Chapter 21: I do
Brittany's POV
*Thursday 4th November 2021*
Today is Thursday and I get to marry Santana on Saturday so I couldn't be happier. I am planning on going into work today just to wrap up a few things before Santana and I take some time off for the wedding and the honeymoon. I'm just making a start on breakfast right now while Santana is just getting herself ready for the day. I've just popped the toast in the toaster when I hear footsteps on the stairs meaning Santana is on her way down to me. I quickly flick the coffee machine on and grab two cups.
"Morning" I smile as my fiancée enters the room.
"Hey, can we talk?" Santana says seriously as she sits down at the table.
"Yeah" I smile before turning around to make us a morning beverage. "Coffee?" I ask.
"Not just now because I want to talk to you so can you sit down?" she replies.
"Uh…ok" I say confused. There is something weird going on with Santana and it's not just because she refused a coffee which she never does. She is looking at me weirdly and talking really seriously. I mean we get married in two days, why is she not more upbeat about that.
"I know I've left it really late but I can't lie anymore Brittany, I just can't" Santana says seriously.
"Lie about what babe?" I ask worriedly. I don't know what she is talking about right now but I don't really like it. Santana is starting to scare me now because we never lie to each other so she is clearly hiding something that I'm not going to like.
"I can't marry you on Saturday" she admits sadly.
"I beg your pardon" I say shocked. Please tell me I didn't just hear what I think I heard. Santana didn't just say she didn't want to marry me on Saturday, right?
"I'm really sorry but I just can't" she sighs. "I know I shouldn't have left it this long but I was too afraid to tell you in the beginning because I knew you would be crushed but I just couldn't go through with Saturday when it's not what I want" she states. Crushed? I think I'm a little more than crushed right now. I am devastated and I feel like my whole life has fallen apart.
"I just don't understand" I say as a few tears roll down my face.
"It just wouldn't be right to marry you on Saturday because it's just not what I want" Santana shrugs.
"You're just having cold feet and it's ok because I'm nervous too" I smile.
"No, I'm serious, we can't get married on Saturday" she shakes her head at me.
"But I love you" I say sadly.
"I know and I do love you too but we have to cancel the wedding" she points out.
"Ok" I nod. I can see she isn't going to change her mind so we can cancel Saturday as much as it kills me to do that. "It maybe was a little quick to get married so soon after only dating for a year so we can put the wedding on hold" I say. We haven't even been a couple for two years and even though we've known each other for that, maybe marrying so soon is too much.
"Brittany, I didn't mean postpone the wedding. I meant not having it at all" she replies bluntly as I just don't seem to be getting the message.
"So, you just don't want to be my wife anymore. You'd rather we just remained as girlfriends forever?" I question.
"Brittany, I meant I don't want to be with you" Santana says softly. Even in her softest tone, it still feels like someone is punching me in the chest and stomping on my heart, never stopping.
"Why?" I ask as another rush of tears stream down my face. "You just said a second ago you loved me" I point out.
"I do love you but I'm not in love with you anymore" she tells me honestly. "I care about you so much and I do want you to be happy but being with me isn't right anymore because I don't feel the same way you do" she adds.
"What's wrong with me?" I ask upset.
"You're a great person and any girl would be lucky to have you but that girl just isn't me. I'm so sorry" she says as she pulls me in for a hug but I quickly push her away.
"I don't want to hug someone who breaks my heart so just get off of me" I say in tears as I leap from my seat. I can't even look at Santana right now because I'm so confused and heartbroken. "What is so wrong with me?" I ask.
"It's your condition Brittany, I thought I could handle it but I can't" Santana admits. "In the beginning everything was ok because I was open with anything and I was into the person, not the gender. Now I realise that I only like women. I know you're a woman and you're a very attractive one at that but I just can't handle that part that sets your apart from other women" she tells me.
"Just say it Santana" I say sadly.
"I'm not into penis, I'm sorry" she sighs. "I really tried because I loved you but I'm just not attracted to that part of you and it's ruining our sex life."
"I've always thought about getting surgery to make me more like a woman so I can do that for you. I could make this better so we could go back to how we were. Please" I plead.
"No Brittany, I don't want you to change because I know you love who you are. I would never ask you to change for me so you deserve to be with someone who appreciates everything you have" Santana replies honestly.
"You've ruined my life and I hate you" I say while running away in tears.
"Brittany…"
"Argh!" I scream in distress as I jolt myself awake.
"Honey, are you ok?" Santana asks, sitting up abruptly as she puts her arms around me.
"You're here" I say confused. I can literally feel the tears roll down my cheeks and my whole body sweating in distress. It takes me a moment to realise I'm in bed and Santana is sitting next to me and comforting me.
"Of course, I'm here" she chuckles. "What's going on baby, you look confused and distressed" she adds as she kisses my shoulder.
"I've just had the worst dream ever and for a split second, it was so real" I say.
"You're sweating and crying a little bit actually" she says surprised as she wipes my tears from my face with her thumb. "Stay there, I'll get you a towel" she says while hopping out of bed.
"Ok" I nod. I sit in like some sort of trance the whole time Santana is getting me a moist towel to cool me down a little. Honestly, that was beyond a nightmare it's not even funny. I've had my fair share of weird nightmares like getting eaten by a dinosaur or something but this does not come close. My whole life was falling apart in that nightmare.
