A/N: Back to several POV's of what happening now xx Alexis
It's so strange that I don't really feel any different, but that I also feel totally different at the same time! The nearest I can equate it to, is having your brain transplanted into a new body that you aren't sure you can control. But if I'm perfectly still it's the total opposite, and my brain is trying to work on multiple levels all at once, it's a little strange I must admit. I thank God it's Emmett and Jasper explaining everything to me, because I know for a fact Edward would never have done so. He would have been so annoyed and equally disappointed I needed any help at all. Assuming his venom if he'd changed me would have been beyond excellent. Therefore giving anyone he deigned to sire special privileges, what an asshole! But I would bet my last dollar he needed way more help and guidance than me!
The lack of bloodlust is a bonus I never expected and am truly grateful for that. Char has a specific type of criminal she feeds from, that would be rapists. I am sure I will settle on a type as well, but not who at present. I can guess dad might eventually be zoning in on serial killers or their ilk. Considering I have only been a vampire for two days, I think I'm doing okay and the others think so too. I still don't understand Esme's behaviour, but I also really don't care that much either. It's really weird to think how much has changed not just for me, but us all in only roughly six days. That doesn't even begin to touch on all the lies and half-truths that eventually led us to this point in time. What Alice and Edward actually thought might be the final outcome, well he would have gotten my blood!
But from what I hear savouring it would have been short lived for him, like seriously short lived! Why? Because Alice fully expected Jasper to kill not just Edward, but all of them and then himself! Wow, talk about deluded, did she never even once consider someone else might love me enough to save me? No, because it didn't interest her and was not important to her plans. How could she as a decision based seer, ignore those visions as irrelevant to her?! She really is crazy and needs to die before she tries this shit on with another unsuspecting coven. Moreover was this the first time she'd done it, because everything she had told the Cullens could have been a pack of lies? Damn, that demented pixie is truly insane, but she is also seriously dangerous.
Now to the biggest problem, no it's not a problem, but it is a curve ball for me and him I guess. Jasper, what do I do about Jasper? I feel to chaotic at present to pursue our bond, but I think he understands. I have found being in his room steadies me and I know he's nearby in his study at those times. Yes we need to be near each other, but he isn't crowding me and I'm glad about that. He sometimes seems a little sad, but he promised me he wouldn't push me and hell it's only been two days since I really woke as a vampire. In other words roughly six days ago I was his coven-mates girlfriend and unaware what was about to happen. Yes, our relationship was coming to an end, but I wasn't expecting to be flung into a true mating as I changed and neither was he!
I want to really get to know him, understand what makes him tick, because the Jasper he is now is not the one I thought I knew. So for the last two evenings we have spent hours just talking and discussing things we like and dislike. He is brutally honest in what he tells me and that is when I realised he never spoke out with the Cullens. I see he was not allowed to speak out, why, because he was too honest for their liking. He for his part had just stopped trying to interact with them and that's why when I came along he was the quiet guy in the corner. But inside he was seething at them all and especially Alice. Then that night happened and he knew that it was the end. I laughed when he told me he had divorced her years ago and she didn't even realise.
He had asked her to sign several documents to do with shares, houses they owned and things like that. But the divorce papers were amongst them and she did it willingly. I was amazed a seer could be fooled like that, but he smirked.
"Alice is only interested in visions that benefit her, so if she saw it she would have ignored it as my ridiculous fantasy only!" Jasper explained,
"Wow, when was this?" I asked randomly,
"Ah! Eighteen years ago actually. I believe it was September thirteenth, it meant nothin' to me then, but now well it makes perfect sense" he said taking my hand and I was stunned,
"I never really believed in fate before, but it's hard not to in the face of things like that happening!" I state in astonishment,
We spent the rest of the night in silent contemplation. Me leaning into his side and him with his arm around my shoulders. It felt good and we were both more relaxed than we had ever been since I opened my eyes. Yes we will have to address the situation, but not yet, I'm just not ready.
