Chapter 42: Hit The Roof
Brittany's POV
*Thursday 11th May 2023*
"You deserve better" Ashley says for the third time today but this time she says it right before leaning in and kissing me.
"Uh…what the hell!" I say outraged as I aggressively push her away from me. "Are you out of your mind, Ashley?" I shout.
"I know you don't want to admit it but there is an attraction between us and I could be that better person for you" Ashley states.
"Definitely not on my part there is an attraction" I say frustrated. "Look, I think it's best you leave now because this isn't appropriate. I'm happily married to a wonderful woman so you have to stop whatever agenda you have."
"It's not an agenda, it's what we both want" she tells me.
"It's really not what I want, Ashley. I don't see you in that way whatsoever. I only see you as my son's nanny and someone who I thought was my friend" I reply.
"Don't you want to be with someone who makes you happy like me? You and Santana aren't happy anymore, anyone can see that" she tells me.
"That's not true" I shake my head. "Santana makes me happy; Jaxon makes me happy; our new baby will make me happy. You on the other hand, do not make me happy. You work for me and that's it" I add.
"That's not it, Brittany. You and I could be really good together because we get on so well together already" Ashley smiles.
"Oh my god, this is all starting to make sense now" I say just realising what's been going on. "This is why you dyed your hair and started wearing the same perfume as Santana. You want to be just like her because you know that's what I like. You like me and you know I love everything about Santana so you are trying to act just like her because you think in some sick way, I will start to like you back if you look like my wife" I sigh.
"Trust me, I don't want to be like Santana because she's not the nicest of people. I do however want what she has, i.e. you" she smiles at me again.
"Ok first of all, Santana is the most awesome person you could know and second of all, you'll never get me so you're wasting your time" I assure her. I really want to slap Ashley right now but I can't because my son is in the office with us.
"Look, I never meant for this to happen but it has happened. After my breakup with my ex, I started seeing you differently because you were so kind to me. You kept reassuring me that I would find someone soon and I did" she smiles.
"Ashley, for goodness' sake I didn't mean me. I was trying to be your friend but that was not me telling you I liked you in that way. I know we would sometimes be around each other a lot and we got on well together but that was as friends. You should never have kissed me" I state.
"Like I say, this wasn't my intention at all in the beginning because I was happy with my ex but the more I got to know you the more I realised we work well together. I am going to fight for you Brittany because I know we can be something good together" Ashley states.
"We'll never be anything together so don't even try. Look, you just need to leave now because this situation is out of hand. I can deal with crushes but this isn't a crush because neither of us are kids. We're both old enough to know what's going on here so don't pretend like this isn't your fault because clearly it is. As soon as you realised you liked me, you should have backed off. You're not some teenager who doesn't know how to handle their feelings. You're a grown woman so you should know better and know this isn't right" I state.
"Why are you fighting this, Brittany?" she asks me.
"I really don't see you in that way Ashley and I never will because I'm so madly in love with Santana. Santana and I are never breaking up so you really need to back the hell off" I sigh.
"I can't do that because when I know what I want I need to go after it" she tells me. "Look, in time you'll realise we belong together, not you and Santana so I'm going to give you some time to come to terms with that. I'm going to leave now but I'll see you tomorrow" she says as she makes her way towards the door.
"You know what, you won't see me tomorrow or any of my other family for that matter. You're fired, Ashley" I state.
"Come on, that's a bit much. You can't just fire me like that without notice" she sighs.
"I can fire you if I want to because you work for me so I can hire and fire whoever I want whenever I want" I tell her with a shrug.
"I can't lose my job Brittany, how am I supposed to support myself with no money?" Ashley says sadly.
"To be honest, I don't really care. You have sexually harassed me so if you would prefer I went to my lawyer and spoke to them then that's fine but you still won't be working for me. You can either leave just now and be lucky I haven't filed a claim against you or you can still leave now and let me talk to the authorities and my lawyer about you sexually harassing me" I state.
"I didn't sexually harass you, I kissed you because we both wanted it" she replies.
"No this was not a mutual thing Ashley; you have sexually harassed me so either leave now or wait until I take this further which I wouldn't suggest you do. It's up to you but just know, I won't ever be yours so I wouldn't waste my time if I were you" I state.
"Fine" she says angrily before marching out of the office and slamming the door behind her.
"I am so sorry Jaxon; you should not have been present during any of that" I tell my son as I lift him from his car seat and hug him tightly. "Your mommy is going to hit the roof though when she finds out what Ashley has done" I say with a sigh.
Jaxon and I hang out in my office for a little while as I wait on Santana hopefully turning up soon. My plan was to go home after an hour and Santana knew this so I'm just waiting patiently for her to swing by and say goodbye to Jaxon. My plan was also to work on some emails during this time but that's out the window now. I haven't been able to concentrate on anything except Jaxon at the moment so my work is just going to have to wait until tomorrow.
"Mommy brain is at it's finest today" Santana says as she marches into the office.
"Huh?" I say distracted.
"I'm supposed to be in a meeting but the pregnancy/mommy brain I have made me forget my document" she replies as she walks towards her desk.
"Babe, can we talk?" I ask.
"Not right now because I only dropped by to get a file and to say goodbye to Jaxon then I'm rushing to the meeting" Santana says as she hurriedly looks through the folders on her desk.
"But I need to talk to you" I say seriously.
"We'll talk later babe, I promise" she smiles. "Now I really need to get to this meeting" she says as she finds the folder she's looking for.
"It's important we do talk later" I reply.
"Ok and we will" she assures me as she leans over to kiss Jaxon. "I love you; I'll see you back at home later" she says as she kisses my cheek and then dashes out of the office.
"I love you too" I say but I doubt Santana heard me reply since she left so quickly.
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As soon as Santana went back to work, Jaxon and I headed home. There was no point in us hanging around the office anymore when Santana was still working and didn't have time to talk. I've just put Jaxon down to sleep now after giving him something to eat and changing him into his pajamas. I'm currently hanging out alone in my bedroom waiting for my wife to get home and wondering how on earth I tell her what happened earlier. It's already later in the evening than I thought it would be for Santana getting home so I'm getting more worried by the second about how to explain. I anxiously wait for the next 15 minutes before I hear Santana's car pull up outside.
"Oh, thank god" I say aloud to myself as I run downstairs to greet Santana.
"Hey baby, greeting me at the door again, are you?" she smirks at me. Great, not only am I about to tell her some awful news but I'm about to also ruin her good mood.
"Something like that" I reply as I kiss her cheek. "So, I haven't cooked any dinner yet because I didn't know when you'd be home plus, I wanted to talk to you about something important anyway" I add.
"It's fine, we can eat later. Right now, I just want a minute to rest" she says as she removes her heels and heads towards the stairs.
"Where are you going?" I ask.
"To kiss Jaxon goodnight, why do you want me all to yourself" she teases.
"No, I just wondered but that's cool" I reply. As much as I really need to speak to her, I get that she has missed Jaxon today so I wouldn't deprive her of seeing her son.
"Are you coming too?" Santana asks with a smile as she holds her hand out to me.
"Yeah" I nod as I gratefully take her hand.
"Smile babe, I'm home now" she chuckles. Oh, if only she knew what was about to come.
"I'm sorry I'm not looking so cheerful at the moment" I say. I know she has smiled at me a few times and teased me but I just can't be in the same headspace right now because I know what is to come isn't going to be good.
"Hey, buddy" Santana says quietly as we walk into Jaxon's room. "I am so sorry I wasn't home earlier but I promise I won't be late home from work tomorrow. I will finish early to come home and see you" she whispers as she leans down to kiss him.
"We'd like that Jax, wouldn't we" I say as I kiss his head gently, so I don't wake him.
