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This was written by the perspective of someone with the issue at hand. This isjusta catalyst to future Cell and Orion interactions and ARE NOT going to be together yet, Cell will however have some new found respect for Orion.
Songs that I listened to while writing this:
Mama's Boy - Dominic Fike (Sped Up)
House of Gold - Twenty One Pilots
First Class - Jack Harlow
Poison - Hazbin Hotel (Sadly.)
Addict - SilvaHound
Alejandro - Lady Gaga
Bad Romance - Lady Gaga
Orion takes a deep breath as she places the bath bomb in the bath. She turned to face the bottle of bubble bath. She smiled and tears the packaging open as she pours it in the bathtub. She heard that bubble baths can soothe someone's soul or atleast calm people down in distress. She watches as the mixture forms into bubbles.
She lets out a soft sigh of relief placing the bottle down, and dipping her body in the comfortable body of water now encased in bubbles. She was momentarily brought back to a simple time. She was already starting to feel better, she eases into the bubbly goodness then she felt the water draining, startled she gets up.
"What the fuck?" She mumbles, and shoots straight up. She saw the water drain into the drain pipes. In the reflection of the shiny water drain she saw her obvious frown. And she felt upset. She gets from the bathtub. She wraps herself in a bathrobe and storms downstairs, where Cell was sitting on the couch in the living room. He seems to be typing on his phone seemingly not aware of Orion's presence in the room.
"What the fuck happened to the bath I was running?" Orion demands.
"I don't know, you tell me." Cell snickers.
"Did you somehow remove the water?" She asked.
"How can I do that?" Cell asked, he seemed to be annoyed.
"I don't know, you have a knack for fucking with people." Orion snarls.
"Why would I deliberately do all of that? Sure I won't deny the allegation of "fucking with people" but why would I drain a bathtub? Be real." Cell scoffs.
"Because you are a HAPPINESS DRAINER!" Orion snaps.
"Honey, I don't drain or absorb feelings, I absorb people. Feelings are weak and pathetic. I have no use for them." Cell scoffs, "And to be fair, even if I wanted to absorb feelings you're the last person I'd consider."
"What are you talking about?" Orion asked, offended.
"How can I say this without seeming like a jerk… Hm, actually. I don't care, I am going to be an asshole anyways. You seem to act like a "sad sack of shit" for attention." Cell said. In quotations, Orion's face twisted.
"What the fuck does that mean?" Orion demands.
"You seem to put on this face where everyone around you should feel bad for you because your boyfriend died, and that you cut yourself because of it. Like, we're supposed to feel bad because you lost someone, big whoop de doo!" Cell said he seemed to find it amusing that she's suffering so much.
"If it were up to me, I'd just tell you to get over it. Which, by the way I am."
Orion's eye twitches. "You have NO idea how I feel! Nor do you understand!"
"Oh, I perfectly understand, ahah. And that wasn't a pun this time. Like, let's see here. You were sad because someone close to you died, you decided to selfishly take your own life leaving behind people who sought to care for you, knowing you cannot go back once you died, you end up here and nearly killed because your idea of "fixing" things down here is by playing dollhouse and trying to redeem people who are monsters… And all of that coupled with the fact you're fundamentally broken as a person… It's safe to say you're overcompensating for something… Am I correct?" Cell assumes.
"Just because I am depressed doesn't mean I am using it to fix other people! I just want to be helpful!" Orion snaps.
"You make it out to be like what you're doing is saving us. The worst part is, what you're doing is not going to help, what if this whole "redemption" plan fails? What are we going to do now? Nothing! Because we'll be dead." Cell deadpans. "The sooner you pull your head out of your ass, and come back to reality, the better we'd be without you."
Those words hurt, very much. Orion could feel the pain in her chest returning, and the feeling of being a burden returned, Cell hit a nerve that she didn't know was possible. Usually she didn't really mind his transgressions or rude behavior. But he hit a spot that shouldn't have been hit at all.
"You have no idea what I am going through!" Orion snaps, through tears.
