I got a request for Jay to be kidnapped and assaulted.
TW for kidnapping and sexual assault. There will be rape mentioned but it won't be explicit.
Jay was at Molly's for guys' night. Hailey was at home watching movies. Jay was supposed to be home by 10. It was 10:05 and he wasn't back yet. Hailey checked find my phone and it showed he was in the parking lot. She figured he was just finishing up a conversation and would be home soon. She made sure the door was unlocked and her ringer was on then got in the shower. What she didn't know was Jay was in trouble. He got to his car and was about to unlock it when something hit him in the head and knocked him out. The kidnappers tied him up and threw him in a van. He woke up a few minutes later.
"What the hell?" Jay said as he tried to figure out where he was.
He tried to get out of the restraints. The kidnappers heard him and the one in the passenger seat turned around and hit him in the head as hard as he could with his gun.
"You can't escape and if you try we'll kill you." the kidnapper told him. Do you really want to leave your wife alone?" he asked.
Jay stayed quiet. He needed to tough it out. He couldn't do that to Hailey.
Hailey got out of the shower and Jay still wasn't home and hadn't texted or called. Hailey began to worry. This wasn't like him at all. She checked find my phone and it still showed he was in the parking lot. She decided to call him to make sure everything was ok. She tried to call him but his phone went straight to voicemail. She began to panic and called Herrman.
H Hey is Jay still there?
CH No everyone left 30 minutes ago.
H its showing he's in the parking lot.
CH I'll go check.
Chris went to check and saw Jay's truck. He saw Jay's truck and ran up to it. His phone was smashed and his wallet, wedding ring, and keys were on the floor.
CH you need to get here now. Something happened. His phone is smashed and his ring, wallet, and keys are on the floor.
Hailey ran out of her car. She hung up and called Vought crying.
H I need you to get to Mollys. I think he was kidnapped. He hadn't come home yet and wasn't answering his phone so I called Herrman. He found his phone, wallet, keys, and ring by his car.
V ok I'm on my way. I'll inform the rest of the team drive carefully.
Voight called the team and informed them of what happened. They all sped to Mollys. They got footage from cameras a Molly and a gas station across the street. They saw that two masked men took him and put him in a van with no plates. They weren't able to get anywhere with the footage. They took Jay's items as evidence and went back to the district. Voight drove Hailey. He didn't want her driving. As soon as they got there Trudy walked up to Hailey and hugged her. Hailet began to sob. Trudy led her into the locker room and shut and locked the door.
"Ssh it's going to be ok. Jay is strong he's a fighter. He's going to be ok. We're going to find him" Trudy soothed.
"I ca-cant l-lo-lose h-him I ca-cant h-he-he's the l-love of my -li-life I ca-cant" Hailey sobbed.
"Ssh you're not going to lose him. We're going to find him just breathe." Trudy soothed.
Hailey ran to the toilet and threw up. Tirdy was close behind
"Ssh your ok its ok everything is going to be ok" Trudy soothed.
Once she finished she wiped her face off. Hailey rinsed her mouth out and Trudy hugged her tight.
"Ready to get up there?" Trudy asked.
"Yeah," Hailey replied.
They went up and got to work on trying to find Jay. Trudy grabbed a Gatorade for Hsiley on the way up.
"Have any leads?" Hailey asked.
"No, the video gave us nothing. The van went on the highway we lost it." Voight told her." has he had any problems with anyone that you know of?" Voight asked.
"No" Hailey replied.
They looked into his previous arrests. All the people he arrested were still in jail they then looked at all of the people that he had arrested who had just been released from jail. There were 20 people. The team started looking into each individual starting with the most violent ones.
Jay had gotten to the abandoned building at this point,
"If you try anything I will shoot," The lead kidnapper said as he held a gun to Jay's head and led him inside. Once they got inside, they threw Jay down the basement stairs. They got down there and beat him till he was unconscious. They got him up and hung him from the ceiling. He came a few minutes later and was in a ton of pain. They saw that he had woken up and walked over to him with a taser. They began to tase him and he involuntarily screamed in pain.
The main kidnapper grabbed one of Jay's arms that was tied up and yanked on it, causing his shoulder and elbow to dislocate. He screamed in pain again.
"Shut up" The main kidnapper yelled as he punched him hard in the face
Back at the district, the team was getting nowhere. They weren't able to prove that any of the people that Jay had arrested who had just got out had anything to do with his kidnapping. It was 3 am so they couldn't go knocking on doors yet. They started looking into other possibilities as well. Starting at 6 am they all split up and started knocking on doors. They got nowhere, they all either answered or were at work, and they went back to the district. They got to the end of the day and had still gotten nowhere.
Jay was in a ton of pain and was hungry and thirsty. He had been tased and beaten multiple times. He couldn't try to escape because there was a huge pressure plate under him. He couldn't avoid it. If he touched it it would set off an alarm and he would be killed. One of the kidnapper's wives got there. The kidnappers decided to send out a message. The kidnappers yanked Jay down and slammed him onto the floor hard. The wife walked up to Jay.
"It's time to have some fun," the female kidnapper said as she put her hands on his chest. She moved her hands down to his pants.
"No please don't" Jay cried out.
"Shut up wimp. You better enjoy this or I'll hurt your wife" she told him.
She pulled down his pants and raped him as the husband filmed. The husband put on a disguise and drove the DVD to the district. He gave it to an officer in the lobby and walked out. The officer didn't know what to do and took it to Trudy. Trudy went up to the bullpen.
"Someone just dropped off this DVD," Trudy said.
"Who dropped it off" Voight asked.
"I don't know. Some guy came into the lobby with a mask on and handed it to one of the patrol officers.
They watched the video. It was of Jay being raped. Hailey ran out of the room and threw up. Trudy followed her.
"Ssh ots ok your ok" Trudy soothed.
While that was happening, the team tried to figure out who the guy was. They tried facial rec but nothing came up. They tried the same thing with the female but it was too blurry. They rewatched the video multiple times to try and see if there were any hints. There wasn't. A couple of hours later, Hailey got an email from a fake account. She opened the email.
