Inuyasha was falling down quickly, shifting his body he unsheathed Tetsaiga and drove it into the side of the mountain, slowing his descent but causing his body to slam harshly into the side of the mountain making him dizzy. He found purchase and climbed down before darting off as quickly as he could into the forest. He ran for hours, his chest and legs burned from the strain. He wouldn't be going to the slayers village where the elderly Miroku and Sango lived, nor would he return to his forest. He tried to think of a place where Sesshomaru wouldn't be able to find him, the islands that housed the hanyou came to mind but Inuyasha sighed, the lord had been there before. Continuing his mad dash, he stopped when he came to a body of water. A slow stream was just what he needed. He dipped in and washed furiously, the cold water causing his overheated body to protest. The marking on his neck began to burn. He felt the sting of what he hoped was Sesshomaru's anger and smiled. "Be pissed, bastard."

Taking a moment to breathe before he started running once more happiness burned into the core of his being. He'd finally managed to escape. The last thing he needed to do was remove the mating mark. He knew just who'd be able to help him accomplish that. A few more hours of running and he was at the entrance of a cave, "It's been a long time you stupid boy."

"Ey shut up old man I need your help." Inuyasha growled.

"Have you destroyed the sword of your father once more?" The odd youki asked.

"No, I just. I need a way to remove a mating mark." Inuyasha bit out, showing the wound.

"Impossible!" Totosai wacked him with one of his many tools. "A mating mark is forever."

"You gotta be fucking kidding me!" Inuyasha sneered.

"That is what those young-uns would tell you. Of course, there is a way to remove it, I think. You might not have ever entered the world otherwise."

Inuyasha crouched down and got close to the youki, "Tell me how. Now."

"Well, if I recall, your lord father's mate at the time. Quite the beauty, if I do say so myself. In fact…"

"Just get to the point!" Inuyasha bellowed when he realized Totosai was winding into a long tangent about women.

"Sesshomaru's mother was very unhappy in her mating. She was so unhappy in fact, that she herself created the magic and spell necessary to remove a mating mark. Which is why she still lives and your Lord Father has passed. But there is always a price to pay."

Inuyasha's face fell a bit. The last time he'd met Sesshomaru's mother, she'd tried to kill him. He sighed, "I don't know what to do…"

"Stupid boy, I just explained it. Didn't I? Was I sleeping?" Inuyasha rolled his eyes at Totosai's antics. He sighed heavily and looked at the ground, memories of his plight hitting him and causing him to tremble. "Inuyasha. What has happened?"

Inuyasha looked away, unsure of if he wanted to tell the old man with his heartache. Finally, looking up at the old man he gave a sad smile. "That bastard Sesshomaru attacked me…and he…he…" Inuyasha bit his lip. It was so easy to throw what the demon had done to him in the youki's face and shout about it to let people know what a horrid person the bastard was but sitting here, in front of someone who'd helped him in countless ways…it was hard to say the words. His eyes watered and he wiped them away furiously, he didn't want to cry about it anymore, he wanted it to be over with.

Totosai placed his hand on the hanyou's shoulder able to put the pieces together with his withering mind. "My poor boy, I am sorry."

Inuyasha nodded and they sat in silence for a moment before Inuyasha stood. "So, I have to find that woman and get her to help me somehow." Inuyasha groaned, "Easier said than done." In recent years, he and his youkai had matured. He could speak to it as most youki could now that he had come of age. With his coming of age, however, his humanity had also grown stronger. He could hear his two halves bickering constantly and it gave him massive headaches. For once though, the three of them agreed, that he had to get rid of the mating mark. He thanked the old man before darting off once more. Looking up at the sky as noon approached he felt his stomach turn before he vomited. "What the fuuuuuck?" He groaned.

