Hi guys! I am so sorry for not updating! I have sadly been in and out of the hospital because I've been very ill and it makes it hard to write. But I've now written TONS of chapters of this story, I just need to organize and post them! I really do love cappie and casey and this story and have a lot of great things planned with the storyline. Thank you for bearing with me!

This chapter is a little shorter than usual, but the next part is coming soon!


"What time is it Cap?", I look over to him, tapping my foot anxiously. I hadn't stopped since we'd gotten here 30 minutes ago.

"Almost 3:30", Cappie checks his watch and I nod up and down trying to assess just how long I'd been bleeding.

"I'm gonna go check things again in the washroom…If they call my name make sure-", I get up, looking seriously at Cappie.

"Don't worry, I'll make sure to listen Case", He cuts me off, nodding up and down. I give him a nervous smile and then turn to go down the hall from the waiting room to the bathroom, a place I'd already been 3 times since I got here. I was pretty obsessive about it, about making sure I hadn't bled more. "Wait Casey!"

I turn on my heel and see him sit up straight in his chair as I look to him confusedly.

"I know how scared you are but… I don't think it'll be any different then 10 minutes ago", Cappie offers. "Which is good news right? Since last time you went, and the time before, you hadn't bled anymore".

"Yeah but…", I shake my head in frustration. "I did a bit on the way here in the car and… and it's not normal Cappie! It's not normal to be pregnant and to be bleeding like this!"

I throw my hands up, stressed out as ever and realizing that other people in the waiting room here can probably hear me.

"I know that, I'm sorry, I was just trying to tell you that it's probably a good sign Case, that maybe things will be okay", Cappie's eyes turn soft, giving me an empathetic look.

Before I can reply I hear my name.

"Casey Cartwright?"

"That's me!", I look around for the owner of the voice calling me, extremely anxious to get this going and find out if the baby was okay.

Cappie stands up quickly, grabbing my purse off my chair with him.

I can't lie, even though I'd just had a bit of a freak out at him he had been really sweet tonight. Had helped me into his car even though I didn't really need help because I wasn't in a lot of pain or anything. Then he'd pulled up to the front of the hospital drop off area, got me a wheelchair and opened the door for me. I'd protested the wheelchair, rolling my eyes at him, but I was happy he'd dropped me off at the front nonetheless, so I could get a head start on the wait time in the ER. Then he went to park his car and came back in to find me anxiously waiting, staring at the wall in front of me as I tapped my foot and played with the drawstrings on my hoodie.

Me and Cappie lock eyes now as we're both standing up, looking to the nurse that had just called my name.

"You two can wait in room 33", She tells me.

"Okay", I nod and grab onto Cappie's hand beside me for whatever reason, liking the way it feels to do so. "Thanks".

I can feel the way my words come out of my mouth shakily, my heart pounding a little bit.

"Here, looks like it's over here Case", Cappie pulls my hand, taking me with him and I'm grateful for that because I'm too stressed to even find out where I'm supposed to go in the hustle and bustle of this place. Even if it was 3:30 in the morning, it was fairly packed here.

"Okay", I let out meekly as Cappie pulls me down the hall and into a room, room 33.

There's a bed with a neatly folded hospital gown sitting on it, and then a chair beside it.

Before I can think about whether or not to change out of my clothes and into the gown, I hear a voice behind us.

"Clothes off except for undergarments", the same nurse that had told me the room number tells us. She looks bored, or tired maybe, speaking in a very monotone voice. Like she'd rather be anywhere but here. I get it, I don't want to be here either.

"Okay", I nod.

"The doctor will be in soon, it's our OB on staff, he's busy with another patient right now but he'll come to check you out soon", She explains, sighs dramatically, and then closes the curtain to give us our privacy.

"Well… looks like someone missed the bedside manor training seminar", Cappie jokes, being his usual self. I can't help but scoff, beginning to take off my clothes.

I don't even think about it, the fact that I'm undressing in front of him. I was pretty used to it at this point, not to mention I didn't really care about what we were right now, I think it was sort of the last thing on either of our minds.

Once I've got the gown on I lay down on the bed. I'm just wearing my socks, bralette and underwear and the gown overtop, shivering a little out of being cold but also just shaky from anxiety.

"Here it's kinda cold in here, I'll go get you a blanket Casey", Cappie offers, giving me a smile.

"Thanks Cap", I can't help but feel my stomach flip flop, giving him a shy smile as he opens the curtain to go out into the hallway.

Now left alone in here I realize how depressing and dark it is in here. All I can hear is a steady beeping noise, someone coughing loudly in the distance, and a baby crying.