"Here you go honey" Santana says as she hands me the moist towel and gets onto the bed next to me.
"That was horrible" I say sadly as I try to cool myself down and relax.
"You still seem quite shaken by it so you don't need to talk about it right now, just relax" Santana says as she holds me tightly.
It seemed to take me forever to relax and get back to sleep so I don't even know how long I got to sleep before my alarm woke me up again. I am working today and it's my last day at work for over a week due to the wedding so I can't stay home. I really would love to stay home since I'm so tired and have Santana hold me the whole time like she did after my nightmare last night but it can't happen. I need to get things wrapped up at work before my time away. I'm just in the kitchen just now getting ready for the day.
"Morning babe" Santana smiles brightly as she walks into the kitchen and kisses my cheek before going over to start up the coffee machine.
"Morning" I mumble.
"Where's my happy bride who I get to marry in two days gone to?" she asks me as she looks over at me confused.
"I'm sorry" I say quietly.
"Brittany, what's going on?" she asks as she joins me at the table with two coffees. I've just made myself a tea but I don't even have the energy to decline the coffee she places in front of me.
"You didn't want to marry me" I sigh.
"What are you talking about, of course I'm marrying you" she laughs.
"No Santana, I had a nightmare last night that you didn't want to marry me" I state.
"It was just a silly dream honey. I'm definitely marrying you so don't let it get to you" Santana smiles.
"You said you loved me but you just couldn't marry me because you weren't in love with me. You said you were repulsed by my condition and you preferred normal women" I point out. "I know it was a bad dream and everything but that's scared the shit of out of me. I can't stop thinking about it and I don't know why I dreamt that. Dreams mean something so what does this mean?" I state.
"Brittany, listen to me" Santana says seriously. "I am going nowhere so we're getting married in two days' time because we love each other so much and are so in love with each other. Also, there is no one on this earth who is 'normal' because everyone is different for a reason. I love everything about you and I know you love everything about me. Ok, we don't look the same but you love everything about me just the same way I love everything about you" she reassures me.
"I know, it's just hard to overcome" I sigh. It really freaked me out last night so I'm struggling to get past it.
"I'm not going to lie, not everyone likes the same thing so there might be women out there that might not understand that you don't have the genitals that typical women have so they might not be attracted to that. It's like you, you wouldn't be attracted to someone with a penis, right?" she asks and I nod. "Some people are also not attracted to fake breasts which I have so like I say, everyone is different. The key point here is I love absolutely everything about you and you love everything about me" she smiles.
"I get that but the biggest issue I'm having is hearing you say what you did to me. I know it wasn't really you but it's freaked me out. Imagine me turning around and telling you that you have the ugliest vagina I've ever seen and I can't marry you because it repulses me so we need to break up" I say. Obviously, I don't think that at all.
"That would freak the hell out of me and I would be super pissed at you so I probably would throw a few things" she tells me. "I can see why it might take time to get over but honestly, it's not going to happen so keep telling yourself you're stuck with me and eventually you'll forget about the stupid dream" she adds.
"What do you think it means though?" I ask.
"It doesn't mean anything about us babe, I promise you" she assures me. "We just have dreams sometimes because something is fresh in our mind before we go to sleep or we've been discussing something recently so it doesn't necessarily mean exactly what happens" she explains.
"Ok" I nod.
"Last night I dreamt of Rachel Berry but that's only because we were talking last night about how we received her wedding present early" Santana points out.
"What did you dream about?" I ask curiously.
"That you and I met up with her for lunch to thank her for the toaster she gave us" she shrugs. "I literally have no idea if she bought us a toaster or not but I'm guessing it was in my dream because it's a typical wedding gift you receive" she adds.
"Ok, I see what you're saying" I smile.
"Your dream isn't about me necessarily saying it but about someone saying it and I'm there because I'm your bride. We did get a little nostalgic last night and end up talking about high school. I dare say people bullied you in school for being different so I'm assuming the dream stemmed from there" Santana points out.
"That would actually explain a lot" I nod.
"I know it's a hard pill to swallow to have something like that in your mind but I dare say in an hour or so you'll have forgotten about it. Plus, they say if you tell someone about your nightmare then it can't come true just the same way if you tell someone your dream it won't come true" she smiles.
"Thank you for making me feel better" I smile back.
"If you need some reassurance as to how much I really love your body then I'm more than happy to help right now" she smirks at me.
"What about work?" I ask as she places a hand on my thigh.
"Work or Brittany? Huh let me see, which do I prefer?" she smirks. "Oh yeah, it's my future wife so let's do this Pierce" she says while pulling my hand and pulling me up from the chair before dragging me to the stairs and up to our bedroom. We quickly climb onto the bed and Santana straddles my hips before leaning down to kiss me.
"Wait a minute" I say while pulling away.
"Oh my gosh, Brittany it was all just a nightmare" Santana sighs. "I love everything about you and I'm not going to leave you so please, can we stop thinking about that stupid dream you had?" she asks annoyed.
"It's not the dream. I was just going to say, we aren't meant to be doing this before the wedding" I point out.
