Chapter 17
"The joys of pregnancy." I say flipping through the pregnancy pamphlet trying to read all about the wonderful joys of being pregnant but my mind can't seem to wrap around the happiness that comes with having a baby. How can you be happy knowing what you know?
I breathe out frustrated about the turn of events that's revolving around Baby Sarah. It's been a couple of days since the incident and weird things been happening with my body that I haven't told Jacob about. It's only been a couple of days and no one brought up the subject about our situation.
I guess it's better not to bring it up. I'm starting to think that maybe the whole stay at the Cullens house was a big lie. I felt it and the pack would not allow Vampires to be around me or Baby Sarah. Who would?
"I don't know." I say out loud hearing the pots moving around in the kitchen. Jacob's making me a sandwich but I prefer a grill cheese sandwich. "Lacie, you're okay?" Jacob shout from the kitchen. "Yeah, I'm just thinking out loud." I say back looking down at the pamphlet.
It goes back to silent. He been quiet since coming back from the pack meeting. I haven't asked him about it. His face when he walked into my house gave off 'Don't ask, Don't tell look' or he could've been ordered too.
I already know but i want to ask him to see what he'll say or if he can say but I'll leave it alone. I haven't physically seen Bella in a couple of days but I look in on her here and there. She's back to hanging with her Vampire Family. I can't stand vampires. No telling what they'll do to Angels plus they stink now.
Maybe it's the pregnancy that's making me feel that way. I look into the kitchen doorway trying to see Jacob but don't see him. It doesn't take that long to make a sandwich. He must be doing one of his thinking mode. Something's going on that's not right. He came home rubbed on my stomach. I asked him for a sandwich and that was almost an hour ago.
"Jacob, how's that sandwich coming?" I yell. "Almost ready, Mia." He say walking out with the plate and a bottle of water in his hand. He sit down next to me putting the plate on my lap and the bottle on the coffee table. This pregnancy may have me down but from the aura that he's giving off. Something's terribly wrong.
"How's patrolling?" I ask picking up my sandwich. "Still the same, Lacie. Sam wanted me to ask you a question." He say shaking a little bit mainly in his hands. "What's that?" I ask taking a bite out of the sandwich and having a taste for a pickle. It's a common crave when you're pregnant all of the women have them. Either that or it's a common joke.
"Let me turn on the TV." I say grabbing the remote off the coffee table and turning it on. I don't like to be bothered when I'm eating. I turn the volume down so I can hear him and watch TV at the same time. He reach for the remote but I kick it off the coffee table. "Don't touch my remote, Jacob." I say looking at him getting up and turning the TV off.
I put the plate down on the coffee table. "How serious is it?" I ask looking at him picking up the remote. He's silent for a few seconds. "Bella's okay. She's with the Vampires. I look in on her every chance I get." "When was the last time you to talked to her?" He asks making me think for a minute. "It's not hard to answer that question, Lacie. Unless you're hiding something."
"I wouldn't hide anything because nothing is wrong for her. I mind my own business and I watch her Jacob. Everybody watches her. She's never hurt. She's always with Paul or Alice. She's always protected." I say while he plays with the remote. "You told me no going around vampires while pregnant with Sarah. She's not dead. I would know if she was and her father is always protected. What's going on?" I ask reaching for my sandwich.
"She left." He angrily say looking me in the eyes while I feel around for my sandwich on my plate. I look down at it to see it's gone and Quil is eating it. I turn around to see Sam and Jared in the living room but no Paul. That's new. Sam is in my house. It must be serious."What you mean she left?" I seriously ask making eye contact with Sam. He just crosses his arms waiting on me to answer.
"Where is Bella?" Jacob asks. "I don't know. She wouldn't leave when it's Victoria and her father." "Lacie, she left." Quil say sitting on the couch next to me. "I would not know where she is. I been busy with the baby and pregnancy for the last couple of days. She has not gave off the impression that she was leaving. I do not where she is gone but i'll find her." I explain trying to go back to watching TV but remembering that the remote is in Jacob's hand.
"You don't seem worried." He say looking me in the face. "Because I watch her every movement and if she's in trouble. I'll feel it. She's my charge." "But you don't know where she's at." He say not believing my words. "Nope, I'm being blocked for some reason." I say pointing to my stomach. "So, you knew she been missing?" Quil asks me in a tone.
"No, Quil. I still try to look into her life but seeing how the Cullens is back. She's been blocked plus I'm not allowed around vampires. Bella would not leave for no reason at all." It get quiet in the room. I guess they're waiting on me to say more. "She would not run away with many vampires on her back." "Maybe that was the reason." Quil say.
