CHAPTER TWELVE: CONFESSIONS

I sat on the far-right side of the purple couch, my eyes looking down at the floor feeling very upset and defeated. Roxanne Wolf was sitting on the far left side of the purple couch with her eyes looking down at the floor, her right hand clutching her left arm. The wolf mascot had a heartbroken expression on her face, obviously upset over what just happened.

I mentally sighed in defeat and looked back down at the floor again. 'I wish the night wouldn't have gone like this, Roxanne.'

Unfortunately, my attempt to resume game night and have the night end on a good note failed. Because of what happened and how long I was out after that, Freddy, Chica, and Montgomery thought it would be best for me and Roxanne to take it easy, saying that we could try game night at another time. I was very disappointed when they said that, but me and Roxanne both reluctantly agreed. They left the green room, leaving me and Roxanne alone with each other.

For the last 20 minutes after her friends left us alone, neither of us said anything. The utter silence was deafening and very unbearable. I was wishing that one of us would break, but what was even there to say? I really wanted to say something, anything that would change the mood of the room, but I couldn't think of anything to say to her. That really didn't make things any better whatsoever.

I looked away from the floor, not wanting to look at it any longer. I looked to Roxanne to see she still had that heartbroken expression on her face. The wolf wasn't clutching her left arm with her right hand. Instead, it was resting on top of her other hand. Her head was turned slightly to the right as if she wanted to avert her eyes from something else on the floor. She was probably trying her best to keep herself from looking at me.

Seeing the heartbroken expression on her face, something told me that she was beating herself up for what had happened to me 7 hours prior. While she said that she was happy that I both forgave and refused to hate her for what happened, Roxanne clearly was holding herself solely responsible. The wolf was also putting all of the blame for game night ending early, along with me being hurt.

Seeing that made me angry. I wanted to get it through her thick skull that what happened wasn't her fault. She didn't do what she did out of her own free will. Someone or something took hold of her, forcing her to try taking my life. Knowing that simple fact only fueled my anger, though I didn't show it. If it was a person or something else entirely at all, how much of a disgusting, blackhearted, and evil piece of shit do you have to be to rob an innocent robot of their own free will and force them to commit atrocious acts they would never do?!

I looked away, propping my right elbow on the arm of the couch, and rested my head on the palm of my hand. I tried to think of something I could do to cheer her up. I didn't want to see the poor wolf like that anymore. If anything at all, I didn't want her to beat herself up and take all of the blame for it. That kind of crap had to be stopped, and be stopped right now.

I looked back to Roxanne again. This time, I saw something that made my eyes widen slightly. Though I only saw it for like a split second, it was enough time for me to see what she was doing regardless.

Roxanne was reaching out for my hand with her right hand, her right arm outstretched slightly and leaning slightly. Her hand immediately retreated and she straightened her posture back to how she looked just a moment ago. Her head was fully turned to the right, this time making sure that I couldn't even see the expression on her face.

At first, I didn't understand why the wolf mascot was reaching for my hand like that until I thought about what Kyle said earlier. About me giving her a chance, how she liked me, how she has been both talking and thinking about me, and how she's been happier ever since. It all clicked for me.

I couldn't deny the truth anymore; Roxanne Wolf had a crush on me. It all made sense to me now. Her inviting me to her green room for a solo performance, how happy she got when she saw me, her asking if I wanted to see her raceway, her asking me if she could join me on my rounds earlier this morning, her kissing me on the left cheek, and now her reaching out for my hand to hold it in hers when I wasn't looking. All of it.

That was when I realized something else. Why didn't I see it before? Roxanne Wolf wasn't beating herself up just solely for what happened and taking all of the blame for it; Roxanne was also beating herself up for it because she believed that I no longer wanted anything to do with her for ruining game night.

That realization fully strengthened my resolve to do something. I had enough of her doing this to herself. If my affection was what Roxanne wanted, it was my affection she was going to get!

Determined, I scooted over to her to the point where our bodies were nearly touching each other. I took her left hand in my right hand, my fingers interlocking her hand gently with mine. Roxanne Wolf flinched slightly and looked down at our hands. She proceeded to stare at them for a moment, taken aback by this sudden contact. Roxanne took her eyes away from our hands and locked them onto me.

