I scrunched my eyes against the sunlight, it was beaming in through the windows. I guess I forgot to close my curtains last night. I turned to roll over, but a long arm was holding me down. My eyes snapped open, remembering where I was.
I was laying on Jacob's chest, both of us piled on top of the couch. He was snoring really loud, but it didn't bother me. I was a very heavy sleeper, so I must have slept through it all night. I don't even remember falling asleep, just that we were up late talking and joking. I remember showing Jake my music collection, playing my favorite songs for him and then later we went through my old high school photos. He had started to make fun of my prom date and I couldn't stop laughing. I hadn't laughed that hard in a while.
I tried to get up, but Jacob grunted in his sleep, his arms holding me closer. I grinned, turning my face into his shirt. He was so warm, I felt snug, like I was in a cocoon. I wiggled around a little, trying to find a more comfortable spot, my body pressing against his.
That's when I felt it.
Oh my god. My face burned as I tried shifting around trying to avoid touching him down there, but it was impossible. He was huge. I felt hot all over, from embarrassment and desire, the heat spreading lower and lower. The feeling of my body lying on top of his was doing things to me. It made me feel good. Jacob's snores stuttered as he adjusted his hips, probably uncomfortable from all my scrambling. His eyes blinked open, and he squinted down at me, smiling. "Mornin'." His voice was husky, even deeper than usual. More desire flooded through me, somehow making me even warmer. I stared up at him, my eyes bouncing back and forth between his eyes and his lips.
I wanted to kiss him.
No, I needed to kiss him.
His breathing was slow and even, his dark eyes never leaving mine. I felt hypnotized by his gaze. It sucked me in, leaving me spellbound. The line where our bodies were touching was on fire. One of his legs nestled in between mine, pressing right where I needed him. I could feel him firmly against my hip, and he was only getting firmer. It was very hard not to grind myself against him to get the delicious friction I craved.
Our faces inched closer and closer, our lips only centimeters apart. I closed my eyes, ready to surrender myself to him. This was it.
Meow.
We both jerked back, our heads turning. Mango was sitting on the coffee table staring at us. He meowed again, louder this time, a clear indication that he was hungry.
"Oh, sorry," I stood up, Jacobs arms easily falling away this time, and hurried over to the cat's bowl. "I have to feed him."
Jacob stayed laying in the same position for a long moment, watching me feed Mango. I felt mortified. What is wrong with me? Why did I let the cat interrupt us? I should have kissed him dammit!
Suddenly he sat up on the couch, rubbing a hand over his face. "Do you mind if I use your bathroom?"
"No, go ahead!"
He quickly ducked into my room to use the adjoining bathroom.
Stupid, stupid, Renensmee.
I couldn't look him in the eye the rest of the morning after our near kiss. Jake and I went out to eat breakfast together and afterwards I offered to show him around the city. He's never been to Chicago before, so I took him to all the touristy spots, showing him The Bean and Willis Tower. Though he really didn't like going on the Skydeck and was squeezing my hand very tight while we were standing in the glass cube.
How cute.
When we passed by the ice rink, he basically tossed me onto the ice, wanting to go skating together. Though I don't understand why he was so eager; he wasn't very coordinated on skates and fell on his butt more than a few times. But I couldn't stop laughing. When I was with him, he made me laugh a lot. I ended up skating circles around him, showing off while he hyped me up.
What could I say? He made life fun.
Afterwards, we walked through the park hand in hand, discussing what to do for the rest of the afternoon. "Actually, I forgot to mention that I have a holiday concert for school tonight. I need to perform since I'm on the orchestra. You can wait for me in the apartment, it shouldn't take more than a couple hou-."
"What!" His eyes bulged and eyebrows raised comically high on his forehead, eyes bulging out. "No way that I'm missing that. I am going."
"Jaaaake." I whined. I didn't want his first time seeing me perform to be in a stuffy orchestra for a stupid holiday concert. Thank God my family wasn't coming into town to watch me this time. "Please, no. It's going to be super boring and you're going to hate it. Just wait for me and I'll be back soon."
"Nope, sorry Ness." He shook his head, putting up his hands. "I'm not giving up an opportunity to see you play your little butt off. I'm getting into that concert one way or another."
"Ugh fine."
Later that night Jacob and I got dressed up, me in a simple black dress and him in a nice suit. I told him he didn't have to go through all this trouble, but he insisted, saying he wanted to take me out to a fancy dinner afterwards.
I was nervous sitting behind the curtain waiting for the concert to start. I don't know why; I had played in front of crowds much bigger than this one perfectly fine. But Jacob gave me butterflies. The thought that he's out there waiting for me was exciting.
