A/N: A new POV, not one we've had before, but it gives us vital information xx Another place name for my Facebook group xx Alexis
This is going to be the hardest conversation I might ever have. Not because of what I have to say, but how that child will react. I know he will whine, he will moan and he will blame everyone but himself for where we now are. Rose has gone to Rochester to await her mate and Esme is waiting for me to join her. That leaves Edward and that boy is just so oblivious to all that is happening around us. I know he expects me to solve his self-imposed problems, but this time I can't and I won't. Yes, Alice was setting us all up, but he went along with all of it except his own demise. But how did he not know what she was really thinking? I'll tell you why because he only hears what he wants to hear, not what is actually being thought! Anyway, the memorial went as well as expected and now we are all packed up and ready to go.
Edward hasn't even noticed I have sent everyone's things to different places, as I said he only hears what he wants not the truth or the facts. The house for the first time is up for sale, we will never return and for that I am truly grateful, this place is a reminder of our failures, my failures! I have been selling most of the contents, all of Alice's that's for sure and still he refuses to see, his Aston, his piano are all gone and he has said nothing. Does he think this is just his punishment? Does he think at all? I no longer understand or care to understand what he thinks! But I really don't want to go all through the whining, the emotional blackmail or whatever he thinks can save his ass! He's to stupid to see nothing can save him this time and I no longer want to help him.
Just to prove my point, although the whole house is almost empty, Edward has packed nothing in his room, does he think I'll do it for him? Well I am now ready to leave so there is no avoiding him anymore.
"Are you buying the house Edward?" I ask when he finally came out of his room,
"No! Why would I? Where exactly is everything?" he asks confused to see barely any furniture left in the lounge,
"Are you that stupid? We are leaving, nobody will ever return here! The house is up for sale, our life is over here. This is over for all of us!" I say sighing at his sheer ignorance, as I waved at our surroundings,
"So where are we going now? Why isn't Esme here to arrange the uplift of all my things? You could have given me more time, no you should have been more prepared Carlisle!" he arrogantly sneered at me,
May God forgive me, but I lashed out before I could stop myself. I sent him sprawling thirty feet away, his eyepatch knocked off with the blow. I was incensed by his arrogance.
"Are you forgetting this is all your fault? Whom exactly was it Edward; that tore out the throats of two people from this town just mere days ago? You did that! It's always you who balls up everything! We have to leave once more, because of you! Well, let me tell you boy, I don't give a rat's arse where you go. But it will be alone because the coven is defunct because of you!" I roar at him,
I realise how angry I am when I actually hear my own long buried English accent clearly breaking through. I was completely dumbfounded by his sheer ignorance and stupidity. I just turn my back and start to walk away, ignoring his spluttering and huffing.
"You have your house in Chicago, I'm giving you a day to vacate or your things will end up in the trash!" I said over my shoulder,
"But, what about my share of the coven's monies?" he whimpers,
"You'll get back, what you put in to my coven Edward, nothing!" I spat back,
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I think when Char returns I will go up to Rochester to speak to Rose face to face. When the time comes for everyone to get their revenge, I want to be there. Will I be able to help who knows, but I feel I must be there. It looks like the Chief is as controlled as his daughter, that's an awesome family trait. The Swans are something special, that's for sure. I wonder if there has ever been a family duo like them before and I don't include the witch twins. Those two are cruel and warped due to their age and their sire. I bet if anyone know it would be Master Marcus, he has his finger on the vampire pulse, so to speak. Well, I doubt I will ever meet him to ask, so it's moot. Ah, here comes Bella and Jasper, it must be time to do some more training.
I need as much help as I can, because once I'm out there without a coven, I need to be able to defend myself and Rose. I know none of them will abandon me, but Rose has made this so awkward for us all! I think it could take many years, or decades before Bella could be in the same room, but I doubt Jasper will ever forgive her. She really screwed them booth over with her attitude and behaviour. It almost cost them their forever, something Rose had and yet refused to allow others to have without complaining. Granted she was right about Edward's intentions, but would she have been any happier if it had been Jasper from the start, I doubt it. What a fucking mess, why can't she be happy for anyone is it because she isn't happy with me as her mate?