"Oh shit" Santana groans loudly. "I totally forgot about that" she sighs.
"So did I for a second" I nod. "We've only got a few more days before we can do it so let's just power through, ok?"
"Ok" Santana replies.
"We can do it" I assure her. We get ourselves together and get ready for work. We then grab our things and head out to my car and Santana drives us to work. As soon as we get there, she parks up and I get out of the car. I quickly run around to the driver's side of the car and open Santana's door for her. She smiles at me and pecks my cheek before I close the door behind her.
"Let's get this over with" Santana says while holding out her hand to me. I gratefully take it and we walk into work.
"This is different, you never take my hand on the way into work" I say while smiling down at our intertwined fingers.
"It's my last day working with my fiancée so I'm making the most of it. After today the next time I am in work, I will have a wife not a fiancée" she smiles at me.
"I'm so excited" I say giddily.
"I know and me too but let's not get too ahead of ourselves. We need to work today since this is our last day to wrap things up before we take some time out" Santana points out.
"Fair point so let's go" I smile. Once we get inside, we both head off to our separate offices and start work for the day.
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*Friday 5th November 2021*
I woke up super early this morning and ordinarily I would be annoyed at myself for wakening up early on a day off but today is different. It's different because in 24 hours, I'm going to be a married woman. I don't care that I woke up early when I could be relaxing because I'm just too excited about tomorrow. I think Santana must feel the same because as soon as I opened my eyes, I notice the bed was empty and Santana was nowhere in the bedroom. She usually likes to sleep a little longer on a day off and not bother with her alarm but obviously that didn't happen today. As soon as I saw Santana wasn't in the room, I decided to get up and head downstairs which is what I'm doing now.
"Morning" I smile at Santana as I walk into the kitchen.
"Morning baby" Santana smiles at me as she walks over and kisses me. "This is our last morning as fiancées so we need to make the most of it before we become wife's tomorrow" she adds.
"I agree" I nod. "I'm going to head to the gym for one last session before the wedding, do you want to come?" I ask Santana. We don't often go to the gym together because we usually work it around our working schedules which is different but I thought she might like to join me today considering this is our last day together before the wedding. After this afternoon we'll be apart until tomorrow so I thought we could make the most of things and not spend any other time apart today.
"I suppose I could join you" Santana shrugs. "Let's not spend all of our last day at the gym though, we should do something else fun later" she adds.
"Yeah we can totally do that" I reply.
After spending the morning together, going to the gym and getting some coffee and breakfast at one of our favourite coffee places, Santana and I headed home. We hung out for most of the afternoon before we each got our stuff together for staying with our parents. We got whatever else we needed for the wedding and then said goodbye to one another before we each got a cab to where we were going. We were taking cabs and not taking our own cars because it didn't make sense to drive them since we'll leave our parents' house in the wedding cars to go to the wedding tomorrow and then go straight home from the venue the next day so there is no time to get our cars back home if we were to leave them at our parents places.
I'm currently hanging out at my parent's place right now with my sisters and my niece and nephew. My mom and dad are at the grocery store right now getting some things to make for dinner. My mom thought it would be nice for the night before my wedding to have a family dinner together like we used to have. My sisters are going to stay for the meal and stay the night here as well as my niece and nephew and we can all get ready together in the morning for the wedding. My two sister's husbands are at home and will come over in the morning to get ready.
"So, any nerves about tomorrow?" Grace asks me curiously.
"Not nerves about marrying Santana because I'm looking forward to becoming her wife and her becoming mine. I am a little nervous about making a fool out of myself though" I point out.
"What do you mean?" Haley asks in concern.
"I am loud and I am in love with myself a lot of the time. I also like to think I'm funny but at the end of the day, I'm not into a massive show or being the centre of attention. I do want a big wedding and I know Santana loves being the star of the show so I'm ok with a big fancy thing but I am concerned I'll embarrass myself or get shy" I admit. I need to say my vows to a full room of people and even though I know what to say and want to tell Santana how I feel, I'm getting a little shy about speaking publicly in front of my friends and family. I know it sounds stupid but that's just me.
"I really wouldn't worry about that Brittany, honestly" Grace assure me. "This is your day so however it goes has nothing to do with anyone else. This is your wedding so if people make fun of you then I'll throw them out" she smiles at me.
"I second that" Haley says nodding in agreement. "No one gets to disrespect my sister on her wedding day. Also, I think Santana would likely beat us to it to defending you so don't worry about things not going to plan because it's your day, no one else's" she adds.
"Thank you. You're the best sisters ever" I smile.
"Yeah we are" Grace says confidently while leaning over to hug me.
"I don't know any sisters that have a better relationship than the three of us. We really are the best" Haley says while joining in on the hug.
"We hug too" Zoe says while running over to the three of us followed closely by Ben.
"Ok" I laugh while picking Zoe and Ben up and sitting them on the couch between us all. "You two happen to be the best niece and nephew ever" I say while hugging them tightly.
Once my parents got home from the grocery store, they cooked dinner and then we all sat down as a family and ate together. We did reminisce about the past which was nice because I did like it when I was younger and growing up where we always had dinner as a family. It was also nice to have my niece and nephew there too. It's actually made me excited about the future to have my own family with Santana and do things like this. We're all just hanging out in the living room together now.
