How long has it been since I last showed my face around you guys? Definitely been too long!

This chapter was a blast, I must've rewritten it countless times, sometimes scraping it halfway through. But nope, these two had to have a heart to heart. (small spoiler: no, this time no one is tied to a chair)

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The emptiness of promises, those fleeting specters, whispered with such conviction yet so easily forsaken—what do they even mean? How can I harbor anger toward you, Christine, you who embody such unblemished purity and grace? My dear, sweet Christine, so beautiful, so wonderfully captivating. Just looking at you made the world around me fade into insignificance. Your radiant eyes seemed to draw the very soul from my being.

The golden ring you returned now lies cold and lifeless among your other belongings, which I reclaimed from the daroga. Tell me, Christine, what am I to do with these remnants of a shattered past? I am adrift, alive yet devoid of purpose, my intended departure thwarted. Only with you beside me, your poor Erik, will death seem blissful. Instead, I am haunted by the dread of ensnaring another in my desolation.

She vowed to stand by me, but isn't that the cruelest jest of all? A desire I longed for. But how can I place any faith in her promise when it mirrors your own willingness, Christine, to aid even a wretched creature like myself? Ah, the biting irony! How easily we deceive ourselves with such hollow vows. The temptation to draw her into my abyss gnaws at my soul, yet I know I must not impose this cursed fate upon her.

-E


Hanna sat in the dim light of Erik's drawing room, her fingers lightly tracing the contours of sheet music she had found earlier. The operetta Die Fledermaus coaxed a bittersweet smile onto her lips as she reminisced about her home. Many years ago, while still a university student, she had stumbled upon an advertisement for this very operetta. Despite the biting cold that day, her spontaneous decision to buy an expensive last minute ticket. But what awaited her made her feel elated. The melodies, so vibrant and jolly, had sent her out of the theater with a song in her heart and a whistle on her lips.

Over the years, the voices of Edita Gruberova and Lucia Popp had been her constant companions during countless study sessions. Yet, she couldn't remember exactly when the operetta faded from her daily routine. Perhaps it was when her job began to consume her?

She frowned, recalling her relentless drive for perfection at work, how she had become numb to her own routine, biting her nails as she managed task after stressful task, revising papers to the brink of obsession because they never seemed good enough. The laptop had become an extension of her very being, accompanying her home to steal away her evenings under the guise of productivity.

She didn't know why she was stressing herself so much, why she needed to perfect everything, it just earned a larger workload while the salary remained the same. It was to broaden her experience, she had told herself and tried to convince Marie of. It would look good on her CV and maybe land her a job with a higher position and more responsibility, a team under her own wings. Marie's words echoed in her mind: "Why all that work for a possible mediocre job and just a few more headaches?"

Resting her head against the cushion, Hanna sighed. Now, free from deadlines, a part of her relished being stuck in a time where her past stresses seemed inconsequential.

Her gaze settled back on the music sheets. Perhaps she could coax Erik to play a few arias from the operetta on his return. That thought dissolved quickly as she remembered how often Erik retreated to his room, locking the door behind him, or how he would grab a box, its contents rattling metallicaly, and leave without a word.

His absences were frequent. She had hoped he would revert to his more attentive demeanor after their last confrontation. Instead, he had withdrawn further, muttering about needing to "tend to a snooping busybody" the very next day and leaving her with a dismissive wave and a cryptic, "Nothing my little wife needs to concern herself with."

In his absence, Hanna fought the urge to snoop. She busied herself with cleaning and dusting, even perusing his shelves for light French literature to distract herself. Yet, each time her eyes caught the spine of a Faust edition—and there were many—she heard her language teacher's admonition, "Es irrt der Mensch solang er strebt!" echoing through her mind, reminding her of days spent annotating her well-worn copy.

After tidying up, she would prepare a light meal and some tea, her dinner lit by candlelight that marked the slow passage of time. She missed Erik, his presence a strange comfort despite his unpredictability. She had grown used to the sound of his voice, whether it was laced with biting sarcasm or filled with an unspoken sorrow that tugged at her heart. Now, without him, everything felt off balance.