I can't help but feel like I've been punched in the gut, like there's a ache right in my heart, all from just hearing that baby cry. The only other time I felt like this was when me and Cappie broke up on spring break. It felt like my heart was literally breaking. I remember thinking that the word heartbreak was actually real, because it physically felt like my heart was breaking in two. That's what it felt like to hear this baby cry and wonder it I would ever meet ours.

I can't help the few tears that come down my face as I sniffle a bit, trying to wipe them away and pull myself together before Cappie comes back.

But that obviously proves to be useless because the curtain pulls open in front of me, startling me a bit as I'm lost in thought and a bit jumpy right now. And then he's standing in front of me, giving me a sad look.

"Casey…", He frowns, speaking softly as he comes over to me. Obviously he can tell I'm crying.

"I know, I know", I sniffle and shake my head. "I'm trying not to freak out… it's just hard. And I- I didn't even want this baby, neither one of us wanted this baby. But now…"

I sigh and look down for a moment, unable to really find the words.

Cappie sits down in the chair beside the hospital bed I was on.

"I know, I feel the same way", He nods, speaking softly, much differently than this usual voice. He takes one of my hands out of my lap and brings it over to him to hold.

"And um… if there's no baby anymore then… then you and me…", I let out a quiet sob then, but I know he can tell.

"Don't even think about that right now Case. I'm always going to be in your life no matter what, that's not going to change", He assures me as he squeezes my hand.

I look over to him, meeting his eyes to really hold eye contact with him for the first time since we've been here.

"Okay", I nod up and down, my voice sounding like a little kid to me right now. I hated sounding weak, being this emotional. But for some reason I was, for some reason I knew that if I lost this baby tonight that I would be utterly devastated. Because as much as I treated this pregnancy as sort of an inconvenience and something that I wasn't ready for, I'd gotten so used to the idea of me and Cappie actually having this baby that I never thought that I'd now have to get used to the idea of not having it.

"It's just… I think that you and me could've been really happy…", I say, my voice strained. "And I know this is probably delusional but I think we could've been really good for a baby… Maybe not at first because everyone struggles but… I just… I was really able to picture us as a family Cap".

"I did too, you have no idea how much I've thought about it", Cappie says right away, scooting his chair even closer to the bed, my shaky hand still in his own. "And I promise we can still be one".

I give him a quizzical look then.

"What do you mean?", I let out. "You can't promise that Cap, we don't even kno-"

"Exactly. We don't even know if it's gone yet Case", He cuts me off, stroking his thumb along my hand as he holds it. "Seriously, we may be freaking out for nothing".

"Yeah but you can't promise something like that", I shake my head as he then stares down at my hand before speaking again. "You can't promise that it'll all be okay".

"I know, I just meant that… we can always... try again", He sort of shrugs, looking up at me now trepidatiously.

"Wait, you mean….?", I look at him in surprise, my eyebrow raised as I trail off, the meaning of his words sinking in.

It's something I never thought I'd hear come out of his mouth, something I would never in a million years think he'd suggest.

"Yeah, I mean it was super easy for you to get pregnant, we just had unprotected sex one time and it happened… so obviously it can happen for us Case. And I know we'd probably have to wait a little bit for you to recover if this is real and you are losing the baby… but then we could try again. And we could still move in together and-", He explains to me, speaking fast.

"What?", I shake my head, utterly confused at what he's saying, that he of all people would actually want this by choice. "Cappie… we're 22 and 23, we're not married or even… even fully together! And neither one of us wanted this. We were just making the best of the situation because it just happened and I couldn't imagine not keeping it".

I throw my hands up as I speak.

"I know but… I don't want this to be it Case", He sighs. "I don't want this to be over. I… I didn't think I'd want this but I do. Last night after you fell asleep… I just put my hand on your belly and I couldn't help but just… smile, knowing it's in there, this… person that's part me and part you. Part the person I love more than anything and part me. It's just the coolest thing".

"I know. And... I know about last night", I say immediately which earns me a look of confusion across his face so I feel the need to explain. "I know Cappie. I- I felt you touch me there as I went to sleep… It felt… right and good, really good".

I sigh then, shaking my head as I look down, a few more tears coming down my face.

"Hey, hey", His voice is soft as he guides my face up by my chin to meet his. "Here, don't cry".

He wipes the tears off my cheeks carefully with the sleeve of his sweater.

"I can't help it", I croak out as my voice cracks. "I don't want to… not be pregnant anymore. Which is absolutely crazy since… a few weeks ago I couldn't imagine anything worse than my current situation of getting pregnant unexpectedly like I did but…."

"I know", Cappie speaks softly and nods. "I know".

He rubs up and down my leg comfortingly over the hospital blanket I had overtop me.