"Goodnight, buddy" Santana says as she kisses him again before we leave the room and quietly shut the door.
"Can we talk about that thing I wanted to talk about earlier" I say.
"If it's to do with work then not just now. I don't want to talk about it anymore because I have been in the office long enough today so I need a break" she tells me.
"It's not entirely about work but it is important" I state.
"We'll talk later, I want to relax for a minute to de-stress from work" Santana replies as we make our way into the master bedroom.
"We need to talk now Santana, you said we could. You promised me that we would tonight once you got home" I state, starting to get a little upset out of frustration.
"I know but I'm tired and I just want to take a shower right now to wash this day away so we'll talk later" Santana shrugs.
"No, we're talking now" I say seriously, trying to handle my emotions.
"Is that an order, is it?" she questions me. The good mood from earlier nowhere to be seen.
"Yes, it's an order. Can't you see I am upset and annoyed right now about something so we are going to talk whether you like it or not. I will not put off this conversation any longer so sit down and listen to me" I say firmly.
"Don't speak to me like a child" Santana says while narrowing her eyes at me and glaring.
"Ashley made a move on me" I say, not beating around the bush any longer.
"I'm sorry, what now?" Santana says in disbelief.
"She kissed me this afternoon" I sigh.
"You've got to be fucking kidding me, this is just great" she says annoyed while shaking her head.
"Don't worry though, I told her not to come back and that she no longer works for us" I reply.
"I wish you didn't because I'd have liked her to come back so I could see her again and kick the shit out of her" Santana says angrily. "I mean how fucking dare she kiss a married woman, better still a woman married to me. Has she got a death wish or something?"
"I know you're angry honey but try and not let it affect you too much because I don't want you getting all worked up and stressed when you're pregnant" I say while reaching out to take her hand in mine.
"It's a bit late for that, I am already worked up" she sighs.
"Come and sit down, honey" I say while leading us over to the bed to sit down.
"I just don't understand why people have to be so cruel sometimes. I mean you're mine, you're my wife so what makes her think it's ok to do this?" she states.
"I have no idea what goes on in that woman's head" I say while shaking my head.
"We let her into our home many times and we trusted her with our son. How could she do something like this?" Santana says sadly, switching from one emotion to another.
"That is what bothers me the most" I say annoyed. "Obviously I don't like the fact she kissed me but what really gets to me is that I thought I knew her and it turns out I didn't. I let her look after Jaxon thinking she was someone else and all this time, she was lying to us."
"Exactly" Santana sighs.
"There is clearly something wrong with her or another side to her or something if she thought kissing me was acceptable. I mean I'm not saying she wasn't good at her job or anything though because I think she was" I say.
"Don't be nice about things Brittany. She could be a fucking saint for all I care but it still doesn't make what she did ok. I don't care how good with children she was, what she did was not right so don't make excuses for her" Santana says while glaring at me.
"Honey, trust me. I am not making excuses for her and I don't like what she did any more than you do" I reply.
"She is such a class act, huh" Santana says while shaking her head. "She knew with my pregnancy I was vulnerable and hormonal making me take things out on you so she decided to play on that by getting closer to you making it look like I was neglecting you."
"I just wish I could have seen things sooner" I sigh.
"From now on, I will be a better wife to you. I promise" she tells me.
"You are already a great wife Santana so don't let Ashley make you think things. I don't want you to change who you are. I love you as you are" I smile.
"I have been hard on you recently so I can see why she might have picked now to do it" she admits.
"I don't care. I still love you and I don't take any of it to heart. I know you're going through a hard time with the pregnancy" I say.
"You are too good for me sometimes" Santana says with a sigh.
"That's not true, honestly" I say while shaking my head. "You're way too good for me" I add.
"I just really could be doing without drama tonight after the busy day I have had" she sighs again.
"Why don't you take that shower now and I'll make us something to eat" I suggest. "It might help relax you a little bit."
"Ok" she nods as she stands up and heads towards the master bathroom.
As soon as Santana goes for a shower, I run downstairs and make us something to eat. It's getting late and I don't suppose she will take too long in the shower so I'm not making anything too complicated to eat. I've just settled on making us a sandwich so I don't run the risk of anything going cold if Santana does take a little longer than expected. Once I have made them, I take them back upstairs and wait in the bedroom for Santana to finish in the bathroom.
"Hey, you ok?" I ask as Santana walks back into the bedroom.
"Not really, no" she shakes her head. "I tried to wash away the day in the shower but all I kept thinking about was someone else kissing the girl I love."
"Come here a second babe" I say while patting the empty spot on the bed next to me.
"I actually thought Ashley and I were friends. I mean not like best friends but I thought we were friendly enough that she wouldn't do this to me" she says sadly as she sits down.
"Yeah, me too" I sigh. "I actually thought Ashley and I got on really well in a friendly way too so for her to completely blindside me like this just annoys me."
"I need to ask you a question and I don't want you to take any offence to it. I just need to hear your honest answer. What I am about to ask doesn't mean I don't trust you. I just need to ask it because I really need to know how you feel. After everything recently, I wouldn't blame you for anything so…"
"Stop Santana" I sigh as I interrupt her. "I know the question you're about to ask me and I don't want you to ask it" I add.
"You don't know what I'm going to say" she frowns at me.
"Yes, I do" I state. "You're about to ask me if I had any feelings towards Ashley like she had towards me. I know that's what you want to know and I am telling you, don't ask me that question."
"Don't ask because you know I won't like the answer?" Santana questions sadly.
"No, don't ask me because you and I don't need to go there. That should never be a question you have for me" I say while shaking my head.
"Honey, I asked you not to take offence and now you sound like you are" she replies.
"How can I not take offence to a question like that coming from you?" I ask sadly.
"I know I have been horrible to you recently. You didn't deserve my bad attitude so all I am saying is that I can see how I might have driven you away so I wouldn't blame you if you started having a connection with someone else. It happens all too much in this world where relationships lose communication and partners find comfort elsewhere. I'm not saying you acted on anything because I know you would never cheat on me but I am just asking if maybe there was an emotional connection there or even an attraction towards her because we all know I haven't just been emotionally messed up recently but I've been physically distant too" Santana explains.
"What is it you want me to say Santana?" I ask offendedly. I know she told me not to be so defensive but how else can I handle things right now when she's saying things like this. We're supposed to have 100% trust in each other.
"I just want to know honestly how you felt about Ashley" she replies.
"Honestly, I was in love with her. I wished I was married to her and lived with her and we were the ones having a family together" I shrug.
"I know you're just taking the piss and making a fool of me now" Santana sighs while rolling her eyes at me.
"It sounds like you have made your mind up about what you think" I sigh.
"Is there a reason you are avoiding actually answering my question?" Santana asks. "It makes me think maybe there is an element of truth in what I thought."
"I am avoiding answering the question because if I do, I will get so mad Santana. I love you like I have never loved anyone before so if I even think about answering that question any longer, I will blow up in rage. I cannot believe you would even think you had to ask me a question like that" I say annoyed.
"I'm not asking you to hurt you, I just don't know anymore what's going on. I'm just tired, pregnant and really vulnerable right now. I know I haven't been a good person lately so a part of me worries I have pushed you away. Ashley is everything I'm not so there is every chance I have ruined us and as I say, I wouldn't blame you if you found what you needed to from her when I'm emotionally and physically unavailable" Santana says as tears roll down her cheeks.
"Babe…" I say while putting my arms around her. I am mad she thinks she has to ask me what she did but at the same time, it breaks my heart to see her cry.
"These stupid hormones are making me go crazy I think" she says as she cries in my arms.
"Ok, I admit I am a little hurt you think I could possibly find something with anyone else but you're not crazy. I get that these things can happen to other people but it won't with us. I know we don't have the perfect marriage but it's good enough for me to make me know I don't want anyone but you" I say.
