Hey guys, I know it's been a while. It was never meant to take this long to update but things got in the way and then everything happened with Naya. I know Naya and Santana are not the same person but Naya made Santana the fantastic character she was so it affected me more than expected. I still can't get my head around everything. I keep going on social media expecting to see the odd post from her or hearing about what she has going on with work like a TV appearance or something. Anyway, I hope you're all doing ok with everything and I'm back now and writing these fanfics does seem to help a little so hopefully I won't take as long to update again.
Chapter 32: Family
Santana's POV
*Friday 30th September 2022*
Brittany is currently hanging out with Jaxon right now so I'm using the alone time to look through everything in my closet. Britt and I have dinner with our friends tomorrow night and it'll be the first big night out we've had in a while and also the first night away from Jaxon. I'm looking forward to going out and having some fun but I just can't seem to find anything appropriate to wear. I'm 10 minutes away from just quitting and settling on sweatpants to go to dinner.
"Hey, what are you doing?" Brittany asks as she walks into the bedroom with Jaxon. My clothes are now consuming the whole room.
"I was looking through my closet to see what I could wear tomorrow night when we go out with our friends but so far nothing seems to fit my post pregnancy figure" I sigh.
"Let's go shopping then" Brittany shrugs. "We've not got anything else planned for today so why don't we indulge in buying ourselves some new clothes" she adds.
"I suppose we could do that" I shrug. It might be nice actually to get out for a while and do some shopping. I've wanted to check in on my stores anyway to see how they're performing so I suppose this does the two things at the one time.
Once Brittany, Jaxon and me are all ready we head out. We get ourselves loaded into Brittany's car and set off to find myself a new wardrobe. I don't really have too much luck to begin with because nothing seems to suit me properly in the first few shops. We're heading to one of my stores now to see if maybe some designs of my own will look good on me. I started off as a children's fashion designer so I haven't fully developed my adult range yet hence the reason I went elsewhere to begin with today. I do love all my designs but different looks suit different people but I'm still hopeful something of mine will look good on me for tomorrow night.
"Hey Juliette" I say to my store manager as Brittany, Jaxon and I walk inside.
"Hey guys, how are you?" Juliette replies with a smile.
"We're doing great" Brittany smiles.
"Am I finally getting to meet this little one" Juliette says as Brittany lifts Jaxon out of his car seat and goes over to her.
"Yes, you are" Brittany nods. "Juliette this is Jaxon and Jaxon, this is Juliette" she adds.
"Oh my goodness, he looks so much like both of you?" Juliette replies as she adoringly looks at my son.
"Yeah he really does" I reply with a smile. I swear to god this little boy of mine melts everyone's hearts. I don't think I have seen anyone who hasn't smiled at him.
"So, what can I do for you today? Are you just visiting or do you need copies of any of the latest finances for the store?" Juliette asks.
"No, I'll get the finances some time next week and have a look over them" Brittany replies. Even though we're not back at work yet and Brittany doesn't even work with our company finances anymore, she still likes to see the results of everything.
"We're not actually here on business today" I reply. "I'm here to find something great to wear tomorrow night. Britt and I are having our first grownup night out with some friends while Jaxon stays with my parents" I add.
"Ok, let's do it then" Juliette smiles.
"Everything I have at home doesn't fit me anymore since I've gained a little pregnancy weight so I need some new things" I say.
"Also, who doesn't love treating themselves to new clothes every once in a while. This woman designs and makes all of these wonderful clothes for everyone but never treats herself so today we are treating Santana" Brittany says as she smiles at me.
"Oh, are the purchases on you babe?" I tease.
"Yes, I'll buy them, put anything you want on my card" Brittany says seriously.
"I was joking babe" I smile.
"I know but I want to treat you. You spent 9 months doing something for me so I think I have another 8 months to go to do things for you" she smiles.
"I mean I did spend 9 months growing your baby inside me so I won't be ungrateful if you want to spend the next 8 months treating me" I smirk.
"Exactly so I'll look after Jaxon and you look around and see what you might like to try on" Brittany says.
"Ok" I nod.
I spent the next while looking at all of the clothes in the store, putting aside the items I would like to try on. I put a couple of sizes of each piece to the side so I can see which size fits me better. I'm now heading to the changing rooms with all of my stuff followed by Brittany and Jaxon. I need the expert opinion of my two happy helpers to tell me what they think of each item of clothing. Brittany and Jaxon wait on the couches for me as I begin trying on some clothes.
"Ok, what do we think?" I ask as I leave the changing area.
"Jaxon and I think you look great" Brittany smiles. "I really don't know what you think is wrong because everything you have shown us so far looks good" she adds.
"I guess I just feel a little bit fat in some of this stuff" I sigh.
"Absolutely not Santana" Brittany shakes her head at me. "I'm not just saying this because we're married, you literally are nowhere near fat. You've always been super skinny babe so a tiny bit of weight really isn't awful. If anything, it's kinda sexy" she smiles.
"Are you saying I was not sexy before the pregnancy?" I tease.
"Definitely not but come on babe, you look great. You really suit that little bit of extra weight. I mean it's not even weight as such, your curves are just a little bit more enhanced" she tells me.
"Ok" I smile. She actually does have a point because I've noticed that ever since the pregnancy, I do actually have a butt now and you don't see the bones piercing through my skin as much.
"You should be embracing the pregnancy weight like I am with mine" Brittany shrugs.
