— UPDATE —
Hey there, so it's been... what, nine years? I'm really sorry that I literally vanished from this account this part of the internet like that. A whole saga of life stuff has happened, and while I'd originally meant to return to these stories someday, I honestly hadn't even looked at this account (until recently) since I was like 16 - and I'm 25 now.
I'm not going to make you all read a life update that spans 9 goddamn years, of course, but know that I am doing far better than I was as a teenager. I've been no-contact with my abuser since around the time that I vanished from here. I'm in a happy healthy relationship that's lasted nearly 8 years now; I officially moved in with them in 2021. I came out to my family and, while that's had mixed results, I'm happier for it. Nothing is ever what I thought that it would be, and there have been a lot of really rough spots since my last check-in, but I never thought that I would be able to get on here and tell you all that I'm Genuinely Okay Now. If you take nothing else from this update, leave with this: You are going to be okay - no matter how hopeless, scared, helpless, or lost, you feel right now. Never give up; I believe in you.
I'm slowly re-reading my old content from this page, and honestly, I have mixed feelings about it all. This story, in particular, settles uncomfortably for me - largely due to its initial inspiration at the time of it being written. A part of me wants to remaster this work into something new, something that doesn't leave such a bad taste in my mouth this many years later, but I'm really undecided on that. The internet isn't kind to people who write taboo ships to cope anymore, and I'm not a child trying to process active abuse anymore either. I'll leave that much in the capable hands of the Review section — if you genuinely want me to rework this story and update it on a new platform, tell me that, and I'll far more seriously consider it. You are also welcome to PM me if that is preferable to you.
On the bright side of it all, I like to think that my writing has improved astronomically since my time on this site. Though I know many of you sung its praises back in day, I'm certainly not happy with most of my work on here anymore. I've also not actively written for this fandom (or any that I used to) in quite a while, though I do intend to eventually go back to writing for most of them. - Kuroshitsuji included. With that being said, I will notbe returning to writing on this particular platform.
Idostill write fanfiction, though!
If you're interested,you can find me on AO3 now- my user isCtrl_Alt_Kon there. I primarily write in the X-Men fandom atm, but I do also write for animated fandoms still, and I will be branching out a lot more in the near future - I'm just actively working on a Kinktober thing set within the XMCU right now, so that's the priority. I really hope to see everyone there. If you follow me from this, please don't hesitate to reach out - it'd be really cool to get back into contact with people from my days on this page!
XoXo,
— Kay
formerly known under the pseudonym 'Ace'