"I hope to Kami I don't, I seriously cannot imagine a more weak way of being a burden to society and only contributing to it by being an obnoxious whelp with too much freetime on their hands." Cell scoffs, "It's silly, a pipedream as big as yours, and your own issues, you chose to help others instead of yourself."
Orion shook, her heart pounding as Cell said those words. It cut deep in her soul. She always had a sneaking suspicion that what Cell felt was true. Those words he said to her numerous times were in a way, hateful. Even when she's high, and completely detached from reality, she can't shrug off the thoughts.
"You're right…" Orion mustered the courage to say, Cell arched an non-existent eyebrow, "I'm weak, I can barely even fix myself, so how can I fix all of you?"
Cell was confused, "Are you agreeing with me just so you can get me to shut up? Because if that's the case then that shit isn't work-"
"No, I am serious. Thanks for helping me, I… I guess I have time to reflect…"
"Are you seriously giving up right now?" Cell manages to laugh out. "How much of a fucking pushover do you have to be? So you really have to please me just by agreeing with what I said? Is that it?"
"That's all I CAN DO! There's nothing in this world I can do to fucking prove to anyone on how worth it I feel! I felt trapped and alone! That's why I ended it! No one can understand my mind! HFIL, I don't even understand MY OWN! I can barely even sleep, eat or do any basic things without feeling like I have to rely on other people! I'm a fucking burden to society and I know it! I don't have to be told by a being of perfection as you!" She yelled.
Cell was momentarily taken aback. Before recovering. "Why don't you kill yourself then? You can feel something, I don't fucking care. Maybe someone else would. All I hear is crying from you. Seriously."
Orion took a deep breath, and ran off shoving Goz out of the way, and Zarbon who witnessed everything was completely upset.
"What the hell was that about Cell?!" Zarbon yells.
"What? She'll live. Depression isn't real anyways it's just an excuse for people to be lazy and uninspired. Why do you guys treat it as a big deal anyways?" Cell scoffs, placing down his phone.
"It's a real thing! People have it all the time!" Zarbon said exasperated, "You can't just go around telling people with any form of depression to off themselves! Especially if we don't know what might happen if we die again!"
"Zarbon, buddy, you are taking this too seriously. She's doing this for attention. She'll be back to her normal self in no time." Cell wrapped an arm around Zarbon, pointing in his chest. A thud noise was heard, and Cell chose to ignore it.
"Oh really? Back to her old self huh?" Zarbon sarcastically said, "If she dies because of you, then I'm not going to forgive you."
"It's not my loss if she does anyways! It's no skin off my back! We all do terrible things once and awhile so causing someone to die isn't a big deal!" Cell scoffs.
"It is, when you put into perspective how much she's sacrificing for you. She's trying to redeem you and all you're doing is hurting your chances at ever seeing any real progress!" Zarbon snaps, "Like it or not, she's the only good thing to have happened down here in years!"
"Pssh, I don't care if she's a good person or bad person. She's someone that needs to grow up." Cell said.
"Well, can you live with the fact that you'd gambled someone's life away? Over three words that can actually fuck with someone?" Zarbon asked.
"Gambled? I have better chances at the lottery than that!" Cell sarcastically said.
"Cell, I'm serious, if you don't go and fix this, I'm literally going to tell everyone you killed the only thing that can help us." Zarbon seriously said.
"How the HFIL am I supposed to fix this!?" Cell asked.
"I don't know, do something!" Zarbon snaps.
"Why can't you fix this?" Cell exclaims.
"Because I wasn't the one who told a Depressed Suicidal person to "Kill Themselves" now did I?" Zarbon asked.
"No." Cell responded.
"Exactly." Zarbon said, Cell groans and gets up.
"I'm letting this be known right now, this majorly inconveniences me." Cell complains.
"You only have yourself to blame." Zarbon called. Cell rolled his eyes.
Orion was in her room holding onto the pillow to her chest as she sobbed into it. She already had the means to take her life. After all, she still had the switchblade that took it once, so she can figure it out.