She replayed their last real conversation in her mind, remembering the way his voice had cracked when he had begged her to stay with him. There was a rawness in his words that frightened her, not because she feared him, but because she feared for him.

And now? As soon as he entered the house, he was tense, anger pulsating through him as he muttered curses under his breath. His anger wasn't truly directed at her, she knew that. But that didn't make it any less terrifying when his temper flared. Each time he lashed out, Hanna could see the regret in his eyes, the way he immediately recoiled as if ashamed of his own outburst. It was in those moments that she saw just how deeply his self-loathing ran, and it broke her heart.

She tried to stay calm, to remind herself that Erik needed space to deal with his emotions, but it was hard. Every time he left, she was haunted by the fear that he might not come back, that he might lose himself completely to his darkness. The thought of being alone in this vast, empty house was terrifying, and the thought of losing Erik was even worse.

She cared for him, drawn to the vulnerability he so fiercely guarded and the fleeting glimpses of hope that he, too, might see himself as something more than a monster.

Hanna sighed, taking a sip of now cold tea. She wished she knew how to help him, how to ease the pain that seemed to consume him from the inside out. But Erik was a complex man, and she knew that any attempt to reach him had to be handled with the utmost care.

The sound of ringing was heard, and Hanna's heart leaped in her chest. She quickly set the sheet music aside and stood, her eyes fixed on the entrance to the room. Erik appeared a moment later, his thin figure shrouded in the dark cloak he always wore. He moved with his usual grace, but there was a tension in his posture that made her stomach twist with worry.

He stopped when he saw her, his eyes narrowing slightly as if assessing her mood. Hanna met his gaze, careful to keep her expression neutral. She didn't want to provoke him, not when he was already on edge. But there was something in his eyes that told her he wasn't angry, at least not with her.

"Did his little wife miss Erik?" He asked, his tone light but with an undercurrent of something darker, something that made her chest tighten. The endearment she had gotten used to came almost mockingly out of his mouth.

She smiled softly, though her heart was pounding in her chest. "I did," she admitted, her voice gentle. "But I was more worried about you."

For a moment, Erik's expression softened, and she thought she saw a flicker of something like gratitude in his eyes. But it was gone as quickly as it appeared, replaced by a hard, almost bitter look. "Worry? Why would you worry about Erik, eh? Perhaps you thought your Erik would leave you alone soon? Ah! How wicked! How utterly wicked! Perhaps you were worried Erik would actually come back?"

Hanna gasped at that, anger raising up at this accusation. She wanted to scream at him, shake him senseless and tell him that she would not leave. What more did she have to prove to him, that she was willingly staying in his house? Heavens, she had even promised to marry him!

Erik let out a harsh, humorless laugh, when he saw her expression, her clenching her hands inside the cushion. She instantly relaxed her grip, breathing in and out deeply. She wouldn't let this provocation of his get to her.

"I'm here, Erik," she said softly, trying to reach through the wall he had built around himself. "If you want to talk. Or if you just want to be."

Erik was silent for a long time. She could see the tension in his shoulders, the way his hands were clenched into fists at his sides.

"I'm here because I choose to be," she said, her voice firm. She considered telling him more, explaining that she saw something …some hint of goodness …hidden inside him. But she knew that could lead to something unpredictable. A sarcastic laugh, perhaps, or maybe even a flash of anger to convince her there was no good in him at all.

"You're but a fool," he said, but there was no venom in his words, only a deep sadness that made her heart ache even more. "A misguided soul to tarry here."

Erik turned his back to Hanna after his sharp words. He moved toward the far corner of the room. Hanna watched him, her heart heavy, knowing she needed to tread carefully. But she would not back down this time, not when he was actually willing to talk and not discard her with a few words like the last days.

For a long moment, the only sound in the room was their breathing and the occasional cracking coming from the fire. Erik's back was rigid, his hands clasped tightly together behind him, fingers flexing as if he were holding back some inner turmoil. Hanna knew that he was struggling, she could see it in the tension of his shoulders, in the way his head dipped slightly as if the weight of his thoughts was too much to bear.