Once the show started, I squinted, searching through the massive crowd for him. I scanned every face at lightning speed, all while perfectly playing the violin on queue. When I finally found him, sitting almost all the way in the back, my heart jumped in my chest while my butterflies started fluttering even faster. He grinned when our eyes caught, giving me a small wave.
It was hard to concentrate for the rest of the concert. My eyes kept flitting to Jacob's and neither of us could keep a smile off our face. The audience must think I'm some demented idiot beaming like that.
As the curtains closed, I jumped up from my seat eager to find Jacob, but some of my orchestra friends pulled me aside for pictures and congratulations. I sent Jake a quick text, letting him know that I was being delayed.
"What's wrong with you?" Jill, my friend on the orchestra asked me. "You were looking at the crowd the entire time. Did someone come to see you?"
"Oh, yeah. My uh-" My what? Friend? Boyfriend? Imprint? "Family friend came to visit, and I'm just excited to see him." Not exactly a lie.
"Oh yeah? Is he cute?"
My face immediately flushed. "Yeah, he's ok." Sure, Renesmee! He's hot! Six-foot-seven-inches of pure, hot muscle. "I should actually go find him; he's never been here before so he's probably lost."
"Holy shit." She looked past me, her face in total amazement. "Is that him?"
I quickly turned around to see Jake making his way through the crowd. He was at least a head above everyone else and his eyes were zeroed in on me.
"Yup, that's him." I murmured, blushing.
"Hey, Ness! Damn, that was awesome! You played amazing out there. Here, these are for you." He handed me a giant bouquet. When the hell did he have time to buy these? We literally came here together.
"Hi, I'm Jill, Renesmee's friend and first chair cello." She wasted no time introducing herself.
"Hey, nice to meet you. I'm Jacob." He smiled, taking her hand in a firm shake.
I introduced Jacob to a few more of my friends and we stayed chatting. I was more than happy for my college friends to familiarize themselves with Jake, but right now I just wanted to be with him. Alone.
"Hey, a couple of us were gonna grab some beers now, you guys want to join?" Matt, another orchestra player asked us.
We both looked to each other, our faces saying the same thing: I want to be alone with you.
"Sorry, but we made plans already. Maybe another time." We waved goodbye and walked out of the concert hall together, my arm looped through his.
"Thanks for the flowers by the way, they're beautiful." I brought them to my face to smell them.
"You're welcome." He grinned. "I was serious in there by the way. You were amazing."
"Oh stop, you don't have to flatter me. I know it was boring."
"No way!" He stopped to face me. "You're right, concerts like that usually would bore me. But not yours. Not you. You could never bore me. You were so gorgeous playing up there and it sounded so beautiful. I've never been so captivated in my life. You captivate me, Ness." He looked at me with wonder.
Despite the frigid temperature outside, I felt very warm inside. He was amazing and I couldn't help myself anymore. I pulled him down by the collar and got on my tippy toes, pressing my lips firmly against his.
Jacob let out a sound of surprise as I cut him off. Our mouths pressed together awkwardly before he realized what was happening and eagerly slot his lips against mine. For a long time, we just stood there, in the middle of the university square, kissing each other.
It started off tender and sweet, our lips softly learning one another's. But once we broke apart, his big, warm hands touched my face, so gentle as if he was afraid to break me, and he bent to kiss me again. It grew more heated the longer we pressed against each other. His hands moved to cradle my head, one tucked into my hair and the other behind my neck, gently pulling my head back for better access.
My brain and body felt disconnected, and my mouth were doing whatever it wanted. His lips were so soft and full, eagerly giving me the counter-pressure I needed. My hands pulled him in by the hair while my mouth opened, pressing my tongue against his.
It was like if the world stopped moving. I couldn't think, couldn't breathe, couldn't stop. All I knew was Jacob.
I pulled away with a gasp, my body sliding down his. I hadn't even realized he had picked me up. My heart was pounding faster than I ever thought possible, the pace so rapid I almost couldn't count them. But his heartbeat was steady and strong, the constant thumps calming me, making me feel safe. Our heads were bent together, foreheads touching as we caught our breath.
I had some experience with kissing. A couple boys back from middle and high school and others I'd rather not remember. But none of them like this. Not even close.
When I opened my eyes, Jacob was staring back at me, his face glowing with pure delight. I couldn't help the laugh that bubbled out of my throat, the condensation of my breath fogging the cold air. He joined me and now we were both giggling together like idiots, our joy infecting the other. I was so deliriously happy; I wanted to jump and run and sing at the top of my lungs.
Jacob was mine. And I was his.
It had begun to flurry, and the miniscule snowflakes flew into our faces, landing in our hair and eyelashes. They immediately melted once they touched Jacob's skin.
"Wow." He said, eyes and lips still smiling as his hand traveled down my arm to play with the promise bracelet he made me. "That was… wow."
"Yeah, wow." I agreed.