RNFSG
I was running, I was always running. This time I was running through America, instead of my homeland. This was not how I had planned my second life, but sadly this was how it all turned out. I had been happy if not a little sheltered by my brother Lars, we had both been turned at the same time and he protected me from the harsh reality of being a vampire, even as newborns he killed to keep me safe. There was no overall leader in Norway, unlike the other countries and Lars wanted to change that and slowly over many years he did. I was so proud when they voted him to be their spokesperson, but Isak was not happy. We didn't realise it at first but he tried many times to discredit Lars, but nobody would listen to him and it was more that fifty years before he tried again.
By then he was higher up in our world and used his false friendship with Lars to get close and finally destroy him. He wanted to be in charge, but it wasn't his right but mine to take over after my brother's death. I knew Isak did it but had no real proof. Nobody stopped him, nobody came to my defence when it came to the leadership, but when he decided I was also a spoil of war they baulked and he backed off. Well officially he did but he tried to cajole, torment and threaten me for years, why? I had all the money, Lars may have realised what was happening and had it locked up so tight and only I knew where and how to access it. His mistake was thinking the money was the coven's and not Lars personal and separate fortune. I never spent any of it, but I often asked if he knew how much interest could accrue on some accounts.
Yes, I rubbed it in at every turn and laughed in his face when he offered to look after it for me. I told him I had a financial adviser, one I trusted. Someone who would make sure the money went to charity the second I died! He hated that fact, that I knew what he did and one day I will prove it. Who you might ask is my financial adviser, that would be one Peter Whitlock, of course. So here I was in Kansas City at the bolthole house as Peter called it. There were the usual messages for anyone who stopped by, similar to ones they left in the Oslo house. But there was also one addressed to me personally and that kind of shocked me. But then this is Peter and if anyone would know I was coming here it would be him. I picked it up and opened it, not knowing then it would change my life forever.
Bente
Welcome to America suga', make yourself at home.
Char is in Kentucky helpin' the Major out with Emmett's newborn, Bella.
I'm in Virginia with my own, Charlie, who is her father.
Come meet us in Roanoke and I'll explain it all to you, he's very controlled so no worries.
Peter
Well, if Peter says he's good then he's good and why not. I've come all this way and want to get the real story on what we had heard snippet's of. I wasn't really used to newborns but, in a controlled environment it should be fine and I trust Peter unreservedly. Thank goodness he left me a map, because I really don't know my way around as yet. I decide to at least have an overnight here for a shower and a meal before heading off to Virginia. A little bit of people watching too, they can be very entertaining, for vampires to watch. No matter how much the world has changed human nature as they call it really has not. There will always be the haves and the have nots! Sometimes I like to even up the score, it's not always women who are conned and tricked often it's the other way around. I just like to do for them what nobody did for me.
I wander out with a little spring in my step and wonder what it is about America that has been calling me.
RNFSG
I sometimes wonder why I didn't become an agony aunt for vampires. Because I spend most of my time sortin' out their love lives and their finances as well. But damn it I just can't help it, I get the info and just want to pass it on when and if I can. Maybe it's because I'm happy with my mate that I want that for others, well most others. I know a secret and I will never tell that particular vampire where her mate will one day be. Who you might ask, Alice Brandon that's who! I know who, where and when and I'll never tell her, because that little witch deserves nothin' and that poor sod would be better off without her ruinin' his life. It's far into a future, I doubt she'll have so this is one thing I refuse to tell. It's not as if I'm withholdin' it, you can't withhold the future, but unlike her I know for sure what he could be, will achieve without her.
But back to the vampire at hand, Chief Swan, the scene is set, the plans all laid out. We are just waitin' the arrival of the star guest. This is goin' to work out so well for them both and for the Major too. Once they get together and sort out his little Eddie-boy problem. Then they can help Bella and the Major sort out their Alice problem. Then and only then can he, the Chief can help her sort out her long standin' one. Because it's really beyond time Isak got his comeuppance, he foolishly thought he had won the prize, but it had turned to dust in his hands. Not knowin' the facts can do that, hell ask Alice Brandon! Looks like I don't have to worry about Conrad though, he managed to find his destiny without my help. Not that I didn't know it would happen, but he just didn't need any assistance from me.
