Josh had managed to carry Jenna into the woods up into the tree house covered behind all the trees that had grown over it. She had passed out from the trauma and the blood loss. He decided to sew her neck up himself from nurse training he got before deciding to be a fed. He just watched over her beautiful chest rise and fall.
He had no real plan but to fuck her to her death just because he could. He was a broken man himself and clung to her for fantasy because in her movies she was the perfect woman. Josh started to snoop around the treehouse and find all the secret spots while she laid unconscious and tied up like a Christmas Gift.
Happy was sitting in the attic trying to figure out what was going on and why after their night would she do this now. He kept reading the letter to Jax not knowing how old it was.
Jackson.
My Soulmate..My First..My end and beginning
I've Loved you for over a decade. We have had good times and bad. But the bad seems to out way the good anymore.
I've suffered loss and so much violence. Not just from only your hands but the enemies you have had over the years.
I've Gone through Hell and back. I'm Not sure I can do it anymore. You and our future deserve more than a mentally fucked up pornstar.
The pain i got inside me feels so numb like my life doesn't mean anything or is worth anything to anyone most of all you.
I Fight Demons every day in my head with every girl I've seen you with during our time.
I Fight Insecurities everyday about myself because I'll never be good enough for anyone even you.
I know I've shut everyone out cause i don't want them to witness the demons i hold inside my head with all the nasty words everyone has said.
I've counted on my hands the times i wanted to scream out my pain but I have to just smile and be okay because this is the life we had chosen.
I don't want to be in pain anymore. Nor Do I want you to suffer because of my actions. I Know I am worthless to you and the club now.
I've always said I Am Fine when you asked if i Was fine. But I Haven't been fine for years.
The truth is Ive never been fine. I've been hurting and I am done hurting.
I am done hurting you and those around us.
I Will Always Love you and Be watching over you and Our Babes.
JENNA
Happy had no idea how to comprehend these words and wondered what her plan was if she really was going to end it. He could hear the motorcycle coming down the path and rubbed his face knowing he had to take his beating like a man.
He knew Jax wasn't going to swing because he promised to protect her always. Happy took a deep breath and made his way downstairs to the front door. Opie, Jax and a few other members of the club to serve as a search party.
Jax could see Happy through the screen door and just saw red. He was mad that Happy let something happen knowing everyone including himself were to blame for letting her stay up here.
Happy took a step out on to the porch and lit a cigarette just waiting for the swing to Come. Opie and Jax just looked at each other.
"Jax You can't hurt the man for something none of us saw coming." Opie told Jax
Jax didn't want to hear it and got off his bike. He made a b-line for Happy punching and continued to punch him. Happy wasn't fighting back like he knew this was his fault and he deserved it.
"You Were Suppose to Protect her. You Were suppose to keep her safe. Why Did You Let This Happen? How Am I gonna explain to my kids their mom may never come home and is an angel." Jax said with anger as he just kept swinging.
Finally Happy pushed him off having enough of the bullshit.
"You Might want to look at your own faults not just mine. Because she left you a letter not me." Happy said spitting some blood into the grass.
Jax just shook his head taking the letter and collapsed on the stairs reading her words. All he could do was let out tears and light a cigarette. Jax wondered how she did and where her body was since there were blood drops left on the page.
Jenna was tied to the to a chair as Josh tried to sew up her neck wound the best he could with the fishing line he found. Jenna kept her eyes closed with her head tilted back.
Josh said "We are almost done princess. I would take you to a hospital of to a friend but i am afraid you would start talking and saying things you might not want to or need to say."
Jenna let out a groan as she could feel the fish hook weaving in and out of her neck since they had nothing for the pain except a bottle of whiskey.
"I am sorry about this Jenna. But I can't give you anything for the pain. But I am almost done i swear. But with your blood loss we can't risk you fading" Josh said stopping and kissing it softly.
Jenna shivered feeling his touch. She was scared if this was going to be like her time with the Irish. Jenna feared if she would ever get to see her kids again or her life again. She was ready to go home because she feared this.
Josh took a swig of the Jack and then poured some in her mouth. He knew how dangerous she could be and wasn't taking risks.
As Jenna glared at him and said "Once I know you can behave I will let you go. But that might be a while. Because I see that fire in your eyes."
"And All I see is a dead man once Jax and the Club find this place." Jenna said spitting in his face.
Josh swiftly slapped her making her fall backwards still tied to the chair.
"Now look what you made me do. Please just behave and let me do the things i know you need in life." Josh begged her.