"Emmett? Your mind is obviously elsewhere, so I think a bit of forest management might benefit you" Jasper said and I realised I had been standing staring into space for a while,
"What?" I ask confused,
"Go rip up a few trees, brother bear" Bella says pushing me towards the dense forest and I start running,
"Is he going to be okay Jasper?" Bella quizzes as I leave them far behind,
I was letting this whole thing get to me, it's so hard not to when everything is so up in the air. Our lives had all been shattered by Alice and Edward, their lies and machinations. Sure she's insane and that might be an excuse, but him! That obnoxious little shit is a waste of space and always has been, the sooner the Chief rids our world of him the better. Now I was out here I wasn't in the mood to destroy any trees but literally took Jasper at his word and did some forest maintenance. Removing uprooted or dead ones, stacking them to use as lumber later and ended up feeling good about myself by the end. I hadn't done this since I was human and manual labour was always good for my soul.
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I really was quite astounded that out here in Virginia, would be where I met my mate. He was the total opposite of what I thought I wanted and needed, but actually he is perfect for me. Charlie is calm, thoughtful and what the Americans call a solid guy. I was roundabout twenty five or six when I was changed and he was in his late thirties just a few weeks ago. So to me that's a good balance for us, and I can see he will be a great support when I eventually challenge Isak, because I will one day soon. But for now I am going to enjoyed this time alone with my mate. We have barely scraped the surface of getting to know each other, but we have a common goal, revenge on someone who did us wrong. But for now we need to go hunting and make sure Charlie is well fed.
"Would you like to go hunting with me Charlie? I don't know much about the area though" I asked him and he smiled,
"Since we're in Virginia, I would like to visit Cape Charles. It one of those bucket list places I guess" he replied slightly embarrassed,
"Sounds like a plan to me 'elskede' (beloved)" I reply and he raised an eyebrow,
"It's a, how do you say? Ah yes an endearment!" I say and he makes a strange noise in his throat,
I am beginning to realise he is a man of few words and although he does not wear his heart on his sleeve, I know he feels deeply. He is so like what I remember of my own father being, so long ago and it comforts me. We decide to run to Richmond and feed there as it is a larger place, then swim across from Gloucester to Cape Charles and generally have a look around the area. This is all new and exciting to me, having Charlie there to show me places I would never go otherwise. As we ran we talked long and hard about what we wanted for our future and I was surprised he was quite happy to leave his homeland to be with me in mine. But then as he said, we could visit anytime and he had always wanted to see more of the world. Unfortunately he had never had the time or the money to do so in the past.
I will be staying here as long as it takes for Charlie to be out of the newborn phase and to help him with his Edward problem and then he will be there for me when I finally tale Isak down. As long as Peter feels Charlie needs to be with him and Charlotte, then I will also be with them. It's not as if time really holds any sway to us, it could be five, ten or even fifty years but we will get justice on our own terms and that it what's important. After all I've waited this long and Isak has become complacent due to how long it's been since he had my brother killed. Oh I know that coward would never have been able to land the killing blow, he is a bully and a snake in the grass, but basically still a coward! It still makes my heart ache when I think of how Lars took that viper into his inner circle.
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Why? Why? Why is everything going so wrong? I had it all planned out, I knew what everyone would do, would say and everything was moving, albeit very slowly toward my ultimate goal! That goal, money of course. I would have all Carlisle long accrued monies and nobody to share it with, perfect! Then she happened that bitch, that human bitch and she ruined everything! But I persevered and found a way to stop her and him, my slave, my pet being together and still she managed to ruin everything! I push that fool into her arms and it looked like I had won, but she saw through him to quickly. Trust her to be smart and over and above that she managed to get both my Jazzy and Emmett on her side. So I once more change my plans and their fates but would that bitch die?
No of course not, Emmett just had to be the damned hero! It was so simple and the minute I took my eye off the ball he acts instinctively. I didn't see it until she was already changing. I thought he would let Rose dissuade him, but he actually went against his own mate. Why? Because he loved her like a sibling and refused to let her die. I was trying so hard to get Jazzy away from her before he realised what was happening. But he defied me and that beast of an alter ego was showing, I once again forgot I could never control him and he proved it by torturing me and I was rightly scared and made my plans to run. How was I to know one whiff of her blood was all he needed to recognise his mate? So I then thought Edward would finish her off but oh no, he couldn't get near her due to both Emmett and Jasper.