She wanted to reach out to him, to bridge the chasm that seemed to widen with each passing second, but fear held her back. Fear not just of his potential anger, but also of the emotions swirling inside her, emotions she couldn't fully understand or control. Was it truly compassion that drove her to stay, or was there something darker, something that tied her to this place and this man in ways she couldn't yet comprehend?

Gathering her courage, Hanna slipped from the chaise and took a slow step forward, her voice tentative as she spoke. "Erik, I don't think you understand what you mean to me…what you've done for me. You saved my life, twice." Under complicated circumstances… She shook that thought off. "Yes, I worry about you, but not because I think you're beyond hope. I worry because I see how much you're hurting and… I want to help."

Erik didn't respond immediately. His silence was oppressive, like a storm building just out of sight. Hanna could feel the tension in the air, the charged anticipation of his response. When he finally spoke, his voice was quiet, strained, as though he was holding back a torrent of emotion. "Help? Help eh… eh!" he echoed bitterly. "There's nothing you can do to help Erik. He is beyond saving. Just," he paused, sighing deeply, "…haunting. Haunting the remnants of a life that isn't his."

He turned back to her then, his eyes hollow, dark pools of torment. "You don't understand, and Erik prays you never will. The darkness that envelops him … it is not something from which you can merely rescue him. It is all consuming, having shaped and fashioned him into the being you now behold. He is unworthy of your aid, your kindness… your pity."

The word 'pity' hung in the air like a sharp blade, and Hanna flinched as if it had physically struck her. "It's not pity," she whispered, her voice thick with emotion. "I don't pity you, Erik. I… I see you. I try to see you. I don't believe anyone is beyond saving. Not even you."

Erik's gaze hardened, and for a moment, she thought he might lash out at her, his anger a desperate shield against the vulnerability her words exposed. But then his expression softened, the fight seeming to drain out of him as quickly as it had flared up. He looked away, his shoulders slumping as if under a great weight.

"You are kind," he said softly, his voice so low she had to strain to hear him. "Too kind. And that will be your undoing."

Hanna shook her head, moving closer to him with slow, careful steps. She reached out, her hand hovering just above his arm, unsure if she should make contact. But she wanted to show him that he wasn't alone, that there was someone willing to stand by him, even in his darkest moments.

"Erik," she began, her voice trembling slightly, "you don't have to face this alone. I'm not going anywhere."

His eyes flicked to her hand, still hovering in the air, and she saw the conflict raging within him. Part of him wanted to pull away, to retreat back into the safety of his solitude, but another part, the part she had seen glimpses of in their quieter moments, longed for the connection he had been denied for so long.

With a hesitant sigh, Erik allowed her to place her hand on his arm. The contact was light, almost imperceptible, but it sent a shiver through him, as if her touch was something alien and overwhelming. His muscles tensed under her hand, but he didn't pull away. Instead, he stood there, his gaze fixed on the wall as if he couldn't bear to look at her, couldn't face the emotions her presence stirred within him.

Hanna could feel the tremor in his arm, the barely contained tension in his body. It was as if he were fighting some internal battle, torn between the need to keep her at arm's length and the desperate longing for the comfort she offered. The air between them crackled with unspoken words, with all the things neither of them knew how to say.

"I know this won't be easy," she said softly, her voice steady despite the chaos of her emotions. "I know there will be times when you'll try to push me away, when you'll say things that will hurt me. But I also know that you don't mean them. I've seen you, Erik… behind the anger and the pain. And that's the man I want to help."

Erik's head bowed slightly. "You're too good for this place," he murmured, his voice thick with emotion. "Too good…Too good, ha."

Hanna shook her head, her hand gently squeezing his arm in reassurance. "I'm where I need to be," she replied. "And if that means being here with you, then that's where I will stay."

The silence that followed was heavy with the weight of her words, with the unspoken promises and the fragile hope that lingered between them. Erik's body remained tense, his mind still battling with itself, but there was a change in the air—a shift, however small, that told her she was getting through to him, that some part of him wanted to believe that he wasn't beyond redemption.