Release my brother from jail or I will kill your husband. Release Donald Smith from jail and I'll let your boy go
Hailey showed everyone the email. They looked into it and couldn't find any living family members. His brother was deceased. They tracked the IP address back to a public library. They got security footage and saw a suspicious-looking guy sit down at one of the computers. He was the only one there. The library had just opened when he got there. They were able to get a clear picture of him and ran it through facial rec. Much to their relief it brought up; a match. The guy's name was Zach Garcia. He wasn't Dondal's biological brother but he was in the same gang as him. They got to work on finding the properties that he and his family-owned, they found that his sister used to have a laundromat business before it closed. All of the buildings in that area had gone bankrupt and were abandoned.
Back at the abandoned building Jay had been beaten and raped multiple times. He tried to fight back when he was being assaulted but the main kidnapper kicked his knee, dislocating and breaking it.
The team got to the lot and parked a block away so they wouldn't be seen. They snuck to his sister's abandoned building and he wasn't there, so they started searching the other buildings. They got to the building Jay was in. The female kidnapper was coming up from the basement when they entered,
"CHICAGO PD FREEZE" Voight yelled.
She ran and the two guys downstairs heard this. They shot Jay multiple times and ran out. Kevin and Voight chased the women and Kim Adam Hailey and Dante went down to the basement. Kim and Adam searched one part of the basement and Hailey searched the other, Dante was the first to find him. He was lying on the floor with two gunshot wounds and had his arms tied above his head. He also didn't have any clothes on.
"Oh my god," Dante said.
Hailey saw him a second later.
"Jay" Hailey cried as she went up to him. Jay tried to move away but couldn't.
"Hey ssh your ok your safe now its Hailey" Hailey told him. She put her jacket over his lower half. Dante turned around to give his mentor some privacy. He threw Hailey his jacket and radioed the rest of the team. And an ambulance Hailey got him covered and Dante turned around and put pressure on the gunshot wound on his stomach while Haily applied pressure on the one on his chest. The team shot and killed the two men and arrested the woman the team got there and cringed at what they saw.
"Your going to be ok Jay helps on the way" Hailey reassured him.
"Hails I love you so much," Jay said weakly.
"No don't do that stay awake you tell me that at the hospital don't do this" Hailey begged.
Voight went to untie his hands. His arm moved which caused him to scream in pain.
"Ssh helps on the way" Hailey soothed.
The ambo got there a minute later. They packed his wounds which caused him to scream in pain. They got him on the stretcher and into the ambo. They tried to get an IV in his arm but he was dehydrated so they couldn't.
"Ok, Jay we can't get a IV in your arm. We gotta do it in your leg I'm sorry.
They lowered the sheets and he began to panic,
"Ssh you ok You safe they're not going to hurt you they just want to help you" Hailey reassured her.
"Quock pinch" Sylvie warned.
She had to do a bit of digging before she got it in which caused Jay to cry out in pain.
"Sssh your ok squeeze my hand" Hailey soothed. Jay death gipped her hand.
Sylvie took the pulse in his injured arm. His shoulder and elbow were both broken and dislocated. She took his pulse in his leg and it was weak there too.
"OK Jay this is gonna hurt, I need to reduce your dislocations. Your pulses are weak. I don't want to risk permanent damage.
Sylive injected lidocaine into his elbow which caused him to hiss in pain. She then relacted his elbow and he screamed in pain.
'I know I'm sorry I need to do your shoulder now" Sylvie told him.
"Ssh squeeze my hand as hard as you need to.
Sylvie injected lidocaine into his shoulder and relocated it. He screamed in pain again
"I know I'm sorry almost done I just gotta do your knee now and you'll be all done," Sylvie told him.
"You're doing so good baby keep squeezing my hand your almost done it's almost over." Hailey soothed,
Sylive repeated the same process with his knee. He screamed in pain again and Hailey comforted him. They got to me a few minutes later.
"Jay Halstead 33-year-old male gsw to chest and abdomen. I had to reduce his shoulder elbow and knee dislocations in the fei;d because he was losing pulses. He has Taser burns. I couldn't get an IV in his arm I had to use his femoral artery." Sylvie told the doctors.
Connor and Marcel rushed him to surgery, and Natalie and Will took Dante and Hailey to get cleaned up, hailey was trembling so Natalie helped her clean the blood up. Will pulled Hailey aside.
"Are you ok?" Will asked,
"No I thought I was gonna lose him he was in so much pain when we found him they raped him" Hailey cried.
Will started to cry and hugged her.
"Jay's strong he's a fighter. He's going to pull through" Will said through tears.
They hugged again
"What happened?" Will asked.
"I don't know he was kidnapped on the way home from Mollys" Hailey replied,
They went back into the waiting room. Hailey sat next to Trudy and she wrapped her arms around Hailey and grabbed her hand.
"Jay going to be ok he's going to pull through" Trudy reassured her,
The next two hours were the longest hours in Hailey's life. They all stood up when Connor and Marcel walked out.
"He did great. He should be waking up soon. I'll take you to him" Marcel said.
Will and Hailey got to his room right as he was coming to.
"Hey baby how are you feeling?" Hailey asked.
"Everything hurts" Jay replied.
"I'm pushing meds," Marcel told him.
C0nnor walked in a few minutes later with a tray of supplies.
"OK, Jay we need to treat your cuts and burns then get you up for some scans usually we'd do the cleaning up part while you were in surgery but the bullet nicked your heart and we didn't want to risk putting it through any unnecessary strain your surgery went well. I was able to repair the damage to your heart. It was an easy repair. You got lucky. The bullet didn't do much damage to your heart. You have a grade 2 concussion as well. You'll be on bed rest for a while. " Connor told him.
Jay tightened his grip on Hailey's hand he knew this was. Going to hurt.
"Ok, Jay this is going to sting," Connor told him.
