Johnny was damn near tingling with anticipation as he and Kevin returned to his car. Just the simple act of sitting in that bar, talking and flirting and holding hands, for God's sake, was doing more to spark his desire than anything he'd done over the last couple of months.
Sure, he'd tried with Lisa, but it never felt right, and he was never quite sure why. He had chalked it up to him simply not being all that into her. Now he found himself starting to wonder if there was more to it.
But that was something that could wait. Right now, he had the whole night ahead of him and a hot man to spend it with.
Almost as soon as they climbed into the car, Johnny reached out and caressed Kevin's thigh, feeling the muscle flex even through the material of his pants. Kevin merely looked amused at the move. "What's the matter, can't wait until we get home?"
"Not that I can't." Johnny responded as he leaned over to capture Kevin's mouth in a brief kiss. "Don't want to."
"I see." Kevin murmured.
"What, you've never done it in a car?"
"I have." Kevin replied. "Just not since high school."
"Maybe we oughta rectify that." Johnny moved in closer, stroking Kevin's cheekbone with his thumb and kissing him more deeply, evoking a muffled sigh from Kevin before he pulled back.
"I'll tell you what, you try to control yourself until we get home, and then I'm all yours." Kevin told him.
The possibilities flashed through Johnny's mind. "Really?"
"Yes, really." Kevin let out a short laugh. "Anything you want."
Johnny considered that for a moment before nodding. "Alright, yeah. Gives me time to think about what I want to do to you."
"I like the sound of that." Kevin smirked as he started the car and pulled out of the parking lot.
Johnny moved back to his own seat, considering the possibilities. He hadn't gotten that far with another guy in a car, but he'd had his share of backseat adventures with girls. Of course, that had been a long time ago, long before he'd discovered his desires extended beyond what was considered normal.
He once again found himself wondering if something had changed. When he'd first started as a paramedic, he'd flirt shamelessly with any girl who crossed his path at Rampart and managed to date a few of them. None of them lasted longer than a few weeks, but Johnny hadn't taken the time to think about it much before moving on to the next one.
His history with guys wasn't that much different. He'd found himself in some bar after yet another break-up, licking his wounds without thinking too much about who was mostly populating the bar. He figured it out pretty quickly after the third guy had stopped to talk to him, obviously wanting something from him.
That first time had been on a whim, but it wasn't his last. Now, all these years later, here he was with someone he'd met purely by chance, someone from whom he'd normally just get what he wanted and move on.
Only Johnny didn't really want to move on, and that scared the hell out of him.
The feel of Kevin's hand caressing his thigh pulled him out of his thoughts. They were at a stop light, not quite back to Kevin's yet. Johnny turned to see that now-familiar amused expression on Kevin's face. "You've gone awfully quiet over there." He commented.
"Just thinking." Johnny tried to sound casual. "Lots of possibilities, you know?"
"I'm sure." The light turned green, and Kevin let his hand drift off Johnny's leg. That move alone was sending something through Johnny.
Christ, he'd been a damn fool to not make more of an effort to stay in touch with this man. It was a mistake he had no intention of making again.
Finally, Kevin pulled into the driveway next to Johnny's Rover and shut off the engine. Out here, far away from the city lights, there was nothing but darkness surrounding them. "So, did you think of something?" Kevin asked in that teasing tone of his.
"Think so." Johnny shifted, straddling one of Kevin's legs and moving in to capture Kevin's mouth while threading his fingers through his hair.
"Hmm." Kevin murmured as Johnny broke away and started a line of brief kisses along his jaw. "Picking up where you left off. Good start."
"Figured you'd like that." Johnny responded roughly, shifting again so that he was fully straddling Kevin, bracing himself against the seat as he found a spot on Kevin's neck, just where it met his jaw, letting his tongue linger for a moment before lightly sucking.
"Shit, Johnny." Kevin rasped out, his hands clutching Johnny's hips tightly, his fingers digging in.