"Bella's selfish but she's not that selfish to make a run for it unprotected. I'll find her but I can't do much considering this pregnancy has me out of loop." I say looking down at my hands. My wings tattoos are faded. "How long she been gone?" I ask Jacob.
He doesn't answer the question. The living room get quiet once again. "Bella has protection from all around but I'll find her if she's really missing other than that. It's her life and I don't pry into it. Can I get another sandwich?" I ask holding up the plate. Quil glances at me then Jacob. I'm tired of them beating around the bush.
"Is Bella Paul's imprint?" Sam asks. Is that the question? "Yeah, Sam. Your wolf magic. I know nothing and things been kind of hectic lately. Is that why she so called left?" I ask turning around to face Sam."She didn't so call leave. Her dad called and said her and Paul was arguing then she left." Jacob answers his eyes not leaving the back of my head.
"You wouldn't had lied, Lacie? You're not Taha Aki daughter." Quil say making me laugh on the inside. The baby being half Quilete. Jacob's history. My powers being out of wack. It was bound to spill over. "It was the pregnancy, Quil. We talked about it. Paul is Bella's imprint." I say playing with the plate. "Lacie, just tell the truth." "I'm telling the truth. Bella is Paul's imprint. That's your wolf magic." I say trying not to get an attitude with them.
"What are you hiding?" Sam asks. "Nothing." I say turning around to face Jacob. He's not convinced. "Bella left. That's her personal life between her and Paul. Also Edward." I explain getting annoyed. "So, you know she left?" "You have to understand that we're all teenagers dealing with things. She has a lot of problems on her hand. A vampire army trying to attack her. I'll find her." I say to Jacob.
"We don't need your help, Lacie. You're pregnant." He say reminding me. "What are you hiding?" "I think she's not my charge no more." I admit. "It was a big mistake to have sex and get pregnant. I'm starting to think that maybe I'm not and it's all a game or a ploy." "Why should we trust your words?" "I don't know, Sam. This is a first for me. I never dealt with vampires nor wolves or a pregnancy." I say feeling my stomach starting to growl.
Jacob just looks me in the face. "I'm pretty sure she's alright. She has the Alice the future reader watching her. She has Edward and she also has Paul. Edward is back in town and has been for weeks. Love problems, Jacob. You should know." I say feeling the need to throw up. He doesn't respond. "Is Bella Paul's imprint?" Sam asks with tenor in his voice.
"As I said before, your wolf magic. You know more than I do. I have my own problems that I have to deal with, Sam. She's pack. Am I still going to Dr. Cullen's house for my appointment?" I ask not taking my eyes off Jacob. "No." He answers at the same time as Sam. "Alright, I need to go lay down now." I say laying down on the couch and stretching out my legs putting them on Quil's leg.
"I hope you're not lying, Lacie." Jacob say. "I'm not, Jacob." "You are. It is no more us. You might not be mine." "I'm not in love with a vampire, Jacob. Don't try that on me." I say brushing off what he said. He doesn't say anything. "It's a love triangle and I don't know what goes on in their relationship. I have my own problems with a so called killer pregnancy. I'll find her after I take a nap. Cullens are back now. They're watching her." I say resting my head on my hands and closing my eyes.
Bella's missing or she left. I didn't wait to get the clear story before I searched for her. She was sitting in Sue's diner drinking either tea or coffee. It looks like she been crying. It's no time for her to be going around by herself. It's too dangerous considering vampires is still after her life.
I flop back on the bed with my shirt rising up a little bit. "Hm." I say looking at my midriff. Nothing abnormal been going on in a couple of days besides always being tired. I hear a knock coming from downstairs. I sigh getting up off the bed and walking out of the bedroom and downstairs.
The person knock again. "Okay, the backdoor." I say walking through the kitchen. I look around at the dirty dishes before opening up the door. "Embry." I say leaning on the door. He just stands there with both arms by his side. I knew he was going to come to visit since the guys came over questioning me. "You have questions. Come in." I say moving out of the way for him to walk in.
He walk in and sit at the dining table. I sigh locking the door before closing it. "How can I help you? Jacob's out patrolling and he's not here." I say sitting at the table with him. He shake his head. I guess I'll go first. "This is about Bella and Paul. I don't know what happened but she's watc-" "She went to Italy." He say making me stop in my track.
"She went to Italy?" I ask confused. She's at Sue's diner. "Yeah, kind of tore Paul up. Something about saving Edward." He say. I scratch my head confused and I turn my head again to get a good look at her. She's wearing the same clothes that she wore last week before I had found out about the pregnancy. I been tricked.
"She been gone for three days and no one told me a thing. She is my charge." I say not believing that I was tricked. "No one wanted to upset you." He say. I can accept that. The baby does come first but I should've been told about this.