He began to clean his cuts and Jay winced and squeezed Hailey's hand.
"Ssh your ok just squeeze my hand" Hailey soothed.
A couple of minutes later he was done.
"Ok I'm going to quickly stitch you up then treat your burns," Conno told him.
Hailey carefully turned and held his head away so he couldn't see the needles.
"You ok your safe don't think about it just squeeze my hand" Hailey soothed.
"Ok the lidocaine is going to sting a little" Connor warned.
He injected the lidocaine and Jay involuntarily whimpered. It was right next to a taser burn so it was tender,
They repeated this possess until all his wounds were stitched up.
"Good job babe you did so good I'm so proud of you," Hailey told him while kissing his head.
"This is gonna hurt" Connor warned.
He rubbed cream onto Jay's burns and he groaned in pain and squeezed Hailey's hand hard.
"Ssh you ok It ok squeeze my hand as hard as you need to. Your almost done your doing so good" Hailey soothed.
Once Connor was done he bandaged him up and got his gown back on.
"Hard pats over good job. I'm going to get you up for x-rays and a CT then do an echo" Connor told him.
Connor rolled him up for his scan and Hailey went back to the waiting room.
"How is he doing?" Voight asked.
"He is in a log of pain. They sent him up for some scans. The bullet in his chest nicked his heart" Hailey filled the team in.
Everyone hugged Hailey. The team got called to a scene but Trudy stayed. Connor came and got her 30 minutes later and Trudy followed.
"Hey kid how are you feeling?" Trudy asked,
"Awful" Jay replied.
"I'm so sorry kid I'm so glad you made it out," Trudy said starting to tear up.
All 3 of them started crying. Connor walked in and saw they were crying and stepped out for a few minutes to give them some privacy. He came back a few minutes later as did Will.
"Hey man I got some stuff from your apartment so you'll be more comfortable," Will told him.
He kissed his brother's head and grabbed his hand.
"I need to do an echo on you real quick someone from ortho will be down in a bit to go over your x-ray results," Connor told him...
Trudy left to give them some privacy
Connor quickly did the echo. His heart looked good and there was very minimal damage where the bullet had nicked it. Maggie came in a few minutes later.
"Hey, Jay I need to draw some blood and give you a tetanus shot," Maggie told him, Jay groaned.
"I know I'm sorry sweetie ill be quick," Maggie said.
Hailey grabbed his hand and made sure he was paying attention to her.
"Focus on me squeeze my hand don't think about it I'm here your safe" Hailey soothed.
Maggie got his arm cleaned off and put the tourniquet on it.
"Quick pinch" Maggie warned as she slid the needle in his arm.
Jay flinched when he felt the needle enter his skin.
"Ssh your ok you safe squeeze my hand" Hailey soothed.
"I know I'm sorry your almost done" Maggie told him as she moved his gown so she had access to his shoulder.
"This is gonna sting a little" Maggie warned. She gave him the shot and he winced.
"Ssh your ok squeeze my hand" Hailey soothed.
"I know I'm sorry I'm all done," Maggie told him. "Do you want to do a rape kit?" She asked,
"Yeah," Jay replied.
"Ok, I'll order it. I'm so sorry this happened to you" Maggie told him.
A couple of minutes later Dr.Smith from Ortho came in.
"Hey, Jay I have your x-ray results. You have multiple clean breaks in your left arm and shoulder. Those don't need any surgery just a cast which I will do in a minute. You have multiple broken ribs. I want to take you up to surgery to plate them. It'll help a lot with your pain. As for your right leg, you have a break in your knee that I will have to operate on but it will only require one or two screws. It's an easy repair. You also have a few clean breaks below your knee but those don't require surgery. I know you won't like this but the best thing for you. is to be in a wheelchair Your arm will be strapped to your chest and you won't be able to move it. Your right leg will be cast up to the top of your thigh" Dr.Smith told him.
"Uggh' Jay groaned trying not to cry.
"Ssh it's going to be ok. I'll be there every step of the way. Im not going anywhere" Hailey soothed.
Dr.Smoth got his arm cast up.
"I'm not going to cast up your leg. I'll do that after surgery which will be later tonight," Dr.Smith told him.
A few minutes a Male nurse Walked in to do the rape kit.
"Hi, I'm Alex. ill be doing the rape kit today" Alex informed him.
"Your going to be ok your safe I'm here squeeze my hand as hard as you need to" Hailey soothed.
Jay got the kit done and squeezed Hailey's hand tight the entire time.
"Good job babe I'm so proud of you," Hailey told him while kissing his head.
The nurse left and they were alone. Will had left to give his brother some privacy when Alex walked in.
"How are you feeling?" Hailey asked.
"My whole body hurts" Jay replied.
"How about mentally?" Hailey asked.
Jay shook his head and started to cry.
"Ssh your ok its ok your safe. No one can hurt you anymore" Hailey soothed.
She was having trouble calming him down. Will walked in a few minutes later.
"How long has he been like this?" Will asked.
"A few minutes" Hailey replied.
Will put his hand on Jay's back and he flinched away.
"You're ok Jay You're safe it's just me its Will no one is going to hurt you" Will reassured him.
"Sory" Jay apologized.
"No don't apologize it's not your fault," Will told him.
Jay calmed down a few minutes later.
"Try to get some sleep. You have a few more hours before your surgery" Hailey told him as she grabbed his hand.
Jay stared at the ceiling for a bit before falling asleep. He had a nightmare an hour later. Hailey was dozing off when he began to thrash around and whimper.
"Ssh your safe your ok it's ok you're at med. No one is going to hurt you" Hailey soothed.
Jay woke up and started to apologize.
"I'm sorry I'm so sorry" Jay apologized
"Hey no don't apologize. This is not your fault. None of this is your fault" Hailey told him.
"This wouldn't have happened if I was paying attention to my surroundings"
"No Jay this is not your fault please believe that" Hailey pleaded.
"Ok," Jay replied.
Hailey carefully hugged him as best as she could and kissed his head. He had a death grip on her hand and was shaking.
