Alternate s12, where April finds out Jackson is dating, he knows about the pregnancy and she confides in Arizona.
Jackson is already dating again.
The ink on their divorce papers was barely dry, and yet, he was already putting himself out there. She can't help but feel annoyed by that fact.
Sure, he's entitled to move on and she wants him to be happy - even if he doesn't feel that he can be that way with her, but it also feels like a bit of a slap in the face. She'd tried so hard to make things work, and whilst she knows that its partially her fault that he doesn't want to be with her anymore, it still stings to see just how unaffected he appears to be by it all.
All she can think about is what this will mean for her future, and for the future of their unborn child. Will he or she already have a step-mom in the picture before they're either born? How will co-parenting work if thats the case? The last thing she wants is for the baby to have parents who can't even be in the same room without arguing, or who don't accept one another's partners. Thats not the life she wants, or ever wanted, for her children, and yet, she has to come to terms with the fact that it might be her reality now, or at some point in the future.
She tries to put on a positive face, focusing instead on how thrilled she is to be pregnant. Sure, maybe it's not the way she planned it, and she's still somewhat terrified of all the things that could go wrong, but she's trying to put her faith in God and His timing. This baby is a little miracle, and its keeping her going.
April joins Arizona at the lunch table. If anyone knows how to deal with their ex-wife-and-co-parent dating again, it's her, she thinks, "Jackson's seeing other people already. I don't know what to do...I mean, I know there's nothing I can do, but how do I not care? How do I just plaster on a smile and be happy for him? It's too soon, right? I'm nowhere near ready to see anyone, and I don't even think any guy would want to date me if he found out I was pregnant, anyway. It's way too much complication, and know, I'm happy, about the pregnancy. I'm so happy, but I'm also kind of pissed and sad that he's just...fine to move on? Did it all mean nothing then?" She lets out a breath, realising she was rambling and talking a mile a minute again, causing her blonde friend to raise an eyebrow.
"Hello to you, too. I'm great, by the way. Thanks for asking," She jokes, before offering a sympathetic smile, "I get that it's hard, April. I mean, you saw how much I drank when I had to meet Perfect Penny, right? I was kind of a hot mess, but...it will get easier. Maybe he's not even serious about dating right now, he's probably just trying to get laid. The best way to get over someone is to get under someone else."
The redhead glares at her, "That just makes me feel worse." Sure, she doesn't have any ownership over him anymore, and he's free to do what he wants, but sex is so important to her. She can't exactly just go hook up with someone for the sake of it, unless she wants to feel guilty and used after. She doesn't want to.
"I'm sorry! I'm just saying...just because he's putting himself out there, it doesn't mean he's actually ready, you know? Maybe this is how he's coping, and you can't take it personally, even if it sucks. You know Jackson, and you guys are having a baby. Regardless of what he's doing...I know that he'll put that baby first, and thats what matters. I didn't think Callie and I would be able to co-parent after everything that happened, but we're getting there, and yeah, sometimes its kind of bumpy, but overall, its fine."
April sighs, taking a sip of her juice box, "I hope you're right."
"Of course I am, and hey, I know you're not ready to date or anything yet, but if you ever want to just get out, then the offer for lesbian trivia night on Tuesdays still stands. I'm sure Webber could use a night off."
She snorts, figuring that maybe it isn't a bad idea. At least she wouldn't have to worry about creepy men trying to hit on her and feeling the need to tell them her life story. "Okay, yeah. As long as you don't go ditching me so you can get laid, I'll be there."
"Fineee. You've got yourself a deal."