"Since when did you gain pregnancy weight?" I laugh.
"Honey, whenever you ate, I ate so I was eating as much as you so I gained some weight too. I kinda like it though" she shrugs again.
After our day out shopping, we headed back home. Brittany put Jaxon straight down for a nap when we got back and then she did some household chores. I tried to help with the chores but she wouldn't let me and insisted I took a nap too since I was tired. I eventually gave in and took her suggestion of napping but not before making sure she knew I would cook dinner tonight since she has done everything else so far today. I've just finished cooking now so we're sitting down to eat together.
"Britt, can you focus on dinner please" I tell my wife as she keeps scrolling through something on her phone, barely touching her food or paying any attention to her wife and son.
"I will in a second. I just need to like and comment on a couple of posts my wife put online. She gets pissed if I'm not the first one to like or leave a comment" Brittany smirks at me.
"Ok" I laugh.
"Do you comment or like my posts right away?" she asks me.
"I do try to but sometimes if you're on a posting spree then they're coming at me fast so I don't always get a chance" I reply. I'm sure I like all of them but like I say, I don't have time sometimes to post a comment on every single one. I will say however, if Jaxon is in the post then yeah, I comment on all of those ones.
"Fair enough" Brittany smiles.
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*Saturday 1st October 2022*
Brittany, Jaxon and I have all had a quiet day so far. Since Brittany and I are going out tonight then we figured we would just relax around the house and spend some time with Jaxon. I really don't think Jaxon was bothered about being home all day because he seemed to have fun. He had a nap; I sang to him and Brittany danced for him so it was a productive day for the little guy. It is now time for us all to get ready for tonight.
"Hey beautiful" I say as I enter the bedroom where Brittany and Jaxon are. "Britt, hey" I say as my wife doesn't reply.
"Oh sorry, I thought you were talking to Jaxon not me" she laughs.
"I mean our son is super cute but at this present moment I was talking to you" I smile.
"You're in a good mood today" Brittany points out.
"I know" I smile. "I'm just excited about tonight. I mean don't get me wrong I will miss Jaxon a lot when he's with my parents but it's going to be fun tonight to get a chance to do some grownup stuff and get out of the house at night for a while" I add.
"Yeah I totally agree" Brittany smiles.
"I'm going to start getting ready now, I think. All of Jaxon's sleepover stuff is all packed and ready to go to my parent's place so it's just you and me to get ready" I say.
"Yeah" Brittany nods. "I'm going to lay Jaxon in his crib just now so you and I can get ready at the same time" she adds.
"Sounds like a plan" I smile.
Brittany and I start getting ourselves ready for the night. We get ourselves showered and do our hair. We then get changed and get our makeup on. It was actually really fun getting all dressed up for the night because usually the only thing I'm doing at night in the way of dressing is changing my shirt because Jaxon spit up on me. I then get Jaxon from his crib and the 3 of us head downstairs.
"You look amazing right now" I tell Brittany.
"Thanks babe, but I don't look half as good as you right now" she replies.
"Thank you honey" I say, doing badly at hiding the blushing. "So, are we ready to go to my parent's house to drop off Jaxon?" I ask as I grab my purse and Jaxon's diaper bag.
"Yes, I think so" Brittany nods as she picks up her purse and the car seat with Jaxon in it.
We get Jaxon, ourselves and all of our stuff loaded into my car before I drive off. I'm still breastfeeding at the moment so I'm unlikely to have alcohol at dinner so it made sense for us to drive instead of taking a cab. Plus, we need to get Jaxon to my parent's house anyway and we weren't doing that via a cab because he has so much stuff. I knew babies needed a lot of things but I didn't realise this much. We actually look live we're moving house or something with the number of things we need to take to my parent's place.
"Here we go Jaxon, are you all ready for your sleepover" I say as I pull up in front of my parent's house.
"You're going to have a great time with your grandparents tonight" Brittany says as we get out of the car and start unloading everything.
"Hey, let me help" my dad says as he comes outside to meet us.
"Thanks dad" I smile at him. He begins taking Jaxon's things inside.
"You're both looking very nice tonight" my mom says as we all head inside.
"Thanks Maribel" Brittany smiles.
"It felt so nice tonight to ditch the sweatpants and put on some nice clothes for once. It's been a little while since we got to dress up" I say.
"I'm going to get my camera and take a picture of you both" my mom replies.
"Your camera?" I chuckle. It's been a long time since I used an actual camera, all of my photos are taken using my phone.
"Yes, my camera" my mom nods before dashing out of the room. She comes back a few minutes later with her digital camera. "Ok you two, get close" she says while waving at Brittany and me.
"It's like prom where our parents would take a picture of us with our date" Brittany laughs as she pulls me close to her and wraps her arms around my waist.
"It is a little bit" I laugh as I wrap my arms around my wife too.
"Don't they look so cute together Carlos" my mom says enthusiastically towards my dad.
"Uh…sure" my dad shrugs. I can see he is not the least bit interested in this situation. I guess you could say I get some of my personality from my dad because I can be a little bit like that too at times, a little cold perhaps. When it comes to Britt though, I totally melt.
"Ignore him" my mom says while rolling her eyes. "Ok girls, big smiles" she says as she smiles brightly at the two of us as she begins taking some pictures.
"You're too much sometimes mom" I laugh as Brittany and I break out of the hold when my mom finishes.