"Do want to try to sleep again?" Hailey asked.
"No. Can you lay with me though?" Jay replied.
"Of course babe" Hailey replied.
Jay scooted over and Hailey slid in. he rested his head on her shoulder and she rubbed his back. They talked on and off until Jay got taken up to surgery. Hailey went and got some food from the cafeteria. Voight called her when she was eating.
V Hey how's Jay doing?"
H He's in surgery right now. They have to plate his ribs and repair his knee
V Hows he doing mentally
H not good he's blaming himself.
I'm sorry Hailey. Do you want me to come down and sit with you at least til he's out of surgery?
H That would be great thank you.
V of course ill be there in 10.
Voight got there and hugged her.
"How are you holding up kid?"
"I thought I was gonna lose him. When we got to him he was in so much pain. I've never seen him in that much pain. He's blaming himself for this" Hailey said as she began to sob.
Voight pulled her into another hug.
"Ssh Jays going to be ok. He's strong. He's going to pull through everything will be ok" Voight told her.
"Sorry," Hailey apologized.
"Hey no don't apologize. I can't even imagine how hard this must be for you." Voight told her.
They sat in the waiting room and talked on and off until Dr.Smith came out.
"He did great. He should be back in his room in a minute. He'll probably sleep the rest of the night. His body has been through a lot today" DrSmith told her.
"I'm gonna head out. I'll be back in the morning" Voight told her.
Voight left for the night and Hailey went into Jay's room. She sat down next to his bed and began to cry. Will walked in a few minutes later and saw her crying and hugged her.
When Voight got home he texted the team and Trudy. He told the team that they had the day off tomorrow but he wanted all of them to go to the hospital to show their support. He then texted Trudy who said that she had a meeting she couldn't get out of the first thing in the morning but she would be there right after. Jay woke up a few hours later and was thirsty. Will got a cup of water and handed it to Hailey. He drank most of the water.
"How are you feeling? Do you need any meds?" Will asked.
"Yeah everything hurts" Jay replied. He usually didn't admit to pain or give in this easily but he was physically and mentally exhausted. He just wanted to sleep.
Will left the room to get the morphine.
"Do you want me to lay with you again or do you want to be alone?" Hailey asked.
"I don't want to be alone right now" Jay replied, starting to cry.
"Ok sssh, your safe I've got you" Hailey soothed as she wiped his tears with her thumbs and kissed his head.
Will got back a minute later and gave him morphine. Jay was able to fall asleep a few minutes later. Jay had a few nightmares that night but Hailey and Will helped him through every one.
Voight got there 15 minutes before visiting hours started. Will was getting coffee and saw him. He took him up to their room. When they got there, Hailey was holding Jay protectively and they were both asleep. They both sat down and waited for them to wake up. They woke up an hour later. Jay's anxiety was through the roof. He was jumping at every little sound. He was also starving since he had barely had anything to eat for a long time. He scared down cereal and oatmeal. The team got there soon after breakfast. They didn't stay for long because of Jay's anxiety. Everyone left except for Trudy and Voight. Once everyone left the room was silent which triggered Jay's anxiety. He couldn't watch TV because of his concussion so, Hailey put some meditation music on her phone.
"Hey kid how are you feeling?" Trudy asked.
"Awful. Everything hurts" Jay replied.
"I'm sorry kid. Were all here for you. Try to get some rest" Trudy told him.
Will gave him some more pain meds and he fell asleep. He had a nightmare an hour later. Hailey was reading a book when he started crying out in his sleep.
"Stop please don't stop" Jay cried out in his sleep.
"Sh Jay it's not real your safe please wake up" Hailey rubbed his back and he shot up in bed and started to hyperventilate.
"Ssh your at med. No one is going to hurt you your safe" Hailey soothed.
Jay calmed down a few minutes later but didn't want to go back to sleep.
"You ok?" Hailey asked.
"No" Jay replied
"Are you in pain?" Will asked.
"Yeah," Jay replied.
"I'm sorry you can't have anything for a couple more hours," Will told him.
Trudy and Voight were still there. They all talked for a bit before Jay gave into his body and fell asleep. Unfourtnalry he had another nightmare soon after falling asleep. By dinnertime, he had multiple nightmares. Will gave him some anxiety and sleep meds to help with that. Voight and Trudy left right before dinner. Jay ate dinner and talked with Hailey for a bit before falling asleep again. He didn't want to but he couldn't help it. He was absolutely exhausted. The next day Trudy had to work and couldn't be there. Intelligence had been given a week off because of what happened so Voight was able to be there. The only way for Jay to not have nightmares was a combination of medication and physical touch. He needed someone to hold his hand. In the afternoon Hailey needed to run home to do a couple of things but didn't want to leave Jay.
"Hey, I need to run home real quick. Can you stay with him for a bit?" Hailey asked.
"Of course" Voight replied.
Hailey carefully slipped her hand out of his and stood up. Voight sat in the chair next to his bed and gently grabbed his hand. He wasn't usually the touchy-feely type but he almost lost his detective who was like a son to him. This time was different. The whole team was like family to him. Trudy and Will got there a few minutes later and sat down. Jay started to have a nightmare an hour later.
"Sssh, your ok kid your safe" Voight soothed. He put his hand on Jay's shoulder and he woke up. He tried to sit up but couldn't because of the pain in his ribs.
"Stay laying down kid your going to pop a stitch your at med your ok" Voight said as he gently pushed him back down.
"I need to sit up," Jay said, still panicking.
"Ok we'll help you," Will said.
Voight and Will helped Jay sit up. He groaned in pain as he sat up,
"Your ok chuckles I know it hurts squeeze my hand" Trudy comforted him as she grabbed his hand.
"Can I have some water?" Jay asked.
Will grabbed the water and held the straw to his lips. He drank half of it and then pulled away,
"How are you feeling?" Will asked
"Everything hurts still" Jay replied.
"I'm sorry that's normal, unfortunately. You can't have anything for another hour"
"Uggh" Jay groaned.