"Mihael, what are you doing?" she asked, her face confused.

I smiled. "Holding your hand. Isn't that what you wanted since you tried reaching for my hand earlier?"

Her eyes widened at the reply. She must've thought I didn't see what she was trying to do, thinking that she acted quick enough for it not to be noticeable. Looks like she was proven wrong.

Her expression turned sad. I didn't like that one bit.

"I don't know why you're even bothering to do this," she whispered. "I tried to kill you and I ruined game night because of it. It is all my fault."

My smile on my face weakened, a frown taking its place. I was right; she was holding herself responsible for what happened. Though I didn't show it, I was getting annoyed, as well as angry at her doing this to herself.

"It's not all your fault, Roxanne," I said softly. That didn't seem to help one bit. It only made her more upset.

"Yes, it is, Mihael," she insisted, her tone sounding upset. "If I hadn't tried to kill you, none of this would've happened."

I became angry at that statement. I reached out for her face with my hand, resting my hand on her cheek. I forced her head to turn so that she was looking me in the eyes.

"Stop blaming yourself for what happened, Roxanne," I said sternly. "None of it was your fault. Whatever it was that took hold of you had forced you to try taking my life. I know you better, Roxanne. You are not capable of doing something like that out of your own free will. If there is anything that deserves to be blamed for what happened, it was whatever took control of you and made you do it."

"But-" was all Roxanne was able to say before I immediately clamped her mouth shut with my hand. Her eyes went wide at the action.

"I'm going to say this to you for the very last time; stop… blaming… yourself… for it," I growled angrily. "I'm getting sick and tired of seeing you keep doing this to yourself. You said it yourself earlier; you don't know what happened. If you did, you would've remembered all the details. Not only that, your eyes would've been yellow instead of purple if you really did try to kill me."

An expression of shock spread across her face. She tried to move her mouth, but couldn't as I was clamping it shut pretty well. All that came out were mumbles. She tried speaking again, but all that came out were mumbles. I suspected that she was going to blame herself again so I kept it shut. That way, I didn't have to hear it.

After trying for like the fifth time, she tapped at my hand with her right hand, gesturing to please let it go so that she could speak. I held it shut for a moment, debating whether I should or not. Maybe she won't try blaming herself again now that I said those things to her. Eventually, I let go of her mouth, resting my hand on my lap. I hoped that Roxanne wasn't going to blame herself again, even after saying all of that to her.

After a moment, she finally spoke. "Mihael, what do you mean that my eyes were purple when I attacked you?"

I didn't allow myself to sigh in relief when the wolf asked that particular question. While I was glad that she didn't blame herself, I still kept my guard up in case she did try that again. I hoped that I was at least getting somewhere with her.

"This is what I mean," I began. "When we went to see if you were okay after you screamed, we saw you on your knees clutching your head with your hands. I sensed that something was very wrong when I saw you like that. When you got back up on your feet and turned to me and your best friends, your eyes were purple instead of their normal color, meaning that whatever it was corrupted your system, changed your eye color, and forced you to try killing me. It was very terrifying, to say the very least."

Her shock changed into pure horror upon hearing that. She covered her mouth with her free hand, leaning away as she did that. Seeing this, I got the impression that was something her friends didn't reveal to her when she snapped out of her trance or while I was unconscious at the time. I didn't know why they didn't tell her any of that. Maybe it was because they thought she wouldn't believe them or maybe it was because they thought it might've made things worse. Either way, they should've told her.

She began shaking her head slowly in disbelief, obviously not wanting to believe what I said. Oil began building up in her eyes as the look on her face became broken.

"That… that can't be true," she whimpered, removing her hand away from her mouth as the oil now trailed down her face, which was still stained from the oily tears from before.

"It's true," I whispered softly. "I saw it with my own eyes, Roxanne. Freddy, Chica, and even Montgomery saw it. They were there when it all went down."

"But, if they were there, why didn't they tell me any of this?" she asked, the oily tears trailing down her face at a faster pace.