"Ok" Santana nods.
"To answer your question though, no I did not feel anything towards Ashley. I wasn't attracted to her in any way nor did I feel like something was missing between you and I" I say honestly. "I did like her in the beginning in the sense of that she seemed like a nice person and we were friendly because she was good with Jaxon. I just hate her now" I reply.
"Ok" she nods as she rests her head on my shoulder.
"I think I want to take a shower myself now so why don't you eat the sandwich I've made and try to relax. I'll not be too long" I tell her.
"Ok but what about your food, don't you want to eat just now" Santana says confused.
"I'm not really hungry if I'm honest so I'll eat it later" I reply.
"Fair enough" she shrugs. "I think I'll get into bed once I've eaten if that's ok" she adds.
"Of course, do whatever you want to do to relax yourself" I smile and then make my way to the bathroom.
As soon as I'm finished in the shower, I take a minute to myself in the bathroom to digest the drama of today. I just don't think I've had a day like this before. It has been no fun at all. It was bad enough to begin with because I barely saw Santana at work which I didn't like. Then it got even worse when Ashley did what she did and now it's not terribly better. Santana and I are both filled with mixed emotions and it's like we're fighting over something that we couldn't predict and wasn't our fault which is just not fair. I'd rather if we really had to argue then it was because of something we did, not because of someone else causing problems.
"Are you coming to bed soon?" Santana asks as I walk into the bedroom.
"Yeah, I'm coming right now" I tell her as I walk towards the bed.
"That's good" she says.
Santana pulls the bed sheets back for me so I can slip under the covers. I gently get into bed next to her and wrap my arms around her. She places her hands on top of mine and we lie in silence for a few minutes, just happy to have each other in our arms. Technically I probably should be eating the food I made earlier since I haven't eaten in a while but I still can't face it. I just want to be with Santana right now.
"Babe" I say to get Santana's attention.
"Yeah?" she turns her head and smiles at me.
"I'm sorry about earlier and how I reacted to your question about my feelings for Ashley" I say honestly.
"You don't need to apologise. I shouldn't have doubted you in the first place because I know you love me and I love you and our relationship is rock solid" she smiles again.
"No, I do need to apologise because I was only thinking of myself and my pride got hurt a little bit. I should have been thinking about you though because you were upset and you are going through an emotional time in the pregnancy so I shouldn't have been so nasty to you and your feelings. I get why you were asking even though I felt like neither of us should need to ask the other something like that" I explain.
"I love you and I knew you would never intentionally hurt me. I just got worried I drove you to do something you would never do" Santana says.
"Honestly Santana, I am just as much to blame because I was being selfish. When you asked me all I thought about was how I felt and not about how you felt. I didn't think about the fact you clearly felt a particular way to have to ask me that question" I say. I totally overreacted earlier and I didn't put myself in Santana's shoes when I should have.
"My emotions are just everywhere right now and it's definitely affected me now knowing someone has an attraction towards my wife. I was already feeling at my lowest with the pregnancy and now to know someone likes you just makes me feel worse" she admits.
"I see that now and I shouldn't have been so hard on you before. To be honest, my reaction was partly out of embarrassment and worry as well. I was worried that as a married woman, I had been giving out signals I didn't mean to give out. I 100% didn't feel anything for Ashley but I was worried that maybe it was my fault this whole thing and I had been sending some sort of signal to her that I liked her even though I didn't like her in that way" I say honestly.
"You're a friendly person Brittany and really nice so I already know people gravitate towards your kind nature but I don't think this is what happened. You said you don't have any feelings for her so I believe you so I can safely say now that you wouldn't have led her on. I know you babe so I know if you feel a certain way about someone then it's clear so there have been no mixed signals from you" Santana says.
"Ok, good" I nod. "I love you so so much and you're the only one for me, I hope you know that" I say.
"I do. Trust me, I do" she says as she leans her head on my shoulder.
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*Friday 12th May 2023*
I didn't have the greatest of night's last night regarding sleeping. Santana and I struggled to get to sleep even though we were both really tired. We just kept thinking about what happened earlier that day as much as we really didn't want to replay it. I'm just in the kitchen just now making breakfast when Santana walks in with Jaxon in her arms. She brings him over to me so I can kiss him before she sits him down in his high chair.
"Morning baby" I say as I kiss Santana's cheek as she walks back over to me.
"Morning" she smiles at me.
"I know we're supposed to be working today but let's not go into work. Yesterday was a big day so we should stay home and work or even better, let's not work at all and just spend time with Jax" I suggest. "I think we need some time to de-stress, what do you think?" I ask.
"I did have things I needed to do today at work but I suppose they could wait until tomorrow. It would really make me happy to spend the day with Jaxon" Santana says, smiling at the thought of our son.
"And?" I say with a smirk as I clear my throat.
"And you. I would love to spend the day with Jaxon and you" she smiles.
"Good, I'm glad to hear it" I smile.
"Something smells good, are you cooking breakfast?" Santana asks as she goes over to the table to sit with Jaxon.
"I am so I hope you're hungry" I tell her.
"I am really hungry actually and so is your second child" she replies as she gently caresses her baby bump. "Speaking of kids, can you get Jaxon's milk ready because I've just sat down and now, I don't have the energy to get back up again" she adds.
"Yes of course I can do that" I smile. I love taking care of my family so I'll do whatever they want me to do for them.
Once I finished making breakfast for everyone, we sat down together and ate. I then cleared up the dishes while Santana spent some time with Jaxon. I joined in on the family time once I was finished and then we spent most of the morning just hanging out and playing with Jaxon's toys. Jaxon is now taking a short nap so Santana and I are making use of the free time to just relax ourselves. We could be doing some boring household chores but we decided against it and opted for laying on the couch together.
"There's nothing of interest on the TV for me" Santana says as continues looking through the channels.
"The only thing that I really want to watch is that documentary I keep talking about" I tell her.
"I can't say it will excite me but if you really want to watch it then fine, we can watch it" Santana smiles at me
"Thank you" I smile back. I'm just putting the programme on when the doorbell rings.
"Oh, saved by the bell" Santana laughs.
"Don't worry, we'll be watching the documentary after we get rid of whoever is at the door" I assure her.
"Ok" she playfully sighs.
"I'll get the door, you stay there" I smile as I get up from the couch.
"I wasn't actually going to make an attempt to answer the door anyway, I was just going to make you do it" Santana laughs.
"Ok" I laugh too. Man, my wife is so adorable sometimes. "I'll be back in a second hopefully" I say.
"Yeah hopefully because I was enjoying having you all to myself" she tells me as I make my way towards the front door.
"What do you want?" I ask unimpressed as I open the door. Just when Santana and I were finally having some time not thinking about yesterday, she has to tun up.
"I need to talk to you Brittany" Ashley replies.
"No, you don't, just leave me and my family alone" I state while trying to close the door.
"Please just give me a second" Ashley says as she puts her foot in the door to stop it from closing. "I really need to speak to you right now" she adds.
"Well, that's too bad because I don't want to speak to you" I shrug. "Plus, I don't have time to talk anyway because I need to leave for work" I lie.
"I know you're not working today because I went to your workplace and Jack told me you weren't coming into work today" Ashley replies.
"Please just go away" I sigh.
"Is Santana inside?" Ashley asks.
"Yes, she is and she knows exactly what you have done" Santana states before I even get a chance to reply.
"Honey, I'll handle this" I say as I stand in front of her. I really don't want Santana to get stressed out right now because this pregnancy has been difficult enough for her so god forbid it gets worse with the stress.
"No, I've got a few things to say to Ashley" Santana says seriously.
"Yeah, I have a few things I need to say to you as well" Ashley replies smugly to Santana.
