ENGAGEMENT GAP-2
Hello all. Thank you very much for all the wonderful reviews after yesterday's chapter. It's good to know, that even after writing 100 stories, you still want to read them. In today's chapter, I would like to refer to that mysterious smile, that Elsie has in the beginning of episode 2, season 6, when she tells in the kitchen, that she is going to the village and Carson says that he will join her. You want to know why the mysterious smile? I will tell you ;-)
Elsie started her day humming from joy. Ever since that wonderful evening in Charles's pantry, when they made all their doubts clear, she felt like she began a new life. Her daily routine was still the same, her duties has not changed, but now she knew, that she had something to look forward to.
Not only the wedding day, but present times filled her with utter joy, because now she and Charles no longer had to be just work colleagues, like they were for all those years. Now they were engaged to be married and apart from the fact, that the household knew about it, there was one very private area, that they left just for themselves and she was very happy about that area...
She was styling her hair in the mirror, noticing how her eye expression had changed in a very moment, when she thought about her wonderful fiancee...Her eyes were full of dreams now and she loved each day, because each day was bringing a promise of something new and exciting.
All those stolen kisses, with the thrilling prospect of getting caught, with one of many interruptions, that they were facing, those hidden touches in the hall, or in their rooms. The way that he was looking at her now, when nobody was watching.
That look of his usually made her feel hot flushes all over her body. When they were Carson and Mrs Hughes, he would never allowed himself to look at her that way, but when they were Charles and Elsie, two people madly in love, all was permissible.
This was something new for her, totally new. In all her modesty, Elsie never thought of herself as a woman who can evoke passionate feelings in men, probably this was the main reason, why she thought that she was not desirable enough for him.
However now she knew, that this assumption was not entirely true. When he was looking at her that way, she was weak in the knees. It was so exciting, there were so many promises in his eyes. She was no longer frighetened with the prospect of closeness in marriage. She was actually looking forward to it.
They were still sharing kisses since that memorable night and it was so wonderful, they only thing that she was not quite pleased about, was that Charles seemed to keep himself in control. He didn't let those moments to transfer into something more heated, into something which would make her head spin and to her own amazement, this was exactly what she wanted.
It was like he was having some inner brake, which did not allow him to go further and Elsie was impatiently waiting for him to be caught off guard.
Charles was indeed trying to keep himself in full control, which was not easy with the wild actions that were recently happening between them, behind closed doors. He kept repeating himself, that he needed to stay calm, but when he was having Elsie close, he thought, that he was going mad from love and desire.
She was so warm, smelling so wonderfully, there was so much love in her eyes and she was eager to be with him. All these factors made him feel like a man, who would go insane from the burning need that was in him.
If only Elsie showed him in any way, that he crossed the line, that she thought, that they should slow down. But no. She was so much involved in their moments and that totally let his guard down and he caught himself not being able to focus on his duties, because the only thing that he could think of, was Elsie. Instead of doing what he was suppose to do, he was searching for a possibility to be alone with her.
On this afternoon, he came back after a meeting upstairs with Lady Mary, who wanted to settled a household matter with looked at his clock and noticed, that it was already after servants tea time. He sighed deeply, thinking that soon he will have to ring a gong for dinner, without having a little break that he really needed.
His sad reflections vanished, when after entering his pantry, he noticed a tea kettle and three sandwiches. He already knew who was responsible for it. It had to be Elsie. She appeared in his pantry noiselessly.
"You came back Charles..."-she closed the door..."I brought you tea and sandwiches..."
"Thank you Elsie...You are an angel. Here I was thinking, that I will have to be on empty stomach till dinner and I have such nice surprise."
"I couldn't let you be hungry...You have so much work ahead of you, before we will sit to dinner..."
"I can't thank you enough..."
"Sit down and eat it, you still have few moments till the gong..."
"First things first..."-he bent down and kissed her...She reciprocated the kiss...