Johnny continued, finding other spots along Kevin's throat that elicited the same reaction, Kevin's body arching underneath his, his hands tugging at his shirt and finding their way underneath, strong and sure, the pads of his fingers tracing down Johnny's back. He let out a rough groan at the move, burying himself in the space between Kevin's neck and collarbone.
It wasn't long before they were working at buttons and belt buckles and zippers, almost desperate in their renewed desire. Johnny couldn't remember the last time he'd been so hot for someone, the want and the need so intense that almost nothing would satisfy it.
He was trying to figure out a way to line himself up so that Kevin could drive deep inside him, but it was proving difficult. Finally, Kevin stopped him with a hand on his lower back. "I don't think that's going to work, babe."
"Christ." Johnny growled roughly. "I want it."
"I know." Kevin pulled him in close. "Come here."
Johnny could just make out Kevin's face in the darkness, his eyes half-closed, his lips parted. He dipped down and kissed him, letting it linger and deepen as he wrapped his hand around the back of Kevin's neck. Meanwhile, Kevin's hand had taken hold of both of them, his thumb lightly running over the head, sending a shiver through Johnny before he started stroking them both.
The sensation that was rapidly building was almost more than Johnny could take. His grip on the car seat and the back of Kevin's neck tightened as the sensation overtook him, his whole body shuddering as he released. Kevin wasn't far behind, letting go with a rough sigh as his hand pressed hard into Johnny's back before he relaxed, letting his hand smooth down and come to rest on Johnny's hip.
It was only then that Johnny noticed the mess they had created. "Don't suppose you have a towel or something handy." Johnny commented casually.
"I'm afraid not." Kevin responded, using his own shirt to wipe off his hand and themselves. "Well, I was going to do some laundry tomorrow anyway."
"Sorry." Johnny told him as he rested against Kevin. "Guess I wasn't thinking."
Kevin laughed quietly and wrapped his arms around Johnny. "I know I wasn't. I don't mind. Matter of fact, had a hell of a good time."
Johnny reached out and traced a finger down the glass, creating a trail. "Fogging up the windows is always a good time."
"Mm-hmm." Kevin murmured in agreement. "Haven't done that in years. I was so goddamn awkward at it back then that, well, it wasn't nearly as enjoyable."
"Probably just needed the right person."
"You're probably right." Kevin's hands came to rest on Johnny's rear. "Well, suppose we can't stay out here all night."
"Suppose not." Johnny wasn't sure what his next move should be. He didn't necessarily want to leave, but he wasn't sure if Kevin still wanted him here, either.
"Tell you what." Kevin suggested. "Why don't you come in, we'll clean up a little, maybe fire up the hot tub for a while and see what comes up?"
That settled that, Johnny supposed. "Yeah, I like that idea."
"Good." Kevin lightly smacked his rear. "Going to need you to move."
"Oh, yeah. Right." Johnny shifted enough to get his pants pulled back up before climbing off Kevin, who was shifting around to do the same.
There was something thrilling about climbing out of the car in the darkness, almost as if they'd gotten away with something illicit. And if Johnny played his cards right, there might be more of that to come.
# # #
Kevin managed to get himself somewhat in order before climbing out of the car. There was something about the whole experience that felt subversive, illicit, as if he were a teenager again, doing his best not to get busted.
Those experiences with girls had been, well, awkward was the best way he could describe them. He'd known back then that he was supposed to be attracted to girls, and he had nearly driven himself crazy trying to understand just what the hell was wrong with him.
It had taken him years to understand that there wasn't anything wrong with him, despite what the rest of the world tried to tell him. If only the rest of the world would get with the program. Hell, he was good and ready to come fully out of the closet, to be as open about his relationships with other men as others were with their relationships with women.
Not that Johnny would necessarily be that man. Johnny clearly wasn't ready for that. But hell, he'd take whatever Johnny was willing to give him. Maybe Johnny would come around in time.