Erik suddenly stepped back, breaking the contact between them. His eyes were wild, frantic, as if he had just realized how close he had come to letting her in, to letting himself be vulnerable. "No," he muttered, shaking his head as if to clear it of the thoughts that had taken root there. "This can't happen. Erik can't allow it."

"Erik—" Hanna began, reaching out for him, but he recoiled as if her touch burned him.

"Don't," he hissed, his voice filled with a raw, desperate anguish. "Erik implores you, do not magnify this burden he already bears. You are unaware! Eh, so painfully unaware! …Of the full weight of your request, nor the torment it causes within your poor Erik. He can't! He can't transform into the ideal you hope for."

"I'm not asking for anything," Hanna insisted, her voice steady despite the turmoil she felt. "I'm not asking you to be anyone other than who you are."

"But therein lies the tragedy!" Erik burst out, his voice cracking with emotion. "Erik is condemned by his own deeds, unworthy of even the smallest kindness. Nor is he someone who can offer warmth or comfort."

Hanna's heart ached at his words, at the pain and self loathing that they carried. She took a step toward him, but he retreated further, his hands shaking as he tried to put as much distance between them as possible.

"Please," he pleaded, his voice trembling with the weight of his despair. "Please, Erik begs of you, spare us both from this sorrow. Don't linger here out of some misplaced sense of duty or compassion. Erik sets you free. You hear? Free!"

Hanna felt tears prick at the corners of her eyes, but she blinked them away, determined to be strong for him, to show him that she wasn't going to give up on him. "Erik, I'm not here because I feel sorry for you," she said, her voice firm. "I'm here because I care about you. I've seen the goodness in you, even if you can't see it yourself. And I shall remain by your side, even if it means enduring hardships."

The words hung in the air between them, charged with a power that neither of them fully understood. Erik stared at her, his eyes wide, his breath coming in shallow, uneven gasps. She could see the turmoil in his gaze, the conflict that raged within him, tearing him apart.

His posture softened, his hands relaxing from the fists they had been clenched into, and he took a tentative step toward her, his eyes filled with a mixture of longing and fear. "What a good little wife you are indeed," he said mockingly. His comment made her cheeks flush with heat.

But then, just as quickly, the tension again returned. Erik's expression hardened, his body going rigid as if he had been struck by some terrible realization. He shook his head, his eyes darkening once more with that familiar, self destructive anger.

"No," he muttered. "No, Erik will not allow this. Not again." What followed was wheezing and a terrible rattling laugh. "You can't fathom. The agony! Eh, so strangely familiar. A bitter déjà vu indeed. But Erik shall not allow such misfortune to befall him again. For it will be your destruction and he shall be the very cause of it."

Hanna felt her heart ache at his words, at the sight of him struggling so desperately against his own emotions. She wanted to reach out to him, offering her support, her understanding. "I'm not afraid, Erik," she said again, her voice steady and calm. "I'm not going anywhere."

Erik clenched his jaw, his hands trembling as he fought to maintain control over the storm of emotions threatening to overwhelm him. "You should be afraid," he growled, though there was a desperation in his tone that belied the harshness of his words. His breathing got hard, as if he could barely catch his breath and would collapse any moment. "You ought to be trembling with fear. Fear! Fear him! Erik is not one for salvation, nor one you can restore."

"I'm just trying to be here for you. You don't have to do this alone," she replied, her voice soft but firm.

Erik stared at her, his eyes narrowing as if trying to determine whether she was telling the truth. He seemed to be searching for some hidden motive, some reason to distrust her, but all he found was sincerity. Hanna met his gaze evenly, her heart pounding in her chest, but her resolve unshaken.

"You are courting danger," he warned, his voice low and dangerous. "You're gambling everything for something that cannot be. Erik will bring you nothing but grief."

