The sun was starting to rise when the dust was settled and the fire was out. The cops had found no remain, the only think they had found was her engagement ring from Happy. This broke every mans heart that heard this news. Jax and Opie were the most heartbroken pretty much knowing she was gone now.
Happy would grieve in his own time, because he felt he had no right even though he was in love with her. Once they all had heard the news the crew decided to go home to clubhouse to process all of this. Jax didn't want o go home and break their children's heart and tell them mommy would be an angel and watching over them. He had no idea how he was going to raise all three by himself.
Opie was in a state of numbness and didn't know what to feel right now. He knew his two friend were both taking it hard. But one was sacrificing his grief to make sure the other had what he needed. The guys had gotten to the club house as the sun had risen. Jax couldn't will himself of his bike.
Happy look at him still sporting a bruised face from their fight earlier yesterday and said"I know its hard but we will all get through this."
Jax nodded his head getting off his bike trying to keep some composure because he wanted to believe it was a dream. To him this couldn't be real this was things he had nightmares about. Not something that happened in real life.
Bobby who was coming out of the club house could see his president distraught and cold.
As Opie and Jax headed inside to process there thought Happy decided to stay outside and smoke one of Jenna's rose blunts he had in his vest like he always did when she wanted to smoke. He smelled it and looked at her ring.
"Didn't Go well?" Bobby asked not knowing how serious this was.
"This is the only thing left of her." Happy said with tears in his own eyes trying no to believe she was gone either.
Bobby felt his chest get heavy and asked "What Happened?"
"Honestly I don't know but when we headed back after finding out the suicide note was real but old there was smoke coming from the forest behind the house. We ran to it and it was engulfed in flames and this is all they found of her." Happy said weeping for the first time since it happened
Bobby sighed and said "I am sorry man. I know you two were so in love. "
Happy sniffled and said "The worse part is I can't be the one to grieve right now because Jax has so much more on his plate with the kids and Opie she was his sister."
"You can grieve too in your own way I promise. They just need our support right now. Does Gemma or the kids know yet?" Bobby asked
Happy shook his head no and said "No we just got back from Napa."
Happy lit the blunt as he put her ring on his pinkie since it was the only finger it fit on. Bobby rubbed his back and joined him smoking the blunt.
Jenna had woken up as the sun hit her face. She felt so much pain and couldn't remember anything from this night before or anything about her self. She didn't even know who she was. Standing up she looked around realizing she was just in Robe that had burns in it.
Luckily for her there were clothes on a hanging line at a farmhouse near where she was. She looked around making sure no one was around before taking a pair or sweatpants and a Hoodie . As she changed she seen her wrist tore up along with tattoos of the names Tessa and Thomas on them.
Those names meant nothing to her in this state. She could hear a voice shouting something but took off with their clothed and bicycle before whoever it was saw her. She felt like she hours till she found a truck stop.
Most gave her disgusting looks, Some wondered what happened to her. She found a bench to sit on. She was trying to grasp where she was and who she was. One of the truck drivers who had use to be a doctor saw her. With the hood off he could tell she had been burned and something was wrong with her.
He walked over to her with a water and a sandwich and said "Here you Go Ma'am. Do you need any help?"
Jenna was skittish about taking but felt her stomach grumble and said "I am trying to figure out how I got here. I am from Tacoma and have no idea where i am."
The truck driver laughed a little and said "Well you are just out side of Sacremento, california right now. How long have you been riding your bike for?"
"I don't know I am not even sure I got here or who I am." She said trying to figure out her life.
"But you know You are from Tacoma." He asked
Jenna nodded her head and said "Yeah.."
The trucker sighed heading that way already and knew he was taking a risk but said "I know we don't know each other and I am not sure what hell you've been through. But I am headed that way. I can give you a ride if you like."
"But I don't have any money or anything to give you for that?" Jenna said in a begging sound.
He said "Don't worry about it. I don't feel right just leaving you out here on the streets bang up and messed up. People out here are far worse than anyone could imagine. By The way my name is Bowie."
"I am Jennavieve. But I feel people call me Jenna." She said running her fingers through what hair she had on her head and it hurt.
"Well Jenna from Tacoma. I promise you i will get you home." Bowie told her with a smile.
Jenna took a bite of her sandwich he had given her and followed him to the truck.
Jax was laying in his and Jenna's dorm room staring at a poster of her from back in the day.