He stood vomiting until there was nothing left in his stomach and he became dizzy. Jumping into the tallest tree he was able to find he decided he needed to sleep for at least an hour or two before he continued on his way. When he woke, he scanned the area for food. The sun had yet to set so he still had time for a quick meal. The mark on his neck was hot to the touch and uncomfortable. He decided fish was best as he could cool it in the water. Floating in the water, he found out he felt a lot better. He'd managed to get away and had a way to removed Sesshomaru's cursed mark. As he floated he began thinking about what kind of lover he would want to find when he was finally free to choose. He ended up blushing because he'd never had to think about what qualities he needed someone to have. He remembered Kagome talking to Miroku about having types. Types of people who you desired to be with. Gender wise Inuyasha couldn't care less but he'd want someone reliable and strong. Someone who wasn't afraid to argue with him but at the same time didn't want to change him into something he wasn't. Someone who would respect him and his strengths, and help him grow as a person. He assumed he must've had a thing for dark hair and eyes so he put that on the check list. After catching a few fish he made a fire to cook them. His stomach felt a lot more settled afterward and he took off once more, in all his time traveling the lands he's never gone east, so that where he headed.

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Sesshomaru couldn't see straight. It had been almost two days since Inuyasha left the castle. He gave the hanyou the benefit of the doubt and it was stabbing him in the back. He felt Inuyasha's emotions through the mark, the hanyou was ecstatic and it was making him angrier. His youkai wanted to punish their pregnant mate but it was also tearing his head apart because no one had seen his mate leave. His mate was pregnant and away from the protection of the castle. The lord was on edge. Not only was he searching for the hanyou, his best men from his army were searching as well. He even put a generous bounty on the hanyou's head with explicit instructions that he should not be harmed. Sesshomaru couldn't remember being as angry and mainly worried as he was, he was currently following the scent of the hanyou while the others checked places he frequented. They were even sent to check the bone eaters well, it was driving him insane. He didn't even understand why he mated the hanyou himself but it was too late now, he had no choice but to stay with him and make it work for both of them. He growled to himself when his mind replayed the many times Inuyasha had called him a rapist. The young man annoyed him to no end. He was trying with the hanyou but he made it increasingly difficult not to hate him.

Inuyasha's scent stopped suddenly and Sesshomaru nearly destroyed the forest surrounding him. He'd never had trouble bumping into the blasted hanyou before. He wasn't avoiding you before. Sounded in his mind. In a rare show of emotion, he heaved a sigh. His mind was buzzing pleasantly with Inuyasha's happiness, it only angered him further. Consciously, he knew why the hanyou was so happy to be away from him, the same could not be said for his inner beast who wailed inside of him. Between his conscious thoughts and those of his inner self the lord had to rest a moment. Running into a tree wouldn't help his image at all especially after Inuyasha had ruined it as he did. He was stuck for almost 4 hours being questioned by the council about his 'crimes' which is why Inuyasha had so much time to get away. He'd wanted to slaughter the council afterword. Sesshomaru's mind wandered to the pup or pups that the hanyou was carrying, Inuyasha would give birth in approximately 5 weeks. He'd be a father in 5 weeks. Keeping that in his mind he continued to search.

Hours later he and his subordinates met at the rendezvous. Sesshomaru wore a cold mask as they reported nothing, apparently Inuyasha was anticipating that he might've searched those locations and hadn't been seen by the inhabitants. The lord wanted to groan, instead he focused on finding Inuyasha's lost scent. He searched for days with no avail, his ire increased as he hadn't slept and his youkai gave him no rest because of their mate's condition. The lord felt he'd travelled the entirety of his lands before it dawned on him that Inuyasha wouldn't have stayed here. Immediately sending messengers to the different lands, asking permission to enter he could do nothing more but wait for their approval. He was on edge, his leg bounced with the weight of his uncertainty as he tried to get a better read on Inuyasha through the mark he'd placed on him. He couldn't do it as well or track the hanyou as others could because Inuyasha had not marked him in return.