"So, you won't be wanting a copy of these photographs then?" my mom asks.
"I never said that" I reply. Of course, I want a copy because Britt and I look hot together so I'll be displaying that picture in the most seen place possible to show off how good we look together.
After a long time of goodbyes to Jaxon, Brittany and I finally leave my parent's house and make our way to the restaurant. We've left Jaxon with our parent's before but never for an overnight so it was hard for us to leave right away but we seem to be ok now. We really do miss him but it'll be good for us all to have some time apart because I want Jaxon to get used to staying with close family and Brittany and I need to get used to him being in other people's care every once in a while especially if we wish to go back to work at some stage.
We've just pulled up outside the restaurant so are parking up. We grab our purses and exit the car. I lock the car behind me and we make our way over to the restaurant. Brittany reaches down and grabs a hold of my hand as we cross the road to head inside. Even though it's just something simple like holding hands, it feels so nice because we don't get to walk hand in hand much anymore because someone is always carrying Jaxon.
"Hey guys" Brittany says as we reach the table where our friends are seated.
"Hey everyone" I say and then we all greet one another.
"Are you two feeling ok tonight?" Quinn asks my wife and I.
"Uh…we're fine" I reply confused while looking at Brittany to see if she knows why Quinn is asking us that.
"You're here on time which never ever happens so I thought maybe you were ill or something" Quinn teases.
"Very funny" I say while rolling my eyes at my best friend.
"It is possible that now we're parents that maybe we have become better at time management and things" Brittany shrugs.
"Yeah" I nod in agreement.
"Anyway, we are not parents right now so let's get this adult only situation going" I smile.
"Here you go honey" Brittany says while pulling out my chair for me.
"Thanks babe" I smile at my wife before sitting down. She then sits down next to me.
"Let's start with drinks, who wants what?" Sam asks. "We've all ordered ours so what would you two like?" he asks.
"I'm just going to have water. I wasn't really planning on alcohol tonight plus I'm driving anyway" I say.
"Ok" Sam nods. "Brittany?" he asks as he turns to look at my wife.
"I'm going to go all out and have some orange juice" she replies.
"No alcohol for you either?" Quinn asks.
"No" Brittany shakes her head. "If Santana isn't drinking then neither am I" she smiles at me.
"Honey you don't need to do that" I assure her. I really don't mind being the only one not drinking. I mean if I really wanted to then I could because I could always just pump and dump the next lot of milk so it's not because I'm breastfeeding really.
"I want to" Brittany smiles. "Honestly though, you all have as much alcohol as you want because this is just fun being out for a change so I don't need liquor to have fun" she tells everyone.
After a fun dinner together, Quinn invited all of us back to her place for some drinks. Some of us of course weren't drinking alcohol but it was nice to just extend the party so to speak and continue having fun with our friends. We all caught up with each other and what was going on in each other's lives while also reminiscing about some fun times in the past. We all then headed back to our homes. Brittany and I have just arrived home now.
"Tonight has been fun" I say as I lock the house up behind us.
"It's been really fun. I do miss Jaxon but it was nice to feel a little bit like our old selves again and catch up with our friends. We've sort of fallen into a pattern these days where sometimes it's just like we're two moms" Brittany admits.
"I agree and as much as it's been great having Jaxon in our lives now, it's refreshing to have a night like this to just remind ourselves of who we are" I explain. It's not like we did anything spectacular tonight but it was nice to remember we're more than just parents as much as we love our new role.
"I must admit, it is a little bit of a shock to the system still being up at this time of night without some sort of nap in between" Brittany laughs.
"I know" I chuckle. It's not even that late but usually by this time we'd have fallen asleep for an hour or two and have just woken up to feed Jaxon.
"It's straight to bed for me I think once I'm changed and I've brushed my teeth" she replies.
"Me too" I say while taking Brittany's hand and leading her upstairs.
We go through our usual nightly routine of getting ready for bed before both slipping under the covers. Even though I'm tired, I'm not tired enough to drift off to sleep right away so I just lie there awake for a little bit. Brittany seems to do the same before turning to lay on her side to face me. She continues to look at me for a few moments before putting her arm over me.
"What are you thinking about babe?" she asks me.
"Just us and Jaxon and our life" I say.
"All good things I hope" she says with a smile.
"Yeah of course" I smile. "I mean I'm not thrilled at having to wake up at all times of the night to change a shitty diaper or rent out my breast but I do it because I love Jaxon" I add.
"I know what you mean" Brittany smiles.
"Are you renting out your breasts too?" I tease.
"I meant with the waking up in the middle of the night and the diaper changes" she laughs.
"I know" I smile as I inch closer and kiss her.
"Our life is pretty good at the moment though. We have great careers, have a wonderful little boy and we're both married to beautiful women" Brittany states.
"Very beautiful women" I say smugly.
"Yeah" Brittany nods in agreement as she pulls me closer to her. "Let's just enjoy tonight and being able to go to sleep and not need to wake up for a solid 8 hours or something."
"Sounds good to me" I say while tilting my head up to kiss her lips.
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*Saturday 8th October 2022*
I cannot believe how fast the last week has went by. It feels like just yesterday Jaxon had his first sleepover with my parents and now he's about to have another one tonight. Brittany and I are heading to a party tonight so Jaxon is going to be staying with Brittany's parents this weekend. It's worked out well because her parents have been wanting to have him at their house and spend some time with him and Brittany and I can have another night out together.