"Firstly, you have no idea just how much I want to wrap my hand around your throat and choke you to death but I won't do that" Santana states. "I have way too much to lose if I do that so I'm just going to say how I feel with words rather than actions" she adds.
"I'm more than happy to fight you Santana so we don't need to use only words" Ashley says confidently. "My fists are ready" she adds.
"Wow you're such a good person Ashley, wanting to hit a pregnant lady. How could I not want to be with you" I say sarcastically.
"Come on Britt, you…"
"Uh, no way. You do not get to call Brittany, Britt. Only the people who matter in her lift can use that nickname" Santana says seriously.
"Look, seriously what do you want Ashley because you're doing nothing but wasting everyone's time" I say with a sigh.
"I feel like we need to all talk about yesterday" Ashley replies.
"I feel like I need to punch you but hey, we don't all get what we want so goodbye Ashley" Santana says as she tries to pull me inside and close the door.
"No Santana, just listen please" Ashley says as she pushes the door open wider. "We're sorry Santana, we didn't mean to hurt you" she states.
"We?" Santana questions with a laugh. "There is no 'we' in this situation because you did something wrong but not Brittany. This is all on you, and Brittany played no part in it" she adds.
"Is that what she told you?" Ashley replies.
"Yes, it's what she told me because it's the truth" Santana tells her confidently.
"It's not, the connection between us was just too big to ignore so we had to give into our temptations" Ashley replies.
"Is she actually serious right now?" Santana asks in disbelief as she turns to look at me.
"I have no idea what planet she is on but she seems to think she's being serious" I say while shaking my head. There is no connection between us but Ashley seems deadly serious in the way she's talking.
"You and Brittany don't have any kind of connection Ashley. If you think that you do then I suggest you get some professional help and quickly" Santana states.
"I think you're the one that needs help Santana" Ashley laughs.
"Why are you doing this Ashley. I made it very clear yesterday that Santana is the only one for me so why are you pretending that I like you back. Lying doesn't achieve anything so just admit, you fell for me and you know you shouldn't have" I say.
"We could be good together though, Brittany" she states.
"In the beginning I did like you as a friend Ashley so I will admit, we did get on well together. Getting along though doesn't translate as falling for each other" I tell her. "I'm guessing you're still quite hurt over your last breakup so you're clinging on desperately to what there is left. Just because I was a friend to you after you got hurt doesn't mean you should go after the next person you get along with because you desperately want a relationship. Being alone sucks, I get it but this isn't the solution" I explain.
"I fell for you because you were a good person Brittany not because I wanted to be with someone so much and not because you were the first person I thought of" Ashley replies.
"I am actually worried for you right now Ashley because you're not the woman I hired to be my son's nanny. The Ashley we hired wouldn't do this and she actually cared about more than just herself" I point out.
"I do care about more than just me, I care about you" she smiles.
"You clearly don't care about Santana or Jaxon though, do you?" I state. "If you really did care about other people, you wouldn't try and break up a marriage."
"Look this is going absolutely nowhere" Santana says while rolling her eyes. "Ashley just stop with this stupidity because as Brittany said, you're not the same person we first knew. You just need to accept you have made a horrible mistake and deal with the embarrassment. You're trying to cover up your epic mistake by saying Brittany feels the same but she really doesn't. You don't want to admit that you're alone and desperate for someone to love you back. I think you're doing this out of jealousy because you want to be like me. You want someone like Brittany to treat you like she treats me" she explains.
"I don't regret what I did" Ashley shrugs.
"Well, you should because it wasn't right" I state.
"Look, I'm not everyone's favourite person and I get that. People don't warm to me as well as they do Brittany so perhaps you have bonded with Brittany in some way more so than with me but you can't say I'm a horrible person to her and you can't think that gives you a reason to kiss her. I'm sure if I spent as much time around you as Brittany did then things may have been different and you would see she's not interested in anything but friendship" Santana states.
"Santana has got a point Ashley because you're just embarrassed now about making a mistake so you're trying to make it better when you're making it worse. Have a bit more dignity and accept that kissing me was a mistake instead of trying to come out of this like it's mutual. You're not going to make this situation better" I tell her.
"Brittany doesn't like you so just take the hint and move along" Santana adds.
"There will be someone out there for you Ashley but it's not me. Deep down I think you still are that nice person we hired so take some time away and re-evaluate things and you'll realise all of this is just down to hurt and being alone. You're hurt by the breakup but you don't want to be alone so you're throwing yourself at the first person who was nice to you because you don't want to go on feeling so down and sad all the time" I say honestly. "Things will get better for you so believe that and you can be a better person."
"Brittany why are you being nice to her, she tried to break us up" Santana asks me. "Look you fucked up Ashley so deal with it" she states.
"I am being nice because something clearly has happened to her for her to get to this stage. She wasn't like this when we met her so she's obviously going through something at the moment for her to change like this" I point out.
"Just don't because this is probably going to get you into more issues. If you keep being nice to her then she'll think you do actually like her and she will try and ruin us. We need to draw a line here, ok. Yes, you were a nice person when we met you Ashley but you have become a bit of a bitch now so for the sake of everyone here it's best we don't speak anymore and you leave us alone" Santana says.
"I completely agree with Santana that you need to do yourself a favour and leave now before we need to take extra precautions around you. There is no coming back from this so you just need to leave and move on" I say.
"But…"
"No buts Ashley, just go. If you honestly mean you like me then you should be able to do as I ask which is for you to leave me alone" I say to Ashley.
"Fine I will leave now but as I said before, this isn't over" Ashley sighs.
"Oh, before you go Ashley, have this" Santana says before raising her left hand in the air and slapping Ashley across the face. "That is for kissing my wife now get the fuck away from my house before I do any more damage to you" she states while slamming the door shut.
"I really hope she listens and does leave us alone now" I say with a sigh.
"Look, I know you want to see the good in everyone Brittany but some of what you said wasn't right, it was too nice. Some people aren't that nice so we don't want to encourage Ashley. I do agree with you that she is clearly going through something because she wasn't that type of person when we hired her but it's not our problem anymore. For the sake of our marriage, please do not continue the friendship" she pleads with me.
"Babe, I won't be friends with her anymore, I promise you. I just wanted to point out that she doesn't have to be this horrible person and that whatever she is going through she can get past with proper help" I say.
"Why would you want to help her though or even give her hope that things could get better. All I wanted to do was kick her ass. After everything she has done to you and us, why would you rather encourage her to get better than basically punch her in the face?" she asks me confused.
"I guess I just don't want to make the situation any worse. She's obviously in a dark place at the moment and she needs help. Don't get me wrong, I do want her to suffer but she must be suffering already so I'm not going to make it worse. We know what bad breakups are like so there's no point rubbing salt into the wound. We've said how we feel to her so we should leave it at that" I say.
"She kissed you though, Brittany. That is just not something we should brush under the carpet" Santana points out.
"I know but I just don't have the energy to fight with her anymore so I was trying a different approach. I just want to forget about the whole thing now" I state.
"I wish I could forget" Santana sighs.
"It'll stress me out even more to keep fighting than to just give up and deal with what happened" I tell her.
"Ok" Santana smiles. "I totally understand that because I am exhausted right now" she adds.
"I know I don't like violence but I kinda liked that you slapped her" I say honestly.
"Trust me, she has earned more than a slap but I couldn't risk it because judging by her behaviour recently, she would probably have gone to the cops and said I assaulted her which would get me in deeper shit than I want to be in" she points out.