I sighed. "Maybe because they thought that you wouldn't believe them or that it might've made things worse. They must've seen that it was a very bad time to tell you."

"That doesn't make things any better," she slightly hissed. She then closed her eyes, her fingers now interlocking with my hand.

The wolf mascot seemed to enter into deep thought, probably thinking about something. I wish I knew what Roxanne was thinking, but at the same time, I was glad that I wasn't a mind-reader. If Roxanne wanted to tell me what she was thinking, she would tell me herself.

As I watched her, I noticed that the speed of the oily tears trailing down her face picked up greatly. Whatever it was that the wolf mascot was thinking, her thoughts weren't anything good. Worry washed over me upon seeing this. The urge to comfort the wolf overwhelmed my senses, and to be honest, I wanted to do just that.

I rested my free hand on her face. "Roxanne…"

Roxanne quickly swatted my hand away with her free hand, freeing her other hand from my grasp. This took me by surprise. Her body began shaking with emotion, which worried me a bit more.

"Roxanne…" I said again, worry now present in my tone. She opened her eyes and turned to me.

"Mihael… I think it would be best if you stayed as far away from me as possible," she said, her tone cracking at the sentence. I was taken aback by this.

"W-what?" I stuttered. "What did you say?"

"You heard me, Mihael," she said slightly glaring, her voice slightly hard. "I want you to stay away from me. I don't want you anywhere near me anymore."

A sickening feeling formed in the pit of my stomach, which had then turned ice cold. I leaned away slightly as my heart had begun beating rapidly in my chest. I felt my eyes water as what she said to me fully sunk in. I didn't want to believe that this was now happening. After all we've done, she wanted to do this. It couldn't be…

"But…" was all I could say.

She raised a hand, signaling me to not say anything. "I almost killed you, Mihael because someone or something had corrupted my system. You said it yourself. I can't risk you being near me if it happens again. I'm sorry, Mihael. We can't do anything with each other anymore. It's over."

I couldn't fight it, even if I tried with all my might. Tears trailed down my face as her words echoed in my head. My chest ached from the pain I was feeling in my chest. It was like someone had stabbed me in the heart and was now twisting it. I looked away from her, covering my eyes with my right hand. Weak sobs escaped me as I cried. I wished it was just a bad dream that I would wake up from, that it wasn't real, but I knew that wasn't the case. I was awake and it was all real.

"I'm really sorry, Mihael," I heard her whisper softly. "But this is for your own good and safety. It's better off this way…"

As I cried, a rush of anger flowed through me. I stopped crying as my breathing increased. No… I wasn't going to let it all end like this. Not after all that's happened between me and Roxanne. I refused to let whatever it was that corrupted her system ruin everything. I REFUSE!

I removed my hand from my eyes and turned to see her looking away. My hands balled into fists as the anger boiled in my veins.

"No," I growled angrily. Her ears twitched upon hearing my response. She slowly turned her head to look me in the eyes, confusion and pure disbelief on her face.

"No?" she repeated. "What do you mean 'no'?"

"No, as in that it won't end like this," I growled through my teeth. "I refuse to let what happened tonight throw everything away."

Understanding flashed in her eyes. An angry expression formed on her face as she placed her right hand's index finger on my chest. Oil had begun welling up in her eyes as the tears welled up in mine.

"This isn't negotiable, Mihael," she growled angrily. "I'm not going to let you get yourself hurt or killed because you want to be stubborn and be around me when my systems could get attacked again."

"And what? Leave you all alone and let you deal with loneliness again after dealing with it for years?" I argued. "Hate to break it to you, but I'm not going to let that happen. I refuse to let you deal with it again."

"This isn't about me, it's about you," she growled, baring her teeth at me. She was visibly getting angrier. "I almost killed you-"

"But I'm not dead," I pointed out. "I'm still breathing and my heart is still beating. That's what counts, right?"

Roxanne facepalmed as low growls escaped her. She was visibly trying to keep herself from lashing out at me, but that was the least of both my and her concerns right now. I was going to stand my ground, and she wasn't going to change that.