"I am so bored right now without Santana" I groan loudly.
"What would you normally be doing?" my mom asks me.
"Mom, don't ask her that" my sister Grace says. "You don't know what kind of answer you might get" she says smirking at me. I just roll my eyes in response to her.
"We would just be hanging out or watching a movie or something. Nothing hugely exciting but it would be fun because we would be together" I say.
"You'll see her tomorrow so you've not got long left to wait" my other sister Haley points out.
"I suppose" I sigh. I don't really want to wait until tomorrow, I just want to see Santana right now. "I think I'm just going to go upstairs now and check my work emails and stuff" I say while standing up.
"You're really going to work right now the night before your wedding?" Grace asks surprised.
"Yeah because it'll keep me busy and give me something to focus on to take my mind off of this boredom. Plus, I do want to email some colleagues about something before Santana and I leave for our honeymoon" I state. I will see some of the people from work tomorrow night at the wedding reception but I'm not discussing work at my wedding so if I email them now, they have the information they need before I go away.
"Ok, well if we don't see you again tonight then goodnight" my mom smiles. I say goodnight to everyone and then head upstairs. I get comfortable on the bed in my old room before picking up my laptop and starting to do some work. I'm only working for about half an hour when my phone vibrates at the side so I pick it up and unlock the screen. To my surprise it's Santana so I quickly open up the text message.
From Santana: Hey, would it be breaking the rules if I sent you a little selfie of myself right now?
To Santana: Yes, honey. We can't see each other the night before the wedding.
From Santana: But it's a picture of me naked and relaxing in the bath right now. Wouldn't you like to see that?
To Santana: I would like to see that but it's not going to happen because it's bad luck.
From Santana: Ok, fine. Is it ok to say that I miss you though?
To Santana: Of course it's ok to say that. I miss you too.
From Santana: What are you doing right now?
To Santana: I'm doing some work actually. I got really bored without you so I decided to go to my room and do some work and check my emails. What about you, what are you doing?
From Santana: I'm taking a bath babe, I told you that.
To Santana: I didn't think you were actually serious. I thought you were just saying that to tease me.
From Santana: No, I'm 100% naked and in the bath right now. It's not as much fun by myself though because I'd rather have you in here with me.
To Santana: Believe me, I want that too.
From Santana: Are you sure we can't facetime or anything?
To Santana: I'm sure because like I said, it's bad luck for a bride to see another bride before the ceremony.
From Santana: Do you even know where that superstition came from?
To Santana: Not really but I don't want to take any chances.
From Santana: It dates back to arranged marriages where people thought if the couple saw each other before the wedding then they would get cold feet and bail on getting married. Now that really isn't going to happen with us.
To Santana: Is that a true story?
From Santana: Yes, I promise.
To Santana: You're so smart, it's so sexy ; )
From Santana: Let me facetime you, please.
I can't even get a chance to reply to Santana's text before my phone starts ringing. It is so cute just how desperate Santana is to talk to me right now because I feel the exact same way. I answer right away because who wouldn't? Plus, I was going to text her anyway to say she can call me. I think she sensed from my previous response that I'm probably ok seeing her now.
"Hi" I say while smiling into the phone.
"Hey" Santana replies, smiling back at me before moving the phone down her body to prove she's in the bath still.
"Oh god" I groan. This isn't fair anymore; Santana is naked right in front of me but yet I can't do a thing about it.
"Do you believe me now?" she asks me as she brings the phone back to her face.
"Yes, I do" I reply.
"You said 'I do', is that practice for tomorrow?" she teases.
"I don't need any practice baby because I can't wait to marry you so I don't need to hype myself up for tomorrow because I've been waiting for this day for a long time" I tell her.
"Just think, this time tomorrow I will be your wife and we'll be having a massive party to celebrate that with all of our friends and family" Santana replies.
"I honestly can't wait to marry you" I say. I know I just said it but it's so true and I'm just so excited to take that extra step in our relationships. Dating was fun and so was being girlfriends and then it was nice to go to being fiancées but now I'm ready to be Santana's wife and for her to be my wife.
"I can't wait either" Santana smiles. "Hey, give me a second until I get out of the tub because the water is cold now and I'm going to turn into a wrinkled prune and I don't want that" she says while stepping out of the tub.
"Ok but please dress quickly because this isn't fair on me to see you naked and not be able to do anything about it" I point out.
"Ok" she smiles at me before sitting the phone down and quickly dressing. "I would have teased you some more but it's not actually fair on me either being naked and alone without you" she adds as she picks up the phone again. She then heads to her bedroom and takes a seat on the bed where we continue talking to one another for a while.
"I'm thinking we should probably go now and get some rest before tomorrow" I say.
"I agree" Santana nods.
"I will see you tomorrow so goodnight babe" I smile.
"Goodnight, Britt" Santana smiles back and then we hang up our phones.
