Chapter 6
Truth
My fingers nervously tap on the counter as I woke alone in my room without telling Richard about the pregnancy. The head phones fit in my ear perfectly as I brew my tea. I look over to Beastboy standing by the window on the phone to Terra. Jinx and Bumblebee sit at the table eating breakfast with Cyborg and Flash standing next to the computers. I turn around as the tea calls my attention. Sipping on my tea I focus on the music, closing my eyes zoning out. Im brought back by an awful smell. I rip my earbuds out looking around to see Beastboy cooking tofu eggs. My stomach turns and I suddenly feel my tea and donut coming up.
"Oh god." I gasp as I fall to my knees in front of the kitchen trash can puking. Flash is there with no warning holding my hair back.
"Whoa. You okay?" he talks to me as I pant.
"Yeah, thanks. Mind grabbing me a towel." I smile as he hands me it before I finish my sentence. "You know that's considered showing off."
"Eh, you needed help." He helps me up.
"Feeling okay Rae?" Jinx bites her toast rubbing her belly.
"Just queasy, I'm going to head to my room." I smile grabbing my tea and phone trying to stop the stares.
Instead of going to my room, I make it to his door. Knocking lightly it opens to his uniform and mask. "Hey, wow. You look great." He smiles as I stand in my uniform. The leotard and cloak feels even better now that its been years since ive put it on. I smile at his comment. "Come here for some more morning sex?" he jokes letting me in.
"No actually I came here to tell you something." I look into my tea.
"Sounds serious." He grabs the cup from my hands sitting it on the desk, pulling me in.
"Very." I smile placing my fingernail under his mask lightly lifting it off of his eyes. He holds me close to him. Close enough to kiss. I swim in his breath as I close my eyes. I sigh opening my eyes looking up at his blue beauties. I slowly grip his cheek. "I'm pregnant."
I watch as the relaxed man in front of me suddenly grows tense. His fingers suddenly tighten on my skin, they're clammy feeling. I feel his emotions, and their gut retching. Shock and fear consumes him. He licks his lips and swallows. "Oh." He chokes out.
"Oh?" I suddenly turn red backing up from him. "That's it?"
"are you sure?" he gulps as his eyes drop to my belly and then to my face. His next feeling of uncertainty rips through me.
"Positive test, no period, swollen feet, tender breasts, and uh. Morning sickness." I choke out trying to pull back the tears. He's silent. I look up to see him leaned on his desk thinking. I try to pry but over the years hes learned how to keep a wall up from me. his mind to me is blank right now.
"We cant Rae." He turns to me looking directly in my eyes.
"Cant what?" I feel my eyes fight harder to keep the tears back.
'We cant have a baby." He sighs trying to avoid my feelings. The bonds a two way street. He can feel my emotions, and read my thoughts.
"It's a little too late for that Richard, I'm pregnant"
"I mean we have to get rid of it." He sighs.
My eyes go from the floor to his face. His wall is still up, so I cant tell his emotions. I cant tell what hes thinking. I stand on shaking legs. "Im going home, and you don't ever need to contact me again." I wipe the tears away as i walk past him. He tenses as my body moves to the door. But he doesn't move. He doesn't speak. The man stays still. Again he will let me leave without fighting. Without asking me to stay.
I close his door behind me and stand there for a second. Nothing. I sigh wiping my tears away, I walk to my room silently sobbing. I enter the dark room of my childhood with an unberable emotion crushing me harder than ever. Ive dealt with him breaking my heart before, but this time its different. It's a new swarm of emotions. Not only did he break my heart, he expected me to get rid of the life we created.
Heart break, crushing hoplessness, anger, sadness, and fear crash into my chest. I feel raw with emotions. Its my own. How I wish I could feel his right now. No I don't wish, I feel the anger pushing through. I grab my suitcase quickly dressing in jeans and a tshirt. I throw my uniform in a ball into the case. Packing everything In a solid 2 minutes. I pull the handle, carrying it out of my room. tears still swipe my face as I make it to the garage without running into anyone. However after the purple suitcase is in my backseat I jump at the presence.
"Sis, you okay?" Cyborgs filled with concern.
"No." I sob, trying to get myself under control.
"Talk to me." he puts his hand on my shoulder calming my down.
"Just a lot going on right now." I sigh wiping my tears away. I cant tell him I'm pregnant with Richards baby. While he doesn't want it, he surely doesn't want anyone else to know.
"You and Nightwing having issues?" he sighs, "I heard about the laundry room."
"No were not together, I have to go." I look away as I open my drivers door.
"Sis, come on don't go." He pleads.
"I have to get home, I'm sorry." I sit in my seat. He nods knowing this isn't me and I need my space.
Turning the key, the engine on the jeep hums to life. I grip the steering wheel as I turn out of the garage, watching cyborg standing in the review mirror. He stands confused and upset. Driving through jump city a sense of home fills me. I miss this place. The place where I fell in love, the place where I faced my fears. I zone out driving through downtown, until the explosion sends my car hurling back. It happens so quick, I'm stunned. My nose is bleeding and I ache as I hang upside down in the drivers seat with the jeep on its roof. I look around at the fire on the streets. People run as the fire engulfs cars. My eyes are heavy but I force them open as I watch everything.
The man almost makes me scream as he stands in front of my overturned jeep with the same uniform on. The half black and gold mask brings back many memories. Slade…