Charles would be eager to continue, but this time Elsie put a stop on that...
"Not now Mr Carson...Time to have something delicious..."
"I already had something delicious, something that no tea and sandwiches can top..."
She blushed hearing those words...Elsie still could not get used to the fact, that he found her so desirable...It was adorable...
Charles ate his sandwiches and then he came back to work, he got downstairs late and was forced to eat his dinner alone, as everyone else ate earlier...It was really late...Downstairs corridors were slowly becoming empty..
Elsie was in the kitchen and she was helping Mrs Patmore with something. When Charles ate his dinner, he decided to join them and they were both smiling to each other secretly, behind Mrs Patmore back, but soon their smiles turned into a hidden laugh, as they both noticed, that Mrs Patmore had a red mark on her nose, probably from the beets, that she was using earlier, which made her look like a circus clown. Elsie was blinking to Charles and he couldn't stop smiling...
Mrs Patmore saw their happy faces, but she didn't know the reason...She did understand, that they wanted to be left alone, so she decided, that she can finish what she started tomorrow and she went away, saying good night.
Elsie followed Charles to his pantry and they were sitting on the sofa, laughing from what they saw...
"Poor Mrs Patmore...Here we are making fun of her, when she helped us so much..."-Elsie still was not able to hide her amusement...
"She did...I will be eternally grateful to her. She should be an honorary guest at our wedding..."
"I agree...But then we would have to explain everyone, what was her role in our future marriage and that's something that should stay only between us, don't you agree Charles?"-Elsie asked gently, touching his cheek with love...
His eyes softened and he took her hand in his and kissed it with respect...
"Yes Elsie, I agree...There are some things regarding our intimacy, that should stay only between us..."
"Charles...I need to ask you this...Because I simply can't forget about it...Those things that you said to Mrs Patmore during your conversation...Were they all true? Did you mean what you said?"
"Every word Elsie...Everything I said was true...I just wish that..."
"That what?"
"That you were not the first one who heard those words from me...Actually, you should be the only one to heard it...Mrs Patmore should not be involved...It was my fault, that I wasn't able to confess you what I was feeling..."
"No Charles...It was my fault...I was the one who started to back down, because of my fears of not being attractive enough..."
"You should never have those fears Elsie...You are so beautiful...I told Mrs Patmore, that in my eyes you are beautiful...But you are beautiful in everyone's eyes...You are lovely and charming...He was still holding her hand and kissing the tips of her fingers, which caused shivers down her spine...
Elsie could not understand, how his simple touch, was able to cause such emotions in her...
"Charles...When she told me that...I...I was so happy...Nobody in my life, has even said anything like that..."-her voice suddenly broke down and her eyes filled with tears of joy...
"That's because you were surrounded by blind fools and sadly, I was one of them, but no more...Now I will shout out to the whole world, that my fiancee is a wonder and the most beautiful woman on earth..."
Elsie let her eyes down..She felt embarrassed by the rush of emotions dancing in her...She didn't want him to see her tears...They were flowing down on her face and she was amazed, when she felt his lips kissing them away...
She sighed deeply, thinking, that there could not possibly be any truer sign of love..Her face was close to his now and in one moment, they were kissing again...
This time it was not a shy or chaste kiss, this was the first one, when Elsie did not feel the need of being modest and withdrawned...She embraced his neck, while he embraced her waist and she got so much closer to him, closer than ever before...
Charles felt, that the alcohol that he drank, plus Elsie's bold actions, were causing his blood to be on fire...Again he wanted to stop, so they would not go further with this, but this time, Elsie was not going to let him run away from their arising passion...
When he felt, that her fingers started to gently massage his skull and moved to his hair, exploring it, he quickly lost his usual self control and his lips were passionately caressing hers and she respondend instincitvely, opening hers a bit, giving him a chance to put his tongue inside..She didn't know the drill, it was pure instinct, mixed with passion, that has taken over her completely.