Jenna let out a few tears and asked "Will I get to see my kids again?"
"I can't answer that. But I don't think so. We need to let them think mommy is an angel because You will never return your biker whore life." Josh said hating to tell her those words. Because he hated making her cry.
Jenna just started to silently weep at the thought of never seeing her kids grow up.
Josh wiped her tears holding her face and said "I promise Jenna its for the best you deserve better than what those men give you. I know all about you and what you want in life please let me try."
Jenna shook him off her and said "Just kill me already please. Because not letting me have my kids its death already."
Josh grabbed her face and then started pacing after he let go.
"I Can't Kill you because i need you. Ive watched your life the moment i found out how you and Tara were connected. Ive watched the moments you've cried ive watched countless time of you faking happy to stroke his ego. I know your kids make you Happy But There is no way To get them here with us. Once they stop looking I swear we can have our own. But I can't risk losing you again." Josh said starting to pull at his hair and poping a pill.
Jenna just rolled her eyes praying Happy Jax Or Someone would find her.
The hours had gone on and there was still no sight of her. Happy And Opie were searching the barn together He was scared that he really had caused her death. They had gotten up to the Hay loft that Jenna had been using as a place to paint and be artistically free.
Happy smiled seeing her paintings and how talented she was. He stopped at a drawing she had down of her wedding dress she dreamed of for there wedding. It made him want to cry because now they would never get to have their moment.
Opie sighed seeing the drawing and said "I am truly sorry you have to go through this."
"Its not your fault I just wish i knew what pushed her this far. I mean we keep finding her blood drops but nothing of any tell." Happy said lighting a cigarette.
Opie leaded on the railing and said "I wish I could answer those questions for you. But whatever demons are in her head. All We can do now is let the feds and local Pd handle this. Right Now she is just a missing person."
"She shouldn't be missing. She should be home with those beautiful babies. I shouldn't have let her stay up here alone." Happy said wanting to punch something
Opie could see his anger and said "Hey Its not your fault. Its all of ours. We let her make her choices thinking we all knew best for her. But none of knew the mental demons she faced because she couldn't trust anyone of us to tell about them."
Those words just made him want to sob. Because he thought she would tell him everything even them demons. Opie just let the man cry.
Jax was sitting on the front porch swing as the local PD along with Feds were now searching the property. All he wanted to was Cry But he had to be strong because he soon would have to tell his kids she might be gone and had no idea how to handle that.
Abel already blamed him for pushing Jenna away. This would tip the hate over the edge. Jax seen one of the agents head to him and he put out his cigarette.
"There is no sign of Her anywhere but we did lift finger prints from everywhere and we have yours and your guys to climate you guys"The agent told him.
Jax sighed and Asked "So what do we do now?"
"IT's a waiting game now..I hate to say that but it is. We will make sure we get a missing persons file out n her and you guys can post flyers where ever and hopefully someone knows something. I am sorry that you going through this." The agent told him.
"God I hope so ma'am. I have to premature infant twins and a 6 year old son who need their mother. I just hope her inner demons didn't get to her." Jax said with a groan.
The agent asked "Was your wife concerned with anyone following her or say anything about anyone watching her."
"She wasn't my wife. Though she should have been years ago. Our nanny said that she thought an ex fbi agent named Josh Kohn whom was stalking her earlier this year which caused my twins to be premature. Whom we all believed was dead was following her still." Jax said with regret
The Female agents eyes lit up with fire and said "Detective Kohn had friends in that Jail help fake his death and he escaped from the federal prison. So If he has some obsession with her. if possible his finger prints are up there we will find them both.
Jax sighed and said "I hope we find her sooner than later because we all depend on her."
"By the way if you guys get any leads my name is June Stahl." She said reaching to shake hands.
Jax shook her hand and said "All I will say is I hope you guys find him before we do because this is twice he had almost cost my children there mother."
June nodded her head and said "We will get the APB out on Kohn and a missing persons on The mother of your Children. I promise we will find her.
"Yup" was all Jax could say seeing Opie and Happy come from the Barn.
June headed back to her car as her team was in the woods searching but didn't know where to look for the tree house.
Jax shouted "Any sign of her?"
Opie shook his head and said "No but there are drips of blood all over it."
June informed a team to go look and collect evidence.
The night had come and it was hard to see anything at all. The House was taped with Evidence tape but no one wanted to leave until she was found. But they eventually did. Jax had gone home where his mother, Nany and children were. He had no idea how to explain what happened how or why.
