It's been so long since I've attempted writing any fan fiction. I don't know if anyone still reads these types of stories from the Twilight fandom but I had this idea nagging at me for a while after re-reading the books and some of my favorite stories. So here it is. Figured I'd post some of it, see if anyone else may enjoy it. Go easy on me! It's truly been a while since I've honestly written at all.
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Nervousness was an understatement. Who wouldn't be when meeting your vampire boyfriend's vampire family? Edward gave me my favorite lopsided grin and assured me all would be well, that everyone would like me.
They all did, except one it seemed.
As soon as those eyes met with mine it was as if the world tilted on its axis, spun me around a few times then grounded me to him. Forever. It was a longing, a wonder that I couldn't even begin to comprehend in the moment. I watched as those beautiful but different than the others gold and burgundy eyes held so much torment that melted away in an instant into such a warmth that even I could feel the heat. It was like the sunshine right after a summer storm. He was by far the most beautiful being I had ever laid eyes on.
And as soon as it had happened those eyes went back to hold such an anguish I flinched, the storm was back. I wanted to reach out and comfort, to help in some way. The urge was so strong. Who dared to make him feel such torture?
Then he made what sounded like a growl and was gone. I immediately felt the emptiness from the pits of my soul. What did I do wrong? I wanted to take away the pain behind those haunted eyes and make everything better for him.
I wanted to make the sun stand still for him.
Chapter One
Fate was cruel and had many jokes in the over one hundred and fifty years I had been thrust into this life. This one seemed to take the cake and eat it too. Perched up high on a bookshelf out of view I couldn't help but follow her every move curiously and longingly. Every once in a while she'd take a break from joking around with Emmett and I'd get a small delicious treat of the deepest brown eyes I had ever seen would find my soulless ones. With a twitch of one side of my lips into a sly smirk I'd then be rewarded by that mouthwatering blush. I enjoyed a little too much basking in her genuine emotions, amazed just how deeply she felt especially for a human. Being able to feel what everyone else was feeling was a lot of the time a curse but soaking up hers almost warmed my granite like skin from the inside out.
Never in either my human or painful eternal life had I anticipated this nor did I want it. Not that I even deserved it.
When my brother came home stating he was in love with a human I held back my laughter. There was no way, it was just the simple fact that she smelled delectable and her blood sang to him. When he had explained what his family was she wasn't afraid, apparently she was good with all things odd. Our parents all but glowed with the fact that he had finally found someone. Days later he brought her over to the house to meet everyone. I had stood behind the closest friend I had ever had, Alice, though she was vibrating with excitement I could feel there was something she was hiding from us all.
"You're meeting her too," she had stated earlier firmly hinting that it wasn't up for discussion.
My ruby red eyes rolled before glaring down at the tiny pixie. "You don't want me scarin' the little snack now do ya'?" I slid a random t shirt over my head, already planning on heading out for the evening. Everyone else could fawn over Edwards new pet.
Amber eyes glared right back at me with tiny little hands on her hips. "Nope. It's important that you meet Bella," she sighed. "I've seen it and I know you do it anyway," she grinned as she disappeared for a moment, returning to my room with a small box to shove in my hands.
Inspecting the box I grimaced. Contacts. Everyone else only drank animal blood making their eyes a constant amber hue while I liked variety. The delicious screams of a beautiful female after I had taken her every which way to Sunday I could was something I thrived off of and was not going to give up anytime soon. I relished in the torment. Carlisle always chalked it up as a 'slip' while Edward thought I was just disgusting and weak. Rosalie and Emmett never cared too much as long as I was careful not to draw attention to the family. And Alice never judged. She knew my silent torment. As it were, my control over my thirst was probably the best of them all aside from Carlisle. I had, after all, been around for a long time in this eternal hell.
Alice's tiny hand rested on mine with a small smile. "So you don't scare her," she explained before she all but danced away.
While I waited my turn to introduce myself to the human I blinked furiously. My venomous eyes were already disintegrating the contacts. I only wore them occasionally when I had to keep up appearances. They didn't make my eyes match all of the others, still able to spot flecks of burgundy behind the faux gold, but it wasn't as if humans ever looked me in the eyes. It was survival instinct - they knew I was more than dangerous. I just wanted to get this over with. Then it happened as soon as Alice flitted to my side with a knowing smile threatening to tug at her lips. Innocent doe eyes locked into my soulless ones and it was as if steel cables suddenly grappled my cold dead heart and shackled itself to her permanently. The burn in my throat was barely there even though I could feel everyone else's scorching thirst crash into me. It was almost a comforting burn. I had wondered where that delicious, mouth watering scent came from. My senses were blessed with it, wildflowers below the sun right after a heavy summer rain. Home, I realized. A bit of a human memory tugged in my brain and I was brought back to 1854 as a child, playing with his sister outside in the field in the rain. Time almost stood still as the universe decided that she was mine and I was hers.
I didn't deserve a mate. I was the dark night haunted by endless screams and torture, she was the day with constant sunshine and laughter. I was death while she was life. I would ruin her and she would ruin me.
Isabella Swan was my mate and I didn't want her. My inner monster didn't like this conclusion, it wanted to take the now blushing girl and run. I fought back the crushing need to give into my instincts, chest rumbling and a low growl emerging.
Edward hissed, no doubt seeing everything first hand in my mind. Normally I was a pro at keeping him out, not that he hardly went there anymore claiming it was too disturbing and repulsive. His arm went protectively around her waist, pulling her closer to him. I could taste the fury, resentment and jealousy rolling off of him.