"I know I'm sorry I know it sucks" Will replied. He felt bad knowing there was nothing he could really do for him.
"Squeeze our hands as hard as you need to we're here we've got you lean on us," Voight said as he grabbed his hand.
"Wheres Hailey?" Jay asked.
"She should be back soon. She ran back home to grab a few things" Voight replied
Jsyt as Voight was about to text Hailey to see how much longer she would be she texted him.
H I'm on my way back. How's he doing?"
V He had a nightmare and is in a ton of pain
It was silent in the room at this point which was triggering Jay's anxiety.
"It's too quiet in here," Jay said shakily.
Trudy immediately grabbed her phone and started playing meditation music. She had learned that it helped the both of them calm down after Hailey's panic attack during the Roy Walton case. Jay relaxed a little but not much. He was in a lot of pain both physically and mentally. Hailey got there a few minutes later and ran to his room. Voight stood up so Hailey could sit by Jay.
"Hey, babe I'm here it's ok," Hailey told him. Jay squeezed her hand in response. About an hour later Jay was able to have more meds and relaxed enough to be able to fall asleep. He had a nightmare around 6 and Hailey comforted him. Jay was hungry so Will brought him some food from the cafeteria, he brought him some chicken, rice, and juice. Jay tried to cut his chicken because he could only use his right hand and he was left-handed. Hailey saw him struggling and offered to help.
"Do you need some help babe?" Hailey asked.
"No it's ok I can do it" Jay replied. He ended up dropping the knife on the floor a few minutes later and groaned in annoyance.
"Hey it's ok ill help you," Hailey said as she grabbed a new knife from Will.
"I should be able to do this," Jay said
"Jay it's ok it's ok to accept help. Your recovering from a major injury. You don't have use of your right arm. No one expects you to do those on your own we're here to help lean on us" Hailey told him as she cut his chicken.
Jay ate his chicken and they talked for a few hours.
"Try and get some sleep babe I love you," Hailey said while kissing his head.
"I love you too" Jay replied.
Hailey slid into his bed and helped him. It's the only way the nightmares were somewhat manageable even with medication. The next day Hailey woke up before Jay and carefully slid out from under him. She went into the bathroom and, brushed her teeth splashed water on her face, and used the bathroom. After she was done, she went back to his bed and sat down, and grabbed his hand. She wouldn't be able to get back in bed with him without waking him up. She felt her anxiety spike and grabbed the stress ball she had brought. She squeezed it as tight as she could. Her knuckles turned white a few minutes later. Trudy got there a few minutes later and saw how hard Hailey was gripping the ball. She walked up to her and put her hand on Hailey's back causing her to jump. She looked up at her with tears in her eyes.
"You ok kid?" Trudy asked.
Hailey shook her head and began to cry.
Will woke up when he heard talking and went over to them and saw Hailey crying. Trudy led Hailey out of the room and Will took over Hailey's spot. Trudy took Hailey outside and they sat down on a bench.
"Oh honey cmere," Trudy said as she pulled her into a hug.
"I hate seeing him in this much pain. He was blaming himself for it. Last night he was struggling with cutting his chicken because of his arm. He got really frustrated with himself. He in pain all of the time" Hailwy sobbed.
"I know I'm so sorry honey. Jays strong he going to pull through" Trudy told her.
Hailey took a couple of minutes to collect herself and went back to Jay's room with Trudy. Jay was feeling up to visitors that day, so, the team came after breakfast and stayed til dinner time.
A week after getting to the hospital Jay was discharged. He was annoyed that he had to be in a wheelchair but was excited to go home. They got discharged and picked up meds for Jay's nightmares on the way home. When they got home there were a lot of people around and Jay clung to Hailey. The first thing Jay wanted to do when he got home was take a shower. The hospital showers combined with what happened to him made him feel disgusting. Hailey carefully helped Jay get undressed and into the shower chair that Will had installed. Jay's balance and strength made it possible to do it with just one person. Jay was able to hop to the shower chair while Hailey held onto him. Jay hissed in pain when the water hit his body. Even though the burns were a little over a week old, they still stung.
"Ssh" Hailey soothed.
Hailey washed his hair and body for him. Washing his body was still quite painful. Even though his cuts were healed pretty well and didn't hurt much his burns and bruises still hurt. The taser burns were second-degree burns so they were going to be painful for a while. As Hailey went to turn the water off Jay began to panic and scratch at his skin. He could feel the touch of his kidnappers again. Hailey gently grabbed his hands and gave them a light squeeze.
"Ssh Jay you're going to hurt yourself. They can't hurt you anymore. Your home your safe. No one is going to hurt you" Hailey soothed.
"Sorry," Jay apologized.
"Don't apologize you couldn't help it. None of this is your fault. Don't apologize for your emotions. I'm here for all of it. Hailey told him.
Hailey helped Jay get out and into pajamas. She got him comfortable in their bed. She then went to change into dry clothes. She had worn a tank top and shorts so she wouldn't trigger anything. She changed quickly and joined Jay in bed. As soon as she got in bed he put his head on her shoulder and began to cry. Hailey held him and soothed him the entire time. She knew he needed to process this and get everything out. He cried himself to sleep in her arms and slept for about an hour. When he woke up he was hungry. Hailey heard his stomach growl. It was now dinner time and he hadn't eaten since breakfast.
"What do you want to eat?" Hailey asked.
"Pizza sounds really good right now" Jay replied.