But he wasn't going to concern himself with any possible future tonight. No, tonight was just for enjoying the pleasure of Johnny's company and whatever else might come up. Kevin had the distinct feeling that some time in the hot tub would stir up their desires again, and maybe then he'd be able to give Johnny what he had wanted so badly in the car.
The thought sent a shiver through him as he unlocked the door and let themselves in. Kevin found a nearby lamp and turned it on. "You can go first." He offered.
Johnny eyed him up and down, that devilish expression on his face. "Or you could join me. You know, to save water or whatever."
Good grief, this man was insatiable. "Right, to save water." Kevin couldn't help laughing at Johnny just a little.
Johnny's hint of a smile grew a little wider as he started toward the bathroom, and Kevin wasn't far behind him. He had to admit this wasn't the worst idea ever. The sooner they cleaned up, the sooner they could hit the hot tub.
It didn't take long for Kevin to get the shower going and for both of them to strip down and step in. Johnny ducked under the running water, and if Kevin were being completely honest with himself, he could have watched that all night, to hell with the hot tub.
Johnny stepped aside, and they shifted around so that Kevin could get under the water, the scent of soap wafting through the air. The thought of smelling his soap on Johnny's body sent another flash of desire through him, though he was doing his best to keep it tamped down.
What was it about Johnny that had him feeling so wildly out of control? Kevin didn't know, and at the moment he wasn't trying all that hard to figure it out. Wasn't it enough to just enjoy whatever was happening between them? There was no reason to try to attach anything more to that.
Still, he couldn't help wondering what it might be like if things developed further between them.
The gentle touch of Johnny's hands on him snapped Kevin out of his thoughts, and he once again switched places with Johnny to clean himself up. It was a clean that wouldn't last long, Kevin was reasonably sure of that, but he'd cross that bridge when he got to it.
He turned his back to Johnny and continued running the washcloth over his body, suddenly slightly startled by Johnny wrapping his arms around him and planting a kiss at the back of his neck. "Shower's all yours."
"I won't be long." Kevin answered when he managed to recover. "And I can toss your clothes in with mine when I do laundry if you want."
Johnny paused briefly on his way out of the shower before answering. "I mean, I don't wanna put you out."
"It's not a big deal." Kevin told him. "I was going to start a load anyway."
Johnny nodded at that. "Okay, yeah. Thanks."
Kevin figured it was the least he could do. He just hoped he wasn't sending a message Johnny wasn't interested in receiving. This was something he'd do for a lot of people in his life. It wasn't unusual for him. He realized Johnny might take it a little differently.
Johnny already had a towel wrapped around himself and was running his fingers through his hair to untangle it. He spotted Kevin and immediately handed him a towel from the rack.
"I'll just throw these in the washer." Kevin told him. "There's beers in the fridge if you want one. I won't be long."
"Might take you up on that." Johnny answered casually as he emptied out his pants pockets and pulled out his belt. Keys, wallet, pocket change, things most men carried. Kevin wasn't sure what he'd been expecting. "Meet you out there."
With that, Kevin gathered up their clothing and headed to the laundry room, tossing the clothes in the washer. He was going to wait and start it in the morning, but if Johnny didn't want to stay over, he was probably better off starting it now.
He huffed loudly to himself. He was thinking far too much about this. There was a hot man and a cold beer waiting for him by the hot tub, he didn't need to worry about laundry, of all things.
After starting the washer, he headed back out to find Johnny popping the caps off a pair of bottles. "Figured you'd want one, too." Johnny explained.
"You figured right." Kevin responded as he took the bottle Johnny offered. "Ready?"
"Ready." Johnny nodded firmly, and they headed out to the hot tub. With the push of a button, Kevin had the jets going, and he shed his towel before easing in.
Johnny wasn't far behind, settling in with a brief sigh before taking a drink of his beer. "Hell of a way to end the night."