Keep her. And keep her the fuck away from me. My eyes suddenly snapped to his, already feeling the loss that rich warmth and home her eyes had briefly given me. The monster within was filled with rage as I rejected the notion that this human girl could be anything more than desert, rattling inside deep within, threatening to emerge as another growl ripped from my chest. As fast as I could I raced out the back door disappearing into the forest, ears picking up on the apology for my behavior and explanation that I'm just the newest to the clan.
Alice had come to find me hours later in the middle of a clearing I had made by destroying all the trees around, allowing the monster to get some of its rage out. It didn't help. Trunks, limbs and broken boulders all around while I sat in the middle staring off into nothing. She sat silently beside me. "You knew," I hissed accusingly.
She hung her head, knowing better than to look at me in the moment. "You can't fight it, Jas," she tried to soothe. "I've known for a while. It's why I've tried to convince Edward not to get too close but he wouldn't listen nor believe when I showed him." I could all but hear her eyes roll.
"Well he can fuckin' have her," I spat venomesly as I stood in one fluid movement to my feet. "She's never gonna care for me like that. She's just a human." My voice almost trembled, my southern drawl more pronounced than usual as it usually were whenever I was worked up.
"You deserve to be happy and you could be if you just let it." She huffed as her tiny hands smoothed down her dress. "I've seen it, she's good for you….she saves you."
I laughed humorously. Me? Happy? Saved? That would never be. "Alice, I love ya', but she's just gonna' end up bein' afraid of me just like any other," I started. "Even you at times, I can feel the fear. I know you don't mean to, it's my appearance and you know what I'm capable of." I flashed a wicked smile her way as the last of the contacts dissolved to showcase hungry dark red eyes, watching her slightly flinch, just to prove a point. "It's fine, I've accepted my fate in this life."
Death. Destruction. Blood. War. Despair. That was my fate. I could only be content with the lot that I was given.
She stood with her lips pursed, whipping on her heel to turn away. "You can fight it but it'll just destroy both of you," she whispered back to me before leaving me alone once again, my perfect hearing picking up on a "You're going to warm up to her anyways, no point in fighting it," grumbling as she had disappeared.
As soon as she was gone I went on a long hunt for a chocolate eyed blushing brunette for dinner. Her name was Laura and her screams sated me and my inner monster just as much as the warm liquid pouring into my mouth with each pull from her pulse.
And so I kept tight lipped as Edward continued his little relationship with Bella. Anyone could see, hell I could see it even without my empathetic specialty, that it was merely an obsession with her blood. Bella did smell absolutely delicious but it only constituted a dull ache deep in my throat. The need for that amazing scent of hers wasn't thirst. When I mused with Alice as to why once and she just smirked at me giving me a raise of her eyebrow. Apparently it had to do with the whole mate thing that I vehemently suppressed.
I continued my quiet and still observing from above wanting to roll my eyes as Alice and Edward attempted to talk her into going to watch us play baseball soon. She had fought, not wanting to get in the way of our fun she had stated, but they insisted she would be more than welcome. She chewed on her bottom lip as she slowly caved, a shy glance up at me before her gaze went back towards the duo with a blush. "Is Jasper coming too?" She whispered.
Alice practically beamed at the slight interest in me while Edwards lips pursed as his hands clenched. Alice placed a hand on her shoulder with a wide grin. "Absolutely!" she said cheerfully. "He's quite amazing to watch," I could see her wink at the girl while I rolled my eyes. Didn't little Bella know that I could hear them? "Baseball is one of the few things we indulge in but can only play during a storm, you'll see why later. I see in a few days it'll be the perfect weather for it."
My head cocked slightly to the side as I studied how the color in her pale cheeks got even darker. How could one girl get embarrassed as much as this one? My eyes flicked to Edward who was now glaring at me with all intensity while his arm wrapped around Bella in a possessive manner. Maybe he should stay out of my damn head if he didn't want to get upset. I tested his emotions, he was never one to push me too far as he knew enough about me to be afraid to, but the anger and resentment and jealousy was all but dumped over me like a cold glass of water. The monster was all but licking its lips at the challenge as I fought back instinct to drop down and twist his stupid head off while his arm tightened more around my mate. Instead I gave a slow, wide dangerous smile showing off all of my razor sharp teeth. The venom was all but pooling in my mouth. It had been too long since I had the thrill of the hunt to sate me or a fight to let the monster out to play for once. I sent Edward a small dose of terror, pleased as fuck once his eyes widened in reaction. I loved fucking with him so much.
I told you to keep her the fuck away from me. Though Edward really did try to keep her away from me, I'd give it to the little shit. It was like a magnet pulling me to her slowly. I simply could not stay away. Even at night while she was sleeping and Edward watching like a stalker I would be upwind in the forest trees behind her house. I told myself it was just curiosity but deep down knew it was more than that.
Suddenly I dropped from my bookshelf, landing silently behind the couch Bella and Edward were sitting on. I needed to get out of here and I could feel the last of the contacts disappear over my eyes anyway. If she were to look she would surely see the deep crimson. But I just had to fuck with her boyfriend one last time. I leaned over with my hands folded neatly behind my back and pressed my lips right next to Bella's right ear. Oh, so mouthwatering, indeed. "I'll be seein' you, mi pequeña querida," I breathed into her ear, completely and utterly satisfied by the lust I was instantly rewarded with.
Before Bella could turn and see me I was gone out the door. I could hear Alice's delightful laughter and Edwards growls as I made it to the tree line.
I told myself I was just amusing myself. The monster knew that was a lie.
I didn't have to worry about going to hell, I was already there. Fates a cruel bitch.