Santana's POV
*Saturday 6th November 2021*
Today is my wedding day. The day I finally get to marry the love of my life. The day I get to celebrate my love for Brittany with all of my friends and family. The day I officially get to tell the rest of the world that I am off the market for good. I literally can't wait to marry Brittany today and I don't even care that I'll never have a wedding again. I just can't wait to experience this next part of my life with the woman I love. I'm also a little gleeful at the fact that this is finally happening to me when some people never thought I could actually settle down. I used to concentrate on my career more than devote time to my relationships so some people didn't see me getting married and stuff. I don't think they meant it in a bad way because I too didn't really see myself settling down like my parents or my siblings or even my friends did. I get to show everyone that I am just normal and someone actually does want to spend the rest of their life with me.
I'm at my parents' house getting ready right now with my family and my best friend. We're doing all of the hair and makeup right now and then we'll get changed into our dresses. As planned my mom and the bridesmaids will go to the wedding in one of the wedding cars and my dad and I will be in another one. Brittany's mom and bridesmaids will be in a car too and then Brittany and her dad will be in another one.
"How are you feeling about today? Are you nervous?" my sister asks me.
"I think I'm ok" I smile. "Maybe a little nervous that everything doesn't go exactly how I planned but I'm certainly not nervous about actually getting married. I'm confident Brittany will turn up and still want to marry me so I'm fine" I add.
"Of course, Brittany is going to turn up. I think everyone can see how in love you two are with each other" my cousin Kate points out. She is also one of my bridesmaids along with my sister, my brother's girlfriend and my best friend.
"Yeah we are ridiculously in love" I say while smiling at the thought of Brittany.
As soon as all my hair and makeup are done and I'm all dressed, the show is finally on the road. My mom and my bridesmaids get into the wedding car and make their way to the venue. I then get into another car with my dad and we too make our way to my wedding. Once we get there, everyone is already inside and seated except Brittany I'm assuming. Brittany and I arranged to come through difference entrances so we really wouldn't see each other before we walk down the aisle. My dad and I have just walked inside and are waiting by the door for our cue to walk down the aisle.
"Are you ready?" my dad asks me.
"I've never been more ready in my life before" I smile.
"Don't look over, Brittany and her dad are at the other door to walk down the other aisle" my dad tells me.
"Ok" I say while fighting the urge to turn around and look at Brittany. I know already she looks amazing but I just want to see her already.
"Ok, that's us" my dad says as the music begins to play for the song that we chose to walk down the aisle to. I link my arm with his and hold my flowers on the other hand and we start our descent down the aisle. Brittany and her dad are doing the same at the other side of the room.
"Don't embarrass me in your speech today dad" I say seriously as we continue our way down the aisle.
"I won't" my dad replies with a smile.
"I'm serious dad" I warn.
"Stop being so serious and smile honey. You're walking down the aisle with everyone looking at you and right now you have a very unpleasant look on your face. You're supposed to be happy today" he tells me.
"Right, yeah" I laugh. I really can't help it when that seriousness in me comes out sometimes. After a minute or so later, Brittany and I both meet at the altar.
"You look beautiful" Brittany whispers to me as she takes my hands in hers.
"So do you, so beautiful" I reply with a smile.
"Friends, family, welcome to this special day. We are gathered here to the celebrate the joining of Brittany and Santana in holy matrimony" the officiant starts. "Now, before we proceed, does anyone have any reason as to why this couple should not be joined today?" he asks.
"They better not" I mutter as Brittany and I look around the room. After a moment no one speaks up so the officiant continues with the ceremony. He starts with a few thoughts about the marriage and us as a couple before turning to me.
"Ok, we're now going to move onto the vows. Santana would you like to go first" the officiant says.
"Ok" I smile.
"Here you go" Quinn whispers to me as she holds out a small piece of paper that I had written some notes on for my vows. It's not that I didn't know what to say, I just wanted a few notes so I remembered everything and wouldn't mess up.
"It's ok actually" I shake my head. "I'm going to do this without notes and straight from the heart" I add.
"Ok" Quinn nods. I then begin saying my vows to Brittany.
"This has been so hard for me to do to find the right words to say to you Brittany and it's not because I don't love you enough, it's because I love you too much" I start. "I've never been good at opening up to express my feelings so this really is quite difficult for me but I'm going to try" I smile.
"It's ok" Brittany whispers while squeezing my hands in hers.
"I was a horrible person before I met you and some people might say I still am but in truth, I was only a fraction of a person until you opened up my eyes. I didn't know what love really was until I met you Brittany and we started to build this wonderful life together. From the first day I met you I knew you were different from everyone else I'd been close to. From that first second I looked into your eyes I knew you were going to change my life" I smile. "You saw me for who I was and you made me realise that I shouldn't change personally. I don't need to change for anyone because you liked me just the way I was which quickly transformed into loving me for who I was. I just can't express enough just how much I love you Brittany and I can't wait to expand what we already have and see what else we can accomplish together in the future" I add.
"That was beautiful" Brittany whispers.
"Thanks" I say shyly.
"Brittany, would you like to say something to Santana?" the officiant asks.
"Yes, I would" Brittany smiles. She too declines her notes from her sister of her wedding vows. "Ok, I know crying makes you uncomfortable but I'm sorry, I'm going to do it" she admits tearily.
"It's ok" I smile.