It's Jack's birthday party and even though I'm not exactly close with Jack, Brittany is so we figured it might be nice to go since he invited us both. No offence to Jack, but we weren't exactly planning on originally going to his party because we have a baby now so he is our first priority but since Brittany's parents wanted to have Jaxon for the night then we figured we could go and have some fun. The party is not for a while yet though so we'll just hang about the house until we all leave.
"Ok Jaxon is finally asleep now so I'm going to use my spare time right now to take a shower" I tell Brittany as I begin undressing. "Can you just keep an eye on him in case he wakes up?" I ask but she doesn't reply. "Brittany, are you listening to me?" I ask annoyed.
"You're undressing right in front of me so no, I'm not listening to you" she replies. "How am I supposed to pay attention to what you're saying when you're naked in front of me" she smirks.
"Fair point" I smile. "Anyway, will you watch over Jaxon for me?" I ask.
"He is sleeping pretty soundly so I think he might be ok so why don't I just join you in the shower instead?" Brittany suggests.
"Not a good idea honey, sorry" I reply with a smirk.
"Why are you teasing me like this? Couldn't you have just undressed in the bathroom instead of doing it out here to get my hopes up only for them to be dashed" she replies with a playful sigh.
"I'm sorry, I'm not doing it deliberately" I smile. "Its just sex isn't on the top of my list yet babe. I just want to get in there, shower and get back out again" I add.
"I never said anything about sex. There are other forms of intimacy that we can have without needing to have sex. I just miss you, that's all" Brittany shrugs.
"I'm sorry, I'm just not in the mood" I state.
"You don't have to apologise, it's cool. It sucks a little bit but I totally get it" she smiles.
"Ok well I'm going to take that shower now" I say.
"Ok" Brittany smiles again.
I make my way to the bathroom and close the door. I do feel bad about what just happened but I can't do much about it right now. Don't get me wrong because I miss Brittany too but I'm just not in a headspace for that at the moment. Also, I've not really been feeling particularly sexy so I'd rather Britt wasn't too close to me. I know she wouldn't care because she loves me no matter what I look like but I care so it's just not going to work. My total focus has been on Jaxon recently so my personal appearance isn't what it used to be.
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Brittany and I have already taken Jaxon to Brittany's parent's house for the night and he seems settled there. We're now at the party and it's in full swing. It's been fun so far hanging out with Brittany and catching up with some of our colleagues at work. It's also been nice to have some alcohol after a long time without. I'm not going to get drunk or anything but I'm having a glass of wine or two and will discard the next batch of milk I express since I'm still breastfeeding.
"Will you dance with me?" Brittany asks as she holds out her hand to me.
"I'd love too" I smile while taking her awaiting hand.
"Excellent" she smiles back and we make our way to the dance floor. We dance around crazily for the first few songs before stopping when a slow song comes on. "Do you want to sit for this song?" Brittany asks me.
"I don't mind either way" I reply confused. Why would I want to sit?
"Well it's a slow song and there are a lot of people we work with here so I didn't think you'd want to get all romantic and stuff by slow dancing with me. I mean wouldn't it ruin your reputation getting a little soppy?" Brittany asks with a smirk.
"Honey, half of these people here all came to our wedding reception so I think my reputation of being a no-nonsense bitch kinda went out the window then when they saw me with you" I reply. I mean at work they still see me as that because I am but outside of work my reputation is a little more relaxed.
"Yeah I guess" Brittany laughs.
"Let's slow dance together then Pierce" I say while pulling Brittany into a slow dancing hold.
"You're actually a really good dancer" Brittany smiles at me.
"You tell me that all the time and I appreciate it but I'll never quite be on your level" I smile back.
"I suppose that's like singing. I could hold the odd note if I really tried but you are much better at singing than I'll ever be" she tells me.
"I sometimes wonder why I chose fashion and not singing but I think it's because I always loved singing so I didn't want it to become my job because I was worried that passion I had would vanish and singing would become a way to live not something I enjoyed doing. If that makes sense anyway" I say.
"I see what you're saying babe. With me dancing was a way to relax and escape whatever crisis I was having but my brain is what pays the bills and I kinda like it like that" Brittany replies. "We are still young though so if in a few years we want to do something different then I see no reason why dance and singing couldn't be involved" she points out.
"Life is way too short sometimes so yeah if we ever feel we've accomplished what we can from our work in fashion then we shouldn't have any hesitations to try something new. At this age I'll never be an absolute phenomenon in music because I didn't start young but I don't doubt my ability to take the world by storm in a new career path someday" I say.
"Exactly" Brittany smiles while leaning forward to kiss me.
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*Sunday 9th October 2022*
I woke up in a horrible mood this morning because I woke up alone and I was thinking to myself 'where is this bitch?'. Jaxon is still with his grandparents so the least I thought could happen this morning was for me to wake up to my wife beside me and we could spend some quality time in bed together. She clearly had other ideas though and decided to desert me this morning.
I only last 10 more minutes in bed before I need to get up. It's no fun on my own just lying there doing nothing and I couldn't get back to sleep either so I didn't see the point in staying there. As I get out of bed, I stretch a little to make myself more awake, and then head out to the balcony. I'm just looking off into the distance when I notice Brittany swimming naked in the pool down in the garden.
"Huh, swimming is better than being in bed with your wife" I say aloud to myself in annoyance.