"Why didn't you tell someone how you were feeling? Why did you have to leave us like you did? Our son will hate me even more now." He said taking another shot of whiskey.
He was three sheets to the wind already just begging her to come home and he would let her and Happy get married with out a fuss and let her move on. Gemma had spent the night with Reign and the kids at his house and hadn't heard anything yet. So she decided to go to the club house to get work done.
She took off her sun glasses seeing the guys bike were here. But still no word about Jenna. She wondered if they had all just partied because she found her and brought her home. But could tell By Opie's expression as he had a cigarette outside. Life was going to get much harder for everyone whose life she touched.
Gemma took a seat next to him and said "Can I have one of those?"
Opie snapped out of his stoper and said "sure" as he handed one.
"So I take it we found her to late this time." Gemma asked knowing she didn't want to hear the news but knew she had to so she could support where she needed to.
"Yup" Opie said popping the p like Jenna would.
Gemma rubbed his back and said "Shit I am so sorry Opie. I wish i knew what to say."
"I honestly don't know or comprehend anything at the moment. All I know is that we watched her burn in that old treehouse. Not sure how why or who. But all that was left was Happy's engagement ring. No Body just ash. The feds are working the crime scene in Napa so we might know more later." Opie told her starting to sob remember the flames.
Gemma just stood up and wrapped her arms around her and asked "How is my son as she let out her own tears?"
"Taking it the hardest. He is in the Dorm with a few bottles of whiskey just talking to her poster like she is there." Opie said wiping his eyes still hugging Gemma.
Gemma knew her son was blaming himself.
"Shit I better go check up on him." Gemma said letting him go.
Opie rubbed his face and said "Yeah I need to go tell my mom and figure out what my sister would of wanted. When are we gonna tell Abel?"
"Probably after school or when Jax is sober enough to go home." Gemma said looking at the door hoping they were pranking her.
Opie rubbed his face and said "Good Luck with that. He thinks Abel will hate him more for this. So he is in a whole new realm of guilt after seeing the flames."
"Fuck Well then This is gonna take a while. I'll have to find a schedule for the twin and get some help for reign Cause He is gonna be of no use till he realizes how real it is. How's Happy?" Gemma asked seeing his bike here.
Opie shrugged "Honestly no clue. He hasn't said a word or cried a tear since it happened. How Does someone Not Cry after watching that. HE was suppose to love her" Opie said throwing his beer bottle mad that Jenna was taken from them just as she was finding herself again
"He does or did Love her. But Maybe he feels he has no right to grieve like you and Jax do so he won't in front of you guys." Gemma said jumping at the sound of the glass breaking.
Opie rubbed his face and said "I better go tell my mom before she hears it second hand."
Gemma gave him a hug and said "Call me if you need me. I will come for anything you or the kids need."
"I will if Reign need a place to crash with the kids She can use Jenna's house. I am sure that's what Jenna would want." Opie said trying think or what Jenna would want for her kids now.
"I am sure she will appreciate that since her house has all their things." Gemma said rubbing his back knowing how hard this was.
Opie got on his bike and drove to his mom house on the other side of town. Gemma kept looking like everyone else she didn't want to believe she was gone. She was hoping to see her come out and it just be a joke on her.
But reality sank in when she saw Happy come out and going to Jenna's favorite spot since Jax had built the playground. Happy sat down on the swing and wondered what to do now. He had no plans except the ones he made with Jenna and now he felt nothing.
Gemma let her tears fall seeing him pull one of Jenna's rose blunts from his pocket and just stare at her ring. She knew he too was a broken man and had no idea how to deal with any of them.
She knew this day might come one day with the danger she put her life for this club house and her kids. Jenna was much like she was a fighter and could only imagine what Happened to here after all that time alone.
Jenna was playing in the bed he had in the cab of his truck exhausted from the bike ride and the pain. She tried to find a comfortable spot but all she felt were burns.
Bowie looked back at her through the mirror and asked "You gonna make it Jenna from Tacoma."
"Just Jenna please and I wish i knew what happened to me. I look like hell and it feels like someone set fire to my skin." She said sitting up on the bed.
Bowie asked "Are you sure you don't want to go to the hospital?"
"You can drop me off at one in Tacoma. I just don't want to be stranded anywhere i don't recognize." Jenna said
Bowie nodded and said "I get that is there anyone you want me to call when we get there for you."
