So…death is weird, I mean I sort of expected for it to be a void of nothing from all the fanfics I've read but I didn't really think that is what actually happens after death. But I suppose I should explain how I died (to myself), I think I bled out but I also could have died from something else due to the car crash so I'm not entirely sure.
So what is there to do? I could go with the cliche route and start creating my own stories in my head but I think it would be more entertaining to philosophize, for instance I originally thought that consciousness isn't a real thing but considering I can still think that disproves that theory.
So because there isn't a hell I would have been sent to, I'm pretty sure that the classical depictions aren't true, so the question then becomes whether or not consciousness was made by a being or was simply a cosmic accident.
So if I had to guess then conciseness was probably an accident though I'm not sure, I mean considering that I'm in a endless void right now there is a strong possibility of a R.O.B out there. All though in many fanfics where there is the void after death there is no R.O.B and the MC just gets randomly sucked into a new universe, though that for some reason seems more common in naruto fanfics. So there are a lot of possibilities but the void isn't nearly as insanity inducing as depicted in some works, it's more akin to doctor stone where it's hard to stay awake though as long as I keep thinking I should be just fine.
Maybe I should try and solve some 'impossible' questions about the human mind or physics, that should keep me occupied for the next few thousand years…
Total number of words thought: 313
…no the problem with the expansion of the universe isn't that its increasing in speed it's that it seems that matter is being created from beyond its confines which might be our universe colliding with others in the multiverse and our universe sort of eats them gaining their energy and reprocessing the other universes matter…
Total number of words thought: 1,971,250,000,000,000,000
…perhaps the human mind is unique but I highly doubt it, but what causes us to even process information the way that we do? Maybe it was evolution? I mean it makes some sense after all if a processing unit is receiving an enormous amount of data it would be more efficient to abstract the information which could explain the way we experience everything. Though the fact that the mind stays after death as proven by myself there is something distinctly unnatural about the mind…
Total number of words thought: 3,885,826,562,500,000,000,000,000,000,000,000,000
…so what if electrons aren't quantum objects, and the double slit experiment is flawed. After all, the only way that we know how to observe something is to send something out and then it bounces back. So an electron detector would have to interact with the electron no matter what and this could alter its movement, this would mean that…
Total number of words thought: 7,659,935,611,328,125,000,000,000,000,000,000,000,000,000,000,000,000,000
…so I've measured the speed at which I think and assuming it hasn't gotten faster which would make sense as my thoughts should be on no delay because I don't have to transmit electricity through my neurons to think, So I think at approximately 5 words every 2 nanoseconds. And taking that into account and the amount of words I've thought which is 15,099,648,073,830,566,406,250,000,000,000,000,000,000,000,000,000,000,000,000,000,000,000,000,000 words and there are 31,540,000,000,000,000 nanoseconds in a year that means I've been here for 478,745,975,708,007,812,500,000,000,000,000,000,000,000,000,000,000,000,000 years. Huh that's a lot I thought I would start to forget things eventually but I don't have a brain so I can't, you know I really thought that something would happen by now. But I've solved all the problems I can think of with my resources of just my thoughts.
So I guess the only thing left to do is to let myself 'sleep'...
what the fuck is that!? I haven't seen anything in an amount of time that would make the universe seem like a blip!
"Indeed you have." are you fucking kidding me! I've been here this whole time and you only just found me and that's the first thing you have to say!? "I suppose I did indulge myself a bit listening to your thoughts, I had know about your existence after about 2 years." ok so what are you? "You've already calmed down? That's impressive though that shouldn't surprise me considering that you have stayed conscious for longer than some beings like myself had in this place. I'll be honest the only reason I'm still around is because of you, so thank you for entertaining me."
I can tell that you are sincere but that doesn't answer what you are.
"Yes, that is what you asked. I suppose that I'm a… how should I put this? You know what, I'll simply implant the knowledge into you and you can figure it out"
wow that is a sensation, but you would be akin to a god to humans, though I already theorize that you are in the next stage of decay after a consciousness goes to sleep here. Though it should be a somewhat rare occurrence. "That is… the best explanation for my kind that I have heard of"
Ah, so that confirms that you can communicate with each other.
"Yes we can communicate, though I haven't told the others about you. This was selfish of me considering you would have prolonged the lives of many"
So did you intervene because I was about to give up?
"Yes, I couldn't simply let you dissipate. Though if your theory is correct then there might have been a chance for you to become one of us, though considering we don't remember what we were before or if we were anything before you would have forgotten everything."
What is your plan then?
"Well I'll be honest I was about to give up when I found you and started looking at your thoughts, and I think it's time for me to go."
Huh so you are going to leave me? I'll be honest it was the best thing to ever happen to me to be able to talk to you. After being alone for so long.
So what about me?
"Don't worry, my kind can transport consciousnesses into universes. Though we are unable to do so ourselves. The only other thing to have existed longer than you have is R.O.B"
Ah so it's a single entity that does it, I see. I'm guessing that's also the reason you didn't tell the others because he would have reincarnated me before you were ready?
"Yes but it was still wrong of me to do that."
I suppose it might have been but it doesn't matter now.
"Yes I suppose you are correct, so where do you want to go?"
So I've thought about this since before I died and I think Harry Potter would have the most potential for exploration.
"That is a fair choice, I will give you some advantages if you want them."
I would be an idiot to refuse, but I do want this life to be entertaining so I only want a couple things. Immunity to the negative effects of spells I use, and a high aptitude for all forms of magic.
"Alright , this is goodbye, I hope I can call you a friend after all these years. Though I still don't know your name."
Yeah we're friends and my name is Evan though I think I'll go by noswyl manus from now on, should help me fit in.
"Goodbye then noswyl."
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End of chapter 1: I hope you like it, chapter two will be out either today or tomorrow!