Hailey ordered the pizza and they watched TV until it got there. Jay still was on concussion protocol so Hailey turned off the brightness and had him put on blue light glasses. He shut his eyes and listened to the TV. He still couldn't be in silence. It caused flashbacks and disassociation. Hailey made sure that there was always background noise. He didn't fall asleep. Whenever he fell asleep he would get flashbacks of what happened. He didn't want that. Dinner got there and they ate. Jay was exhausted. He took his new medicine since the one they gave him in the hospital wasn't covered by his insurance and was super expensive. He fell asleep holding onto Hailey. Jay wasn't usually clingy and didn't usually show his emotions like this but he had just been through something traumatic. He needed safety. That safety was Hailey. Jay fell asleep but woke up a few hours later. A car alarm went off below their bedroom window and it caused Jay to panic. They had been in a private room at the hospital so it was pretty quiet, but now that they were home they could hear all the noises of their apartment and the city. These normal everyday noises were amplified for Jay. Jay shot up in bed. He thought he was back in the building again, haileu had woken up when he shot up in bed. She turned on the light and saw him panicking. He was looking for an escape. She put a hand on his back and he jumped away from her and put his fists up. Hailey decided to do something that could be dangerous for her. She knew Jay would never intentionally hurt her but Jay wasn't Jay right now. She crawled in front of him and grabbed his hands, giving them a gentle squeeze. This caused him to try to fight back. Hailey pulled him into a hug and held him tight. She had done some research at the hospital and found that deep-pressure therapy helped. Now that they were home and in their bed instead of a hospital bed she could finally try it.
"Ssh your ok your safe your in our apartment they can't hurt you anymore" Hailey soothed while huffing him tightly. She made sure to put pressure on his chest. It took a minute but it worked. He snapped out of it. He began to profusely apologize.
"I'm sorry I'm so sorry did I hurt you I'm so sorry Hailey" Jay apologized.
"Ssh Jay you have nothing to apologize for you did nothing wrong Your ok it's ok" Hailey soothed.
"I almost hit you I could've hit you. I can't hurt you. I wouldn't be able to live with myself if I ever hurt you." Jay replied starting to cry.
"Ssh Jay I trust you. You would never intentionally hurt me. You were scared. It's ok" Hailey reassured him.
"I could hurt you because of something that was my fault" Jay was blaming himself again.
"No Jay this is not your fault. Do not blame yourself. You did nothing wrong. The only people at fault here are the people who did this to you." Hailey told her.
"If I had been paying attention this wouldn't have happened. I could've hurt you because of something that was my fault." Jay replied.
"No Jay this is not your fault. I will say that as many times as I need to until you believe that this isn't your fault." Hailey told him.
"Ok but if your scared of me I totally get it. I don't want to hurt you. You can leave if you want to I can't hurt you" Jay said.
"Hey Jay no I'm not scared of you and I'm not leaving you. I know you don't trust yourself right now but I trust you. I know you would never hurt me intentionally. I'm here for all of it I love you so much" Hailey replied, holding back tears.
"I love you too," Jay said.
They kissed and Hailey helped him get into a more comfortable position. It was hard for him to get comfortable because of his injuries. His arm was strapped to his body and his leg was in a full cast. His back was also super sore as well as his whole body.
It took a few minutes but Jay was able to drift back to sleep. Hailey watched him sleep for a but then quietly cried herself to sleep. Jay wasn't asleep for long before he had another nightmare. Hailey calmed him down and he groaned in pain.
"Are you in pain babe?" Hailey asked.
"Yeah everything hurts" Jay replied.
"I'm so sorry baby. Do you want your pain meds?" Hailey asked.
"No, I don't like how they make me feel" Jay replied.
"Ok, how about some Advil?" Hailey asks
"Ok," Jay replied.
Hailey went and got the Advil and gave him 4 pills. He took them and tried to get comfortable again. Hailey got in bed next to him and he clung to her hand. He was scared and in pain. He didn't want to sleep so he just stared up at the ceiling listening to the TV that was still on. Jay needed constant noise so Hailey kept the TV on. Jay was a lot more skittish than usual and he hated it. It. He blamed himself for what happened and Hailey hated that for him. She wanted nothing more than to have Jay understand that what happened wasn't his fault,
"Try and get some rest babe," Hailey said after a couple minutes of watching him stare at the ceiling.
"I don't want to sleep. I keep on reliving it whenever I close my eyes" Jay replied.
"I'm so sorry Jay. I can't even imagine how hard this must be for you. I promise you you are safe here. They can't hurt you anymore. I'm here I've got you I'm not going anywhere" Hailey told him while kissing his head.
Jay tried to fall asleep but couldn't. Jay tried watching the TV but it hurt his head so he closed his eyes again and listened to the TV. A couple hours later Jay wanted a change of scenery. Hailey got him into the living room and he watched her make breakfast. They ate and talked for a bit. Will come an hour after breakfast. Jay fell asleep soon after Will got there and had a nightmare soon after. They both worked to calm him down. Once they got him calmed down Hailey informed Will that this had been happening all night. Will called Dr.Charles and explained what was going on. He said that even though it sucked they needed to give the medication a couple of days to work. Turdy came over an hour later. At this point, Hailey was barely holding herself together and Trudy and Will could tell. Will stayed with Jay and Trudy took Hailey outside.
"What running through your head Hails?" Trudy asked.
"He's still blaming himself. Last night he had a really bad nightmare and when he woke up he said he would understand if I was scared of him and wanted to leave. He was in so much pain both physically and mentally. I don't know how to help him. I hate seeing him in this much pain." Hailey told her.
"Oh, Hailey I'm so sorry. You are doing so good with him. What your doing is helping. Right now he needs someone there for him 24/7 and that's what you are doing. It might not seem like it right now but things are going to get better. Uts just going to take time. Jay is strong he is going to get through this and we are here for you guys every step of the way. You guys are not alone in this." Trudy told her.
"Thanks" Hailey replied, hugging TRudy.
She took a couple of minutes to collect herself and then went back inside.
Trudy sat with Jay for a bit while Hailey took a shower and cleaned up the apartment. He stuck close to Trudy until Hailey was done. Trudy sat with them for a bit then made them some dinner. After dinner, they hung out for a few hours until Jay started to fall asleep.