"Maybe," she replied, refusing to back down. She straightened her back, feeling brave suddenly. What had she to lose? She was stuck here, stuck in this time with no one to rely on. And for once they both spoke up, talked about their feelings. That alone was a victory for her. He didn't back down, didn't burst into an anger fit or straight up ran into his room to lock himself in. "But I don't believe that's all you are. I've seen more in you, Erik."

Erik's breath hitched, and for a moment, he looked at her as though she had struck him. "Why?" he whispered, his voice trembling with emotion. "Why would you undertake this folly? Why hazard all for someone of Erik's kind."

Hanna stepped closer to him, her eyes locked on his, her voice filled with quiet determination. "Because you're worth it," she said simply. "Because I believe in you."

"No," he said again. "This is not right. You are misguided."

"Erik—" Hanna began, but he cut her off with a sharp gesture.

"No," he repeated, his voice rising. "Erik cannot permit this to happen. Erik shall not pull you into his desolation. You need to leave. Take your leave before it's too late"

"But I don't want to leave," she insisted, her voice trembling with the force of her emotions. "I want to stay. I want to help you."

"And that is precisely why you must leave!," Erik shot back, his eyes flashing with anger. "Why can you not understand? Are you daft? What a great booby…! But you're not the first to not leave Erik alone. No? No, no! Always prying. But did no one tell you, my dear little bride? Care kills this cat. And you ought to mind your own affairs. Snap snap! Dead. Eh? Will you cry now? Will she? You hear? Dead!"

The force of his words stunned her into silence. She could see the pain behind them, the deep, unhealed wounds that he had carried for so long, and it made her chest ache with sorrow. But she couldn't give up. Not now, not after everything they had been through.

"I'm not giving up on you," she whispered, her voice filled with quiet determination. "No matter what you say, no matter how hard you try to push me away, I'm not leaving."

With a ragged sigh, he turned away, his shoulders slumping. Without any other words he walked away, leaving Hanna standing there, alone with nothing but the echoes of his words to keep her company.

As his footsteps faded, she felt an overwhelming sense of loss, a deep, aching void that seemed to swallow her whole. Hanna stood there for what felt like an eternity, her mind numb, her heart heavy with the weight of everything that had happened. She wanted to cry, to scream, to do something, anything to release the pain that had taken root inside her. But she couldn't. The tears wouldn't come, the scream lodged in her throat, and all she could do was stand there, frozen in place.

Finally, after what felt like hours, Hanna forced herself to move. She sat down on the chaise longue again, her hands trembling and falling into her lap. Her head was bowed as she took a deep, shuddering breath. She didn't know what to do, didn't know how to move forward.

Her heart ached with the fear that no matter how much she cared, it might never be enough to break through the walls he had built around himself.

As the minutes passed, Hanna's mind raced, replaying every moment she had spent with Erik, every conversation, every fleeting glimpse of the man behind the mask. She had seen his pain, felt the depth of his sorrow, and it had called to something deep within her—a need to help, to heal. But now, sitting here alone, she couldn't shake the feeling that she had failed him.

For a very brief moment she thought about what he suggested. Even if she would jump on the opportunity and leave France, where would she go to and what would she do? Leaving to the family she shares barely a name with but else is unfamiliar with them? It's not her granny waiting there. Heavens, it wouldn't even be her granny's granny waiting there. And with what excuse would she walk up to them? "Hey, I'm from the future. And by the way, we are related to each other"? She snorted at that thought and hugged her knees. She missed her family. Really badly. But she was stuck here and she wracked her brain for a long time already how to get back. If there even was a way back. She sighed. It's probably for the best to make the best out of her situation. Whatever that was. She had decided to stay with Erik. And she shouldn't let his words get to her like this.

Finally, she stood up again. She needed to move, to do something, anything to keep herself from being swallowed by the despair that threatened to engulf her. She began to pace the room, her thoughts a chaotic mess of frustration, sadness, and a deep, gnawing fear of losing Erik in ways she could not quite put into words.

The fear was what gnawed at her the most. The past days Erik had withdrawn so completely, his despair so palpable that it frightened her. She had seen the darkness in his eyes, the way he seemed to be teetering on the edge of something she couldn't fully comprehend. What if he did something drastic? What if, in his pain, he decided that the only way to protect her was to remove himself from her life entirely?