He wasn't prepared for this. He wasn't prepared to live life without her. Jax watched Abel through the front window. He was playing with the twins the best he could. Gemma could see her son just sitting on his bike watching from the window and decided to go out knowing it couldn't be good.
Gemma walked out lighting a joint and said "Hi Baby..How is out girl?"
"she's missing..No sign of her anywhere but a lot of her blood in drops all around the Property. Fed are eliminating finger prints and i got the guys putting missing person posters all over anywhere she might turn up." Jax said not wanting to get off the bike.
He wanted to find her and just bring her home. He didn't care if she and Happy wanted to get married now. It all seemed so petty now.
Gemma passed him the join and asked "It this her having one of her episodes or do we think someone grabbed her."
"Fed think its that Kohn Guy that took her when she was pregnant twins. But they haven't tracked him down but they know he faked his death with the help of some other sick fucks like him." Jax said taking a hit of the joint.
Gemma shook her head and asked "So what are you planning to tell Abel?" seeing him watch his kids inside.
"I have no fucking clue. Because I don't want him to have hope if she is dead." Jax said with a sigh handing the joint back to his mother.
"So what do we tell him?" Gemma asked concerned for the mental health of her son and grandson with the loss of Jenna.
Jax shrugged his shoulder and said "That she will be home soon. She is working on selling the Napa house."
"What If he wants go see here?" Gemma asked
Jax got off his bike and said "He is so busy with school and activties i am sure we can keep him busy till we have real news."
Gemma Said "I hope so. How are you two doing after what he saw?"
"He still blames me for her staying away but he is a big help with the twins. Its a work in progress he is still trying to trust me again." Jax said sadden by the thoughts in his mind.
Gemma asked taking a deep hit off the joint "And you think lying to him about his mother is gonna help?"
"Mom I don't know what else to tell him. I don't know what to tell myself anymore. I know I am the main reason she stayed up there alone. Its all my fucking fault no matter how much I want to blame Happy for not keeping her safe when it was my job first." Jax said in a heated and angered tone handing Gemma the Suicide note he had a copy of since the feds too the original.
Gemma looked at in and said "You know this old right."
Jax had question in his eyes and asked "How Do you know?"
"Because I found it after our trip to Ireland and that trauma. She was close to killing herself several time and almost succeed if it weren't for Happy being on guard even before they were a thing." Gemma told her son.
Jax rubbed his face and kissed him mom cheek. This gave him hope that she was alive still. He looked at his watch and decided he needed to go back to Napa and rescue her himself if he could.
Gemma raised her eyebrow and said "What was that For?"
"I know where she might be even if the fed took her. Can you Stay with Reign tonight please. I need to go on a midnight hike." He said lighting a cigarette and getting back on the bike.
Gemma smirked and said "Be safe and take a couple guys just in case."
Jax nodded his head driving off. Gemma put out the blunt and went back into the house. Abel who had finished feeding Thomas for reign seen his grandma come back in.
He asked "Why didn't Daddy stay Grammie?"
"Mommy left him a message and he finally got it after working all day." She said with a smile trying not to let on
"Is mommy gonna come home?" Abel asked with excitement in his voice.
He missed her every day presence in his activities and he missed the twins when they were up with her.
Gemma bit her lip and said "God I hope so."
Gemma held on to her rosary saying a few hail marys that the boys would find her.
Jenna had woken up in a drug educed state. It was one she had never felt before. She could only see darkness around her. She could hear snoring but wasn't sure it was. She was hallucinating things that weren't there.
She felt the barbwire he wrapped her wrist in digging into with every move. Josh began to stir hearing her movement.
"Oh your finally awake beautiful" Josh said with an evil smile knowing she wouldn't remember any of this even if she did get away because he had her on black tar heroin and acid to give her one hell of a trip
Jenna didn't recognize the voice and still couldn't see anything but felt her head spin.
"What do you want from me? I am just a pornstar with 3 beautiful babies I am nothing to anyone why me?" She begged to know why this was happening
"Simply because no other woman can compare to the little sex kitten you are. You are Definately a special creature who likes it a specific way and your in pure bliss when it happens and i like that control a woman can give. So I need you I need your body I need you to carry my seed Because You are so fucking Special" Josh said walking toward her opening her legs wide in the chair.
Jenna let out a scream for help but it fell on deaf ears. Just the birds could hear her.
"You keep doing that love no one will hear us. I am pretty sure they think your dead princess after that pretty note you left." Josh said with a smirk licking the side of her face
Jenna squirmed a bit freaked out by this sensation.