Santana's POV
*Sunday 14th May 2023*
It might sound weird but Ashley kissing Brittany was actually a good thing for our relationship. It just made us realise that we never ever want to be apart. It's not that I thought we would ever split up really but you never normally know for certain what life could bring. I know now though that I don't ever want to be with anyone else and I don't ever want Brittany to be with anyone else. We've had a few ups and downs recently where we've argued a bit but that kiss really made me see that those were just silly arguments and weren't anything we needed to worry about. I never thought Brittany would cheat on me anyways but I always knew in the back of my head that she was a friendlier person than me so I did wonder if other people would latch onto that.
Don't get me wrong, I don't ever want such a drastic measure to occur again to prove our love for one another. I never want to go through this again where someone else kisses my wife. It is not a good feeling at all even though it did make us realise we're rock solid together. Like I say it was a good thing for our relationship but it's not been a good thing for our personal feelings. I was already at a low point in the pregnancy so now I think I'm in an even lower point because it's a crap feeling to feel so bad about yourself and then have someone kiss your wife on top of that. If I wasn't insecure about myself already, I most certainly am now.
"Hey" Brittany says quietly as she walks into Jaxon's nursery where I currently am.
"Hi" I whisper.
"Is Jaxon asleep now?" she asks.
"Yeah, I never got a chance to finish reading to him because he had drifted off to sleep half way through the book" I tell her.
"That's good" Brittany smiles. "Hey, dinner is ready whenever you are" she adds as we leave the room.
"I'm ready now" I say as I follow her downstairs.
"I thought we could eat at the table in here instead of in the living room on the couch" she tells me as she pulls out my chair for me to sit down.
"That's cool" I smile. "It's like a mini date at home" I add.
"Yeah, that's what I was going for" Brittany replies. She places the plates down on the table and then joins me in sitting down. "Ok so I've altered the recipe a little bit so here's hoping the food still tastes ok" she jokes.
"If you've made it then it's guaranteed to taste good" I say complimenting her cooking. Brittany has always been good at cooking so I can't see the food tasting bad.
"Thanks babe" she smiles at me. "Anyway, let's eat because I am so hungry right now" she adds.
"Yeah, so am I" I nod. We then begin eating our food.
"So how are you feeling at the moment?" Brittany asks me.
"I don't know…ok I guess" I say hesitantly.
"I'm yours babe, I'm not going anywhere" she smiles at me.
"I know and it's not any reflection on you because I know you would never cheat on me. I just hate the thought of someone else trying to make a move on you" I sigh. "I'm trying to forget about it and it's fine when we're busy and Jaxon is around but it's those moments when I'm alone that I keep replaying what happened" I explain.
"Yeah, I know exactly what you mean" Brittany nods. "It's hard to keep my mind off of what happened when it's still so fresh in our heads."
"I think the fact we didn't really see it coming has made it worse because when she first started working for us, I would never have predicted she'd do this or lose the plot in the way she has" I state.
"I know, it just doesn't make sense. You'd think I would have had some sort of inclination since I was around her more than you but I really didn't. I honestly thought, we were just acting how friends normally do but clearly she wasn't" Brittany sighs.
"I did notice she was acting a little weird around me recently but I never thought it was because she had fallen for you. I just thought she maybe didn't like me or something since I had called her out a few times for not working and hanging out with you" I say.
"Hopefully in time we'll be able to forget about this because I don't like how it's making us feel" she points out.
"I know and I do think given time we will feel better eventually" I say.
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*Monday 15th May 2023*
Brittany and I are going back to work today. We took a few days off work after the whole ordeal with Ashley so today is our first day back after the incident. Brittany is already at work right now whereas I'm heading to my parent's house with Jaxon. My mom isn't working today so she was more than happy to have her grandson for the day while I go to work. As much as I was really enjoying the last few days getting to spend so much time with Jaxon, I do need to work today because I sort of left things hanging the last time I was there because I didn't expect to have to take time off.
"Ok Jaxon, are you ready to spend some time with grandpa and grandma?" I say as I carefully lift my son out of the back of the car. "They're so excited to see you today" I tell him as I make my way inside.
"There he is, my favourite grandchild" my dad says as he rushes towards me and takes Jaxon from me.
"He's your only grandchild dad and nice to see you too" I say with a playful glare.
"I'm sorry, I'm just so excited to see my grandson" my dad smiles.
"Well, if it helps, I am so excited to see my mom and not my dad" I tease. "Where is mom anyway?" I ask.
"She's in the kitchen" my dad replies.
"Ok" I nod before heading to the kitchen to find my mom.
"Oh, hi sweetheart, I didn't know you were here already" she says as she makes her way over to me. "How are you?" she asks as she hugs me.
"Honestly, I've been better" I admit.
"Is it the Ashley thing or a pregnancy related thing?" my mom asks me. My parents and I are close so she is already aware of what went down between Ashley and Brittany.
"Just an everything thing" I sigh. "I was already feeling stressed with work and this pregnancy and then Ashley had to do that to make things 10 times harder for me. I know it was just a kiss and Brittany pushed her away but it still hurts because she was someone I saw every day who was in my house and looked after my son. It's just too close to home, you know" I add.
"I understand but you just need to try and find ways to get through because you and Brittany are good together. You have a good marriage and you have a great family together" she replies.
"Brittany and I are good, don't worry" I assure my mom. "Personally, I just don't feel right at the moment because of what happened. Anyway, I can't think about it too much right now because I need to go to work and the last thing I need at work is to be distracted" I state.
"Ok" my mom nods.
"I should go now but it'll probably be Brittany that picks Jaxon up later to go home because I'll likely stay at work longer since I'm starting later today" I tell her.
"That's fine" she smiles.
"I'll go and say goodbye to dad and Jaxon now, bye mom" I smile.
"Bye, honey" she replies.
As soon as I find my son and say goodbye to him, I leave and go out to my car and head off to work. It doesn't take me long to arrive at work which was good because I'm already distracted enough today so I didn't want to have to wait in loads of traffic as well. Once I get inside the building, I immediately go to find where Brittany is, not bothering to greet any other staff members.
"Uh…what are you doing?" I ask Brittany as I walk into our office where she is rearranging furniture.
"I'm moving things around a little bit. I mean call me weird but this whole Ashley thing is still on my mind so I need a change. I could see her in here with Jaxon sitting on the couch over there for instance so I feel there's a bad vibe in here. If I move the furniture around a little then it's like a new office so we don't have these annoying reminders. Does that make sense?" Brittany replies.
"Total sense" I smile. "Let me help you" I say as bend down to help her move the couch.
"Absolutely not Santana. I've told you before, I don't want you to do any heavy lifting when you're pregnant. Just do what you do best babe and give me directions. You tell me what you want moved and I will move it" she tells me.
"Ok, that I can do" I smirk.
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Brittany and I are now finally satisfied with how our office looks. It took a little bit of time to do because I couldn't decide how I wanted the new layout to look and Brittany had to do everything herself so it was taking longer. I definitely have to agree with my wife though because even the slightest change in layout really has lifted my mood a little bit because it does seem like a new office and I'm not getting the little reminders of when Ashley would come to work with us and look after Jaxon.
"So, are we ready for this meeting now?" Brittany asks me.
"Yeah" I nod. We need to talk to our senior members of the team, Jack and Jade about a few things so we're having an informal meeting to discuss some things.
"I'll go and get them" Brittany says as she leaves her desk.
"I'll do it because I want to move my legs a little bit since I've been sitting all day" I tell her.
"Ok" she smiles. I then go and find Jack and Jade.
"Hey Jack, can I speak to you and Jade in my office please" I tell them.
"Yes of course" Jack nods. He and Jade then follow me back to my office.
"Are we in trouble?" Jade asks worriedly.
"Not at all" Brittany smiles. "We just wanted to talk to you about a few things" she says as we all sit down at my desk.
"There are a few work things we need to discuss with you but also I wanted to point something else out that isn't entirely about work" I tell them.
"Ok" Jack nods.