"Mihael, don't make this difficult," she growled through her teeth.

"I'm not the only one who's making this very difficult, Roxanne," I retorted as I got up from the couch and stood about a foot from her. "You want to throw everything away because of what happened. You think that by putting an end to us being around each other, it'll go away. News flash, it won't. It'll only make things worse and I'm not going to let that happen."

She grabbed both sides of her head with her hands as her head leaned back. Her body was quivering in anger as her tail thrashed behind her.

"Mihael… you… GrrrAHHH!"

In a fit of rage, Roxanne got up from the couch and lunged at me. She tackled and pinned me to the ground, both of her hands on my shoulders and her legs pressed against my own. I looked up, slightly stunned by the action. She was glaring down at me, the oily tears now trailing down her face.

"YOU JUST DON'T GET IT, DO YOU?!" the wolf shouted loudly and angrily in my face. "I'M ONLY DOING THIS TO KEEP YOU SAFE!"

"And you think that going through all of that pain would be worth it in the end?!" I shouted back.

"YES!" she replied, the tears now trailing down her face at a much faster pace. "I WOULD NEVER FORGIVE MYSELF IF MY SYSTEMS GOT CORRUPTED AND I SUCCESSFULLY KILLED YOU, THE GUARD WHO HAS SHOWN ME NOTHING BUT LOVE AND COMPASSION! I WILL DO ANYTHING TO KEEP YOU SAFE, EVEN IF IT MEANS I HAVE TO KEEP YOU AWAY FROM ME!"

"Why are you so persistent in wanting to do this?!" I demanded. "Why are you so willing to hurt yourself like that?!"

"BECAUSE I LIKE YOU!" she confessed. My eyes widened; time suddenly froze upon hearing those words.

"What?" I asked stupidly, my anger now gone. The anger faded from her face as she relaxed. She sighed and looked me in the eyes.

"That's why I'm doing this," Roxanne began. She took a deep breath. "It's because I like you, Mihael. I've felt this way for you for a while now."

It took a moment for it to fully sink in. It was one thing to realize that someone liked you, but for someone to actually say that to your face was something else entirely. To think that she was doing this all because she liked me was absurd.

"Roxanne…" was all I was able to say. She closed her eyes as the oily tears began to build up. I slowly reached for her face, but I stopped halfway. "It can't end like this."

A deafening silence filled the room. The oily tears began trailing down her face, low whimpers escaping her. I felt tears well up in my own eyes seeing her like this. My arm lowered back down.

"I'm sorry, but it has to," Roxanne whispered. "I told you this isn't negotiable. I can't risk a repeat of what happened. I'm so sorry, but this is for your own good."

Hearing her saying that it was for my own good made me angry. All of this wasn't for my own damn good. If anything at all, her wanting to go through with it was only going to make things worse. I had to fight back.

"No, Roxanne," I said defiantly. "I refuse to let you do this."

She sighed angrily. "Mihael, I said-"

"I don't care that you say it's not negotiable," I snapped. "We have done so much for us to throw it away. I won't let you do it, Roxanne. I refuse."

She began growling. "Mihael-"

"Don't 'Mihael' me," I snapped again. "If you think I'm going to cut ties with you, you're badly mistaken. I want to continue being around you."

She began shaking violently, angrily growling as she tried to keep herself from snapping at me. Her hands squeezed my shoulders tightly, but I ignored the pain that sparked.

"Roxanne-" was all I was able to say before the wolf mascot finally snapped.

"You're an idiot!" she snapped. "How can you be so willing to still be around me and want to do things with me even if the possibility of me being taken over again is so high?! Tell me, Mihael! Tell me!"

I frowned as I stared into her eyes as she began crying. Why was I willing to do this for her, despite the fact that I was putting myself in danger? I thought about how I couldn't say no to the wolf mascot out of fear of hurting her feelings, how I smiled upon seeing her, how I found her smiles to be cute, and the pain I felt when she said that we couldn't do things anymore.

Then, I remembered what Kyle said to me after my first night shift. Like a ton of bricks, it hit me. Everything made sense to me now.