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1 week later and Inuyasha knew that he'd made the right decision in coming to the east, it was warm, the food was better, he loved it. However currently, it could be better. He felt dizzy and overheated, he could pass out at this rate. Eventually he found some water to cool his body in. He felt a pulse of something strange that went straight to his brain. Looking around and then at his own body he noticed his slightly distended abdomen. His eyes widened as his inner youkai self whispered, pups in his subconscious. "No…no no no no no…" Inuyasha felt panic seize his chest and it became harder to breathe. "This isn't happening…it's not happening! What is this?" Inuyasha was feeling a variety of emotions, from anger, to sadness, and everything in between. He could hear his heart beat in his ears, "I can't take care of a kid…I definitely can't take care of that monster's kids…but they're my kids too…" Inuyasha's eyes narrowed as he debated his baby bump. "I wasn't even in heat…" Inuyasha hadn't known it to be possible for youki of any kind to become pregnant outside of heat. Pulling himself from the water he set out to find a healer, one that wouldn't be opposed to helping the hanyou. He darted from village to village a lot faster than what he's use to before he felt it. Sesshomaru's youki. It was so unexpected that he was momentarily frozen in place. When the lord appeared, he looked calm and collected but the burning Inuyasha was feeling through his mating mark said otherwise.

"You will return with me to the castle at once." Sesshomaru ordered.

"Not on your life." Inuyasha growled.

Sesshomaru let go and allowed all of him to come out. His power bristled as he did something he'd hoped he would not have had to, "Inuyasha, come here." Inuyasha felt dizzy as his body lurched forward against his will.

The hanyou's eyes widened as he struggled, "What the fuck!?"

Sesshomaru merely looked at the hanyou standing before him, "We are going back to the castle. When we arrive, you will eat as instructed, treat the servants with the respect they deserve, and you will not leave the grounds without my company." This was the power that mates held over each other. It could only be invoked when a mate felt the other was a danger to themselves. Wrapping arms around the angry struggling hanyou, he wrapped them in his youki and darted to the castle through the sky. Sesshomaru squeezed the hanyou unconsciously as his youkai was elated that his mate was safely in their arms. Inuyasha was once again, trapped in the oppressive room and environment. When Sesshomaru left the room Inuyasha took to destroying everything and using the debris to lock himself in.

Inuyasha's hatred burned him causing the lord to grimace, his youkai had finally settled but it was in a fit of rage again because of how upset Inuyasha was currently. There was no winning he simply decided to let it play out. He decided to send Masane to examine him once more.

When word reached Masane of her task she sighed, "I told him to leave the pup be. Should've just followed him around until the hanyou confronted him about it." She rolled her dark eyes when she came to the blocked door. Her eyebrows knit together as she felt something a bit off about Inuyasha's aura. It was too desperate, and he wasn't all the way there. Little did she know, on the other side of the door the hanyou had done something regretful. She knew something wasn't right when the hefty smell of blood wafted through the thick door. With a wave of her hand the doors opened and the wreckage was moved. A shaking hand covered her mouth, this is what happens when you trapped someone. These were the actions of a desperate being with no way out. When you trapped someone, they did things you never thought them capable of. Her eyes stung at the lost and she looked away for only a moment. Looking around she stepped forward towards the young man who sat bleeding out quickly. She felt sorry for the two dying pups but more so for their parent who tore them from his body. Holding her breath she began working on the hanyou who was visibly paler. Masane felt her lords youki as he rushed to the room. The lord, in a rare show, fell to his knees at the sight of the carnage. "I need to get him to my room, or he will die." The lord said nothing as he helped the healer. In her rooms she was doing everything she could to save the hanyou's life and reproductive organs. Eventually, she was able to stabilize him but he remained in a blood loss coma.

Masane could tell that her lord was having a hard time processing the loss of his pups and the near loss of his mate. Back in the family wing of the castle, several servants were in tears. Many of them cursing the heartless hanyou that killed the lord's children. Many of them wailed as they prepared to bury the tiny bodies.

