm and I felt like I was burning from the inside out.
Touching him was lovely.
He groaned.
"This doesn't seem real, that we're finally here." He breathed.
Our kiss increased into something more desirable as our hands intertwined.
He wanted me as much as I wanted him. "If only you would've kissed me like this five years ago, then I definitely wouldn't have let you leave." He says, and I laughed but did not speak a word.
I love him too much right now.
Right here has always been our place.
"I've always needed you, Leah. I've always wanted you, even when I thought I didn't." He whispered pausing from our kiss once more.
He took his tongue beautifully caressing mine and I thought about how smooth and experienced he was, which made me want him even more.
To think we both only had been with one person, but I shudder to think how many times he thought about spending nights with Bella.
I moved closer into him, at the same time putting my hand to the back of his neck.
Kissing him feels like eating my favorite food…. so unbelievably good.
His hand on my cheek was exquisite. "You're warmer than before."
"That's because I'm ready for round four of our... sweet homecoming." He flirted.
I could feel the tickle of sweat dripping down my neck. I could feel the blood through my veins as if I was shifting. My legs trembled with urgency.
"Jacob?" I moaned with a hint of a smile. "I want you just as badly as you want me, but there's too many wolves with super hearing downstairs."
We weren't stopping. I can sense it and so could he. He held me tightly.
In his arms I feel whole. I remember every feeling I had calling his name in anger years ago, feeling completely hopeless.
We had never reached this much of an understanding of each other. Back then I'm sure none of these emotions would have come to light. This moment had to be now. Me in his arms like this, It seemed like I had no worries that my petition would be fulfilled. To have him with me like no one had ever been before. I just rather us be alone like we were last night.
Pulling me into him, he nibbled hard onto my shoulder. "Maybe your moans will make them leave." He says.
I breathed. Needing his composed warmth to take over this lust feeling that I had. Jacob's hands passed over my waist.
I shivered. "Jacob?"
He groaned as if he was struggling to stop himself from doing something. Our bodies were so close that I could feel him getting harder with every breath.
Smiling with fire on my tongue, trying not to break our kiss, I thought about how every second made me feel lukewarm, but if I were to stop kissing him I just might turn into an atomic bomb and explode.
His muscles tighten all around me. Being with him like this was brand new to me. Something I couldn't even dream of in my wildest fantasies. If I could, I would pinch myself just to make sure this was actually real.
His hot hands rubbed smoothly against my outer thighs, and when I felt his tongue in my mouth once again, I sorta lost my concentration.
We needed to stop before we continued what we were doing last night.
Jacob must have thought something was wrong because he pulled back, but I didn't want him to stop.
"It's like we've been kissing for years."
The last thing I wanted was to stop even though we needed to.
I ran my hands through his shoulder length hair, I've never seen him with it this length before. Only really long or really short. This was new to see, as well as his matureness.
"Well, let's do more than kiss." He whispered.
"No, we can't right now."
"No?" He teased me.
I tightened my grip on his hair and shoved my tongue in his mouth. He leaned back involuntarily and I pulled him towards me.
"What if I told you they were leaving now?"
"Are you sure?" I ask.
"Yes." He smiled, kissing my lips.
I was nervous last night, but now I'm more confident now knowing we can go as far as we'd like without any regrets.
"Much as I'm getting a lot of pleasure with our makeout session, all I really want is to-"
"Make love to me again?" I say cutting him off.
Kissing him was great, but I'm craving more of him as well.
"Yes." He growled.
While running my hands through his hair, I rubbed my body against his. Not fast, but slow... really slow. "I love kissing you." I noted.
Our bodies were talking and I liked it.
He whispered something that was hard for me to understand as I moved my tongue in and out of his mouth.
In the hints of licking his lips teasingly, he grabbed my bum hard for me to stop killing his buzz. I laughed pulling him closer while he smiled.
I knew he wanted to lead but I was getting a bit restless.
"I like being in charge." I muttered rubbing my body against him again and he groaned loudly, but kept on kissing me.
He just seemed so delicate, like if I were to act on the insane lust that was shooting through me I wouldn't get the chance to feel his warmth.
Wonder how for so long he managed to stay single, or how in the world anyone would choose something cold and sparkly over him.