The thought sent a shiver down her spine. She didn't want to lose him—not like this, not when there was still so much left unsaid, so much left unresolved. But what could she do? Erik was a man who apparently had spent a great part of his life in isolation, his heart encased in layers of sorrow and bitterness. How could she break through that? How could she show him that he wasn't as alone as he believed?

Hanna forced herself to stop pacing, taking a deep breath to steady her nerves. She couldn't afford to give in to despair, not when there was still a chance, however small, that she could reach him. If she let her own fear take over, she knew she would lose him for good. He needed someone to pull him back from the brink.

Determined, Hanna left the room, moving through the house. She had to find him, had to make him see that he wasn't beyond saving.

In the end Hanna found him sitting on the floor in his bedroom, next to the mountain of broken clocks, his back to her, his shoulders slumped in defeat. He looked smaller somehow, as if the weight of his own sorrow had crushed him into a shell of the man he had been.

She hesitated for a moment, unsure of how to approach him, didn't want to startle him, didn't want to provoke another outburst. But she couldn't just stand there, watching him drown in his own despair. Taking a deep breath, she knocked on the open door, her voice soft as she called his name.

"Erik?"

He didn't turn around, didn't acknowledge her presence. But she saw the way his shoulders tensed, the way his head dipped slightly, as if he were bracing himself for whatever was to come.

"Erik," she said again, moving closer, her heart pounding in her chest. "Please… talk to me."

For a long moment, he said nothing. The silence stretched out between them, heavy and suffocating. Hanna could feel her own anxiety building, her fear that she had pushed him too far, that he had retreated so deeply into himself that she would never be able to reach him again.

But then, finally, he spoke. His voice was low, barely more than a whisper, and filled with a pain that cut straight through her.

"What do you want me to say, Hanna?"

Hanna swallowed hard, forcing herself to stay calm. "I just… I just want you to understand. That I want to help you."

Erik let out a bitter laugh, the sound hollow and full of despair. "Was Erik's tirade earlier not ample enough, eh? Must Erik truly reiterate his anger for you? There is no help for you to offer."

"That's not true," she insisted, her voice trembling. "You're not beyond help, Erik. You're not beyond saving."

He finally turned to face her, and the look in his eyes nearly broke her. They were filled with so much pain, so much sorrow, that it was almost unbearable to meet his gaze.

"Erik has languished in this state for what feels like an eternity. How could he ask you to understand? To comprehend. You are too sweet, Hanna. Too gentle to even attempt to fathom the depths of his ruin," he said, his voice hoarse. "It is the only fate Erik has earned. The only solace he deserves."

Hanna shook her head, tears blurring her vision. "No. No, that's not true. You deserve more than this. You deserve to be happy, to be cared for."

"Care?" Erik spat the word as if it were poison. "What have I to do with care? Rejection, loathing and dread have been my only companions. How could Erik! Ha! How could he ever deem himself worthy of so pure a thing?"

"Because you're human," Hanna said softly. "And everyone deserves affection, Erik."

He looked at her, his expression torn between anger and a desperate longing that he couldn't seem to reconcile. "You're a fool, Hanna," he whispered, his voice trembling. "Daft. A great booby sent to torment poor Erik."

"Maybe I am," she admitted, stepping closer to him. Repeating her words over and over again, so Erik would understand her sentiment. "But I'd rather be a fool than give up on you."

Erik stared at her, his eyes filled with a mixture of fear and longing. He looked as if he wanted to say something, as if he were on the verge of some great revelation, but the words wouldn't come. Instead, he just sat there, silent and shaking, as if the weight of everything he was feeling was too much to bear.

Hanna couldn't stand it any longer. She reached out, placing her hand gently on his arm, offering him the only comfort she knew how to give.

"Please," she whispered, her voice thick with emotion. "Let me help you."

Erik closed his eyes, his body trembling under her touch. With a sudden, jerky movement, he pulled away, his expression closing off, his walls slamming back into place.