After a few days, Inuyasha still had not woken up. It was helping his healing and Masane was quite proud of her skills. She saved the lord and his reproductive organs, but she couldn't do much of anything about the coma. He needed time and would wake on his own. Sesshomaru however, currently stood in front of the graves made by his servants. It was a reminder of how he failed. He stood in front of the graves for hours, his servants sending worried looks as they performed their normal duties. "Look what he has done to our lord!" He heard their furious whispers. "The lord shouldn't have taken a cold mate like that, he would've been a father!"

With every word a knife cut deeper, he couldn't blame Inuyasha for this. It was his duty to see to the needs of his mate, everything conflicted however. Back in the healers quarters Masane was checking the hanyou over. His stitches had healed cleanly as in accordance to his youki blood. She smiled, satisfied. A golden eye, however, was watching her. She couldn't help but be a little surprised. Inuyasha said nothing and didn't actually seem to be looking at her. Sending an assistant to retrieve lord Sesshomaru who returned much quicker. Inuyasha was unresponsive. "What is wrong with him?" He asked, stroking the hanyou's cheek.

"I believe he is in shock." Masane stated, checking the hanyou's vitals.

"Inuyasha…" Sesshomaru whispered, looking into the hanyou's glazed over eyes. "When should this be over?"

"There's no telling. He is youki but he is also human, if it were either I could tell. There are several ways to bring him out of it but I believe at this stage, since he is still injured it'd be best to wait." Masane concluded. Watching with interest as Sesshomaru studied Inuyasha's eyes.

"Are we able to move him?" Sesshomaru asked after a while.

"That should be fine, but I will need to care for him regularly." Masane confirmed.

Sesshomaru picked up his mate and carried him back to the family wing, he'd had a different room prepared for the hanyou with a much more comfortable bed and a similar view. Kissing his brothers forehead he began giving orders to his servants about his care.

For the next week, Masane cared for the hanyou. Making sure his body was taking in the nutrients it needed. She had to scold a servant more than once. It was obvious what they were doing, she could see the hatred brimming from the servants whenever they saw the hanyou. She herself was ready to decapitate one, which went against what she believed in. They purposely forgot the things she requested, and conveniently forgot to bath the lord. She narrowed her eyes when one nearly spilled boiling water on him. Knowing what would become of them but being more concerned with Inuyasha's health she covered him with a blanket and moved to leave the room when she heard a whimper.

Turning around she saw tears glistening in his eyes. "What did I do!?" He screamed loud enough to shake the room. Sesshomaru was walking towards Inuyasha's new rooms when he felt a stir in his mating mark, although the cold lord wasn't prepared for the bombardment of emotions that was sent his way. He was so overwhelmed with the range and intensity of emotions that Inuyasha was feeling that his eyes rolled back and he lay passed out in the middle of the hall. Servants and guards rushed to his side. He shook them off and rushed to Inuyasha's room, the emotions making him dizzy and his youkai wasn't helping.

"Why would I do that!? Why?" Inuyasha sobbed loudly, the full realization hitting him. "What did I do? What did I do!?" He cried harder. Only Masane bared witness to the young hanyou's strife. "I want them back…I want…" He began to cough before leaning over the side of the bed and vomiting stomach acid. "I take it baaaack…" The events replayed in his head.