When he tossed the cover across the room, he brushed my hair back. Running his fingers through my roots…
I tilted my head, closing my eyes.
It felt so relaxing.
I smiled, sighing with pleasure.
I loved the way his hands felt in my hair. I should let him wash it for me from now on. "That feels so good."
"You're beautiful but I'd rather lead." He spoke in the most amazing mutter ever. I shuddered when I felt his smooth lips on my neck, kissing gently down towards my chest.
When he reached my cleavage I knew that we were getting closer to what I was dying for.
I sighed as he continued kissing down my chest, and worked his way back up to my shoulder, then neck.
I kept my eyes closed as his warm lips brushed against the now tiny scar on my throat, and I whispered his name. "I want you." I couldn't help saying it out loud.
When he slowly moved his lips to my ear and gently licked, then sucked my earlobe- I accidentally pulled his hair a little too hard.
I realized it didn't bother him as he continued to kiss my skin. "I'm going to enjoy this.. and then take my time making love to you..." He says, as my heart hammers. "But I would rather not." He rolled us over so that he was lying on top of me.
Jacob's hand softly trailed down my stomach, I twisted my hands in his hair again.
I stopped our kiss by rolling us over so that he was on his back and I was on top. Jacob looked at me confused.
"Relax. I'm just switching places." I smiled seductively, putting my hands gently on his neck, kissing him and he instantly laughed amused.
Letting my guard down wasn't as bad as I thought it would be.
I kissed his collarbone sweetly and the heat from his body intensified.
He brushed his fingers across my nipples, and I sucked down on his neck.
Jacob's eyes closed, as I made a cute little sexy noise against his skin.
I lowered my lips down towards his abs letting my tongue sweep over every line on his chest as possible.
Jacob tried hard to keep his groans to a minimum while I caressed his body, but like most guys it won't take long before he just took over again.
I gripped his shaft gently, massaging my hand up and down.
The Big Bad Wolf loved it.
Suddenly, he rolled us over.
"Are you trying to stop me from making you blush, Black?" I said smirking and he didn't say anything as I looked up into those sexy dark brown eyes.
"Maybe.. or maybe I just want to please you first." Jacob leaned down towards me and I closed my eyes as our lips touched once again.
The kiss was sweeter than the first. He held my cheek and eased his shaft between my thighs. Gently but fast, I gasped as his eyes never left mine.
Picking up his pace I moaned as he reached between us to massage our wetness, not just mine.
The fact that I hadn't thought of using protection with him last night makes me feel like it shouldn't happen again or we will be buying a baby basket for that apartment that he wants me to move into so badly. "Jacob?"
"Yes?" He whispered, not stopping his pace.
"Be careful?" I said and he paused.
I felt he knew exactly what I meant.
Him cumming inside of me again would be a disaster.
"I know last night we didn't have time to think about it, but we have to think about our actions from now on, alright?" I say quickly.
Jacob nods. "Don't worry."
"I am."
"For me to purposely impregnate you, would that be the worst thing?" He finally paused.
"Babies so soon? Purposely, Jacob?"
He sighed. "Think about it. I know deep down you always want children. I read it in your mind. You want babies and a husband one day."
"Ahh children yes, but marriage? No way. I don't want that life.. Slaving over a man till the end of days. That won't happen."
"Wait. so..is that a dealbreaker for you? Marriage?" He asked.
I sighed, "Jacob- I just got home. I can't get pregnant right now. I definitely don't want to be married when I have so much to look forward to. I'm not working towards a career yet, and I just agreed to move in with you. What is the rush?" I tried and failed to lift him off me.
"Leah, calm down. We don't have to think about that stuff right now. I have enough self-control to pull from you before I get too excited. Alright?" He said too calmly.
"Wait." I say leaning away. "Maybe we should talk about this?"
"Or maybe you should get out of your own head, Clearwater. I love you, don't worry.. There's years where I can change your mind." He grinned.
"It's just… just the thought, to make it clear… I'd love to have mini pups with you someday. Just not today. Okay?" I say fast, and Jacob leaned his head down to mine and kissed me harder than ever.
The kissing then continued and I moaned into his mouth.
"Of course, whatever you want." He smiled yet it did not quite reach his eyes.
*End Of Flashback*