Once Bente gets here I think I'll meet Char in Jeffersonville, Indiana for a bite to eat and it's far enough away from the Major to not make him antsy. Then when I go back for the lovebirds we will skirt their location, but take in a couple of the bigger places like Lexington and Cincinnati before hittin' Detroit and on to Richland both in Michigan where we'll stay or moreover they'll stay. I'll have to buy another place for Char and me, thank goodness it's one of her least favourite houses. They can have it as a gift from us, so anytime they return to the US they have a place to stay. It's all goin' to change for the Chief when his mate becomes the leader in Norway she always should have been. They'll have a lot of cleanin' house to do to get rid of Isak's lackeys and hanger-on's.
Ah, vampire politics, they can be fraught with danger. Usually they result in death for someone, and I don't mean political death!
RNFSG
Bella was doing okay as far as I could see and Jasper was taking a backseat during the day. It was to let me help her he said, but in truth it was he teaching us both. I really didn't know much about anything and without him here we would be floundering around. But the night were my agony, being alone without Rose, Char tried her best to distract me but my very soul ached constantly.
"Em, just call her! Give yourself some peace and call her" Char said as she flopped down on the sofa,
"I know but, am I ready? I want to, really I do, but should I?" I blustered and Char nodded,
I took my cell and rushed outside to get some privacy. Rose answered after only one ring, wow, she was obviously as desperate as me.
"Emmett! Oh Emmett!" was all Rose gasped into the phone,
"Rosalie, I have no idea what to say" I murmured to her,
"I am so sorry, I know it's not enough, but please believe me I am beyond disgusted with myself. As well as how I acted with you and Bella, it was nasty, childish and an insult to you both. But I know it wasn't just with Bella I have treated you badly. I've had time to reflect on our life together and I'm appalled by myself and can't believe you put up with me for so long!" she said almost sobbing,
"Rosie, you would have let her die, even knowing it would hurt me, truly hurt me you didn't care or do anything! Have you any idea how that made me feel, watching you act all smug and superior? I know you have always thought you were more important than me in our pairing, but that was a slap in the face I can no longer ignore" I said in a rush and could hear her whimpering,
"Oh God!" was all she could manage to say,
I know why, I've never once spoken to her like this and yes, maybe I should have long ago! But that is besides the point, we can only start from now and it is she and not me who needs to change.
RNFSG
Peter is just smirking at me, and I have no idea what's going on in his head. I wonder how it feels to know so much random stuff and not react to it or on it until the time is right. He's made of stronger stuff than me that's for sure. He doesn't worry at it, but sometimes I see him nod to himself as if he thought, yeah that makes sense and then nothing. He just gets on with his own life and is able to wait to deal with whatever he saw. I believe Char said the longest he's had to hold onto information was forty years before it came to fruition. But then it is his gift and he's cultivated it to fit in with himself and how he sees the world, everyone would cope differently I guess! Anyway back to Peter, yup he's still smirking. I shake my head and laugh he'll tell me when he's good and ready I hope.
We were sparring and he started to tell me about friends he had all over the world and I kind of envied him. I was, no I had been a very insular man, but I wanted to be able to say I had friends in far flung places one day. He told me his friend Conrad had just met his mate from the Irish coven and how quite often vampires from all over stayed at the Kansas house and would meet up with him and Char or they would go abroad and stay in others homes. I liked the idea of that, having eternity would need to be filled and I would need a focus, what that was I was unsure. Laugh all you like but I've often wondered about being a PI. It had been something I'd contemplated before this all happened or I could go all the way over to the dark side and become a contract killer, but no that's just not me is it?
I found the nights the worst, Peter spent most of it on the phone with his mate and I feel so alone. But it's not that bad, I find it then I can use the time to make choices and decisions on the future. I even started to right things down about the job I'd had for many years. Being a cop gives you many stories and quite a few laughs. Peter tells me Jasper has written a few books so maybe he'd help me later down the road to get these stories out, well cleaned up ones. It looks like there are many things I could do and that was comforting, because I'm not the type to sit idly doing nothing for eternity, jeez I'd kill myself first. Well that's all in the future, hell I need to get through this first year before I can get out there by myself. Peter said it would fly by, I hope so, I really do.
"Hey Chief, we'll having company tomorrow, you up for it?" Peter said out of the blue,
"Yeah, I think so, you'll keep me straight wont you? I don't want to hurt anyone by mistake" I say with a little worry in my tone,
"Yup, you wont hurt Bente, I can guarantee that!" he replied once more smirking at me, god he's so annoying.