Jacob quickly ducked his head again to press a couple more kisses to my lips before standing to his full height. I felt dazed. "Do you still want to go to dinner?" He asked, taking my hand.
We both agreed to skip the restaurant and order in again. The things we wanted to do together were not appropriate for public display. The rest of the night was spent wrapped in each other's arms as we kissed and talked and kissed and laughed and kissed some more.
I asked Jake to sleep in my bed with me considering it was a lot more spacious than the couch and we'd be more comfortable. At first, he refused, but I was able to convince him with my new persuasion tactics. Though he insisted he sleep on top of the covers and didn't touch me below the waist when we were lying down. When I asked him why he was being such a prude, he blushed and said there's "no need to rush" before pulling me closer to shove his tongue down my throat.
Sleeping next to him was the best slumber I'd ever had in my life. He was big and warm like a giant, cuddly teddy bear, or more like a teddy wolf, I guess. Always keeping me safe.
My dreams were vibrant and beautiful when we were together. Mostly visions of our future together us running through the woods together, me and my wolf. My Jacob.
That's pretty much how we spent the rest of Jacob's visit, wrapped around each other. Before we knew it, he had to leave back to La Push, and I was alone again. Well, not alone, I still had Charlotte and Mango, my other friends, and my whole family. But there was a decidedly large Jacob sized hole in my life, and that just wouldn't do.
The following few days went by in a blur. I hustled to finish my finals early and dodge any of my family's visits, eager to go back to Washington. There was a strong pull inside of me, pulling me towards him, begging me to return.
So, I listened. I took the next plane back to Seattle, jumped on the connecting flight to Port Angeles, and drove an hour and a half back to La Push. To Jacob.
Ms. Call let me in the back of Jake's shop, telling me that he was busy catching up on some repairs. I walked in quietly, trying to sneak up on him. He had rock music blasting in the work area and was bent over an engine, totally oblivious that I was here. I tip-toed up behind him, about to pounce when he suddenly whipped around, banging his head on the hood of the car he was working on.
"Aw shit!"
"Oh my god, I'm so sorry! Are you ok?" I couldn't stop laughing even though I was genuinely concerned. I didn't smell any blood though so I figured he would be alright.
"Ah, I'm good." He grinned up at me, squinting one eye. He moved to shut off the stereo, turning around to give me another look. "Hey, you."
"Hey." I whispered, scraping the toe of my boot across the floor, my smile growing wider.
"C'mere." He pulled me in by my coat, catching me with his lips. Oh, My Jacob. I committed everything in this moment to my memory. Inhaling his scent and letting it wash over me. Feeling the prickle of his stubble as I ran my fingers over his jaw. Everything was finally right in the world. I was home.
We didn't come up for air for a long while, our breathing and heartbeats working a lot harder than before. He tucked his face into my hair, pressing a kiss to the top as I nuzzled his neck.
"God, I missed you." He whispered, pulling away. He tucked a lock of hair behind my ear as his eyes glowed with affection. "How'd you get here so soon? I thought you were finishing school."
"I finished early and flew back. I couldn't stay away." I said breathlessly. "Sorry, I didn't mean to interrupt your work."
"Don't ever be sorry for coming to see me." He said seriously. "You're always welcome here, no matter what. Anyways, I was just catching up with some work. I hired a new guy, but I like to double check everything just in case." He gestured to the cars lined up. "I'm going to be here at least another few hours."
"That's ok! I can wait here until you're done." I looked around, there was a foldable chair pushed into a corner.
"Are you sure?" He raised his eyebrows.
"Yes, positive." I nodded once firmly. "I just want to be with you."
I helped Jacob the rest of the evening, handing him tools and sharing stories about our childhoods as we worked. He didn't finish until late, Ms. Call had already gone home a couple hours prior, so we closed up shop.
Afterwards, he took me back to his house which was empty. "Where's Billy?" I asked, looking around the small foyer.
"Oh, he's visiting one of his sisters. They live on another reservation; he'll probably be gone for another week or so, depends on if the fish are biting."
"Really?" I smirked, wriggling my eyebrows suggestively. "So, we have this whole house, all to ourselves?"
"Yeah, I guess we do." He sniggered, leaning back against the kitchen counter. "Why? Is that all you're interested in, Ness? Getting in my pants?"
"Jacob!" I admonished, feigning hurt. "I just want some quality alone time, is that too much to ask for?"
"Sure, sure." He laughed when I launched myself on him, his arms automatically catching me. My legs wrapped around his waist as I kissed him deeply. When we broke apart, he pulled back to look at me. "Come on," He murmured. "Let's hunt. I want to show you something after."
Ok! They finally kissed! Things will go back to Jacob's POV next chapter and will start to pick up, getting a lot more interesting! We're going to be seeing some characters you guys have been asking for.
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