"Please I am just a cheap nothing. I am nothing special I am not like that in real life. I'm not worth your life." She begged Him
Josh laughed and said "You are Lying I watched you with your newest Beau last night watching him take you the way he did. Making you realize what a naughty girl you really.
This made Jenna feel sick hearing that whoever this was watched an intimate moment between her and a male when all she had ever done on film was females. Josh watched behind her and put her hair in a pony tail.
This scared her even more and begged "Please Please I beg you not to do this to me please. I am not worth the trouble."
"Yeah you are just an hour in your company is worth a life time. But we have to make sure they don't recognize you." Josh said setting her hair on fire and letting it burn her skin some as well
Jenna let out an ear piercing scream that made the bird flock off. Jax along with a few other Club members including Happy and Opie were on their bikes headed to the farmhouse and saw the birds fly and he took it as a sign.
Josh poured a bucket of water on her to put out the flames leaving some of her face neck back and arms burned. Jenna was in tears feeling her skin be fried.
Josh smiled higher than a kite himself said "Oh princess it will be Okay I promise. I just need to make sure I do my job right."
"What Job?" She questioned.
josh lied and said "Just the one your baby daddy paid me to do fuck you up royally for threating him and his lifestyle the way you have."
"Bullshit..Jax hated himself for what he did. HE would never do this himself. Do You work for the irish that it huh. Jimmy still HJEalous i didn't fight back so he couldn't keep it up. I bet you are the same need a fight to keep it hard." Jenna said still unable to see a thing in the dark.
Josh smirked walking in front of her and punched her in the nose breaking it. Jenna could tasted her blood and just spit it at him.
"See there is that fight i was looking for the first time when you were prego." Josh said wiping her blood on himself before lighting a few candles.
Jenna kicked his leg making the candle fall and light the curtians on fire which would soon take the treehouse up in flames. She could now see the treehouse but felt so fucked up still on whatever he was dosing her with.
Josh laughed and said "Oh sweetie you are very naughty for sure. I love a fighter. Tara was so good at first but then because a pussy loving biker slut."
Jenna grit her teeth getting the barbwire off making her bleed even more with the flames starting to catch more of the things on fire. Josh Ran at her trying to tackle her but Jenna fought back punching and kicking him off of her an landing his hand and the side of his face in the fire.
This made Josh scream and go after her again. The guys pulled up to the house and seen the smoke coming from the forest behind the house.
Opie Shouted "The Treehouse."
Jax, Opie and Happy Ran for the woods to see if it was her. Juice had called the local police and fire department before it got bad. The forest was so big behind the house and Opie had forgot the treehouse since they hadn't used it since they were kids.
Jenna ended up getting a hold of a knife which Josh fought her for as well as trying to get inside her while they went up in flames. Jenna would get the upper hand after a swift head butt.
The headbutt hurt her to but she was able to kick him off her and into the flames. She stood over his body and decided to caterate him for the violation he had done to her many times this night.
She could hear the sirens and got distracted. Jenna happen to be standing by a window and with his last dying movement Josh pushed her out of it sure the fall would kill her and no one would ever see her again.
Jenna was lucky that the pine trees had grown around this treehouse it made it softer but not much. She would get knocked unconscious from hitting a branch. Her body would end up rolling down the hill to a creek a few miles from the treehouse fire.
Th Sirens grew closer and Josh could feel his blood loss and just smiled into his death. The Treehouse was engulfed inflames do to all the pines and the dried wood and rotting wood.
Jax was first to see the treehouse and tried to climb up it but Happy and Opie both stopped him. Jax was on his knees begging pleading but knowing she was dead now. But not at her own hands.
The Firefighters tried to put out but time the got to the whole due to the over grown trees surrounding it there was nothing but ash. All three men were in tears watching the fire knowing she had no chance.
Happy was sadden because he didn't protect her when she needed her most. HE watched the Embers fall and knew Jax and Opie need him most now because she was their world longer that she was his.
Happy had to take the men back to the house so they didn't have to witness anymore. Both men were distraught and could say a word. But the crew knew it was bad seeing their president trying to fight to go burn with her.
Their faces all went sour and gather around Jax even Happy giving him a hug. He would deal with his grief later he felt like he had no right to grieve like they needed to.
Don't worry i have plans...I swear I do and I think you might like them.
I hope you enjoy this chapter it took a lot to write but I knew i needed something epic for what was in my head for this
xoxo
