Hey!

Hope you enjoy this little update while we wait!

Happy reading!

Xoxo,

Nina

The silence in the room was tense and cold. Neither of them said a word because they were too terrified to say what was really running through their heads, but the chiming of their phones at the same time raised their suspicions.

Hey bruh, good news the door is not jammed. Bad news, it's locked and it will remain that way until you two finally talk. I'll come and get you in the morning.

Get your shit together once and for all, would you?

There's drinks and sandwiches in the minifridge, you know where it is. And you're gonna have to share the couch, but it's big enough for the both of you.

Don't bother calling out for help, no one will hear you.

PS: before you tell me you don't know what to tell her, here are a few songs that could be an inspiration for you.

Seriously dawg, don't miss out on this opportunity.

My dear Houdini, let's see how you can escape out of this one. Lol.

Ok, ok, so you're probably not finding it as funny as I am, but let's face it you know you need to do this. I have no idea what the outcome will be or what either of you want the outcome to be, but what I do know is that I don't want you leaving Chigaco with another what if running wild in your head.

Kim didn't know what to think of this. Was she pissed? Totally, but very deep inside of her she knew that she would have never intentionally set some time aside to talk to Adam. She was too afraid of getting hurt again. The pain her heart felt the last time she broke things off with him was still latent in her soul and talking to him felt like stirring all that shit up again. Kim didn't see any kind of solution for this and of course, she just wanted to run away from this situation.

"Well." He took a deep breath and stood up, walking toward the little fridge that Kevin told him about. "Seems like we'll be here for a while." He opened the metal door and smiled when he found three six-packs of beer and some food in there. He took a bottle out and uncapped it, pressing it against the edge of a shelf that was screwed to the wall. "We might as well relax. Do you want one?" He offered,showing her the bottle, getting no answer from her at all.

"Look, before you start blaming all of this on me, let me tell you I had nothing to do with this."

"I know." She picked on the case of her phone trying to calm her nerves. "Jay texted me."

That last part felt like a kick in the nuts for Adam. "Oh, that's right, Jay." Kim just glared at him, waiting for whatever it was that was going to come next out of his mouth. "'Cus if he says it it's the truth, but if I tell you then you totally doubt my word."

"Can you cut it out?"

"No. I can't."

"Why?"

"Because."

"That's not a valid reason, Ruzek." She stood up and got closer to him, only to swipe the beer bottle right out of his hand and proclaim it hers. "He's my friend. I trust him. So suck it up." She crowned that comment with a sip of her beer.

"Does that mean you don't trust me?"

"Are you serious right now?" His lack of response was making such a big statement. "Adam, I go undercover with you. Do you really think I don't trust you?"

"It's not the same."

"Oh, so trusting you with my life is not enough for you?"

"That's not what I mean."

"Then what do you mean?"

"I can't stand seeing Jay do what I want to be doing. There. Happy?"

"And you think I like to see Victoria do" She stopped quickly, trying to control the words that she was about to say. "Whatever it is she does with you?"

"You don't need to worry about that anymore." He said softly and her head shot up in a second.

"What?"

"I ended it."

"Why?"

"Kim, come on. Do I really need to explain why?"

"Yeah. Adam, you shouldn't have done that."

"After the other night." He sighed. "I just, I couldn't go on with that relationship. Ever since I saw you here all I think about is you, even when you weren't here all I thought about and even dreamed about was you."

"Adam, you were not supposed to do that. Don't you realize what we are doing?" Ruzek just looked at her, waiting for her to make any sense. "This is just like last time and it's wrong."

"What?" He walked closer to her. "Please tell me exactly which part is wrong, the part where we kissed two nights ago or the part where we kissed after Molly's nearly ten years ago? Are you saying that our relationship was wrong?"

"Maybe it was." She said in a soft voice and avoided eye contact with him. It was almost as if she was afraid of the words she was pronouncing. His brown and intense eyes were bigger than ever, reflecting the strong pain running through his veins and when she finally looked up and saw his face, she felt her heart shatter.

