Chapter Twelve

As mentioned at the end of the last chapter. The mature rating is due for a few reasons. Smut is one of them. Bella does talk about that night with Edward. It starts at the beginning of the chapter, if that is something that is not your cup of tea, skip this chapter because it's trauma and potential sex. I'll notate the trigger warning when it starts.

After lunch, Edward and I went to the living room. I turned on the electric fireplace and the TV to play soft background music. "Can I ask you what made you clam up with the others?"

I sighed. "Ever since the incident, I had one boyfriend that didn't get serious because it was the year after the rape happened. I barely let the man kiss me. He couldn't handle a 'frigid' woman, so we broke. In reality, he never knew about that night." I sighed. "Then, I told myself that if I were to get over this whole thing, I would just rip it off like a bandaid and find a stranger. Like a one-night stand." I paused. "That made it worse because those who did it to me were strangers. I was a virgin when it happened because I wanted to save myself for someone who I share the same kind of love that I witnessed my Nonni have for each other." I took a deep breath. "But that was taken from me. I went from being a virgin to having a body count of 5."

Edward put his elbows on his knees. "Isabella Marie, this is my promise to you. You handled one of them. I'm going to find the other 4, and I'm going to end them."

Trigger Warning

I looked at Edward in the eye. "Find the other 6." He looked confused. "Rosalie might have been numb to what was happening to her. Royce may have held her eyes open that night, but she had two men inside of her." He nodded in confirmation. "Another thing." He stared at me. "I want to be there when you do it. I want to look them in the eye when you take their lives."

He leaned back. "We can talk about that another time." I nodded. "If you can talk about that night, I would like to know more about it, but I don't want to pressure you to talk about it."

I sighed. "We should probably get this conversation over with before we go deeper into this." He nodded. "I was feeling a little lonely because Royce kept Rosalie locked away. The only two people allowed to see her were Papa E and Lorenzo. I was so over it. One day, I decided to say fuck it. I missed my best friend. I went to Royce's apartment in the city and pounded on that door like I was a cop at a drug raid. One of the guys opened the door." The tears started to fall. "Edward, the first thing that I was beside 7 naked men was my best friend, my rock, chained to a plywood wall naked as the day she was born. Rosalie had such a dead look in her eye that I thought they were fucking her corpse. Her eyes moved the slightest bit, and we stared at each other. I broke whatever trance that she was in." I wiped my eyes. "She started to fight against the chains like a wild animal to protect me." I took a deep breath. "They were all high as a kite on some form of drugs. I believe that it was cocaine, heroin, or both. I had a pussy and Rosalie's holes were being filled. I was locked in the apartment with them. One of them came up behind me, grabbed the back of my neck, and forced me to the ground. I don't know what happened because the next thing that I knew, I was naked on the floor. Another guy grabbed my legs and threw them open, but Royce called out dibs since I ruined their fun."

"Baby," Edward whispered.

"No," I stated firmly. "I don't want your pity. I'm telling you this because if you want the future that you say you want with me. You need to know." He just nodded. "Royce came between my legs, and he just pushed into me. He cheered to his buddies when he realized that I was a virgin." I sighed. "You know what the worst part of the night was for me?" I wiped my eyes. "When she realized that they wouldn't stop raping me, I saw the life leave her eyes. She became a shell. That's the part that killed me the most. I've never seen her like that."

"Oh god," Edward said as he paled.

"I thought anal was a no-zone for me, but they didn't care. They took turns raping my vagina and my ass. I wasn't drugged or anything, so my only saving grace was that they didn't put their cocks near my mouth because I would have bit it off. They all just took turns covering my mouth to keep me from screaming until I was able to do it that one time." I sighed. "Where I have previously stopped with other guys after that is when they pulled out their cocks."

Edward came over and kneeled in front of me. "I'm going to find every one of them. For you, Bella. For you and Rose." He laid his head in my lap. "I'll kill each one of them for you, baby." I ran my fingers through his hair for a couple of moments. "I never want you to feel pressured to do anything with me. You set the pace of this." He motioned between us. "I'm following your lead. What you say goes."

