We arrive home Hanna drops me off. Hanna calls out " Hey i await the good news"

Ali Pov

I walk into my house and see Emily sleeping on the sofa probably waiting for me. I sit down next to her and wake her up with a kiss. She responds and we make out for about 5 minutes. Before We part and I look into her eyes and say we need to talk.

I know I lied to you, and I am sorry about that, but I've been dealing with this a lot longer than you've been back. Emily replies "Ali were supposed to be in this together. I just want to be there for you like you were for me. Why won't you let me?"

Most of my life I've had the wrong impression of love which was why when I caught feelings for you all those years ago. I got scared and confused. It wasn't like anything my mom or dad taught me love was supposed to be like. It was like I was watching myself

outside my own body whenever it was just us. I was always in control of most of my relationship, but never with you. I could never control my feeling for you for better or worse. I was never very good at showing love or even receiving it.

I learned with charlotte how to give love back, but i still wasn't any better at receiving it. Its not easy for me. To accept love Emily especially from you. With everyone else I've been getting better, but your love scares me. Especially my response to it.

When I was younger it was awful push and pull. But now I just want to pull you closer without needing to push you away. I do love you Emily, but I don't know how to accept love from you. But like i told you i wanna do this and I am trying my best here.

I was such evil, sociopathic bitch when I was younger. Jail tempered me for a while. After realizing that all I went through and put you guys through was all my fault. My actions, lies, and family. I got scared and shut off most of my personality, jumping head

firsts into trying to be a better person. I was running on autopilot for years. which then led to more weight gain. I got it under control while I was helping CeCe get better, but not completely. Then you guys finally came back to town and I felt safe and started acting a little

like my old self again. While still keeping my other side in check. Then Charlottle died. I even checked my self into Welby where I was shot full of all kinds of medications. Then A.D. appearing, the pregnancy, and the stress of the endgame exasperated

my weight gain. You were there for me Em through it all that why i kissed you. I did know why. It was out of love, friendship, gratitude, and not wanting to be alone. You were right I didn't want you to leave. That was wrong of me and I am so sorry. Emily started to cry and look away. I pulled her close and held her face firm. "Em looked at me" she took my hand and led me to

the couch I continued. When you told me to figure what I wanted and to not kiss you until I did. I took that to heart. I didn't want us to stay in this comfortable and codependent place. So it took me a while. Especially after seeing you with Paige and after our talk, but i got thier eventually. But I also got pissed at you for paige and at myself for not moving fast enough. And wanting to be with you so badly. I told you how i felt. Now were together and I love you Emily Fields and I am going to prove that to you everyday for the rest of our lives by doing my best to let you in and receive your love. just please be patient with me. Em laughed and held me close. I started telling her about my trip and how I met Hanna there and how I went

bitch crazy on a lot of doctors this trip and it felt amazing. But Emily I need to know if I start finding a balance between the old me and new me that you won't be triggered. You won't think that I'm slipping or regressing into my old self get sacred and

run from me. Because I think I can strike a good balance without suppressing parts of who I am anymore. I want this, us and I need your support. Emily kissed me and said of course Ali I'll always be here for you.

Emily POv

(Explanation 5x05)

Ali were nothing like I pictured in my head, not when we tried this after you came back from the dead and we were too self-conscious and too aware of each other's past feelings. We just got you back. Neither of us were ready. It was all anticipation, adrenaline,

and a dream come true, but we couldn't even last week.

(7X10)

Then the baby when you kissed me, I knew it wasn't a good idea. I shouldn't have allowed it you weren't ready then. Then you finally confessed your feelings for me, and it was perfect. Ali were not fairy tail or the characters in a book were real people with

real problems. And we will get through this together and come out of this stronger I will support you in whatever you do