"You mean the world to me Santana. I've never been more in love with anyone in my life before until I first saw you. We've been through some ups and downs since we came together but I wouldn't wish it any other way. From the moment I met you I knew you were the love of my life. I didn't know if the feeling was exactly mutual but I knew I was falling in love with you right in that second. I pretended we were just working together and then friends and it didn't mean all that much but honestly, it meant everything. I was in denial so I convinced myself we were just messing around but really in the back of my mind I knew I was madly in love with you and wanted nothing more than to be with you" Brittany says. "I can't wait either to spend the rest of my life with you" she adds and I smile at her.
"Ok, who has the rings?" the officiant asks.
"I have them" Grace says while handing my ring to Brittany and Brittany's ring to me.
"Ok Santana, do you take Brittany to be your lawful wedded wife?" the officiant asks me.
"I do" I smile at Brittany while gently placing the ring on her finger.
"And do you Brittany take Santana to be your lawful wedded wife?" he turns to Brittany and asks.
"Heck, yeah I do" Brittany says excitedly causing me to laugh as she places the ring on my left hand.
"I now pronounce you wife and wife. You may now kiss the bride" the officiant says and I waste no time in kissing Brittany. I think we're maybe kissing for a little too long because we start to hear wolf whistles from our guests. I don't actually care though, it's my wedding so I'm going to continue to kiss my wife.
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"You do look amazing in that dress but I'm excited to see what your other dress looks like" Brittany says as we walk hand in hand towards the room we're hiring where we'll change into our evening dresses and spend the night. It might seem a little extravagant to have two wedding dresses but we wanted something really beautiful for the ceremony and then something else a little more movable for the reception where we could really party. There was no way we could dance in the gowns we picked for the ceremony.
"Thanks baby and I feel the same. You look great but I'm looking forward to changing into our other dresses and really getting to have fun now with everyone" I reply.
"Me too" Brittany smiles. We then start undressing and putting on our other dresses. We touch up our hair and makeup before heading down to where we're having the reception. Everyone is already inside and seated, waiting on us arriving.
"Everyone, please welcome the new Mrs and Mrs Pierce" the function manager announces and then Brittany and I walk into the room and take our seats. We start off all having dinner before we move onto the speeches. My dad and Brittany's dad both say something and then Quinn surprises me with doing a speech. She didn't tell me she wanted to say anything beforehand so I was quite nervous about what she was going to say but it was actually quite nice.
"It's time for us to cut the cake now babe" Brittany says while getting up from her chair and holding out her hand to me. We then walk over to the cake and I pick up the knife. "I think I'll help with that; I wouldn't want you to have the knife on your own after the way you were glaring throughout the speeches" she jokes as she puts her hand over mine on the knife.
"Very funny, I just didn't know what my dad and Quinn would say about me" I shrug. We take a few pictures standing with the cake before we both cut into it. We then cut a little piece off and each feed the other a little bit.
"Ok, everyone it's now time for the first dance as a married couple" the lead singer of the band announces. Brittany and I head to the dancefloor hand in hand and begin dancing together to the music with our arms around each other.
"Is everyone looking at us?" I ask Brittany in a whisper.
"Yeah" she replies, after glancing around the room to see if they are indeed staring at us. "Is that a problem?" she asks confused.
"No, quite the opposite actually" I smile.
"You want people to be staring at us?" Brittany smirks at me.
"Of course I do" I state. "This is my wedding so all the focus should be on me so I want to make sure everyone is looking at me" I add.
"Ok but it's my wedding too baby, it's not just yours" Brittany laughs.
"Right, yeah. Sorry" I smile.
After we finish the first dance, other couples join us on the dancefloor and we all have some fun. Brittany and I also have a special father-daughter dance with our dads during one of the songs. The party is finally underway now and everyone is having fun drinking and dancing and just getting to know one another. Some of my family still don't know all of Brittany's family so it was nice for the two families to come together and have fun. I'm just sipping champagne and talking to Quinn when I notice Brittany jump up onto the stage with the band.
"I want to dedicate this next part to my new wife. I'm going to perform a song and a well-choreographed routine with some of my friends right now" Brittany says through the microphone.
"No, you can't" I say shaking my head as I walk towards the stage.
"Why not?" Brittany asks laughing along with everyone else.
"Because I have a song to perform for you in a minute" I point out.
"You can do that too you know" Brittany smiles at me.
"Ok" I nod. The music begins playing and then Brittany jumps off the stage onto the dancefloor and begins dancing with some of her friends. Just as the song is about to come to an end, she walks over to me and takes my hands and leads me to the dancefloor to finish the dance with her.
"What do you think?" she asks me.
"I thought it was really cute" I smile while kissing her. "Anyway, it is now time for your surprise" I say while walking over to the stage and beginning to sing to the music. Once I'm finished, Brittany walks over to me and helps me off the stage.
"I think we should throw our bouquets now" Brittany tells me.
"Sounds good" I nod. "Ok, ladies can you all gather around so we can do the bouquet toss now. Britt and I each had a bouquet so there is a chance for two lucky ladies" I add. All the unmarried ladies gather around and Brittany goes first to throw her flowers. She throws them quite high in the air but somehow Quinn managed to push everyone out of the way and catch them as gravity pulled them down.
"James, take note" Brittany teases Quinn's boyfriend.