"Ok so first off, there has been some problems for us on a personal level so I just wanted to give you both a heads up about that. Ashley no longer works as Jaxon's nanny so if you see her here at all I want you to call security. She should not be setting foot in this place or anywhere near Jaxon" I explain.
"Oh, ok" Jack says surprised.
"Don't worry though, she didn't mistreat Jaxon or anything. It's nothing really serious like that" Brittany points out as she sees the worried look on their faces.
"Yeah, we just realised that Ashley wasn't the sort of person Brittany and I got along with very well. It was just a clash of personalities or something" I shrug.
"Actually, Ashley kissed me so that's why she's been fired" Brittany states.
"Brittany, what are you doing?" I ask annoyed. I don't need my workforce to know all of my personal business. We agreed we would say Ashley and us just didn't get along anymore, not that she made a move on anyone.
"I know you didn't want to tell everyone what happened but I have to otherwise Jack and Jade aren't going to know why we're acting the way we are. We have to be truthful with them considering they work so closely with us" she replies.
"She kissed you, wow. That really is a overstep of the boundaries" Jade says shocked.
"Apparently she has liked me for some time and thought it was ok to just make a move on me. As soon as she done it, I knew she had no place in mine or Jaxon's life so I fired her. She's not taking it too well though which is why we want you to alert security if you see her and they can remove her from the building" Brittany says.
"Yeah of course, we'll do that" Jack nods.
"The real reason she doesn't work for us can't go any further though. I don't need the whole of this building to know she kissed my wife" I state.
"Ok that's fine but this isn't your fault Santana so you should make people aware she is not a nice person. You have nothing to be ashamed about because she was in the wrong, not you" Jade tells me.
"I know but I don't really want this to go public in case it jeopardises my business so I'd rather we just told people she doesn't work for us anymore and leave it at that" I reply.
"Fair enough" Jade nods.
After going through some important points about the business, Brittany and I end the meeting. Jack and Jade are now back at their desks, working hard. Brittany and I are still in our office, intending to get back to work ourselves before we take a break to eat lunch together. I'm starting to get a little bit of a weird vibe from Brittany though because she hasn't really said much to me since we ended the meeting.
"Are you ok?" I ask my wife.
"You might be ashamed of me Santana but I'm not" Brittany tells me.
"Ashamed of you, what are you talking about. I'm not ashamed of you so what gave you that idea" I say confused.
"You keep hiding what happened between Ashley and me and I don't know why" she replies. "I think I handled it quite well by pushing her away but clearly you don't since you keep lying about what happened."
"I just don't think it's a good look for me for everyone to know someone else kissed my wife" I shrug.
"Maybe it's not all about you. Maybe it's actually about me and the fact someone made a move on me. I should be able to explain to everyone what happened if I want to because she kissed me Santana, not you" she states.
"Ok, no need to boast about the fact people want to kiss you" I say while glaring at Brittany. "Personally, as a married woman, I don't think it's that great of an achievement to have women making moves on you but maybe you're different" I add.
"Oh, you can be a real ass sometimes Santana. That's not fair what you're saying because you know I didn't like what happened. All I am saying is how do you think I feel right now having someone kiss me. I know you don't feel good about someone else kissing me but what about me. Someone I thought was a friend, blindside me and kissed me" she tells me.
"This fighting is exactly what Ashley wanted" I say as I shake my head. "Look, I just don't like it getting out there that someone kissed you because it's like everyone thinking I can't hold onto a relationship" I sigh.
"I would understand that if I was the one to cheat but I didn't Santana. You and I aren't to blame for what happened so why are you so ashamed about what happened when it should be Ashley that is ashamed" Brittany says. "I get that it's not a nice feeling but to make a point of lying about what happened doesn't make sense to me" she adds.
"I just don't like people knowing my personal business, ok" I state.
"It's not just your business Santana, it's mine too" she says sadly. "Look, I don't really care one way or another about people knowing or not knowing about Ashley kissing me but what does bother me is the fact you specifically don't want people to know."
"Because it's embarrassing for me, ok" I sigh. "I know it happened to you but I should have stopped it getting to that stage. I should have been more aware of what was going on and she would have realised it was a bad move to go after you. I blame myself for what happened because I should have acted on my suspicions so I'm embarrassed about that and I don't want everyone to know I made a big mistake" I explain.
"Santana…it's not your fault at all" Brittany says softly. "I know we both wish we could have seen the signs sooner, but honestly I think it was impossible for you to figure out."
"It makes me feel weak for people to know I let something like this happen so please, can we just keep this as quiet as we can from everyone else. I just don't need any more stress" I say.
"Ok, we won't tell everyone else what really happened" Brittany nods.
"Thank you" I reply.
"Just please stop blaming yourself though because it's not your fault, trust me" she assures me.
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*Wednesday 17th May 2023*
Brittany was working from home today so she could look after Jaxon so I've been at the office all day. I've finally just arrived home now and I've been looking forward all day to getting home to sit down and put my feet up while getting a cuddle with my son. I'm thinking I might need to wait for the time with my son though because as I enter the house, everywhere is quiet and dark which means Jaxon is probably asleep at the moment. I'm going to find my wife first and once Jaxon wakes up, I can get that cuddle. I check in Jaxon's nursery but she's not there so I check the master bedroom but she wasn't there either so I'm now just looking in our other rooms to find her.
"Hey" I say as I finally find Brittany as I walk into the second nursery and switch on the light.
"Uh…hi" Brittany says surprised as she quickly rubs her eyes.
"Oh my god, Brittany. Have you been crying?" I ask panicked as I realise she's not rubbing her eyes but wiping tears away from them.
"Yeah, sorry" she says as she grabs a tissue and blows her nose.
"Babe, what's going on?" I ask in concern as I walk towards her and wrap my arms around her.
"I'm struggling Santana" she says in tears. "I'm really struggling right now and I don't know what to do because I can't inflict any more stress on you but at the same time, I can't handle this all on my own" she admits.
"Handle what? Brittany what is going on?" I ask worriedly.
"I'm really struggling to get past this whole Ashley situation" Brittany tells me.
"Come on, let's go and talk babe" I say as I take her hand and lead her to our bedroom.
"I know you get uncomfortable during emotional situations but I can't pretend I don't feel like this because it's just too much. I can't just put a brave face on and say I'm ok when I'm not. I need to express how I feel otherwise I'm going to spiral into a place that's not good for me mentally" she explains as we take a seat on the bed.
"Honey, I know I don't do well with feelings and stuff but that doesn't apply to you most of the time. Yes, I would be uncomfortable right now if someone was crying in front of me but you're different. You're not just anyone, you're the love of my life so when you're upset, I am always here for you and how I feel doesn't even come into the equation" I tell her honestly. Normally I don't do well with other people's feelings but with Brittany it's different because I would literally kill whoever it was that hurt her or made her upset.
"I don't want to feel like this but at the same time, I don't know how to deal with it either so it's stressing me out" she sighs.
"What is it that is bothering you the most about what happened?" I ask as I wrap my arms around her.
"I just don't like it when people take advantage of the way I am. I've always been super friendly to people because I hate the thought of someone being mean to another person. I know what it's like to be different so I don't ever want other people to feel that way so I've always given other people the benefit of the doubt and been friendly to them. Ashley got to know my personality and knew I was an outgoing and friendly person and she took advantage of it" she states.
"I know, honey" I say as I hug her tightly.
"I feel like such an idiot because I was going around like I had a new friend and it was cool but all this time, she was lying to me and wanted more. She made me think I was her friend when she had a plan all along to make a move on me" Brittany says. "I let her rub sunscreen on my shoulders as I sat there in a bikini and everything. How stupid could I have been" she says as she shakes her head in disgust with herself.
"You're not stupid Brittany, don't say that" I state.