While I was trying to find a suitable future the imbecile tried to kill her father too. But that bastard, that country hick, that god damned oracle Peter 'fucking' Whitlock had to be his saviour. I'm languishing here in the fashion houses of Europe because my visions have abandoned me. I have seen nothing to do with myself since Charlie Swan was bitten, it was like a switch being flipped. I don't understand it, I can see nothing of my future only theirs, like years into the future. Charlie and his mate running the Norwegian covens. Jazzy and his whore doing all the things I refused to allow him to do! Even Emmett and Rose getting the future they want, hell Carlisle and Esme come out of this better than me. Edward dies obviously, but what did that fool expect, nobody but Carlisle liked him.
When I try to see my future it's not even black, it's just nothing, not there, not tangible. Hell it's like I don't exist at all! I didn't realise I would meet anyone in Paris until they were there looking at me like I was trash, how dare they! This does not bode well for me, I wonder if someone will one day come after me, but who and when? I don't know and therefore don't know whether I should throw myself on the mercy of the Volturi? No, I can't allow myself to be stifled by those old fools! Maybe they will forget about me, they look happy in the future so that might make them forget about the little wrongs I did to them. If fools are fooled is it the fault of the one fooling them, or the fools themselves? Yes, I firmly believe they allowed me to do this to them, so it's their fault and not mine.
I don't count the human because she was of no consequence to a higher being like myself. Humans are cattle and there to be culled by us, their betters. After all nobody believes that humans can be mated to vampires. Well, there is no point in worrying about it and really none of it is important to me personally, now it's time to find another gullible fool to make money for me. I did try asking him, but he refused to answer any of my calls, that's just plain rude you know!
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Isabella was really concerned for Emmett, but I sensed he would be fine. It was just the not knowin' that was killin' him and he needed to speak to Rosalie. His whole life is totally up in the air and until he gets some form of groundin' it won't get better. It's always the not knowin', the not understandin' that destroys us and everythin' we thought was real. When Char gets back we have to insist he goes to see her and at least get that part of his life back on track. Talkin' of bein' on track, I think both Isabella and her father are goin' to to be ready way sooner than anyone guessed and that's good for us all. I had a couple of random calls from European numbers I didn't recognise or answer and wondered if it was Alice lookin' for money. She obviously doesn't think what she did was wrong, that was nothin' unusual.
I refused to let anythin' to do with Alice ruin my buddin' new relationship with Isabella. This was havin' a lot of slow progress, it was not Isabella's fault or mine either, but really both of us bein' over cautious. She is quite new to the ways of the heart and been burned once and I am more than a little jaded by my past experiences. Therefore we are takin' things at a very leisurely pace, after all we have forever to be together and I want to know all about her and she me. I know Peter and Char find it amusin' but I want there to be nothin' hidden between us and all the kinks worked out before we are alone together and not happy. It's not just meet the girl and fall in love and be happy forever. Matin' takes lots of work, compromise and commitment to each other.
Even with the killin' of Alice, we both have to be on the same page and agree to how and when, not me goin' off all gung-ho about it.
"Do you want to continue trainin' with me? I promise to go slow and take it easy on you" I say a little tongue in cheek,
"Oh you will, will you?" she said smirkin' at me,
This was when I saw a newer side to Isabella, a slightly more saucy side. She was usin' her sex appeal against me and I enjoyed it very much. By the time we heard Emmett returnin' she was on top of me attemptin' to keep me pinned. I know she felt how much I was enjoyin' her bein' in that position, but before he broke through the trees she leant in a kissed me quickly. I let her jump clear and rolled away to hide my state of arousal from him.
"How's the forest Emmy, still standing?" Isabella asked and he laughed,
"Yeah, I did some husbandry instead. So there's plenty of wood out there for any future projects and suchlike" he said lookin' altogether calmer than before,
"We were training a little, I almost had him pinned" Isabella said smirkin' and I felt sorry when he burst her bubble by laughin',
"If you were pinning him it was because he let you Belly boo, I've never seen anyone, not even Peter take him down!" Emmett said and she turned to me,
I tried to look contrite, but think I failed miserably.
"I said I'd go easy on you and I did darlin', I'm sorry if that gave you false hope. But it will take years not days to be at my level. I've been fightin' since I was human and that doesn't come overnight. When it's you or them, always pick you!" I say to soften the blow,
"That's why you make us train together and not against you isn't it?" she asked and I nodded, happy she wasn't mad at me,
"Well, come on Em we have lots to do if we ever want to be that good" was her reply and I smiled happily.