I watch her for 5 minutes before making my way back inside. I grab my sunglasses and go downstairs to the kitchen. I make myself some coffee before going outside to the garden. I sit down on one of the seats and start sipping my coffee as Brittany continues to swim in the pool. She doesn't really pay any attention to me and continues to swim for the next 10 minutes.
"Morning" Brittany smirks at me as she exits the pool a little later.
"Morning" I reply with a shrug.
"I saw you on the balcony watching me, did you like what you saw?" she asks as she wraps the towel around her body.
"I wasn't particularly interested if I'm honest" I shrug again.
"I thought you would be in a good mood this morning, what's going on babe?" Brittany asks confused.
"You weren't in bed when I woke up. It's one of the few mornings we've woken up alone without our son since he was born and you weren't even there" I reply with a childish sigh.
"I'm sorry" she smiles as she comes closer to me and wraps her arms around me. "I haven't swum in the morning in a long time so I thought I would take the opportunity since we didn't have the baby to tend to this morning" she adds.
"Well I thought I could wake up to my wife this morning without having to rush out of bed to be with Jaxon but that didn't happen because I was alone" I explain.
"I promise to be in bed the next time we're alone, ok?" Brittany replies.
"Ok" I nod.
"Are you going to stay pissed at me or will you maybe cheer up a little bit so we can spend some time together one on one before Jaxon gets home?" she asks.
"I don't know" I reply.
"You don't know if you're going to stay pissed or not?" Brittany asks amused.
"It all depends on whether you make things up to me or not. If you don't, I will stay pissed but there are ways I could be persuaded to cheer up" I reply. Ok, I'm not that mad at her but I am going to milk this situation for all it's worth.
"What kind of ways?" she asks curiously.
"What kind of ideas do you have?" I reply.
"Well since we're both up, how about I make us some breakfast?" she suggests. "I mean that's at least a start, right?"
"Sounds like a good place to start to me" I smile.
"Oh, there it is, I made you smile?" Brittany says triumphantly.
"It wasn't you; it was the thought of breakfast that made me happy" I shrug.
"Really?" she questions.
"Oh, who am I kidding, yes it was you" I smile.
"I love you" Brittany smiles as she leans in to kiss me.
"I love you too" I reply and then we kiss one another.
Brittany gets herself changed and then she makes a start on breakfast. Even though she offered to make it, I still wanted to help so that's what I did. We then got sat down at the table and began eating all the food we made. Brittany barely had two mouthfuls before her phone started ringing. Ideally, we would have wanted to ignore it so we could have some time together but since Jaxon isn't with us right now then we don't like ignoring our phones. She answered and took the call in the other room.
"Do you want me to leave you alone or…" Brittany says, trailing off at the end of her sentence as she re-joins me in the kitchen.
"What?" I ask confused.
"Would you like time alone to make out with your breakfast?" Brittany asks with a smirk.
"Make out?" I chuckle.
"You seem very passionate with that muffin; you're almost making out with it" she smiles as she sits down next to me.
"I'm just hungry babe" I shrug.
"You're getting closer to that muffin than you and I have been lately" Brittany tells me.
"Nah, I don't think that's accurate" I shake my head as I place the muffin down and get off my seat. "That muffin has nothing on you" I say as I straddle my wife's lap and wrap my arms around her neck.
"Is that so?" Brittany smirks as her hands slide to my back.
"Yeah, it is" I smirk back as I lean in and kiss her passionately. She kisses me back as her hands slide under my shirt where she caresses the skin on my back.
"Babe…" Brittany moans as I begin grinding down on her crotch.
"Yeah honey?" I ask as I move my kisses to her jaw and down to her neck.
"We should…uh…stop" Brittany says as she tries to pull away from me. "We shouldn't start something we can't finish" she adds.
"Yeah, maybe you're right" I smile. It wouldn't be wise of me to continue because I would only be getting her hopes up for nothing because sex is not something I'm comfortable with right now. It really wouldn't be fair of me to tease her like this.
"I would totally be up for this but I know you're not" she tells me.
"Yeah, not yet" I say while looking down. It is a little bit embarrassing to be honest that I won't have sex right now. I mean I only started kissing her to show her some affection since we're not having sex at the moment but now it's sort of done the opposite and I've went too far because it's got her all worked up.
"Babe, it's ok" Brittany smiles as she pulls me into a hug. "I get why we're not doing that at the moment but my body doesn't so I just don't want us getting into things too deeply."
"I'll make it up to you eventually as soon as things settle down, I promise" I say honestly.
"I know you will babe so don't worry about it. I'm not going anywhere so whenever it's the right time for you, it'll be the right time for me" she smiles.
"Ok" I smile back.
Once we finished breakfast, we cleared up and hung out together. I dare say we both could have made an effort to do some things around the house or even opened up our work email to check how things were but we didn't. We just preferred to have some time relaxing on the couch and just being together in each other's company. Sometimes the best times are just having someone to do nothing with. We have plenty of people to do things with but it's doing nothing with that special person that means more.
"Look who's home" I hear Brittany's mom say as she enters the house.
"Hi honey" I say as Brittany's dad carries Jaxon in his car seat into the living room.
"I've missed you so much Jaxon" Brittany says while picking up him and kissing him.
"Surely I wasn't that bad company" I chuckle.
"Of course not" Brittany smiles at me.
"Did you have fun with grandma and grandpa?" I ask Jaxon as Brittany sits down next to me with him.