I like her. Plain and simple. I held her in the same regard that she had for me.

I closed my eyes, letting out a low sigh. I opened my eyes and stared into her eyes again. Roxanne Wolf was waiting for me to say something, the wolf still crying. She didn't have to wait any longer for I had my answer.

I raised my right arm and reached for her cheek. Roxanne watched this happen with her eyes, but she didn't do or try anything to stop me. I placed my hand on her cheek, rubbing it softly with my thumb. She made eye contact with me.

"Because I feel the same for you, Roxanne Wolf," I confessed softly. She gasped loudly in response, her mouth gaping. She remained like that for a moment before she slightly recovered.

"You… you do?" she asked in disbelief. I nodded my head in response. "Mihael… I…"

Roxanne closed her eyes, her head lowering slightly. She seemed to go into deep thought. I wondered what the wolf could be thinking about. I was about to say something when something happened.

Without warning, Roxanne Wolf planted her purple lips onto mine. My eyes widened to the size of dinner plates at what the wolf was doing. A part of me was screaming at me to stop her, but I didn't want to. My eyes closed halfway as I allowed it to happen. Everything felt right to me, and I liked that feeling.

Roxanne suddenly removed her lips from mine, ending the kiss. We both stared into each others' eyes, a smile creeping up on our faces. While I was worried about what society would do or feel about me and Roxanne being a thing in the future, now, I didn't care. I was happy, and more importantly, so was she.

"Well, this is going pretty fast," she said, chuckling.

"It sure is," I agreed, chuckling too.

"What does this mean for the both of us?" she asked.

"Well," I began. "Like we both said and agreed, this is going pretty fast. I think the best thing to do is wait at least a few days to see how things turn out."

Roxanne Wolf went into deep thought again, clearly thinking over what I said. I waited patiently to hear what the wolf mascot thought about the whole thing. Honestly, it would be the smart thing to do; wait at least a few days to see how all of this would turn out. Plus, I really hoped that this would prevent her from going through with her original idea to put an end to us being around each other.

"You're right," she finally said. "While I do like you, I don't know if us being together is something that I truly want. This is just all so new to me.

"It's so new to me too," I admitted. That was the truth; I had never been in a relationship with anyone in my life before. However, I did know that feelings between two people must be true and genuine. While me and her did like each other, it was in the early stages so it would not be the best idea to jump into a relationship right away.

There was a moment of silence, the both of us just staring into each others' eyes with smiles on our faces. Then, I thought about what she wanted to do just a few moments prior. I frowned slightly, which caused her smile to weaken slightly.

"Mihael, what's wrong?" she asked.

"Can we still do things together, Roxanne?" I asked, that fear of no longer doing things together coming back.

She paused for a moment. "While I do want to keep you safe, I realize that even if I wanted to and tried, I won't have the strength to keep you away from me. I want to do things with you, Mihael." The smile had returned. "I guess we can give it another try."

I smiled, relieved that she was willing to give it another go. It was the best thing that could happen.

"So, what do people do when they like someone?" she asked innocently. My smile grew slightly.

"Well, have you ever heard of a date?" I replied. She shook her head. "A date is a social or romantic appointment between 2 people. I have never been on one myself, but my parents went out on dates sometimes."

"What did your parents do on these dates?" she asked.

"They mainly went out to dinner," I replied. "I think it's something we should try out ourselves. We can set up a time and date on where we can go to have our date. What do you think? Want to give it a try?"

She, once again, went into deep thought. I had no idea how many times she went into deep thought, but that was okay. It showed that she was putting a lot of consideration into something. It's always a good idea to give something a try for the first time. You might like it and want to try it again later.

Her smile grew. "Sure, I love to give it a try."
My smile grew in return. "Great. So, where do you want to go for the date?"

"I don't know," she replied. Then, her big smile turned into a smirk. "You're the one who came up with the idea. I think you should pick on where we should go."

"Touche," I said, smirking in return. "I will think about it and let you know by tomorrow."

"Sounds good," she said.

