You ever had something that you suddenly remember? Now, how about those what if scenarios that show at night. It's not like I have much to keep me up, except when I start thinking of when I was a kid. The many adventure's I had with my friends. When my brother Dil is born, I had been scared of losing my place in our family, the second biggest thing to happen to me is when we met.
Both of us started as kids, not having the concept of what it meant to feel attraction. I think it was the first time when we're left alone that I finally felt something strange being around you. "Come one Tommy!" I look at you, I must of been more obvious, catching you looking at me the same way, I didn't know what it meant but I told myself it wasn't a bad feeling. I think time made it worse for me because I started wanting to be at your side more. You seem to know something was different in my behavior.
When we were alone, is when you looked at me and said. "You been acting weird Tommy. You keep staring at me. I ask Susie about this, do you like me?" I couldn't think of the meaning behind those words. "Of course I like you." You look away giving me side glance, lost in thought about something, I wasn't sure what to expect as you shook your head. "No, not that Tommy, more than a friend." More than a friend echo in my mind. "What you mean Kimi?" I didn't understand what could be more than a friend until you said, "Never mind." You seem frustrated about something.
I thought why not ask the one person to help me understand. My dad. He told me while working on new invention. "You're in love Tommy." He kept tinkering until completely stopping. "I knew this day would happen, I just didn't expect this early." After rubbing his chin in thought he carefully explain to me what I've been feeling, I still wasn't sure what to do. "What do I do Dad." He seem to be thinking, my dad finally gave an answer.
"Maybe take this slow Sport. See how it goes by hanging out with her more. Don't rush as you got a long time to understand what you want." I took his advice to heart. The same day I went to Chuckie house and knock on the door. Chuckie dad open the door, giving me the happiest of smile, allowing me inside. "Hey Tommy, Chuckie is…" I didn't think carefully before speaking, not understanding what I'm about to ask. "I'm actually here to see Kimi." His eyes got big as he was use to me only ever asking about Chuckie.
"Let me call her down for you. Kimi! Tommy here to see you." I watch as he went to get her not noticing his change of tone, as I sat down on their sofa in the living room, waiting for her. Kimi finally showing up, I couldn't read the expression she gave me, approaching me without breaking eye contact, sitting across from me. "Hey Tommy. What do you want?" I didn't know what to say to her as I look at her, her hair untied bringing out a new side to her. I look at her swallowing my saliva to clear my throat. Thinking about how to let her know my intentions, not only was she my best friend sister but she's my friend too. "I think I like you Kimi." We both sat in silence, across from each other now, waiting for one of us to respond.
"Tommy, I'm not sure. I know what you mean." She move to sit closer to me, we both sat in silence for a few minutes . "We can hang out and see where it goes. Just promise me we'll always be friends." I look at her as we both felt like something had already reset our friendship. "I promise." I didn't know what to do, the thought of telling Chuckie sat back in my mind, what he'll say about us dating. This didn't feel real to me. As we turn on the television, changing channel until we stopped on a Reptar movie on television, both agreeing to watch as our distance became closer.
I felt my heart beating faster, I could smell Kimi scent from how close she got. Her smell, a sweet scent. She look at me and turn away, I did the same realizing I've been staring at her for more than a minute. While watching, a part in the movie show a man and woman getting close, touching lips, while holding each other tightly before Reptar crash into the building while fighting another monster. Kimi and I both look at each other thinking the same thing about the way they touch lips. I can't remember what we did, what I remember is her dad clearing his throat loudly to alert us of his presence.
"I brought popcorn for you kids." Holding to big plastic buckets full of popcorn, I didn't know what to do, we're both blushing as her dad sat down on the couch across and began watching the movie with us. I didn't mind as it help ease my awkwardness. "Oh, right here. This is the part where Reptar is about to lose to mecha-Reptar. The way the director film this scene. He did this in one shot, he was under pressure at the time to release a good movie cause the studio was close to shutting down." I couldn't help noticing the way Kimi look at me, as I talk about the movie. "Do you ever think about being a filmmaker Tommy? " She surprise me, I didn't tell anyone about that as I wasn't sure about becoming one, I couldn't see it more than a hobby for me. When I left, "I had fun Tommy, we should hang out more."Kimi went inside as I walk next door to my house, I wave at her one more time, seeing her face giving me a warm feeling.
That night, as I'm laying down in my bed, I look at my ceiling. Replaying the day. Surreal to me that any of this is actually happening in the first place as I wonder what would happen. I close my eyes waiting to sleep, thinking about everything going on in my life. I just knew tomorrow is going to be a good day.