"Yeah you better watch yourself James because Quinn will have a wedding planned already for next year now that she's caught the bouquet" I joke.
"I'm not running so it's fine" James shrugs. I can tell he is slightly nervous though because I don't think he and Quinn have discussed marriage just yet.
"Ok, my turn now" I say while turning around. I do a few tosses high up in the air for practice before tossing the bouquet behind me. All the ladies try to jump for it but it goes just too far and flies over their heads and suddenly my sister catches it before it hits her in the face. She wasn't interested in catching it with the others but since it was going straight for her face then she had no other option but to catch it.
"You could be next Carly" Brittany tells my sister.
"Uh…no way" Carly shakes her head in embarrassment. "I don't want this" she says while placing the bouquet down on the table.
"You caught it though so you might be the next one to get married" I smile at my sister.
"Matt and I really aren't there yet so no" Carly shakes her head again.
"Ok, fine" I shrug.
"Babe I think we should do the garter toss too" Brittany tells me. "Clearly there are no grooms needed in this wedding but it doesn't mean we can't let our male guests have a chance of a little good luck" she shrugs.
"Let's do it then" I smile.
"Ok everyone, we need the male guests to come up now as we're going to toss our garters" Brittany tells everyone. "I need to of course remove my wife's garter first" she says. I sit down and Brittany carefully removes the garter from my leg before kissing me.
"All single males head to the floor now" I say and they all do that. Brittany stands in front of them and throws the garter in the air. Mike jumps up and catches it.
"Something we should know Mike?" Brittany smirks at her friend.
"Tina and I have been together for a while so maybe this will bring me good luck and maybe we will be the next ones to get married" Mike shrugs.
"Ok honey, sit down" I say while guiding Brittany over to a chair so I can now take my turn and remove her garter. She pulls up her dress for me and stretches out her leg. I reach down and slowly remove the garter with my teeth.
"Oh sexy" Brittany smiles at me so I wink at her. "I could have used my teeth when I did it" she sighs.
"You could use your teeth tonight to remove my wedding underwear" I smirk.
"Deal" Brittany smirks back. As soon as I remove the garter, I take my place in the middle of the floor and then toss it to the single men in front of me. Jack is the one that catches it from the group.
"How do you feel about that Jack?" Brittany asks her work colleague as she walks towards him.
"Hopefully it brings me a bit of luck because I am definitely still single right now" he shrugs.
"I heard Jade wants you to ask her to dance tonight" I say as I walk towards them. Jade and Jack are basically the ones running our business for us when we go on vacation so they work pretty close most days so I definitely think I can see something happening between the two of them.
"Did she actually say that?" Jack asks me.
"I guess not in those exact words but I can definitely tell there is something between you two" I point out.
"I don't know if I should trust you Ms Lopez" Jack sighs. "You didn't even spot the signs when you liked Brittany for about a year before getting together. I mean it was obvious to the rest of us but you two just couldn't see it" he shrugs.
"I was in denial and stupid, you are neither of those things so ask her out" I state.
"Is Jade even single?" Jack asks curiously.
"She is. I mean she has been dating a bit recently because we talk about that a lot together but as far as I'm aware she isn't serious with anyone" Brittany replies.
"I really don't know if taking match making advice from you two is the correct thing to do" Jack teases us.
"Ok, we didn't start off on the right foot together but look at Santana and I today. We are freaking married right now, how cool is that" Brittany smiles while putting her arms around me. "This could be you and Jade some time down the line" she adds.
"I don't know Brittany. I've never really thought about asking her out before. I mean I like her and I would like to ask her out but I never thought she would go for someone like me so I haven't even prepared myself to ask her out because I never thought I would do it" Jack replies.
"Just ask her out and if she says no then on Monday morning at work just apologise and blame it on the alcohol you've had tonight" I shrug.
"I haven't really drunk all that much tonight" Jack states.
"Ok but she doesn't know that so just blame it on being drunk if it all goes to shit" I state.
"Or just get her alone and just kiss her like Santana did to me and then pretend you didn't mean it and apologise the next day" Brittany replies. "I told you about that night, right?" she asks.
"You did" Jack says while smirking at me.
"Ok I know I maybe shouldn't have just kissed her like that but clearly it contributed to us finally getting together because look at me now, married to this amazing woman right here" I smile before pecking Brittany's lips.
"If you two are just going to start making out then I'm going to go" Jack states.
"Ok" I smile before leaning in to kiss Brittany again.
"Yeah, I'm leaving" Jack says before hurriedly walking away.
"Ask her out Jack" I say loudly as he marches away. He turns and gives me a slight glare before walking away. Ok so maybe I was too loud and it did get everyone's attention so I understand his annoyance.
"Oh, this is a sexy song, let's dance" Brittany says while pulling me to the dancefloor and we begin dancing. I think mostly everyone else have had a bit of alcohol so they're not even offended but how handsy Britt and I are and they're even joining in with their partners.
"You're sexy when you dance babe" I smile at my wife.
"You're really sexy when you dance too. I know you think you can't dance like me but you can certainly dance with passion better than me" she smiles back at me.
"This feels so good to finally be married now, doesn't it" I say.