Inuyasha paced his room, ire growing with every moment in the room. He hated Sesshomaru, he hated the castle, he hated everything about his own situation, and most of all he hated this room. Nothing was in his control anymore. Everything was being decided for him, the one thing he had had all his life was his freedom. That was the one thing he loved about his life. Being able to come and go as he pleased. It was like being leashed with the beads again, only this time he didn't get smashed into the ground. This time he lost rights to himself and his life. He was trapped, like when he was trapped to the sacred tree. There was no telling what tactics the lord would use when the pups were born. There was no doubt in his mind that if the lord wanted to keep him away he would. The thought only angered him more. The lord probably raped him for this result. Why else? He always went on and on about their father to the point of having a complex so it wasn't an outrageous idea. He hadn't seen any shiroinu since being here and he was certain that was the only reason Sesshomaru saw fit to do this to him. He didn't want to have children with the cold lord. He wouldn't give birth to his kids. A clawed hand had already found his abdomen, his human subconscious egged him on, telling him it was only right. That he shouldn't give birth to the child of a rapist. While his youki subconscious wailed for him to stop as the human halve beat it into silence. He felt his youki pulse once before he plunged into his own body and removed his children, dropping them wherever he stood as he walked the room. He sat up against some debris and watched them twitch. His breathing slow and all he could hear was his youkai screaming in his head.

Inuyasha had never cried as much as he was currently. Not even the death of his mother had brought tears as such to his eyes. The flood of tears stained the sheets he was clutching so tightly. His short hair giving a clear view of the distraught face. Masane could feel the sorrow of the young lord as he reached a near hysterical level. Servants working and walking pass the room paused at the sight of their lord standing outside of the door. The lord could tell he was to blame. Inuyasha was feeling such a high level of regret and contempt for himself that Sesshomaru was at a complete loss. "What's wrong with me?" He cried loudly. "I'm sorry! I'm so sorry!" He choked out. "I'm sorry…" He continued to repeat like mantra. The hanyou gripped at his chest, a telltale sign that the wound cut deep in his heart. The servants and guards passing the room could hear nothing of what happened beyond the door. Only those of canine descent had any inkling of the happenings.

Standing outside of the room, he said nothing as he listened to the hysterics of the hanyou. He didn't have the words to describe what Inuyasha was feeling currently. Sesshomaru braced himself on the door as he was having trouble keeping a clear head. He'd always been taught to push down his emotions and keep them at bay. Inuyasha had no such training and the Lord couldn't repress emotions that were not his own. Inuyasha continued to sob for what felt like hours before crying himself to sleep. Sesshomaru decided to enter then. To see his brother, who against all odds came out on top, broken as he was, Sesshomaru could only examine his face. The lord couldn't understand his brother, he never had. Tears still stuck to long dark eyelashes. "He will be hungry when he wakes my lord." Sesshomaru spared Masane a glance before he tucked Inuyasha in and took his leave. A broth would be best, with large chunks of spiced meat and veggies. He made his way to the kitchens to request it and waited for it to be finished. The chefs were frantic as they expected him to simply leave. He waited in the same position for three hours until the food was ready. He simply took two bowls and rice on a tray and left. When he opened the door, Masane was gone and Inuyasha was sitting up in bed staring off into space. When the lord approached, he was given a cold stare and a low growl. Setting the tray on the bedside table he pulled a chair from a seating area. "Eat it if you are able. It should help your healing as you haven't eaten in several days." He watched as Inuyasha apprehensively too a bowl before sniffing it and eyeing it suspiciously. "Do you truly think me the type to poison someone?"

"I don't know maybe the gaping hole you left in my chest is a fucking indicator. Get the fuck away from me." Sesshomaru sighed and took the remaining bowl from the tray and began to eat. Inuyasha glared at him before starting to eat as well. Sesshomaru looked up to see Inuyasha scarfing down rice, before eyeing the other. The hanyou had eaten everything quite quickly and was obviously still hungry. Without thinking Sesshomaru handed his own bowl to the hanyou. Who took it without a word. Soon the hanyou had finished all of the food and drank a glass of water to wash it all down. "Would you like anything else?" Sesshomaru asked in his usual tone. Inuyasha however was just glaring at him once more before looking the bastard king over, the lord looked different. Gone was his armor and warrior clothing, he was actually wearing a yukata and his hair looked messy and disheveled, well as disheveled as the lord could look. He looked normal in a way, which Inuyasha found annoying. How could the bastard be s calm and relaxed after what he'd done to the hanyou. As if it was an everyday occurrence to be expected.