"I like it." Kevin answered casually. "Seems to be how most nights end up."
Kevin caught a flash of a smile on Johnny's face before it disappeared, leaving a more thoughtful expression in its place. "You must be a pretty popular guy."
"I don't know about that." Kevin countered. "It's not nearly as wild as it sounds. Usually."
Johnny's eyes flicked over, obviously curious. "Guess it's good to know you weren't, you know, waiting for me or anything."
"No, I know better." Kevin told him with a brief laugh.
There was a long silence before Johnny spoke again. "I didn't mean to…ah hell, guess it doesn't really matter, does it? I mean, we're here now, right?"
"Right." Kevin responded, moving in closer and slipping an arm around Johnny's shoulders.
Johnny shifted a little, resting his head against Kevin's shoulder and taking a long drink. "You really think maybe there's something more here? I mean, besides this."
"Could be." Kevin was surprised at Johnny's words.
"Huh." Johnny seemed to ponder that for a long moment. "Not that I don't like, you know, this, but…hell, I don't know. Forget it."
Kevin was content enough to let it slide. What was happening here right now was good enough. If more came of it, even better. "Well, I won't forget about it, necessarily. But if you have more thoughts, I wouldn't mind hearing them."
Johnny fell silent for a moment before speaking again. "You ever been serious about anyone? Other than your wife…uh, ex-wife."
"Can't say that I have." Kevin answered. "I…well, started exploring and never really stopped."
"Yeah, guess I've kinda done the same." Johnny replied thoughtfully. "Kinda go from one to another to another and…well, you know. And that's just with girls. With guys it's just…well, you know."
"Yes, you do seem to have quite the adventurous streak." Kevin responded.
"Yeah." Johnny took another drink. "You ever get tired of it?"
Kevin laughed quietly, drawing closer. "What are you trying to say?"
"I don't know." Johnny's tone changed to something more like resignation. "Most guys my age, they're married and having kids, or at least headed that way. Not sure that's ever gonna be me. And I know there's other possibilities but…"
He wrapped his fingers around Kevin's hand, his thumb stroking the palm. "Christ, you must think I'm an idiot."
"I don't." Kevin assured him. "And there's nothing wrong with not being into marriage or kids. It's not for everyone."
Johnny scoffed at that. "Suppose not."
Kevin pressed a kiss to the top of Johnny's head. "Don't think that we have to rush into anything either."
"Kinda late for that, don't you think?" That teasing tone was back in Johnny's voice.
Kevin huffed quietly. "That's not what I mean. You can be such a shit, you know that?"
"So I've been told." Johnny answered casually.
"All I mean is that, well, we can get to know each other better." Kevin told him. "Maybe find other things to do."
"Oh, what, you don't enjoy this?" Johnny teased him, taking Kevin's hand and pressing a kiss into his palm.
"Obviously I do." Kevin chided him. "But I would also enjoy spending time with you outside of this."
Johnny finished off the remains of his beer, and Kevin automatically took the empty bottle and set it behind him with his own. "So, uh, what kind of other stuff are you into?"
"Let's see." Kevin pondered that. "I play rec basketball with some of the other fire department guys, I have a weekly racquetball game going with another department friend of mine, occasionally get out and do some hiking. We've got some beautiful trails out here."
Johnny shifted so that he was facing Kevin, his eyes lighting up. "Yeah? Maybe we could go check those trails out. I do that kind of stuff all the time. How about camping?"
"I've been known to camp out occasionally." Kevin couldn't help feeling a little more hopeful about this thing between them.
"We should go sometime." Johnny's enthusiasm seemed to be growing. "I can show you some of my favorite spots, too."
"I'd like that." Kevin answered, getting caught up in the enthusiasm.
They immediately started talking about some of their favorite trips, which expanded into conversation about countless other subjects, one tangent leading to another, time slipping away until Kevin caught himself yawning.