A week later the meds were working a little better. He was still having nightmares but it was only happening one or two times a night. He was also now able to watch TV without it hurting his head. He was still struggling mentally and physically but Hailey was helping him. Jay was starting to get a little energy back but didn't want to leave the house. He was kind of able to use screens but could only do so for an hour before getting a headache. They also played card games which they both loved to do. Voight came over that night. He hadn't been over much because he had mandatory meetings that he couldn't get out of that week. Usually, by the time Voight got out it was late at night. He wanted nothing more than to be there for Jay in person and was glad he could finally do so. His last meeting ended early and he drove straight from the meeting to Hailey and Jay's place. As soon as he got into their apartment he went up to Jay and hugged him and held him for a minute. The last time he saw him was when he was being discharged. He heard how much he had been struggling over the past two weeks and felt horrible that he couldn't be there for him.
"How are you doing kid" Hank asked
"As well as I can be given the situation. It's hard" Jay replied.
"I know it's hard but you are doing an amazing job I'm so proud of you," Voight told him while gently pulling him into another hug.
They spent the next 30 minutes catching up. Hailey made chicken pot pie for dinner and they all ate. After dinner, they played games for a bit. Jay started to get a headache a few hours later so Voight left.
"Call me if you need anything no matter the time," Hank told them.
Hailey helped Jay get ready for bed and they laid down. Hailey massaged his head until he fell asleep. He slept through the night and woke up feeling better the next morning.
Two days later he had his first checkup at med. It was currently the night before and he was a nervous wreck. He wasn't ready to leave the house and be in a loud and crowded environment. He was also nervous about being touched and examined. He knew Connor would be doing it and wouldn't intentionally hurt him but he was still nervous because they weren't super close. He only felt safe with those he was super close with. Hailey could tell he wasn't ok.
"You ok babe?" Hailey asked.
"No I'm not ready to be touched yet and go back to the hospital" Jay replied.
"I know I'm sorry. I can't even imagine how hard this must be. I'll be there the whole time. You'll be safe, no one is going to hurt you. You not alone" Hailey told him.
Jay nodded and hugged Hailey.
He was quiet and anxious the rest of the day. He took his meds around 1 0 that night but didn't fall asleep until around 2. He only slept for an hour before having one of the worst nightmares he had in a while. Hailey woke up to him thrashing around.
"Sssh jay your safe. Your not there anymore, your at home with me in our bed. They can't hurt you anymore no one is going to hurt you" Hailey soothed until he opened his eyes.
He shot up in bed and was hyperventilating.
"Ssh your safe I've got you. Breathe for me in 1,2,3,4 out 1,2,3,4" Hailey repeated until he got his breathing under control.
It took a while but Jay was eventually able to calm down.
"How are you feeling babe?" Hailey asked.
"I can feel him. I need to shower" Jay replied while trying to get out of bed.
"Ok, that's ok. We can do that. Let me help you. I don't want you to hurt yourself" Hailey said as she rushed to his side of the bed.
Hailey helped him out of bed, into his wheelchair, then into the shower. As soon as Jay got in the shower, Jay began to scrub his skin as hard as he could. He wanted to make the water as hot as it could go but he couldn't shower on his own yet and didn't want to hurt Hailey. Hailey saw him scratching and stopped and comforted him. She gently washed his body and got him back in bed. He tossed and turned the rest of the night. The medication didn't work that night. Dr.Charles said that could happen especially when if he had bad anxiety that day. Jay's appointment was at 10 am and he was exhausted. This appointment would be the first time he'd be leaving since he got home. He clung to Hailey's hand until they got there. When they were walking in a guy tripped and bumped into his wheelchair. Jay started to panic as soon as this happened.
"Sorry" the man apologized when he bumped into Jay
Jay began to hyperventilate and panic. He was having flashbacks. dr.Charels saw this happen and led them into a nearby patient room.
"Breathe for me Jay in through your nose out through your mouth" Dr.Charles repeated this until he got his breathing under control.
"What happened?" Dr.Charles asked.
"Someone bumped into me and it triggered me. I should be able to go in public and get bumped into without having a panic attack." Jay replied.
"Jay it's ok you went through something traumatic it's okay to not be 100% ok. No one expects you to be" Dr. Charles told him.
Jay sat there for a couple of minutes and collected himself. He went up to his appointment and it went as well as it could've. When he got to the car he was exhausted. They went home and he crashed.
Another two weeks passed and he was improving. He still had a lot of anxiety but it was a lot better. He was able to leave the house during the day to go on short walks with Hailey. he could only go out when no one was out, not when it was busy. Voight, Will, and Trudy came over pretty much every day. It was a Friday night and Voight had invited them over to his house to watch the hockey game. As they were leaving their apartment they noticed some grey clouds, but Hailey checked her phone and saw the storm was going in the opposite direction of them. They got there and there were a lot of people outside. Jay was scared and Hailwy could tell. She called Voight down and they walked up together. Jay clung to both of their hands the whole time. When he got to the apartment, he was shaking. Hailey sat down on the couch with him and grabbed his hand. Voight went and got him a glass of water and sat down on the other side of him.
"You did so good Jay. I'm proud of you" Hailey said.
"I'm proud of you too. Your improving every day and are going to continue improving. I know it's hard but you are doing an amazing job. Voight told him.
"Thanks, Jay told them both.
Halfway through the game, all three of their phones went off. It was a storm warning. The huge thunderstorm had changed directions and was headed straight for them Jay jumped at the noise but Hailey put her and on his shoulder. The storm hit 30 minutes later. The thunder was making Jay jump. Voight turned up the TV and Hiley held Jay. about an hour later, Hailey and Jay's phones went off. It was a text from their landlord saying the power was out and so was the generator for the heater.
"Shit," Hailey said as she read the text.
"Everything ok?" Voight asked.
"The power and generator for the heater went out at our apartment," Hailey told him.
"OK, you guys are staying with me tonight. I don't want you driving anyway it's only going to get worse" Voight told them. The storm was bad and the low was going to be 27 so he didn't feel comfortable with them going back home tonight.
"Thanks, sarge," Hailey said while looking over at Jay who looked nervous.
"You ok babe?"