"We read a book last night and we took him a walk to the park today" Alison tells us.
"That sounds exciting, you must have had a great time Jax" I say to my son.
"He slept really well last night too which was good" Brittany's dad David tells us.
"That's good" Brittany smiles. "Has he napped today?" she asks.
"This morning was the last time so he might need a nap round about now" Alison replies.
"As soon as you go, we'll put him down for a nap" I say.
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*Friday 14th October 2022*
Today Jaxon and I have an appointment with my doctor to see how things are going. Even though it's just routine, it still makes me quite nervous. It's just to check everything is ok after the birth and that Jaxon is developing well. I just really hope things have been as smooth sailing as I thought. I mean I don't see any issues with either me or Jaxon but you just don't know. This is the first time parenting and raising a child for both Brittany and I so we really don't know if everything is how it should be.
Brittany is coming with us to the appointment which I thought was so sweet. I hate going to doctor's appointments so I wanted her to go but it's even cuter that she wanted to go with us and I didn't need to ask her to come. I mean she was always going to go because Jaxon is her son but we don't always accompany each other to appointments so it's cute she wanted to be there for me too and was looking out for my health.
"Honey, please relax" Brittany says as she places her free hand on my knee as we wait in the waiting area for the appointments.
"I am relaxed" I shrug. I don't know why she thinks I'm not.
"You're shaking and you don't need to be worried about anything" she replies. "Jaxon is going to be fine, I know it" she assures me as she smiles down at him, cradled in her arms.
"What if he's not progressing as a new baby should be?" I ask as I nervously fidget with my fingers.
"I don't know for sure but I don't see why he wouldn't be developing well. I mean I did have to donate a few of his onesies the other day to charity because he grew out of them already. I mean if that's not developing well then, I don't know what is" Brittany smiles.
"I suppose" I nod.
"He seems to be feeding really well and you can't say his diaper changes are irregular because he seems to have good bowel movements so he's not in any digestive distress" she explains. "And before you ask babe, I don't think he poops too frequently either."
"I guess we just need to wait and see" I say.
"Yeah" Brittany nods while giving my hand a reassuring squeeze. We're only waiting a few more minutes before the doctor calls us through.
"So how has everything been going?" the doctor asks.
"It's been going well. Obviously, parenting is new to the both of us but we're getting there and we're enjoying it so much" I reply.
"I love it" Brittany smiles.
"Ok well my plan of action is to do Jaxon's check up first and then we'll do yours Santana" the doctor tells us. "It just means we get his out of the way and if he's starting to get restless Brittany can take him while you're getting your assessment Santana" she adds.
"Sounds good" I reply.
The doctor takes Jaxon and begins the check-up. She measures his length and weight to begin with and checks her notes to compare them to his size when he was born. She then assesses his brain function by doing a few physical tests as well as checking his eyesight and breathing. She does a whole bunch of other stuff that is way over my head too. She then hands him to Brittany while she updates her system with her findings.
"Ok, Jaxon seems to be developing very well, I don't have any concerns about his weight or growth which is good" the doctor tells us.
"That's good to hear" Brittany nods.
"His eyesight, brain function, kidney function etc. all seem to be good as well which is great. I honestly have no concerns about anything" the doctor states. "Is there anything you have noticed that you want to talk about?" she asks.
"I have noticed a few patches of dry skin so is that normal or should we do something about it?" Brittany asks.
"I noticed a little bit too but it's not concerning. I would just make sure you apply the moisturising cream when you can and this might sound odd but perhaps bathe him slightly less. Bathing can sometimes wash away all the natural oils in our skin so sometimes it can cause an area of dryness so maybe just reduce the bathing" the doctor replies.
"He does really like the water so perhaps he's staying in the tub a little longer than he should" Brittany nods.
"Honestly though, I have no major concerns here. Every baby will be different so don't get too hung up on the parenting books either but if you have any worries then please get in touch" the doctor says.
"Ok thank you" I smile.
"I think it's mommy's turn now Jaxon" the doctor says, smiling at my son.
"That's right so we're going to sit here and wait patiently for mommy" Brittany says as she cradles Jaxon in her arms.
"So how have you been feeling Santana?" the doctor asks me.
"Really good I would say. Well personally I feel great mentally and physically but I'm sure you'll tell me soon enough if there's any concerns" I reply.
"Yes, so are we ready to get started?" the doctor asks. I don't even get a chance to answer before Jaxon starts crying.
"I guess Jax doesn't want you to check over Santana" Brittany chuckles.
"He might need a bottle babe so I'll be fine here if you want to take him out the room to do that" I say.
"Are you sure because you probably won't be long so we can wait 5 minutes or I can feed him here" Brittany replies.
"I'll be fine so you go and I'll meet you at the car" I smile.
"Ok" Brittany smiles back.
Brittany and Jaxon leave and I get my examination started. The doctor goes through her usual lot of tests and has a chat with me about things. Everything seems to be normal for me which I'm pleased about. There doesn't seem to be any concerns about my body after the birth and everything seems in working order. I'm now just at the desk talking to the doctor as she wraps up the appointment.
"So, is there anything else you want to ask when you're here?" the doctor asks.
"This might sound stupid and embarrassing really but can I have sex now?" I ask embarrassed.