Johnny let out a quiet laugh, kissing his cheek. "Sorry, didn't meant to bore you."
"You definitely did not." Kevin assured him. "Think it's getting awfully late, though."
"Hmm, yeah, probably." Johnny answered with a yawn of his own.
"Okay, I'm going to put laundry in the dryer." Kevin told him as he pushed himself out of the hot tub. "Going to be a while until it's done."
"I can stick around." Johnny responded as he did the same, finding his towel and tucking it around himself. "Maybe even all night. If you don't mind."
Kevin did the same, pulling Johnny in close and kissing him lightly. "Not one bit."
Johnny caught Kevin just before he pulled away, drawing him in for a longer kiss before finally breaking it off. "Guess I'll see you in a bit."
That one long kiss was enough to spark Kevin's desire and send him moving quickly to put the laundry in the dryer before meeting Johnny in the bedroom. Johnny was already lying across the bed with a mischievous expression, a familiar tube in his hand.
"Still want what you wanted earlier?" Kevin asked as he climbed up on the bed and took the tube from Johnny.
"Yeah." Johnny answered. "I, uh, saved you a little work."
"Oh?" Kevin felt around with a finger. "Oh, I see. You'll have to give me a minute to catch up."
"Give me that." Johnny sat up, taking the tube back and squirting out a small measure before taking hold of Kevin's flesh and stroking slowly but firmly.
Kevin took in a sharp breath. "Oh hell, that's good. That's good."
It didn't take long until Kevin was good and ready, and he gently pushed Johnny to his back, arranging himself between Johnny's legs. "You know I like to watch you."
"Oh, I know." Johnny answered with that little half-smile.
Kevin slowly pushed into Johnny, his only response a sharp intake of breath and a brief shudder as Kevin paused before picking up the pace. He watched every reaction, listened to every quiet sigh and soft moan, every breath, and he wanted to see Johnny come undone underneath him, just as he had that night in San Francisco.
Sure enough, it wasn't long before Johnny arched under him, the cords in his neck going taut as he shuddered, his release shooting out across his stomach as he clenched hard around Kevin's flesh.
"Kev…ah, ah shit. Shit." Johnny managed to get out just as Kevin unloaded inside him.
He rode it out for a long moment before relaxing with a rough sigh and pulling out, leaning over to trace his tongue along Johnny's stomach. Johnny clutched the back of Kevin's head, twitching and letting out a short gasp that turned into a laugh.
"What's the matter?" Kevin couldn't help teasing him as he continued his journey upward.
"Tickles." Johnny answered, shifting slightly.
"Does it, now?" Kevin closed his mouth around one of Johnny's nipples, slowly running over it with his tongue before pulling back. "How about that?"
"Hmm." Johnny seemed to ponder that, his fingers playing with Kevin's hair at the back of his neck. "Nah, doesn't tickle. Feels pretty good, though."
"Noted." Kevin moved so that he lay next to Johnny, placing a few kisses up his neck and jaw before finding his mouth for a long, lingering kiss that evoked a quiet sigh from Johnny.
He pulled back slightly as Johnny ran a hand through Kevin's hair, a lazy half-smile on his face. "Thinking I might crash for a while."
"I'm thinking the same thing." Kevin answered before dropping one more brief kiss on Johnny's lips. "I'll be right back."
He made his way to the bathroom, finding a washcloth and cleaning himself up a little before returning to the bedroom. Johnny's eyes were already closed, his arm over his eyes and the covers pulled over his body.
Kevin turned out the light and climbed in to join him, lying on his side and stretching out an arm across Johnny. He didn't want to read too much into tonight, but maybe, just maybe, there was a possibility that he and Johnny were becoming something more.
The thought scared Kevin a little, but he didn't have it in him to think about it too much tonight. What they had right now was enough, and he wouldn't push Johnny for more.
Right now, this was enough.