"If i knew who i would let you know." Jenna said with a laugh as she slid into the passenger seat.
Jenna could see his cut on the back of seat the best she could with her eyes somewhat swollen from her broken nose.
"Are you in a MC?" She asked remember a vest like that and the last name Lowman on a patch.
Bowie looked down at his cut and said "yeah We are called the sons of anarchy out of Tacoma. Do you recognize the logo? Are you an MC girl?"
"I don't know But I remember a Lowman on a vest. I am not sure if that's my last name or what though." She said biting her thumbnail.
Bowie raised his eyebrow remember a Lowman back in the day. But didn't remember where he ended up at.
"There use to be a member with that last name but last i heard he was in California somewhere." Bowie told her grabbing a bottle of pain pills from his pocket and handed her two.
Jenna bit her lip looking at the bottle reading the label Vicodin and took what he handed her. For some reasons she felt like she could trust him.
Jenna took a drink of the water and asked "Do you think you might be able to find him. I feel a big connection to that name. Like he is someone special to maybe my husband or fiancée?"
"What makes you think that?" Bowie asked her hoping to be able to jog her memory some
"Well it obvious i was burned and i was wearing a ring when i was burned cause the band i burned on my find but there is no ring. But I keep seeing the name Lowman after seeing your vest." Jenna said bringing her knees to her chest.
Bowie nodded his head and said "I am sure once I get home and talk to them I can come up with a number and call him for you."
"Thanks i appreciate. Why are you helping me? My experience with me is they usually want something from me or use me in some pleasurable way to them." Jenna asked wondering why he was doing this
Bowie smiled and said "I am not most guys and not that i wouldn't love to have a chance with you. I can tell you have been through hell and don't need more trauma."
"Well I definitely appreciate it." Jenna said deciding to go back into the bed to try and sleep.
Bowie smiled just watching her and said "Not a problem Jenna. Now rest this is gonna be a long ride."
Jenna let out a yawn and closed her eyes but all she would get was a nightmare that was her memory.
Gemma sat at the bar waiting to see if Jax would come out for a change of scenery. Jax was sitting on the edge of their bed and looked at their pictures on the walls.
Jax yelled "You promised I would never have to deal with this. You swore that no matter what happened you wouldn't leave our children."
Jax threw his empty bottle of Jack Daniels at the wall shattering it. Gemma heard the glass breaking and decided to see what part of grief her son was dealing with. She could hear him yelling.
"YOU PROMISED ME." Jax Screamed staring at her poster.
Gemma opened the door seeing Jax starting ripping all her posters off the wall along with their memories. She jumped watching him punch a mirror and getting glass in his hand. Jax feel to the ground after hitting the mirror and just sobbed out load.
Gemma came in grabbing one of Jenna's bandanas she had left on the table and knelt down to her sons side and didn't say a word.
Jax begged her "How could she leave us? How could she leave our children? What do I tell my son who already blames me for his mommy not wanting to come home."
"I don't know how to answer any of that son. But you have to be strong for them. He may hate you for the moment but he will forgive you. He is just like you. You blamed me for your dads death for a year until you learned what this life was. " She said slowly taking the shard out of his hands.
"And I am sorry i did. But how do I know he will forgive me. He saw the monster i could become. " Jax said wincing a bit from the pain.
Gemma sighed and said "He will because you two will need each other and he will need you tell him stories about her. All your kids will. All we can do now is remember how she live and none of the shit that happened to her. "
"All I can see is that fire burning her alive mom. Like how could I not believe her that that sick freak was alive and was capable of what he did." Jax said watch her pull out the glass.
Gemma finished and wrapped the black and pink bandana around it and said "Well for his sake i hope he died too."
"The feds said that all that was left of him was his manhood like she had cut it off before the fire." Jax said cracking the first smile since the morning before this tragedy.
"Well at least we know she fought to her death. Just like the little fire cracker she always was." Gemma said looking around the room of their memories every where even on the ceiling.
Jax sighed and said "That she was. I just don't want to have to go through all of her affairs and figure out what she wanted."
Gemma rubbed her face and said "That's the hardest thing because neither of you wrote a will when i told you too. But we just do something simple and small here celebrate her life let people share their stories and let fireworks and balloons go in her name."
"Can you arrange it mom? Its to much for me to handle. What about her house?" Jax asked just trying to figure out what to do with her things.