"I know," I whispered to him. "I can do kissing safely, but when it comes to more than that, I don't know. I didn't have experience before then and I don't have any of it now."

He nodded. "When you are ready, I will help you navigate it."

I sighed. "Can we do one thing?" He looked at me. "Could we..." I trailed off. "I've never been intimate with anyone in a bed." I took a deep breath. "I have a TV in my room. Could we lay down in my bed and relax?"

Edward nodded. "Yes, we can." He stood up, and he helped me stand up off the couch.

I looked him up and down at his suit. "You might be a little uncomfortable in that."

He made a guilty face. "I stopped by my penthouse when I got your text to get some other clothes."

I nodded. "Go grab them. I'm going to go put something else on." He nodded. I went upstairs to my bedroom. I changed into pajama shorts - thin material - and a basic T-shirt. I didn't have a bra or underwear because I wanted to try. There was a knock on my door. "Come in." Edward walked in carrying an overnight bag. "This is my side." I pointed to the side further away from the door. "You can put your gun in that drawer. I have one in that drawer as well as this one."

"Good. I would make you switch if you were near the door." I nodded. I watched as Edward got his stuff situated. "I'm going to go change." I got under the covers and waited for Edward. I turned the TV on and found a random movie. When Edward came back out, he changed into a white shirt and black pajama pants. "Where do you want me to be?"

"Under the covers." He nodded and got under. I snuggled into his side, and he wrapped his arm around me. "You're pretty comfortable. I'm demanding that we stay here all day."

Edward chuckled. "Then, we will stay here." We watched the first movie and started another. About halfway through the second one, I got out of bed. "Where are you going?"

I sighed. "I'm going to shut the curtains to get it darker here." I shut my blackout curtains to give it the illusion of being nighttime. When I returned to bed, I didn't snuggle back into Edward. I just laid there facing him. "Edward," I softly said.

He situated himself to face me. "Yeah, baby?" He moved some hair out of my face.

"Kiss me." Edward leaned in and kissed me. I felt him move his hands to my waist. When we pulled apart from our kiss, I snuggled closer to him. "Hi."

"Hi," he responded. We stared into each other eyes. His dark emerald green eyes to my deep brown ones. Without losing eye contact, I grabbed one of his hands and gently put it on my boob on top of my shirt. "Oh," he said in shock.

"I want to try," I confirmed. Edward didn't verbally respond, but he did squeeze. My mouth slightly opened, and I let out a breath. I could feel both my nipples getting a little harder.

"Shit," Edward quietly said to himself. He stared at his hand for a moment before he looked at me. When he looked back at me, I just gave me a nod. He kept doing what he'd been doing. I did the same thing to his other hand. His fingers toyed with my hardened buds. "These feel so good, Tesoro." I moaned in response. "Are you doing okay?"

"Yeah," I whispered. I just lay there in silence for a moment to gather my thoughts. "Can I..." I paused because I didn't know what I wanted to do. "Can I touch you?"

Edward nodded. "Yeah, baby. You can where you are comfortable with touching."

"Can you take off your shirt?" He took his shirt off and put his hands back on me while I lightly touched his chest and stomach. My hands glided down to the top of his pajama pants. My fingertips went under his pants and underwear, and I felt a little bit of his penis. I felt it get a little harder. My heart started to beat a little faster. I took a few deep breaths.

Edward moved his hands off of me. "We can stop."

I shook my head. "No," I firmly said. "Just give me a moment." He didn't put his hands back on me. I put my hand in his pants a little bit more and wrapped my hand around his hard-on. I didn't jerk it off or anything. I just held it.

My heart was still beating rapidly as I held it.

It's okay, Bella. You are safe. Edward is your safety blanket. He won't hurt you. Edward isn't like those other guys. He is your Edward. He isn't a rapist. He isn't going to do anything to you that you don't want him to do.