When their tongues touched and his hands slid down from her waist, dangerously closed to her bottom, Elsie let out a sound, which caused wildness in Charles...
It was something between the whimper and a moan, he couldn't quite described it, but when he heard it, he was mad with lust.
How many years he was dreaming about Elsie Hughes moaning into his mouth, moaning during kisses and during many images of their sexual relations, that he had in his head for years...He never thought, that he would live the day to finally heard it...Yet he did...She was in his arms, kissing him so eagerly, full of desire, free from any kind of inhibitions...
Charles knew, that he should have stopped, this was high time to stop it, if he wanted to sustain any rules of proper behavior, but he simply wasn't able to...For so many years, the strict and severe butler was always winning with his burning needs of man, but not anymore.
Not when he had Elsie in his arms, so in love with him and so openly showing him her lust...It was more than he could take..
His lips moved from hers, to kiss her jawline and travelled to her creamy neck, only to feel her pulse, which seemed to be quicker than usual...
The scent that she was using, was now fully attacking his nostrils and that made him want her even more...Her hands slid down from his hair to his neck and his torso and she was touching him through his shirt...
The only thought that his mind was able to produce now, was that he wished, that he had his shirt on.. He would love to be naked now and feel her hands on his body, but this was not the right time for it yet...
While his lips were doing magic tricks on her neck, her quiet whimpers transferred into lousder ones, which left no doubts how aroused she was now...
"Charles..."-she purred straight into his ear and he barely could stop himself from making some bolder move, like squeezing her breasts, which he was dreaming about...He knew, that she was in a state now, in which she would let him do it.
He had a feeling, that she would let him do much more...
He went back to her lips and they were kissing so passionately, that it almost deprived them both of their breaths...The sudden bulge rapidly growing in his trousers, told him, that it was time to stop...
"Elsie..."-he gasped..."We need to stop..."
"Why exactly Charles? I don't want to stop..."-once again her fingers were in his hair and she surprised him, by taking a lower lip of his into his mouth to chew it...
"Oh God Elsie...We have to...Otherwise I will...Oh God help me...I will make you mine here and now.."
"I want to be yours Charles...Here and now..."
He moved away from her, with the greatest reluctance...He would have given everything to continue, but he knew they couldn't...She opened her eyes, disappointed with the break...She wanted more...
"Elsie..."-he whispered..."I love you so much, so very much.."
"I love you too Charles, that's why I want us to..."
"I know love...But we can't do it yet...Soon we will be married and then we won't have to stop, but not yet...Elsie, I can't disrespect you in any way, it wouldn't be fair..."
"I know that you don't want to...You would never do a thing like that Charles...It's just that I had no idea, that it could be so...So overwhelming...I never felt anything like it before..."
"There will be plenty time for this Elsie...But not tonight..."
"Spoilsport..."she joked, smiling warmly..In that case, one more little kiss good night..."-she kissed him lovingly, no trace of earlier passion...Short, but sweet...
Elsie got up from the sofa and she paced into the door...
"I'm going up Charles, are you coming too?"
"In a minute, I just need to finish something here...Good night..."
"Good night Charles.."
Elsie left and Charles sighed with relief...That was a lie that he had to use...He could not get up now, as the clear sign of his arousal, would be visible for anyone and that would be so embarassing...He needed a moment to cool off...
Next day...
Elsie just announced in the kitchen, that she was going to the village and she was pleasantly surprised, when her man offered to go there with her...She looked at him with a little hint of abashment...It was so difficult to pretend, in the presence of other people, that everything was as before, whilst all she could think about, was their night indecencies...
That was quite a long chapter, but I wanted to effectively built a tension leading to that eruption of passion...Ever since I saw that mysterious Elsie smile in episode 2, I thought- "oh dear, there was something going on last night, no doubt about it...Since we didn't get to see the best part, here I am, filling the gap. Hope you had fun reading it. Have a very good week.