I was about to say something when I yawned loudly. A strong wave of drowsiness washed over me as I struggled to keep my eyes open. Despite the fact that I had been out for over 7 hours, I was somehow tired, as if I had stayed up all night. To be quite fair, I didn't know what the time was, but for some reason, I didn't want to find out. It might be better if I didn't know at all. I might get the shock of my life if I did find out.

Roxanne chuckled. "Looks like someone is tired."

I chuckled in return. "Yeah, I guess so, even though I'd been out for 7 hours."

"Yeah," she said. She paused for a moment before her face brightened. "Mihael, I know it's not much, but I can let you sleep on my couch for the night. If Kyle comes back before you wake up, I'll tell him where he can find you and what happened."

I thought it over for a moment. I did sleep on her couch earlier, but that was because I was knocked unconscious. Now, I was given an option on whether I wanted to or not. While I really didn't want to get in trouble for sleeping on the job, I was really tired and it was really difficult for me to keep my eyes open. I guess that meant I was going to take the risk. Plus, Roxanne did say that she would tell Kyle where I was and what happened, so that made it easier. Honestly, it would be better than me passing out on the floor.

I smiled. "Sure, I love to."

She nodded and with that, she got off of me, allowing me to get back up on my feet. I walked over to the couch, sat down, and took off my shoes since I wasn't going to sleep with them on, even though I was a moment ago. I laid down on my left side, using my arm as a pillow.

Roxanne walked over to me and got down on her knees. We stared into each other's eyes for like the millionth time now. Even though it'll be annoying and weird that we kept staring into each other's eyes, I don't care. If I wanted to, I could stare into those beautiful eyes of hers for hours.

"You know, it's crazy to think that everything that's happened to us would lead us to where we are right now," she commented. "If I have to be honest, I really like it. I'm glad I decided to give this another chance. I don't like the idea of no longer being around you."

I chuckled. "I agree. It's really nice to be around you, to be quite honest." I was about to close my eyes when I thought of something. I wanted to ask before going to sleep. "Roxanne, before I go to sleep, I want to ask you something."

She smiled. "What is it?"

"What else made you so very persistent in wanting to put an end to us being around each other, other than trying to keep me safe?" I asked. I saw the smile fade from her face as soon as those words came out of my mouth.

She looked away, pushing her index fingers together as both her ears lowered. I could tell from the expression on her face that the wolf was debating whether to tell me or not. While it would be nice to get some confirmation, it was okay if she didn't want to tell me.

Finally, she looked back at me. "Well, it was because I thought that you wanted nothing to do with me. I convinced myself that keeping you away from me was the only way to do it. I grew angry since I didn't understand why you were so persistent until you told me that you like me the way I like you. That was what made me change my mind."

"I see," I said, nodding my head in confirmation. "What are you going to do while I'm asleep?"

"I'm going to see my friends and have a talk with them," she replied. I could've sworn there was a tiny hint of anger in her eyes. "There are a few things I want to talk about with them."

"Okay," I replied before I yawned again. "Time for me to get some shut-eye. See you in the morning?"

"I'll see you in the morning," she said. She kissed me on the right cheek before getting back on her feet. I felt my cheeks warm up as a result of the kiss. That was the second time tonight that she kissed me. I liked it. That's something I was going to get used to, which made it even better. "Goodnight, Mihael."

"Goodnight… Roxy," I said. I didn't have to dwell on me calling her by that nickname of hers before my eyes closed, slipping into the very depths of unconsciousness.

Author's Note:

Here is the twelfth chapter of my story! :D

It's crazy to think that I was able to write this chapter in just 2 days, but I think of it as a good thing. This was one of the easiest chapters to write as it was one that has been on my mind for a while now. I hope I didn't mess it up as this marks the beginning of them dating.

Don't expect Chapter Thirteen to be finished as quickly as Chapter Twelve. It will be longer, just so you know. I will also be taking a 3-day break from writing as I want to do things I wasn't able to do since I spent my last 3-day break adding new content to the older chapters.

That's all for now. Hope you guys enjoy this chapter, all constructive criticism is appreciated, and I will see you guys in Chapter Thirteen! :)

Update: Added and changed a few things. Took me a while to finish. :)