"I told her she looked great in her dress and suited the darker hair. I mean if that's not tempting a girl with a crush on me then what is. I clearly let this happen" Brittany sighs.
"Britt, you didn't know she liked you so stop blaming yourself. You thought you were friends so you had no reason to think something else could happen" I say trying to reassure her.
"You must really dislike me right now because in the end you tried to tell me something was up with her and I didn't listen" she states.
"Brittany, I don't dislike you at all, I love you" I smile. "Hey, I am totally yours babe and I love you so much. This is yours ok and no matter how much we fight, you're always going to be mine" I say as I place her hand on my chest.
"Feeling your breast right now won't help, I'm sorry but I'm just not in that joking kind of way in this moment" she replies.
"What? No!" I say while rolling my eyes playfully. "I was placing your hand on my heart. I was telling you that you have my heart and it's yours forever because I'll love you forever" I explain.
"Ok well that's not your heart so let's aim a little higher" she tells me.
"Ok" I laugh as I move her hand up a little higher on my chest. "Look, I know I haven't been the best wife recently but it doesn't mean I don't love you so much. It also doesn't mean I blame you for the kiss at all because I know you and I know you wouldn't intentionally let anything happen."
"I know I seem like I'm getting upset over nothing but it's a big deal to me because I hate being made out to be a fool. It just brings back memories of school and when people used to pick on me for being different" Brittany replies.
"Come here" I say as I open up my arms for me wife to lie down in.
"I'm sorry I'm being so emotional tonight; I know you don't need this" she apologises.
"Never apologise for how you feel, baby" I say as I hug her tightly.
"I know you don't need this tonight but I couldn't hold my emotion back anymore" she says.
"Honestly Brittany, stop apologising because it's ok. I want you to be open and tell me how you feel because not talking about it makes you feel worse" I reply.
"Ok" she nods.
We remain how we are for some time with me comforting Brittany, and her just lying in my arms. I can feel my arm cramping right now but I'm not moving. My wife needs me so if I need to lie all night with my arm cramping then I will. I know I have been awful to Brittany at times with this pregnancy but I kept doing it because I knew I could get away with it. It's no excuse for not changing my attitude but she did assure me everything was fine between us so I just kinda carried on. I knew I was being unfair but Brittany told me I wasn't so I took the easy option. All of that has come at a cost now because Ashley felt like she could move in on Brittany since I was being so mean to her, plus, it's made Brittany feel like she can't talk to me which I don't want.
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*Thursday 18th May 2023*
I'm just in the kitchen with Jaxon at the moment. He's sitting in his high chair watching me curiously as I wash up his breakfast dishes. Brittany was still asleep when I slipped out of bed this morning so I left her to rest while I got up and gave Jaxon some breakfast. I haven't eaten yet though because I want to wait for Brittany and maybe we could eat together. I did think of treating her to breakfast in bed but I don't think that would work out when I need to have Jaxon with me at all times. I continue what I'm doing for the next few minutes before I hear Brittany come down the stairs.
"Hi buddy" Brittany says as she kisses Jaxon's head. She then makes her way over to me. "Morning" she says quietly as she slips her arms around my waist from behind.
"Morning" I reply as I relax into her arms.
"Morning little one" she says as she gently caresses my stomach.
"How are you, are you ok?" I ask as I put down the dish I was washing and turn around in her arms.
"I am so embarrassed right now" Brittany says while shaking her head. "I don't know where all that came from yesterday but it was like emotional diarrhoea. When I started crying and expressing how I felt, it was like I just couldn't stop" she sighs.
"Honey, it's ok. Honestly" I smile. "One night of being upset is nothing compared to the 6 or 7 months on the hormone rollercoaster that I've took you on with the pregnancy" I laugh.
"I never meant to put any more stress on you last night. I know you're worried about me now and I don't want you to be. You have enough going on with yourself so you don't need to add me onto your worries" she tells me.
"Honestly Brittany, everything is fine so don't stress about this. You'll feel better now that all that emotion is out of your system" I smile.
"I feel like I was getting upset for no reason. I mean sure it wasn't ideal that Ashley kissed me but I am so embarrassed about how much I let it get to me because it wasn't that big of a deal" she says.
"Kissing a married woman is a big deal to me" I tell her.
"I know it's not right but it wasn't that big of a thing either that would cause that much emotion. I just need to move past it now and forget it happened" Brittany shrugs.
"So…do you want some breakfast?" I ask, changing the subject.
"Not right now. I just came downstairs to see Jaxon but I'm going back upstairs now to take a shower" she says as she leaves the room. I guess I might get a good morning kiss later since I'm not getting one now.
"Just you and me now buddy" I say as I lift Jaxon up into my arms. "Shall we play with some toys for a little while as we wait on mommy finishing in the shower?" I say. He doesn't reply, he just looks at me excitedly.
After playing with Jaxon for a little while, he and I head back to the kitchen. I place him in his bouncer so I can start making some breakfast for Brittany and me. I know Brittany said she didn't want anything to eat but time is going on and I'm really quite hungry now so I need to eat. I'm not just going to make breakfast for myself though because Brittany might be hungry now so it wouldn't be nice of me to eat and not make her some food.
"What should mommy and I have for breakfast, Jax?" I ask my son as I walk towards him. "Shall we have eggs for breakfast?" I say and he just giggles at me.
"I think eggs sound good" Brittany replies as she walks into the room.
"Yeah, Jaxon seems to agree" I smile.
"Do you want some eggs Jaxon?" she asks him as she picks him up in her arms.
"He has already eaten breakfast and I'm not sure he should get eggs just yet" I tell my wife. He has started on solid foods for the last few months but we haven't given him eggs yet.
"If we scramble them and cook them properly then why can't he have a little spoonful of egg" she shrugs.
"Ok he can have a little bit" I tell her.
"Do you want me to cook breakfast so you can take things easy?" Brittany offers.
"No, it's fine, I can cook some eggs" I smile. "You can spend some time with Jaxon though and I'll let you know when breakfast is ready" I add.
"Ok" she nods. "What shall we do Jax, shall we read a book until breakfast has been made?" she asks our son.
As soon as I've made breakfast, we sit Jaxon in his high chair and I plate up the food. Brittany and I then sit down at the table and begin eating. Brittany takes a very small piece of egg from her plate and gives it to Jaxon. He looks at it curiously for a second before putting it in his mouth. He thinks about it for a moment as he eats it before putting his hand out to Brittany, asking for more. Honestly, if I thought he was cute before then that was nothing because this sight before me is so cute.
"You can have another tiny little bit Jaxon and then that's it because you have been fed already this morning" Brittany says as she smiles at him.
"He is so cute right now" I say.
"He is" Brittany says as she continues to smile at Jaxon.
"So, what are our plans for today?" I ask. "Are you going into work?" I ask.
"I don't think so. I know I should be working today so maybe I'll do a little bit here at home when Jaxon takes one of his naps but I won't be going into the office, I just don't feel like I could concentrate that well today" she explains. "I know you planned on working from home today so you could take care of Jaxon but if you want to go into the office then you can because I'm staying home now so I can look after Jax" she adds.
"No, I want to be at home today with you and Jaxon" I smile.
"Ok" Brittany shrugs.
As soon as we finish eating, I notice Jaxon looking a little tired so I take him upstairs to his room. I place him in his crib and then wait until he falls asleep before I leave the room. Ideally I could be hanging out with my wife now since we have a little time to ourselves but I'm not sure it'll happen. I suggested during breakfast that her and I could work on the new nursery together but she didn't seem too enthusiastic about it. She said she was just going to relax for a while which is what she is doing right now in our room.
"Do you want to watch some TV together?" I ask as I sit on the edge of the bed where Brittany is lying down.