Why did she have to be a burden to people? She didn't know what to do. She knew that Cell was right. She was contributing to a cause that was bound to be flawed. She was doing all this to… Well, fulfill some sort of validation. Something she lacked. She rolled over and eyed the switchblade that laid enticingly as a way to… seduce her to do it again. Its sharp ridges are still sharp and not dull. She reaches out-
"Hello?" A voice calls, as a knocking was heard. It was Cell, Orion sniffled and held the pillow closer to her.
"Go away!" Orion snaps.
"Come on, I am here to help." Cell said.
"After you said all those hurtful things? Fuck no." Orion said.
"Look, I am here to talk to you…" Cell said. Orion pauses and silence is heard, she gets up.
"Okay, come in." Orion said. Cell opened the door, and she laid on the bed. Her back faced to Cell, he awkwardly sat down on her bed with his hands on his legs.
There was silence for a while before Cell broke the silence. "I'm not going to pretend like I understand, because I don't… But I just want to help. I want to understand."
Orion turned her head to face Cell with a look of bewilderment and she looked away. "How do you expect to understand something I barely understand?" Orion wipes the tears away.
"I'll try. Just don't expect me to understand what I am trying to tell you." Cell explains more clearly.
Orion sniffles, and she shakes.
"Look, I want to apologize for what I said, I know what I said was… Harsh but I didn't really think it through at all, I misjudged you, I didn't think what you went through was… Well, "serious" I thought it was you seeking attention." Cell apologizes. Orion hesitates and nods.
"...Most people don't understand…" Orion said, Cell nodded.
"I want to try and understand. Please, tell me." Cell finally got the words out.
"It hurts. Very much. I feel like everyday I'm drowning and I have two choices, drown or call for someone to be a safety net but inevitably drown with them. I obviously allowed myself to become an emotional kettle waiting to explode… And it happened. You said something that became a catalyst and… It hurt me badly." Orion explains.
"I see, I… May I comfort you?" Cell asked. Orion wipes her eyes.
"You don't have to ask…" Orion said.
"I know it would've been smart too." Cell replies, a little awkward about the inquiry. Orion went silent and nodded, she placed her head on his lap, he stroked her hair.
"I understand now. What I said was hurtful. You shouldn't have to hear that… Especially since your brain probably tells you those things all the time." Cell said Orion silently held on his legs while Cell pets her hair.
"I should also be held accountable, I yelled at you when I shouldn't have. I'm sorry." Orion apologizes.
"You don't need to apologize for anything, I was ignorant and played with your emotions. Although I should thank Zarbon for telling me to go after you. I shouldn't have called you a burden. You are anything but that knows this." Cell said.
"I… I feel like I am." Orion said.
"...And what if you're a burden? A burden has purpose! You are a purpose filled burden! Someone who has potential to become something greater! You already have a plan, an action. An idea! And we're waiting for that to become a reality! No one truly is a bad burden. And even if these "rain clouds" are telling you these things. Let it be known that those are thoughts, and thoughts like those come and go." Cell encourages.
"No amount of rude thoughts or cruel words are going to change my mind, and shouldn't change yours either." Cell smiles.
"You may not be perfect in your own eyes, but… I find you perfect. Not in the romantic sense but in the sense of admiring someone. Deep down, I believe in your idea, I want to be redeemed. But I suppose with my lack of believing in me I just… I said some things that I shouldn't have said." Cell admitted.
"But we all fuck up and that's part of being human. To be honest these emotions are confusing and hard to navigate. I don't know… How to understand them." Cell admitted as well.
"Well, what do you feel?" Orion asked.
"I feel flattered and pretty much… Respectful of you?" Cell said.
"You just admire me, I can see that… I care for you too. I want to see you succeed, I want you to be redeemed and I want to see you happy. Even if it means sacrificing my own happiness to see it through… I want you to be the best possible version, for Heaven… For me." Orion said.
"No, if you're going to sacrifice anything then let me work together with you… I want to carry the burden off your shoulder and show that you are worthy of care. I want to help you too, I help you, you help me." Cell smiled.
"We're in this together."