"I can't," he said, his voice cold and distant. "I can't let you do this."

"Erik—"

"Leave," he interrupted, his voice harsh and commanding.

She trembled from head to toe by his outburst. Hanna took a deep breath, her heart pounding in her chest. "I can't leave you like this. I won't," she replied softly. "Because I care about you, Erik."

He let out a shaky breath, his shoulders slumping as if the weight of her words was too much to bear. "You should not persuade yourself into thinking you do," he said, his voice filled with a sorrow that cut her to the core. "Erik is unworthy of this."

"That's not for you to decide," Hanna said, her voice gentle but firm. "I'm here because I want to be, because I see something in you that's worth saving."

Erik shook his head, his hands clenching into fists on the piano keys. "You're mistaken," he whispered, his voice filled with a deep, aching despair. "You do not see as Erik truly is. But do not be distressed. Erik is to blame. He led you to feel this way through his own cunning. He is fully aware of his wrongdoing."

"Maybe," Hanna admitted, taking a step closer to him. "Maybe you are right. But maybe you're awfully wrong, Erik. I'm willing to take that chance. I'm willing to believe in you, even if you can't believe in yourself."

He didn't respond, didn't move, and for a moment, Hanna feared that she had pushed him too far. But then, slowly, he turned to face her, his eyes filled with a mixture of fear, sorrow, and something else—something she couldn't quite name.

"You're a fool, Hanna," he repeated his earlier laments. "A fool indeed. To care for someone like Erik."

"But I'd rather be a fool who cares than someone who walks away," she said for what felt like the millionth time.

Erik stared at her, his expression torn between anger and a desperate longing that he couldn't seem to reconcile. "You will cry out in horror," he whispered, his voice thick with emotion. "For you cannot yet imagine the terror that awaits you. The terrors that have come by Erik's own hands. Your very soul will quake with fear. You don't believe me, eh? But you will flee! Run like a little rat!"

"No, I won't," Hanna said. "I have seen enough to know there is more to you. Call me foolish all you want. Yes, maybe it is naive, but i won't turn my back on you."

For a second she thought she had overstepped. That she pushed her luck too much and he would drive her out, shouting if not even dragging. But then he looked at her, his eyes searching hers for something—some sign of doubt, some reason to believe that she wasn't being sincere. With a deep, shuddering breath, Erik seemed to collapse in on himself. The tension drained from his body, and he bowed his head, as if he no longer had the strength to hold it up.

"Erik is so utterly weary," he whispered, his voice filled with a profound weariness. "Far too weary to continue the fighting, of trying to hold on to something that he doesn't even know if he desires anymore."

Hanna's heart ached at his words, at the raw vulnerability in his voice. She moved closer, reaching out to gently touch his shoulder, offering him the comfort that she knew he so desperately needed.

"You don't have to fight anymore," she said softly. "I'm here, Erik. And I'm not going anywhere."

Erik didn't respond, didn't move, but she could feel the way his body trembled under her touch, the way he seemed to be holding himself together by sheer force of will. He was on the brink, teetering on the edge of something dark and destructive, and all she could do was be there, to catch him if he fell.

For a long time, they stayed like that, the silence between them filled with the unspoken emotions that neither of them knew how to express. Hanna didn't know what would happen next, didn't know if Erik would ever be able to let go of his pain, but she knew that she couldn't leave him, not now, not when he was so close to breaking.

Finally, after what felt like an eternity, Erik lifted his head, his eyes meeting hers. There was a raw, desperate plea in his gaze, a silent cry for help that tore at her heart.

"Stay," he whispered, his voice barely more than a breath. "Please… stay. Don't leave poor Erik to die by himself."

Hanna nodded, her own eyes filling with tears. "I will," she promised, her voice steady despite the emotions swirling inside her. "I'm not going anywhere, Erik. I will stay." But she knew he would need reassurance that indeed she would stay by his side. And she would tell him many times more. Even if it was draining her very being of the sheer strength it took to stay consistent.


When I kicked this story off, I had no idea it would involve this much Angst at one point. But I assure you, there will be fluff.