Gemma stood up looking around the room and said "Opie said that Reign could have it for her and the kids."
"what about Happy where will he leave?" Jax asked knowing it was his house to.
Gemma shrugged her shoulder and said "I don't know no one has asked him because even though he is grieving to he feels he shouldn't be able to around us."
"I hope he sticks around because Abel will blame me for that too." Jax said looking out the window watching Happy just stare at the ring that was kissed by the flames a little.
Gemma looked out and said "I am sure he will. He just might need time away for a bit because he will need to find his new future because they had it planned together Like you and she use to as kids."
Jax sighed remember those plans till their lives grew apart when she had Abel and had to go through so many horrific things because of him.
"I should go talk to him but i don't know what to say." Jax said running his fingers through his hair.
Gemma said "Just let it happen don't get angry don't blame each other just let all that hate rest because She love you both. I know you wish she didn't But She did. She would want you two to still be friends and leave him at the table."
Jax looked at his mom just nodding his head leaving her to clean up after hi per the usual. Gemma just shook her head and started to clean up the glass and things he ripped.
When They had crossed the border into Oregon, Bowie stopped so he could get her clothes that fit her and some dinner for them. Jenna stayed in the truck scared that someone would see her and try to call the cop and blame Bowie for this when she still had no idea how she became like this.
Bowie was talking to his wife on the phone while he was shopping for clothes for Jenna.
"I will be home in like 6 hours. I got to drop a local MC girl off at the hospital first though." Bowie told his wife.
His wife questioned "What girl Bowie?"
"Her name is Jennavieve. I found her at a truck stop in Sacramento. She has a broken nose, She looks like some one to a blow torch to her hair and her body. She has no memory except she is from Tacoma and she is either the wife or a fiancée of someone with the last name Lowman who is Sons MC in Tacoma." Bowie told his wife
He grabbed her a pair of leggings, a tank top and a hoodie that looked like it would fit her tiny body better than what the baggy clothes she obviously had stolen from somewhere when she woke up where ever.
Bowie's wife said "I never heard of her. But last Lowman I knew in Tacoma was Happy. But he is down in one of the Cali charters he is lee's uncle. Do you want me to let lee know."
Bowie shook his head no and said "I will talk to him when I get home if he is at the club house. Besides i have his gift for Sophia that he ordered."
Sophia was lee's sixteen year old sister and had ordered her a custom McLaren that Bowie had to go get.
His wife said "All Right call me when you drop snow white off. That way I know you are okay."
"I will my wife. I love you and nothing is gonna happen with her." He said reassuring her.
His wife responded saying "I know. I love you my husband. See you when you come home."
"See you when i get home my wife." Bowie said as he headed to check out.
Jenna was tossing a turning in the bed from her nightmares and could hear a voice telling her that he had to change her appearance so no one recognized her. She let out a horrific scream as she could feel a blow torch on her neck. Bowie opened the door hearing her scream to se her holding her neck and what she had left of what looked like beautiful blonde hair.
Bowie held his chest and said "You okay?"
"Yeah its just a nightmare of whoever caused this." Jenna told him as she rubbed her face trying to remember whatever she could.
Bowie got into the driver seat and put a few bags at her feet and said "I got you some clothes that might fit you and some shoes for those feet."
"Thank you so much. I will pay you back once i figure out who i am and where my things are to pay you." Jenna said with sigh.
Bowie smiled at her and said "You are MC Family Jenna. My wife told me the Lowman you are looking for is my Presidents uncle. So we should be able to figure out who you are when we get you situated in Tacoma."
"Well Thank you again I owe you and your family so much for this." Jenna said pulling the curtain closed to separate the bedroom area and the front of the cab.
Happy sat back down on Jenna's swing and lit another one of her blunts they tasted like her kisses. Jax sighed not wanting to be nice seeing red when he looked at Happy. But he knew now that Jenna was gone they both needed each other to be able to talk shop about her and tell stories only they could tell to each other.
Jax walked over to the playground and leaned on the fence asking "Can I join you?"
"It's your playground. This is just where i feel her the most." Happy said hitting the blunt.
Jax smirked and said "This was her favorite place since I put it in for her."
Happy handed him the blunt and said "I see why. You can see every bit of this property no one has no secrets here. I wonder what she saw."
"Probably a whole lot of shameless shit." Jax said with a laugh.