"Yeah, so good" Brittany nods. "We had a few bumps in the road leading up to this but I am so glad it all came together and we're married now. I'm also really grateful for all of our friends and family joining us today to help us celebrate. I know your grandparents didn't really like me in the beginning but I think they've warmed to me now" she adds.
"They have. My whole family really loves you Britt which is so cool" I smile. "Your family seems to like me to which is even better because as I say all of the time, I am not someone you immediately like so you either like me in time or you don't" I add.
"I don't know why anyone wouldn't like you because you're amazing" Brittany says as she leans in and kisses me.
"I meant what I said earlier. I am so happy I found you because you let me be me and I don't need to be anyone but myself. Not a lot of people would like that because I can be a bitch" I admit.
"Life can be too short sometimes so there is no need to waste it by being something you don't want to be. I love you the way you are and you love me for being me so it's all worked out really well so we're both happy" she smiles.
"I can't wait to spend the rest of my life with you and see what the future holds for us" I say honestly.
"I totally agree. I am so excited for the future" Brittany smiles again.
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*Sunday 7th November 2021*
Brittany and I woke up in the hotel in great spirits this morning. We got married yesterday. We freaking got married yesterday and it was amazing. I have to literally pinch myself sometimes because I can't believe I'm married now. I can't believe it because I didn't think I really would ever get married even though I wanted to and I also can't believe I'm actually married to Brittany. She is just an amazing person and she truly loves me for being me. I would describe myself as an acquired taste sometimes so it amazes me that she actually likes me. I am a confident person most of the time and I know I'm attractive so I can see why she likes that part about me but I believe the key to a successful relationship goes way beyond looks. Also, attraction goes way beyond just looks too. I'm not the easiest person to take to or get along with and I can sound quite harsh sometimes but Brittany doesn't care about that. She just cares about me and loves me for the way I am.
After we had some breakfast at the hotel with our close friends and family, we got all of our stuff together and headed back home. Brittany and I are about to finish packing our cases for our honeymoon right now. Our flight is this afternoon so we've had some time this morning to relax and pack our suitcases. I've just made coffee for us and I'm heading to the bedroom with it.
"Uh…excuse me" I say as I walk into the bedroom and see Brittany rifling through my suitcase. "Get out of there, that's my suitcase" I laugh as I sit the coffee down and rush over to stop her going through my things.
"I thought we should maybe share the two suitcases because you know what airports are like, they lose luggage all the time. If we share the two then no matter which case we lose, we would each have some clothes in the other one" Brittany points out. "I was just looking through your things to split some of it up and put some of my things in here and some of your clothes in my suitcase" she adds.
"That is a good idea babe but you can't look in my suitcase" I say while shaking my head.
"If you have some secret girl in there then I will be very mad because we've only been married a day" she smirks at me.
"Very funny" I say while playfully rolling my eyes. "You just can't look in there because I have a few surprises for the honeymoon" I tell her. I've got some new lingerie and other things in there so I want Brittany to be surprised so she can't see what's in here right now.
"Ok well when you have a minute can you make some room in your suitcase for a few of my things just in case the airport loses one of our suitcases" she asks.
"I'll make some room right now. Why don't you put these things in your case while you wait" I say while gesturing to the pile of my things I have still to pack.
"Ok" Brittany nods. She then starts putting some of my things into her suitcase. "Uh babe, why are these going in the suitcase?" she asks me as she holds up a box of condoms.
"Why do you think?" I chuckle.
"We're married now so we don't need them because what is going to happen now?" she replies.
"Uh…what?" I say confused. What is she talking about right now?
"We said as soon as we got married, we would start trying for a baby so these are not needed in that process" she tells me with a smirk.
"I know we said we'd try but I didn't think you meant like the first night as a married couple" I point out.
"This is our second night actually" she states. "But yes, I did mean as soon as we married so would it be ok to ask you to stop taking birth control?" she asks.
"Come here" I smile while pulling Brittany towards me so I can kiss her. "You have no idea how happy I am to hear you say that" I state. I'm not desperate for us to get pregnant but I am glad we can now be making steps forward to having a baby. We both want children so I'm looking forward to that next step so it's nice to know we can be a little more carefree now.
After Brittany and I finished our packing, we got ready and headed outside to the waiting cab. The cab drove us to the airport and then we went inside and got all of our luggage checked in. We then went to the first-class lounge and waited there before boarding our plane. Since we're going on our honeymoon and are only planning on getting married that one time then we figured we should do it all in luxury so we're travelling first class.
"I am so excited to go on this little trip with you" Brittany tells me.
"I can't wait either to spend time with just you as a married couple" I smile. "I also can't wait until that sex ban is finally lifted" I whisper.
"We are married now so there is no stopping us whenever we want to finally do it" she points out.
"We are not consummating our marriage on an airplane because I want our first time having married sex to be special. I'm sorry but it's just not happening right now" I state. I know we're in first class but it still doesn't make the thought of doing it on a plane any more sexy.
"Ok" Brittany smiles brightly at me.
"Why are you smiling like that?" I ask confused.
"Because I totally agree and I'm so happy right now" she smiles again.
"I'm so happy too" I say as I lean over and kiss Brittany.
I know it's been a while but let me know what you think. I'm hoping to update a little more regularly again. The next chapter will be the honeymoon.