"Curry bread. Udon. Rice. Stir-fry." Inuyasha listed as he turned to stare at the fireplace, watching as it burned. Sesshomaru stood and headed back to the kitchen, telling them what to make. Inuyasha was staring at the door strangely, he hadn't expected the lord to go himself. He took a deep breath, he was sad and angry. He thought about his children, what they would've been like, what he could've taught them and how much he would've loved them had the circumstances been different. "I'm sorry." He whispered into the empty nothingness.

Sesshomaru felt Inuyasha's emotions deepen in regret and sadness and could only sigh as he waited for the chefs to complete their tasks. Everything was ready and loaded into the cart around an hour and a half later. Joining the quiet hanyou in his room once more, "I was unsure as to whether or not you are able to ingest raw meat so there are variations of each dish." Sesshomaru cleared the table and set up the curry bread, rice and udon.

"Shut. Up." Inuyasha muttered as he began scarfing the food down. His resources were depleted, he honestly doubted he could even move from the bed he was in. He ate item after item, Sesshomaru's eyes were wide as he assumed the hanyou would slow down at some point. He didn't. In the middle of eating another curry bun he mumbled, "Ramen would be so good right now."

"Ramen?" Sesshomaru questioned.

Inuyasha paused in his conquest and glared. Ignoring his question, he continued to eat. He didn't want to talk about Kagome but he felt the stab of her death deep within his chest. Sesshomaru felt the spike of hurt and bit his tongue. He hadn't meant to upset the hanyou more. Finishing off another bowl of rice he looked at the cart. Sesshomaru cleared what he'd eaten away and gave him the rest. He'd never seen one person eat so much…it was a bit gross. He thought to himself quietly, a bit happy the hanyou had refused to eat with him before. Inuyasha finished everything and sighed in satisfaction. He felt a tad too full but his body would burn it off quickly. If he learned anything about his body it was that it burned energy very quickly. "Why?" He asked when the silence became to loud.

"You must elaborate."

"Of all the damn people in the world. Of all the fucking youki nobility." Inuyasha began, "Why me?"

Sesshomaru really had no excuse of his own, his youkai would take no other, "...I'm unsure…"

"What?" Inuyasha raised an eyebrow a furious growl building in his chest.

"My youkai dictated that I do so. Otherwise we would not be in this situation." The lord explained simply.

"What the hell do you mean? My fucking youkai can't force me to do shit!" Inuyasha stated, becoming outraged.

Sesshomaru was a bit surprised, youki were their youkai just within a different conscious mind. There was very little that separated him from his youkai. When he was in his true form they were one in the same. "There is no youki, living or dead, who can deny their youkai's wishes. You are not fully youki…that may be the reason." Inuyasha narrowed his eyes, trying to comprehend not being in control of his youki aside from when he lost control, and it having the ability to do as it pleases. The mere thought made his stomach turn. "Inuyasha, are you able to speak with your youkai?"

The hanyou was going to ignore the question but , "Yeah." escaped his lips. "It gets annoying with the two voices shouting at me all of the time."

"Two?" Sesshomaru raised a worried brow.

"Human and youki, in a constant argument…but I can't hear them right now. They're not talking." Logically he knew that they didn't actually talk. It was just an easier way of explaining what the two halves actually did but to not have either one pulling him this way or that way Inuyasha was becoming anxious. Sesshomaru looked a little stunned at the revelation.

Sesshomaru continued talking much to Inuyasha's displeasure, "I am not opposed to being mated to you as my youkai must have some reason for it."

"So my fucking opinon was thrown out the fucking window huh? What made your bitch ass think I'd be okay with this? I'm not one of these fucking youki that kiss your ass. I fucking hate you." Was Inuyasha's infuriated reply, he couldn't believe a word from the lords mouth. "Leave." He snarled. He had a lot on his mind and wanted to be alone. With a curt nod, Sesshomaru took his leave.