Happy laughed and said "Probably. I am sorry about everything man. But I did love her and wanted to make her happy."
"You don't have to apologize for anything. I know you did. I was just jealous cause you could make her smile and I couldn't because i disappointed her to many times." Jax said handing the joint back to him.
Happy smirked and took a fat rip and said "She still loved you and you did make her smile still when you were being the father you said you would be to the kids."
"I have no clue how I am gonna tell Abel and have to explain it to the twins when they get older. I just never thought she would leave us like this." Jax said kicking some of the pebbles.
Happy Handed him the blunt back and said "I Get it man. This hits us all hard all we can do is just live life like she would have wanted."
"My mom said the same thing. Are you planning to stick around here still after everything?" Jax asked questioning him just to know.
Happy nodded his head yes and said "Yeah I just got to take a trip up to Tacoma later in the week for my Nieces sweet sixteen. Then I got to figure out where I am gonna stay. Because that was her house."
"It was your too. Opie said Reign could have it for the kids. I am sure Reign wouldn't mid a room mate and some help with the kids when I am away." Jax said not wanting him to think he had to leave because the kids weren't his and he now had nothing here.
Happy smiled and said "I appreciate that man."
Jax hit the blunt and let out a laugh and said "No Problem. You wanna hear something funny?"
"What man?" Happy asked wondering if its the same thing he thought.
"I can taste her lips hitting this blunt." Jax said.
The two men let out a laugh because they both were fucked up from their devices to cope.
Happy wiped his eyes and said "I know what you mean Brother. She's got an entire stack of these in the Garage in her Monster fridge."
"She always had to be the classy stoner." Jax said mimicking her with her pinkie out.
Happy chuckled and said "With just a touch of Redneckery."
"Wouldn't of had her any other way. She definitely kept me humble when we were younger. But as the years wen on and I being a foolish young man I hurt her to much for her to care. But she still did anyway." Jax said handing Happy back the blunt.
"That's spunk she had is a whole new high i never thought possible but when she smiles its all worth it to see that glow." Happy said feeling his phone go off.
Jax just nodded his phone giving him permission to answer it before taking a walk around the garage property to find all of his and Jenna's hide aways and little art pieces she drew all around the building taging it in her own special way.
Happy answered and said "Nephew how goes it?"
"It goes you are you still coming up for Sophia's birthday." Lee asked his uncle.
He was looking at a photo of Jenna that Bowie had taken of the girl he picked up in Sacramento.
"Yeah nephew I just am dealing with tragedy down here in Charming. My president just lost the mother of his children."Happy said not wanting to say much more.
Lee sighed and said "Is she a little holly girl rail thin with random tattoos?"
"That describes half the girls down here. Why do you ask?" Happy said knowing there was no way she was alive.
Lee said "One of my guys found a Holly girl in a truck stop in Sacramento after riding a bike for god know how many hours. She looks pretty messed up. She gave him your last name."
"Did she give him a name?" Happy asked with question wondering how she would of survived.
Lee forwarded Happy the picture and said "She doesn't remember anything other than she said her name is Jenna and she is from tacoma and doesn't know how she knows you but she feels like your wife."
Happy looked at the pictures looking at the tattoos seeing in noticed an and the most distinguished one was his smiled face she had put on her ass cheek for him.
"No Fucking Way...When do they get in to Tacoma?" Happy said rubbing his head trying to figure out how it was possible.
Lee told him "They get in at 10 tonight. They just a Walmart in Oregon. Bowie is dropping her off at the hospital in town here."
"Thanks for that info. I will let you know our plans cause my president is losing his mind right now." Happy said looking around for Jax to tell him the news.
"I will give you all the info when Bowie gets he into the er. So You finally got married Uncle?" Lee said teasing him.
Happy smiled looking at Jenna's ring and said "Not quite yet but now I get to and don't worry you will be my second best man her son is the first."
Lee Smiled and said "Well I hope this girl is your girl then because i can't wait for that party."
"Me either." Happy said kissing her ring slipping it into his vest hanging up his phone
Happy need to find Jax and come up with a plan and figure out what the game plan if her memory was gone. He still couldn't believe she survived the tortured. He looked through the pictures and saw all the burns and scars wondering what the guy had done to her.
I hope you like this. I am so driven to write this because i see the epiceness in my head and what it to be just right.
I really hope you readers are enjoying this story.
XOXO.