"I don't really feel like watching TV right now" she tells me. "I'd rather just lie quietly and hopefully take a nap until Jaxon is awake again" she adds.
"Ok well I will leave you to it then" I say sadly before leaving the room.
Brittany is beginning to be a little bit distant with me today and I don't like it one bit. I know she hasn't been so upset before like she was last night but it's nothing to be concerned or embarrassed about. Sometimes things just build up inside you and you erupt, it happens to everyone. Just because I have never seen her like that before doesn't mean I think of her any differently. I mean, she's seen me go through all kinds of emotions during our relationship so one night of breaking down doesn't change us. She doesn't need to pull away from me because she's embarrassed about how she handled herself last night.
After leaving Brittany to have some time to herself, I head back to the bedroom. Jaxon still isn't awake so I leave him napping. I'm quite bored on my own but I'm not going to wake him up just because I'm lonely. I am however going to see if maybe Brittany will be awake and want to spend some time with me. I know she wanted to be left alone but I don't think it'll be good for her and I also don't want to leave her alone anyway because I want to spend time with her.
"God, you look so cute right now" I say aloud as I gently crawl onto the bed and sit next to my sleeping wife. "I know it hasn't been an easy few days but you're still one of my favourite people in the world and I love you a lot" I add.
She doesn't reply, she just continues to lie peacefully with her eyes closed. I keep talking to her for a little while and also talk to my baby bump. The baby has been kicking a lot today and hopefully it still will be when Brittany wakes up. I just wish things weren't so weird with us today because I don't want this whole nonsense with Ashley to affect us. I want my old Brittany back. The one that jokes around with me who can't keep her hands off me. I don't think we have kissed once this morning, in fact I don't even think she has smiled at me at all today.
"Come back to me, baby" I say quietly as I stroke her cheek.
"I'm still here, I've not been anywhere" she chuckles as she opens her eyes.
"Oh shit…are you awake" I say as I get a fright. "I thought you were sleeping" I add.
"No, I was just resting my eyes but I could hear everything you were saying to me" she replies amused. "So where did you think I went to?" she asks.
"I meant mentally, come back to me. You've not been yourself this morning and I don't like it so I was saying I wanted the normal you to come back" I explain.
"I am sorry if you feel like I'm pulling away from you because I don't mean to. I'm just really embarrassed about last night because I'm never like that. I don't think you've ever seen me break down like that before" Brittany replies.
"Ok but that doesn't change anything babe. I would hope you know that as my wife that we're more than just a couple of people who have sex and who have fun together. I'm here for you on a deeper level too so just because you broke down last night like you did doesn't mean I see you differently. You're still Brittany and you still mean the world to me so whether you're crying or whether you're joking around, I still love you and see you as you are" I say honestly.
"Ok" she nods.
"I know Quinn is technically my best friend but you're kinda my best friend too so like I say, I am here for you for whatever you need" I smile.
"I love you" she smiles back at me before leaning in to kiss me.
"Finally! Two for two" I say smugly.
"Huh?" Brittany looks at me confused.
"You haven't smiled at me or kissed me all morning and now both have happened at the same time so I'm happy about that" I tell her.
"I'm sorry about that, really I am" she says as she smiles at me again and kisses me a second time.
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*Friday 19th May 2023*
Brittany and I are both at work right now but I'm struggling to concentrate. Jaxon is with us at the moment and even though he's napping in his travel crib, I still can't concentrate because I just want to hang out with him. It's too teasing for him to be here and for me not to be able to really be with him. Also, I can't really concentrate on work because Brittany's cell phone keeps going off. It's driving me insane and it's probably going to wake Jaxon up soon.
"Honey your phone is going off again, who is it that wants you so badly?" I ask.
"It's Ashley" Brittany sighs.
"Wait…you haven't deleted her number yet. Brittany what the hell?" I say annoyed.
"Yes, I have deleted her number Santana, chill out. Clearly, she hasn't deleted mine though so that is why she is texting me. And before you ask the reason I know it's Ashley is because she wrote her name at the end of the text. I haven't memorised her number if that's what you think" she replies.
"I'm sorry" I sigh. "I don't mean to get mad all the time but every time I hear her name, I instantly get pissed. I know you don't want to be talking to her."
"I'm blocking her number right now so she won't be disturbing us anymore" Brittany states.
"Good" I reply.
"We can now get back to work before Jaxon wakes up" she tells me.
"Yeah" I nod in agreement.
After working for another while and struggling to concentrate, I had enough. Jaxon was awake anyway so I was never going to get that much work done. Brittany and I have just finished eating lunch together and feeding Jaxon. Brittany, I think is going to go back to doing some work but I'm really not, I've got other plans for my afternoon.
"Hey I'm just heading out to the grocery store; I won't be long" I tell Brittany as I grab my purse and car keys.
"No-no, just hold on a second" Brittany laughs. "You hate the grocery store so I know you're not actually going there so where are you going?" she asks.
"Fine" I sigh. "I am going to see Ashley and give her a piece of my mind. She can't keep calling you and texting you like this, it's not right" I state.
"I know but I don't think you should get involved with her because things could get messy. Why don't I speak to our lawyer and see if we can put some sort of legal documentation in place to keep her away from us. Let's let the professionals deal with this" Brittany replies.
"I've really had it with her though so I want her to get the message that we don't want to talk to her anymore. I feel like I would be more brutal than a lawyer so I might get through to her better" I state.
"I really don't think it's a good idea, Santana" Brittany sighs.
"I want to hit her really badly though and do some damage" I state.
"I get that but you shouldn't. Ashley will be enjoying us torturing ourselves like you said so let's not give her any more delight. Let's leave our lawyer to handle everything from now on and you and me should go back to being happy. I mean we have a brilliant son already and another baby on the way so why can't we take positives from that" she smiles.
"Yeah, you're right" I smile back. I should be focusing on what I have and not on what has already happened that I can't change.
"Come here" she says as she points to her lap.
"Ok" I smile as I walk towards her and sit down on her lap as I wrap my arms around her.
"We haven't been as close recently as we should have so let's end that" she smirks at me.
"Babe, I can't have sex right now. Jaxon is here and I'm right in the middle of a design" I apologise.
"Oh, I'm not talking about sex. Yeah, I don't want to have sex either because I'm not in the mood right now with my son right over there" she shakes her head. "I meant I just wanted a kiss because we haven't kissed a whole lot lately" she shrugs.
"That I can do" I smile before leaning down to her lips to kiss her.
"Now get that sexy butt of yours back to work please" she says as she playfully slaps my butt. "The quicker you finish work the quicker we can take Jaxon home" she adds.
"Ok" I laugh.
After doing some more work, Brittany and I finally finished for the day and got to take Jaxon home. We're just hanging out at home in the living room together. We were playing with Jaxon's toys but he started to get bored so then Brittany read a book to him. The book is finished now so we're just talking to him and getting to spend some quality time with our son.
"Mm…mommy" Jaxon says as he pulls at my hair.
"Um…what?" I say surprised.
"Did you just say mommy?" Brittany asks as she kisses Jaxon's cheek.
"Mommy" Jaxon giggles as he looks at her.
"Yes, I'm mommy and this is mommy too" Brittany says excitedly. "You are such a clever boy" she adds.
"Can you say anything else?" I ask my son.
"Mommy" Jaxon says again as he starts clapping his hands together.
"It's ok, there is plenty of time to say other words" I say as I kiss Jaxon's head. "I am so proud of you though for your first word being mommy. It's more special than it being another word."
"Yeah, it is super cute that he said mommy and not something else" Brittany smiles.
"We love you so much Jax" I tell my son as I kiss him again.
"Judging by the excited look he's giving you; he loves you a lot too" Brittany says.
That's it for the chapter, let me know what you think.