"I… I couldn't imagine anything much worse either but then… seeing the girl of my dreams being pregnant with my baby, this baby that I can watch grow in you day by day", He smiles at me then, forcing me to give him a small smile too. "It's been indescribable Case… it's been amazing to experience with you".

"I feel the same way Cap", I nod up and down, looking over his face with my eyes wide, my eyes that are still wet with tears pooling in them. "Or felt I guess I should say, if it's already gone".

"Try not to worry, maybe… maybe we'll be breathing a sigh of relief soon when we see it on the ultrasound screen, totally fine, just relaxing in here, thinking we're total idiots for even entertaining the thought that it's gone", Cappie let's out a small laugh as he pokes my still pretty flat belly over the fabric of my hospital gown.

"Okay Cap", I can't help but smile sheepishly, nodding up and down as I take in a deep breath. "I'll try not to worry until we know for sure".

"Good", Cappie nods, giving me a smile and then returning to the chair beside my bed, bringing it as close as possible to sit right next to me.

We sit in silence for a little while, I think the two of us both lost in thought.

"Hey Cap?", I say hesitantly, my voice cutting through the dull noise of the hospital beeping and bustle of a few nurses talking outside the room where they'd put me.

"Yeah?", He nods.

"Did you really mean that? About getting pregnant again… like on purpose?", I give him a look, still unsure whether he was serious or was just saying that as a reaction of our high emotions tonight… or if he was saying it because he thought it would make me feel better.

"Yeah I meant it", He doesn't skip a beat, looking at me seriously as he nods. "I know we're not technically together, and we're really young and you're still in law school bu-"

"Maybe in 3 years Cap", I cut him off, speaking strongly as I look at him seriously. "So I can finish law school… and then we can try for one".

I explain to him as I feel myself get nervous, I'm not exactly sure why since it was just him, the person I felt most comfortable with. But somehow it felt weird to talk about this now, to actually acknowledge that the two of us had come to like the idea of having a baby together. Which was strange because the day that I found out I was completely beside myself with worry, because I'd sat on a park bench before I even knew for sure and seriously debated having an abortion. However I only entertained that thought for a minute before I absolutely knew there was no way I could think about the start of a baby that was mine and his and abort it.

I look over him after I've said this, after I've put myself out there like this.

His face lights up then in shock, blue eyes going wide for a moment before he just nods up and down.

"Okay, 3 years. You got it", He says and grins a little, I can tell trying to hide it from me as he bites his lip to try and keep it in. "Maybe… maybe we'd even be hitched by then who knows?"

I just scoff at him, shaking my head as both of us laugh slightly. I can't help but feel a little giddy at this, even in this stressful situation.

When we stop laughing I let myself smile at him shyly, nodding at him and then looking down to my lap as I play with my bracelet on my wrist awkwardly. Even after knowing each other for so long, even after going through so much together, the two of us still got sort of nervous around each other like this sometimes, sort of got smitten with each other all over again.

"But… ", I start. "Maybe we won't need to… won't need to try for a baby I mean."

I sigh then, not knowing how to say what I want to say as he looks at me intently, letting me know he's listening.

"Maybe this baby is okay", I let out finally, running my fingers across my stomach. "Even though I know that in 3 years we'd be much more ready for it … this one happened now and I- I can't help but think that maybe it did for a reason".

"I think so too Case", Cappie nods, reaching out to rest his hand on my knee as we meet each other's gaze.

Suddenly the curtain opens quickly, startling us. I sit up quickly in the bed, feeling my heart start to pound in my chest.

"Hi there, I'm Dr. Parsons", The man explains. He's older, has grey hair and looks a bit tired. He appears to probably be in his 50s or even 60s.

"Hi", I croak out, me and Cappie completely ready to find out what was going on. "Casey Cartwright".

"Hi Casey, well it looks like you guys are having a bit of a scare tonight huh?", He looks down at his clipboard that had my chart on it. "Is this your first pregnancy?"

"Yes it is", I nod quickly.

"Well oftentimes during first pregnancies every single thing can scare new parents", he laughs slightly, good naturedly. "But I can assure you, a lot of the time everything is just fine. Babies like to scare their moms it seems".

"That's what I tried to tell her, I think there's still a good chance that this is normal. There wasn't that much blood", Cappie explains to him.

"Well that is definitely a good sign", He nods. "And you're the….?"

Dr. Parsons waits for one of us to answer, for one of us to say what Cappie is to me.

"I'm the father."

"He's my boyfriend."

Me and Cappie speak at the exact same time, us ending up talking over each other and then looking to each other, sharing a glance. I can see the way his eyes go wide, I think kind of surprised that I'd called him my boyfriend.