Jay shook his head and turned towards Voight. "I don't want to disturb your sleep with my nightmares," Jay told him.
"Jay it's fine. I really don't mind. If it happens it happens. It is not your fault. You have no control over it." Voight told him.
Jay nodded and Voight hugged him.
They finished the game and decided to go to bed. They were all tired.
"I'm leaving my door open. Come get me if you need anything" Voight told them.
They said goodnight and fell asleep. Jay slept for a few hours before getting woken up by a nightmare. It was a bad one. Hailey woke up to Jay's hand hitting her leg.
"Ssh Jay you're ok. Your safe it's ok. You're with me. It's just a dream it's not happening. Your safe. Ssh" Hailey soothed.
Jay shot up in bed and was looking around and hyperventilating.
"Ssh just breathe. Breathe for me in 1,2,3.4 out 1,2,3,4" Hailey soothed.
Not even 30 seconds later Jay bolted out of bed and crawled to the bathroom and threw up. Hailey was close behind him. Voight woke up from the commotion and ran towards the bathroom. When he saw what was happening he ran into the kitchen.
"Let it all out babe ssh your safe" Hailey soothed while rubbing his back.
A few seconds later, Voight appeared in the doorway with a glass of water. He handed it to Hailey and got two washcloths wet. Hailey grabbed them from him. She used one to wipe Jay's face and held the other one to the back of his neck.
"You ok kid?" Voight asked, jay shook his head. He knew he would throw up again if he tried to talk.
A few minutes later he did throw up again. Hailey and Voight talked him through it.
"Sorry for waking you guys" Jay apologized
"Hey no don't apologize. This was not your fault. You have nothing to be sorry for" Voight said.
Jay nodded and sat there for a few seconds. He then realized what his hand had hit during his nightmare. His eyes widened as he tried not to cry. He had hit Hailey.
"Hailey I'm so sorry I hit you I'm so sorry," Jay said shakily.
"Jay no you didn't hurt me. I'm fine all your hands ht was my lef. I trust you you will never hurt me" Hailey reassured him.
Jay couldn't find the strength to speak so he just nodded again.
They got him back into bed a few minutes later, jay had multiple more nightmares that night. They woke up at 7, and an hour later they were all in the living room. Jay wheeled himself to the bathroom. It was one of the only things he was able to do without assistance.
"Are his nightmares usually that bad?" Voight asked.
"No. I think it was a combination of not having his meds, the storm, and sleeping in a different place" Hailey replied.
"Yeah that makes sense" Voight replied as he walked into the kitchen to start on breakfast.
Jay came out of the bathroom a few minutes later and they ate breakfast and went home since their power was back and they were exhausted. When they got home they were took a nap
Two months after he was kidnapped he got the cast off his leg and got put into a brace. He was out of the wheelchair. He was going to be sore for a while with walking but Jay didn't care. He was just happy that he was out of the wheelchair. It was also time for Hailey to try to go back to work soon. Jay wouldn't be cleared to go back even on desk duty for at least another month. Hailey had a dentist appointment later that week and so they decided to try out Hailey leaving the house without Jay. No one from the team could come over since they were in the middle of a case and already down two members. The day came and Trudy took the day off and came over.
The day of Hailey's appointment came and Jay was nervous.
"Your going to be ok babe. Trudy will be with you the whole time your are safe" Hailey reassured him.
"I know it's just hard I haven't been away from you since everything happened
"I know but it will be ok," Hailey told him.
They hugged and Hailey kissed his head. Trudy got there a few minutes later.
"How are you doing Jay?" Trudy asked.
"Fine" Jay replied.
Trudy looked at Hailey and she shook her head.
Trudy sat down next to Jay and put her hand on his shoulder. He jumped at the contact.
"Ssh your ok its ok" Trudy soothed.
"Sorry," Jay replied.
"Hey no don't apologize for your emotions," Trudy told him.
Hailey left soon after and Trudy turned on the TV. The office was on so Trudy decided to put it on. She could tell Jay was tense so she put her arm around him and began to rub his back. She was in mom mode. The unit was like her children. She would do anything for them. Jay relaxed. They watched TV for a little over an hour, and then Trudy stood up to make lunch. Once it was done they ate and continued watching TV. Soon after eating he fell asleep with his head on Trudy's shoulder. Jay wasn't usually clingy like this but he had gotten incredibly close to both Voight and Trudy through this whole thing. He woke up an hour later from a nightmare.
"Ssh your ok your safe" Trudy soothed while rubbing his back.
Jay woke up and grabbed his phone. Hailey was supposed to be getting back soon. He checked to find my iPhone and saw that she was on the highway. He relaxed a little and focused on the TV. 10 minutes later Hailey still wasn't home. He checked his phone again and saw she was still in the same spot. He began to panic and called her. He found out she was just stuck in traffic and calmed down. She got home an hour later and Jay ran up to her and hugged her.
"I'm so proud of you babe. You did so good" Hailey told him.
Trudy left and Jay immediately fell asleep. He was exhausted from the anxiety.
The next week Hailey went back to work. Voight had her doing half days for at least two weeks. On the first day, Stella and Kelly came over.
It took two more weeks but Jay was finally able to be alone
. Two weeks after that he was able to go back to work on desk duty. He was still struggling with his PTSD and nightmares but was doing a lot better.
They were working on him going out in public. He was able to go in public when it wasn't busy and when he was with Hailey. Over the next few weeks, they worked on it. After a month Jay was able to go in public on his own even when it was busy. He was making a lot of progress.
He had also gotten his sling off and was in a brace. A month and a half after getting the brace on he was able to take it off.
He was soon got cleared to go back into the field. The first day back he was nervous but did great. It was like he had never left.
.it had now been a little over a year since he was kidnapped and raped and he was doing amazing. He was fully off all his meds and rarely had bad days.
A/N I was expecting to get this done way sooner but life got in the way... again. I hope you liked this. Also sorry if this is weird I wrote this over two months when it usually only takes me a week or two max to write a one-shot