Inuyasha examined the bed he was in, it was much more comfortable than the other one and the room was a lot less oppressive and helped him to not think about what Sesshomaru did. Hunching down into the blankets he tried not to think of his deceased children but failed. Tearing up, guilt ate at his heart. He wasn't thinking when it happened. "I'm sorry…I'm so sorry…" He felt his sorrow burn in his chest. "How could I do that to them?" He asked himself quietly. "Why would I?" He felt the human pulse in positivity and the youkai in negativity. Perhaps at that moment he was a lot more human in thought than usual. His youkai wanted to keep them. Inuyasha closed his eyes, imagining what they would've looked like at different ages and how he would've made sure their lives were better than what his had been. This led to thoughts of when he'd finally free himself from Sesshomaru. His life had always been a series of few ups and very many downs. "I won't give up." He eventually drifted off to sleep.

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Sesshomaru was in his own bedroom, sipping wine and dealing with Inuyasha's emotions. As distraught as the hanyou was, happily Sesshomaru couldn't see him doing something as drastic as taking his own life anymore. He could also feel the distrust Inuyasha felt towards him. It was to be expected, but until the hanyou healed and marked him, the hanyou would have to be cooped up in the castle. He called Masane to his room to discuss what Inuyasha had told him about the multiple voices. He'd never heard of something like that happening to hanyou, but then again, there were very few hanyou that lived to be Inuyasha's age.

"You called my lord?" Masane said outside of the door.

"Enter." She opened the door and bowed.

"Tell me what you know about the two halves of a hanyou." Sesshomaru demanded coldly.

"What do you mean, my lord." Masane questioned, a bit lost.

"Inuyasha says that he hears his human half as he does his youkai, is this possible?" The youki elaborated.

"Interesting. It could be what humans describe as their conscience. The part that tells them right from wrong, much like our instincts." Masane explained.

"So, it is possible?" He asked once more.

"Yes, very possible." She confirmed.

"How has he not gone insane. It is already difficult to have a youkai screeching in your head. A human voice cannot be helpful." Sesshomaru knew personally that he'd probably never be able to deal with such a situation.

"Well my lord, Inuyasha is around 250 years old, he's had quite some time to learn to manage and deal with them." She herself was considering this. Inuyasha was one of two hanyou she'd ever examined and the dual voices had never come up. "Were you afraid he might be crazy?"

"It crossed my mind." Sesshomaru stated simply.

"Well, I doubt that is the case. Currently, with the death of your pups, he's been acting as a normal inu who has just lost them. The shock, over eating, and wanting to be alone. There's a small chance he'll become quite needy and reliant upon you but there is no telling when you throw his human half into the mix. Ordinarily, it is impossible for an inu to physically harm their children. Leaving them to starve to death is possible in certain situations, but hurting them by your own hand, never. Most would take their own lives before allowing such, though there have been extreme cases, as with your mother." Masane nodded, thinking about the behavior she'd been observing. "Though, he isn't as distraught as inu become, and I think the human half plays on that part. A part of him is glad the children are gone."

Sesshomaru lost himself in his thoughts, a part of him was hurt that his children hadn't even had a chance to live but his youkai had not made a connection with them yet so he wasn't feeling what Inuyasha was. "You may leave, Masane." She bowed and headed back to her office. Sesshomaru finished the last of his wine as he felt Inuyasha drift off to sleep. He needed Inuyasha to mark him so his youkai finally relaxed. Inuyasha wasn't an official mate because Sesshomaru didn't bare his mark. The lands would only see him as a concubine if they learned he had not marked the lord in turn, and his youkai flared in his core at the thought.

Alrighty, chapter 2, thank you all for your feedback and thanks a bunch for reading! I know this story is really tough and difficult to read, but I'll throw a hint out to you all. Learn more about the psychological changes victims go through especially male victims, it might help you understand Inuyasha more...(I tend to research for my stories)...

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