We snap out of this moment though, snap out of the way we're looking at each other, and both our gazes land on Dr. Parsons again. Me and Cappie's relationship, or lack thereof, would have to go to the wayside for now since this was way more important.

"Yeah, I'm Cappie", Cappie smiles and reaches his hand out. They shake hands and then Dr. Parsons looks back to me.

"Nice", Dr. Parsons nods, looking a little amused by us for just a second, his face turning into what's sort of a grin. I think he can tell within the first 30 seconds of meeting us that we're not exactly the most normal couple having a baby. "Well I'm looking at your chart here Casey and it says that you woke up just before 3am bleeding. Now, are you still bleeding?"

"No, I uh… I wore a panty liner here and bled a tiny bit more on the way here in the car but I've been here about 4 hours now and there's been no more blood", I tell him.

"Well that is definitely good to hear. If you were miscarrying it would likely be nonstop bleeding", He tells me, giving me a slight smile as he watches my hopeful reaction. "And if you were having a heavy flow like you would with a regular menstrual period then that would definitely be more worrysome".

"No it wasn't like a having a period... it was more like the last few days of your period, where you just bleed a little bit and don't even have to use a tampon", I explain, feeling a tad awkward about doing so. I liked my regular doctor because it was a little easier to talk to a woman. But I could tell Dr. Parsons wasn't a bad man, I could tell he cared.

"Well Casey I can tell you that is a very good sign. Miscarrying is often accompanied with very heavy bleeding and severe cramping... and you seem to be not having that, correct?", He confirms with me.

"No", I shake my head. "No pain or cramping".

"That is a very good sign", He nods, looking to me and then to Cappie as he smiles. Then he looks down at his clipboard, writing something.

I immediately turn to Cappie to meet his eyes, smiling a bit as Cappie returns my expression, reaching out to touch my hand. I think we were both feeling more hopeful now.

"Of course it's still good you came here so we can check for sure, but bleeding can certainly be normal in the first trimester. You're just shy of 9 weeks so it's not uncommon", He explains. "Especially after sex. I know it can be awkward to talk about but… did you have intercourse directly before you started bleeding? Because that would explain light bleeding during pregnancy".

"No I didn't", I shake my head. "I… I did last night though, but that was well over 24 hours ago so… we were mostly worried because our friend accidentally elbowed me in the stomach earlier tonight at… probably like 11:30. It was more up here though, not so much near my lower belly where the baby would be".

I explain as I gesture to my upper stomach.

"Alright, well that probably would be rare to cause bleeding but it's definitely something to note since the bleeding started soon after", He nods. "Basically the only way we'll know the status of the pregnancy for sure is to do an ultrasound. But I am happy to let you know that on your blood test results here it's still showing that you're around 9 weeks pregnant, according to the levels of the HCG hormone in your blood. But that isn't a for sure marker, since even if you are miscarrying it'll often not change the hormone levels for a few days. So I'm just going to get the ultrasound machine so we can take a look and see what's going on, hopefully give you two some peace of mind. You two hang tight".

Dr. Parsons gives me a nod and a slight smile and then closes the curtain as he leaves.

"See Case, I to-", Cappie starts but I cut him off by leaning forward to hug him the best I can with me in sitting up in this bed and him sitting next to it.

I hold onto him as I cry onto his shoulder. I can tell he wasn't expecting me to practically lunge onto him like this but I was so relieved, not to mention emotional, right now.

"Here, here, it's okay", Cappie cooes to me, running his hand down the back of my head through my hair.

"I know, I'm just relieved Cap", I croak out, letting one last sob out before I sniffle and then move back from him so we can be face to face. "I just… the blood test is a good sign and I think the doctor thinks that I'm not having a miscarriage so… We won't know for sure until they check but I think this is good news".

I speak quickly, sort of frantically, using my hands.

"I think so too. See, I told everything would be okay Miss Worrywort", He grins at me as I give him a playful roll of my eyes.

I touch across my lower belly again which felt kind of stupid since there really wasn't even a bump there to touch. But I knew it was there, everytime I touched there, everytime I spoke to it and imagined it in there, looking like it did on the ultrasounds I'd had so far.

I just wanted it to still be here. I wanted to keep talking to it, I wanted my stomach to grow with it, I wanted me and Cappie to share this experience together. I wanted to see his traits in our baby, wanted to be able to hold him or her, wanted to see Cappie holding him or her.

I just didn't want this to be over just yet. Not when I felt like it had barely started. Not when me and Cappie had finally connected again intimately.

I wanted him, I wanted this. Maybe I would never admit it… but I did, so badly.