Edward moved some loose hair out of my face. "Baby?" I looked at me. "Are you okay?"

"Yeah," I whispered.

He nodded. "Okay. You spaced out on me."

"I'm okay." I leaned forward and kissed him to confirm that to him. "Can I move my hand?" He nodded. I started to jerk him off using some of his pre-cum to lube up my hand. His clothes were in my way, so I stopped. "I'm going to grab a towel for after. Do you want to take off your pants?" He nodded. I quickly left, grabbed a clean towel from my bathroom, and returned to bed.

Edward had the blanket covering him up. "Tell me what you are most comfortable with."

I slowly put my hand back onto his penis. "I just want to keep doing what I've been doing now."

"Okay. I need to do something real quick. Let go for a second." I quickly moved my hand off. He spit in his hand, and out of the corner of my eye, I saw his hand move. "Sorry, Tesoro. A dry handjob is not the best feeling."

I started to feel guilty. "I'm sorry. I don't have lube. I didn't even think about something like that."

"I'm not mad at that. It's fine." I went back to giving him a hand job. Edward groaned. "That feels good." His moaning was turning me on which I didn't think would. I felt him get a little dry, so I copied his actions from earlier. "Fuck, baby. Don't stop." I moved my hand quicker, and he moaned more.

I suddenly got the urge to taste him. "Can I try something?" Edward nodded. I kneeled next to him, and Edward stared at me. Honestly, he looked different than the men who raped me. His cock looked clean, and his pubic hair was trimmed up nicely. I took his head in my mouth and sucked on it.

"Fuck," He groaned. "Yeah, baby." It looked like he didn't know what to do with his hands. I grabbed one and guided it to my ass. He gently squeezed as I sucked. I took more of him in my mouth. I blew him. "Baby, I'm about to cum. I don't want to cum in your mouth until you are comfortable with it." He groaned. My mouth left him, and I jerked him off until he came in my hand. "Fuck yeah, baby. Your mouth felt so good." We clean ourselves up. I laid back down next to him while he put his pants on. We ended up making out a little bit more.

"I didn't feel as scared with you," I confessed. "I was nervous when we started but then I felt safe."

He kissed my forehead. "You will always be safe with me, Bella. Do you want me to try touching you more?"

"Yeah," I said. "Could we go above the clothes?" He nodded. His hand slowly went between my legs, and I opened them up for him. He used his fingers to rub my clit. I let out a breathy moan. He did it for a little bit longer. "Let's take these off," I hesitantly said. I took off my clothes. Edward just stared at me, and I was starting to feel self-conscious.

"You are so beautiful, baby." He kissed me. "So fucking beautiful." He rubbed my thigh. "Do you want to take a second? Or do you want me to continue?"

"Keep going," I said. His fingers found my clit. "Shit," I moaned out. I could feel the wetness pool between my legs more. "Edward." He hummed in response. "Harder." His fingers pressed a little more. "Fuck." I leaned onto his shoulder.

This should have been my first time. Edward makes me feel safe and so good.

I bite his shoulder to contain myself. "Do you want my fingers inside you? Can I taste you?" I nodded to him. He moved between my legs. "Your pussy looks so beautiful." I kept my eyes on him as he dove right in. "So delicious."

He was making me feel so good. "Please. Baby, please."

His fingers entered inside me, and my ass lifted off the bed. "What, Baby? What do you need?"

"I want to cum," I begged him. "Please make me cum."

"Of course, my girl." He played with me a little bit more. My lower stomach tightened up. "I can tell that you are almost there. Your pussy is tightening on my fingers." He sucked on my clit more.

"Right there! Don't stop. Please don't stop." He kept going, and I felt the tightening in my stomach release. My legs did their own thing and trapped him there. They were also shaking. "Damn."

I started to move to get up. "Stay there, baby." He walked to my bathroom and came back with a wet and dry washcloth. He helped me clean up. Once I was dressed again, we laid back in bed and had a movie marathon.