"Yes of course. There are no reasons as to why you can't" the doctor smiles. "The only thing I will say is if you're not planning on having more children soon then be very aware of birth control. A lot of people for some reason assume you can't get pregnant right away after having a baby but you absolutely can" she adds.
"Yeah I know about that" I nod.
"Also, some people assume breastfeeding means you can't get pregnant but again that is completely false. You can get pregnant as quickly as 3 weeks after having a baby even if you've not had your first period yet since the birth" the doctor explains.
"Yeah all of that is not back to usual yet" I state.
"Ok well like I say it's absolutely fine physically to begin intimate relations but be aware of contraception if you don't want another baby just yet" she replies.
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After the appointments, Brittany and I took Jaxon out for the day as a little treat for being such a good boy with the doctor. We decided to go to the zoo and even though he's so young, Jaxon did seem to enjoy it. We then went and got some ice cream but that was more a treat for us parents than him since Jaxon can't eat ice cream. We then headed back home and just spent some time with Jaxon. Jaxon is now about to get a feed and then it's bed time for him.
"Guess who is now cleared for sexual activity?" I say with a smirk as I walk into the living room and towards Brittany.
"I really hope it's my wife because it's been way too long" Brittany smirks back as she wraps her arms around my waist.
"It is and as soon as she's done feeding Jaxon and he drifts off to sleep, she's all yours" I smile.
"Excellent" she says as she leans in and kisses me.
"I'm going upstairs now but I won't be too long" I say.
"That's cool. I'm going to tidy a few things up down here and meet you on the couch soon" Brittany smirks.
"See you soon" I wink before leaving and heading upstairs.
I give Jaxon his bottle and then get him settled in bed. I wait 10 minutes to make sure I am satisfied he is fully asleep and not likely to wake up after a minute or so. I then go to the bathroom and freshen up a little because I want to impress my wife. I mean it's been long enough since we were so close so I need to make sure I'm looking sexy and smelling good otherwise it'll be an unpleasant first night together. Britt's waited long enough so I can't give her another reason to wait any more.
"Hey you" I say with a smirk as I walk into the living room.
"Hey" Brittany smiles at me.
"I'm excited" I say as I sit down on the couch next to her.
"Me too" she replies.
"I'm sorry I made you wait; I just really needed that appointment over with first in case there was something" I say.
"Don't worry about it babe because I totally understand" Brittany smiles. "It's better to be safe than sorry" she adds.
"Exactly" I nod. "Anyway, come here" I smile as I pull her closer to me.
"You smell beautiful babe" Brittany tells me as I wrap my arms around her and kiss her passionately. She kisses me back as her hands grip my waist.
"God I've missed you so much babe" I moan as our kissing intensifies.
"Me too" she says as her hands slowly creep up my back under my shirt. We kiss for a few more minutes before Brittany pulls away a little. She grips the bottom of my shirt and pulls it up over my head. Just as she gets the shirt off and throws it across the room, the baby monitor goes off.
"Oh" I say sadly. I didn't really want us interrupted so soon but I guess it can't be helped.
"I'll be right back, ok?" Brittany says while quickly getting off the couch and running upstairs. I use the moment alone to undress even further so I'm ready and looking sexy for Brittany when she comes back downstairs.
"Is he ok?" I ask 10 minutes later when Brittany enters the room.
"Yeah, he seems to be" Brittany smiles. "You look so sexy by the way" she says as she joins me on the couch. "I should catch up though" she says while throwing her shirt to the floor and shuffling out of her pants.
"You look sexy too by the way" I say as I lick my lips at the sight in front of me.
"Thanks baby" Brittany says as sits down next to me and pulls me close in a passionate kiss. Our lips are attached to one another's and our hands are all over each other just as Jaxon cries through the monitor again.
"I'll go this time" I sigh.
"I'll come with you because this isn't usual for him to be so unsettled at the one time" she replies.
"Yeah, I know" I nod. We make our way upstairs and pick up our little boy.
"I think he has a bit of a fever actually" Brittany points out.
"You could be right" I reply as I feel his forehead.
"I hate to say it but I don't think this is going to happen tonight with us" Brittany admits.
"Yeah I don't think so either" I sigh. I know it can't be helped but it just would be our luck that the night we're about to get close is the night our son gets sick.
"I'm sure he'll be ok but I might give him a cool bath to bring down his temperature" Brittany says.
"That's a good idea" I nod.
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*Tuesday 18th October 2022*
Jaxon is having his morning nap right now so I'm making use of the child free time to do a few things around the house. Ideally, I should be napping as well right now since Jaxon kept Britt and I up most of the night but now that I'm up and about I don't think I could go back to sleep right now. I'm just tidying up some of Jaxon's toys in the living room when Brittany walks in and begins helping me put them all back into the toy box.
"Honey, can I ask a question?" Brittany asks nervously.
"Sure" I smile.
"Would it be totally selfish of me to go for a run right now since we're not doing much today?" she asks.
"No of course not" I smile.
"I just don't want you thinking I'm leaving all the parenting to you today while I go out. I just thought I could go for a run and workout a little since I haven't really done a lot of exercising recently" she explains.
"Babe I know you; I know you're not selfish so don't stress" I smile. "I would join you on your run if I could" I say.
"I would have liked that but I guess you and I need to work out separately at the moment" Brittany says with a sad smile. We used to run together to workout and it was nice but now we can't really do that.
"Yeah" I nod.
"When I get back you could have some time to yourself and do whatever you want. You could work out or even just have a couple of hours yourself to relax" Brittany says.
