Hey guys,
It's been a while. I'm currently working on chapter 17 but I thought I'd give you guys a little update on what's going on and why everything is so inconsistent as far as updates.
To be frank, my mental health has been suffering. I've had really bad anxiety and depression for the last God knows how long and have honestly had thoughts of taking my own life. I'm in school and working (so it's not completely debilitating) but it literally feels like I'm going through the motions and every time I go to sit to write, I type a few words and don't know what I'm writing. I love this story and I love you guys but my mental health has been suffering and I feel horrible that I can't even finish something that I love and really want to finish.
I love this story because it gives me the opportunity to almost live my life through Chihiro, like my anxiety and depression are healing through Chihiro and maybe I can follow her footsteps in working towards healing. Chihiro and Rumi really hold special places in my heart and I want to see them through to the other side as they heal in my place for now.
I want to let you guys know that I read all your comments and reviews and a lot of the recent ones have actually brought me to tears because you guys are so supportive and understanding! I've been getting help (and adopted a few plant babies) and have been trying to put together a schedule for myself to add some stability to my mind and life and one of the things I'm making sure to add to that schedule is writing. I miss writing and will update as often as my health allows.
Thank you all for your patience and understanding! I can't wait to get back to writing consistently like I used to. I love you all and take care of yourselves in these hard times. You are all kind, beautiful, and loved souls.
God Bless,
KawaChou