Embry looks me in the face. "Is there anything else, Embry?" I ask ready to go look for Bella. "Did you know?" "Did I know what? I know nothing about what goes on in someone's personal life. I am only in charge of keeping Bella out of danger." "Are you Jacob's imprint?" He asks. I knew he was going to ask that.
"I think I am, Embry. It's a big problem now because of Paul and Bella but me and Jacob are different. I don't want to be put in the same category as those two because me and him have our own problems but I can check, Embry." I say and it goes silent in the kitchen. "You said you think." He say. I shouldn't had said that.
"Because it's going around from Bella and Paul. I am his imprint. Embry, you'll find yours." I say wanting to get up and hug but decide against it. "Lacie." Jacob call walking down the stairs and into the kitchen. I look at him. "Embry's not there." He say. I look at the empty seat where Embry was sitting at. "Okay, my mind is playing tricks on me. I'm just going to go back up stairs." I say getting up and walking past Jacob.
He grabs my arm stopping me. "You're not my imprint?" "I am, Jacob. My powers just been out of wack because of baby Sarah. I am your imprint and it's your wolf magic. Can you let me go? I'm tired. You hid Bella." I say lightly ungripping his grip from my arm. "Our baby's health is first." He say. "I know that but it's something I should've known especially with everything going around." I say.
"That's the main reason, Lacie." "I understand that our baby comes first but it's still something that you all should've told me." "Our baby is first." "Right. I'm going upstairs and going to sleep. I'm very tired." I say walking up stairs and leaving him behind.
I'm standing in front of the long mirror in my bedroom trying to locate Bella. She's in Italy. "She went to Italy?" I ask trying to search for her but she's too far. "She went to go save the bloodsucker." Jacob growl's out. Save him? How she get away from me? The baby. I'm so out of wack. My powers is half gone. I'm having bad dreams.
Almost a week and she went to Italy. "She didn't tell me." I say trying my hardest to look for her but can't seem to find her. I'm being blocked or I don't have the power. It must be the baby or something else. Maybe the council. I don't know but she's gone.
"You're not leaving to go search for her, Lacie." Jacob say walking up behind me. "And, I'm not. Bella's on her own and I'm sure she's protected. I have to think about the baby." I say crossing my arms. It get silent in the bedroom.
"Have you told your dad yet?" I ask him. "No. Your fifteen year old son got this angel pregnant. Fifteen, Lacie." He say. "Right, I'm like four hundred years old." I joke. "Are you?" "No, I'm just stuck at sixteen. You don't want to be stuck and watch everybody grow old and have a family, Jacob. It's painful. I think we need to talk." I seriously say.
"I think we need to too." He say agreeing. I leave from the mirror and sit on my bed. He sit next to me. "Obviously, I can't raise a baby and it was never my intention to cross the line with you. I'm not alive to raise a baby and I'm pretty sure when this is all over. I'll be leaving to go home." "You're not taking Sarah." He growls out. That's where is the problem is.
It get silent as I think of gently putting it down for him. "I just want you to be prepared incase I do leave or have to leave." I say and he scoot up next to me. "You're not taking Sarah." He dangerously whisper in my ear. "I had a heart it'll skip, Jacob." I say pushing him back a little bit. "This is serious, Lacie. The pack is not going to let you leave Sarah." He say and I want to say the words 'You can't stop me.'
"No telling what your so called mother or council will do with Sarah." "I know that much but no one goes up against the council. They're powerful, Jacob." I say looking at him picking up the ball that's on the floor. "Not taking my daughter, Lacie." He say tossing the ball up in the air.
I breathe out laying back on the bed. "Our daughter stays here. It's heaven, Lacie." He growls out. Heaven? "I know that." I say looking at the ceiling. We're both silent till an acorn hit the bedroom window. "Heaven is paradise, Jacob." I say speaking kindly of heaven. "Only for dead people, Lacie." He say coldly say.
"I am dead, Jacob. I admit that. Right." I say giving up and throwing the blanket over my body. I turn over to look him directly in the face. We make eye contact. I can see it in his eyes that he's not about to let his daughter go anywhere. "I'm just saying, Jacob. I'll fight for our daughter. I just don't want to leave her and I may not have a choice." I say.
He's silent. "It's a first time this has happened that I know of. I didn't come for you, Jacob. I came for Bella. Our path crossed and I didn't know about you. It's over than I'll be leaving. Just to warn you, Jacob. I don't know what might happened." "I'll fight for our daughter, Lacie." He growls out.
"I know you will, Jacob. But, some battles you can't win. I'm sure it's against the law to take an innocent baby from their father. I'll fight too." I say rubbing on his leg and looking in the mirror. "Bella's on her own till she gets back. I'm not going to Italy. It might be a trap." I angrily say.