"Whoa." Adam scratched the back of his neck nervously. "I didn't see that one coming." He walked back to the fridge to get another beer, since the first one was now Kim's. "Thanks for the brutal honesty and let me tell you that if you ever decide to quit your career as a cop, you'd make one hell of an actress." He downed almost one fourth of the glass bottle in one big gulp. "All that time we were together, I really thought you loved me."

"No, Adam." She stood up quickly and tried to touch his forearm but he dodge her touch, nothing that had ever happened before. "That's not what I mean. Can you let me explain, please?"

"I rather not."

"Adam." His name sounded like a soft cry out of her lips and the tears were pooling up in her eyes, but all he could do was keep drinking and ignore her plea. "Adam, babe."

That last word completely softened him.

"Don't call me that. Was that a lie too?"

"I never said what we had was a lie, I just said…"

"Oh, I know what you said." He interrupted her. "You said that it was wrong, impling that it should have never happened."

"There are a bunch of things I wish that have never happened or that I have never done, and being with you is not one of them." She sighed in complete frustration. "Could you please listen to me?"

He took a deep breath and looked her in the eye, signaling that he was ready to take whatever other bullet she was about to shoot straight at his chest.

"I didn't mean it like that. Gosh Adam, being with you is one of the best things that ever happened to me."

"Then what the hell did you mean, Kim?"

"I meant that once more I came in between you and your girlfriend and the first time that happened look how it ended."

"It ended with us, together, and I don't regret anything that happened. I'm really sorry you do."

"Could you just quit putting words in my mouth that I never said? The only reason why I said it was wrong is because I got in the way of something good that you had going on, ruined it, left and broke both our hearts. And what exactly do you think will happen now? Huh?"

"Kim, what I had going on with Wendy was not good, you got in the way of nothing. If anything you helped me realize what a horrible mistake I was about to make."

"So, you're really going to stand here and tell me that it never crossed your mind to think what would have happened if we had never kissed in the first place?"

All Kim needed was to turn the knob on the door of her emotions for them to jump right out.

"Believe it or not, that never crossed my mind. But I'll tell you what did cross my mind numerous times. What happened to us? Where did I go wrong? Kim, you were the most important thing to me."

Kim sat down defeated. "It didn't feel like that, Adam. It felt like if it wasn't me it was going to be another girl."

"Well, here we are, eight years later and no other girl ever took that spot, your spot."

"Come one, try to put yourself in my shoes. You were much more in love with the idea of being engaged than with the actual commitment, than you were in love with me."

"Don't you dare say that again. You obviously have no idea how much I loved you and how awful I felt when you ended things with me, not to mention when I found out you had left without saying anything. It sucked. I guess a part of me believed the fantasy that we were going to be able to fix it, that our feelings were going to be stronger than that, that we were just going through a crisis, that you had cold feet." He shrugged. "I had a million hypotheses, but none of them was that you thought it was a mistake. Obviously I was the only one hooked on our relationship."

"Don't say that." She said with tears rolling down her cheeks. "Do you think it was easy for me to leave?"

"It sure seemed that way."

"Adam, I felt like shit. Everything felt like shit. The fact that you didn't care whether we pushed the wedding date or not, you not being interested in meeting my mom, having two previous engagements, all of that made me see that you didn't want to do it, that I was just engagement number three and nothing else."

"I agreed to push the date because I thought that was what you wanted. And I apologize about your mom, but the truth is I was scared of meeting her because a part of me knew she would think I wasn't good enough for you."

"What? That's ridiculous, Adam."

"Is it? Look at you. Look at the amazing woman you are, you were always that woman Kim. Me? I was an immature kid and your mom was going to see that."

"You should have said something."

"And you? Were you never going to open up about the way I was making you feel? I'm so sorry you felt like I didn't care about you. There's nothing more incorrect than that. When you gave me the ring back my heart was crushed. All I wanted was to get you back."

"And why didn't you do anything?" She asked in an almost desperate cry.