"We'll see how it goes but honestly, you don't need to be afraid to do something for yourself every once in a while, because we're more than just moms. We're individual people too who need some time to themselves so you go for a run today and I'll have some alone time at some other point" I say.
"OK" Brittany smiles.
"It is so sweet of you though to always make sure you put Jaxon and I first" I say as I walk closer to my wife. "You're the best" I say as I wrap my arms around her waist.
"I would have to disagree because I would say you're the best" Brittany smiles as she pulls me closer to her body as she wraps her arms around me too.
"Let's say we're both the best because I mean look at me, I am awesome" I say smugly.
"I wonder if my working out could wait until tomorrow actually" Brittany replies as her hands cheekily slide down my body and land on my butt.
"Yeah it possibly could" I smirk.
"I mean right now there is no other place where I need to be" she tells me as she squeezes my butt.
"What are you suggesting Ms Pierce?" I ask, smirking again.
"I'm not sure yet but I definitely could take you on the couch right now" Brittany states.
"I would usually say I would prefer the bed but I'm not really in a position to complain right now since we are alone" I smile as I lean up and kiss Brittany.
"Good" she smiles at me before leading me over to the couch.
"As much as I want this to be romantic, I think it's going to need to be quick since Jaxon has already been napping for a while now" I point out.
"Yeah" Brittany smiles. Just as I straddle Brittany's lap, like clockwork the baby monitor goes off.
"Great" I groan sarcastically. I really do love my son but he really does have some impeccable timing sometimes. Every time I get my wife alone, he wakes up or cries or needs fed or needs a diaper change. If it goes on any longer, I might just forget what Britt looks like naked.
"I guess today is still not the day" Brittany says sadly.
"Yeah" I nod. "I'm going to check on him and since he's awake now, you might as well just go for your run" I state.
"Ok" Brittany replies. "I need to do a few things first" she says as she heads upstairs while I go to the other room to see to our son.
I settle Jaxon and take him to the kitchen so I can give him his bottle of milk. Once I'm done feeding him, I burp him and see if he needs his diaper changed. I then lift him in my arms and take him upstairs with me so I can get the dirty laundry from upstairs so I can put it on a cycle. I might as well make use of my time by doing some chores since Brittany is leaving soon so it'll just be me and Jaxon.
"I'm leaving in 5 minutes babe" Brittany tells me as she kisses my cheek and Jaxon's head.
"Ok" I smile.
"I shouldn't be away too long though" she replies. She then heads downstairs and I grab the laundry, balancing Jaxon in one arm and the laundry in the other.
"Honey, please don't stetch in the middle of the floor" I tell my wife as I reach the bottom of the stairs where Brittany is stretching in the middle of the hallway.
"I need to do it somewhere" she explains.
"I get that but here really isn't the place" I state.
"What's the big deal, I do it all the time down here?" Brittany shrugs.
"Jaxon and I just don't need to watch you moving around like that when we're going in and out of rooms, doing our chores" I state.
"I honestly don't see the big deal but I think I'm warmed up enough anyway now for my run" she replies.
"You in your tight little leggings that cling to your body perfectly and you putting your butt in the air just isn't appropriate, ok" I say.
"Huh?" Brittany says confused.
"Your stretching display is just too sexy for the middle of the hall so just stop doing it there where we can all see you" I tell her.
"Where you can see me, you mean. Is it making you all hot and bothered babe?" Brittany teases me.
"Just go for your run please" I say while avoiding the question. Brittany is totally right though because it's been so long since we were intimate that even the smallest of things could turn me on now. Just Brittany stretching does something to me because I miss her body so much.
"Ok fine, see you later" Brittany says.
"Bye" I reply and Brittany leaves.
The whole time Brittany was away, I spent it finishing the household chores and spending some time with Jaxon. He helped me finish off the load of laundry and then we relaxed on the couch together. We played with some of his toys and then I read one of his books to him. He ended up falling asleep in my arms as I read to him so I carefully took him to the other room and put him down for another nap. It seems like all he does is nap sometimes but I suppose that way I get some time to do what I need to do.
"Hey, I'm back" I hear Brittany say loudly as she comes through the front door.
"Shush! Jaxon is sleeping" I say as I rush to the door.
"Sorry" she whispers.
"It's ok" I smile. I don't think he has woken up so no harm is done.
"Is he having another nap?" Brittany asks as we make our way to the living room.
"Yeah" I nod.
"I really worked up a sweat with that run so do you mind if I go for a shower right now and then we can have some lunch once I'm ready" Brittany says.
"That's cool honey" I smile. "Hey, maybe I could come upstairs and I could…never mind" I sigh as I hear Jaxon wakening up through the monitor. I was going to suggest I join her but my son seems to have other ideas this afternoon, once again.
"What were you going to say?" Brittany asks, not realising what I was about to suggest.
"Honestly it doesn't matter. I better go and see to Jax" I say.
"Ok" Brittany shrugs.
"He probably needs fed now so I'll do that and then start on making us lunch and hopefully by that time you'll be back down here, finished with your shower" I reply.
"Yeah I'll be as quick as I can" Brittany says and then dashes off upstairs.
"One of these days I'll get Brittany to myself for more than 5 minutes" I say aloud to myself as I go to tend to my son.
Let me know what you think. The chapter is a little shorter than intended but I wanted to get something updated today.