"Remember that time I was called into a scene that you were involved in?" She nodded to his question. "I asked you how you were doing and you said you were fine and I told you I was terrible? Your words were a knife that stabbed deep into my chest. It shattered me to hear that, but what was I supposed to do? You were doing good and I had to respect that even if it meant hurting myself. And then I found out you were gone and that was when I realized I had lost you for good and that I had to let you go." He looked down, unsure of telling her that his feelings for her were still intact, that he was never able to let go and that he never really moved on. He ran his hand through his face trying to clear his mind. "But I appreciate us having this conversation because now I understand your point of view. You thought we were a mistake and it was much easier for you to move on, and that's perfectly fine."

She stood up and shoved him back, placing both hands on his chest. "Do you really want to know why I left?" She didn't even wait for him to answer, she just started blurring the words out. "Giving you back that ring was one of the hardest things I've done, for many reasons. I was ending a relationship with someone who I loved more than anything, but that was hurting me so much. I felt like I was no one for you, Adam." He opened his mouth to speak but she didn't let him. "I felt like I needed to stand up for myself and that was the only way I found. Yeah, I told you I was fine but I wasn't. Nothing about that period of time was fine."

The tears started to roll down her cheeks again. "I just couldn't see you. I wasn't ready for that. I thought transferring would be enough, but hearing people talk about you, comments other girls were saying about you being single again, I couldn't take it anymore. A part of me thought that you were going to reach out, but you didn't and that helped me realize that my decision was correct. That maybe I was forcing our relationship to work and it was better for the both of us to just end it. I thought I was going to be strong enough to work with you after that, or just to see you or know about you, but I wasn't and that's why I left. Not because I didn't care, not because I didn't love you, but because I was hurting and I couldn't take having you there and not having you at all." Kim finally confessed, instantly feeling a huge weight off her shoulders. "And no, it wasn't easy for me to move on.

Adam, I go back to that January night when I gave you the ring back all the time, wishing I had handled things differently or wishing you had stopped me or said something to me. But that's just a wish, I can't change what happened, I can only face the consequences." She wiped the tears away with the cuff of her sweater.

"Why didn't you talk to me?" He asked softly. He had no idea Kim had suffered so much and he was feeling horribly about it.

"Why didn't you look for me?" She shot back, almost sobbing.

"I'm so sorry, Kim." His words were as genuine as ever.

"Do you understand me now? Do you get why I say this is a mistake? It's the exact same story repeating itself and I can't do this again. I can't feel like I'm losing you one more time, I can't ruin something good for you once more. I… I just can't."

No matter how hard she tried she couldn't stop crying and Adam couldn't stand there watching and doing nothing about it any longer. He took three steps forward and wrapped her in his arms, letting her come undone in his embrace, and allowing his own tears to finally escape the prison they had been trapped in for a while.

"Kim, it doesn't have to be the same this time."

"Of course it will. Adam, look at what has happened so far, we kissed while you were in a relationship, that relationship ended because of me." She was sobbing, having difficulty breathing.

"Kim." He held her face between his hands with tenderness only he could show her. "My relationship with Wendy ended because we just weren't meant to be, and after meeting you I felt so many things I had never experienced before, or after for that matter. And Victoria, I should have never let that relationship start in the first place. The only reason I did that was to try to move on from you." He took a deep breath and looked down just for a second. "I know, it's been forever, but I never forgot you Kim. You were always there in my mind and my heart and no matter who I was with, it never felt like…"

"Like what?" Her question was almost a whisper.

Adam didn't answer right away, instead he slowly dipped his head closer to her, trying to see her reaction to his approach. He knew they both felt the same, but feeling her melt into his touch was all he needed to confirm it.

HIs lips softly rubbed hers, and it was Kim the one to take the final step. Gently capturing his mouth and delicately pulling on his lower lip, which only unleashed all their bottled up feelings. Her arms went around his body, pushing herself closer to him, as if she never wanted to leave his side again.

Their tongues were going wild, crashing into each other and exploring every inch of their mouths like it was the first time. It was a weird feeling, loaded with excitement and at the same time full of familiarity and a sense of home that made everything a million times better.

When the both had to let go for air, Kim stayed still, burying her head on his chest, as he hugged her and slowly rubbed her back, leaving a soft kiss on the top of her head.

"Nothing has ever felt like this." He finally answered. "To me at least."

"Nothing has felt like this to me either." She agreed, holding on to him as hard as she could.