Two months later

Claire p.o.v.

When I made the decision to go back through the stones I never would have guessed it would turn out to be this great. The relationship between Jamie and me is stronger than ever. At first we really had to get used to being with each other again. We both were a bit scared. I was afraid that he would get hurt when he would go somewhere without me, or that this was all a dream after all and that he didn't survive Culloden. Jamie in his turn admitted to me he was scared to leave me alone. He was afraid not to be there in case I needed him. Turns out he was feeling guilty for not being there to support me during the second miscarriage.

We had a lot of serious talks, vulnerable talks, but it brought us to where we are today. We are an even stronger couple because of it. And of course even through all the difficult moments we never stopped loving each other.

I have also found my place at Lallybroch. At first it was difficult for me to find my purpose and what to do with my days, but I just went back to the basics, back to healing. When needed, people come to see me at Lallybroch. I also make frequent visits to nearby villages to help out wherever needed. So to sum it up, the last two months have been intense and at the same time incredibly beautiful.

It's currently around six o'clock in the morning and I find myself hunched over a bucket containing my own vomit. I've been feeling a bit off for the last few days, but after what just happened I'm sure. I'm pregnant. This definitely isn't something Jamie and I were planning on happening any time soon. Even though I am really scared, I am also really happy. Jamie and I have always wanted to start a family together, maybe this time everything will be okay. One thing is for sure, we will go through this together this time, all the way to the end.

I will tell Jamie today and I'll think of a fun way to do so. Luckily my nauseousness subsides a bit. I don't think I can go back to sleep so I decide to get dressed and go downstairs after getting rid of the dirty bucket. Despite the early hour there are already a lot of people starting up for the day. To my surprise Jenny is also already downstairs. She's sitting by the fireplace sipping a cup of tea. I decide to join her.

"Well good morning." I say as I walk to the other chair by the fireplace.

"Claire! Good morning. You're up early." She says with a smile on her face.

"Well I couldn't sleep anymore, but I'm not the only one I see." I answer.

"One of the kids had a nightmare. I put her back to bed but now I am wide awake. But it's okay. Won't be long before the rest awakens I think." She says.

I can't help but notice that she has the biggest grin on her face. It makes me laugh.

"What is so funny this morning?" I ask.

Jenny looks at me raising her eyebrows. "Well… I guess in a few months I wont be the only one who'll be waking up early because of the children… will I?" She smirks.

"I don't know what you mean." I say. She can't know, can she? I only just found out myself.

"Oh Claire… I've been with child enough to know when someone else is." She laughs. "Besides… you look like a ghost. So I guess the morning sickness has started."

I smile. I should have known Jenny would know before anyone else. "You're right. I'm pregnant."

Jenny jumps up from her chair and hugs me.

"I'm so happy for you and Jamie! Does he know yet?" She asks.

"No… I haven't told him yet. I was planning to tell him today. Maybe go for a picknick just the two of us and then share the news." I say.

"Aye. Sounds like a plan. I'll ask Mrs. Crook to prepare a lunch basket for you to take with you. Jamie's going to be so happy."

I can't help but feel so happy and almost giddy at the thought of telling Jamie today. This will be another chapter for us and hopefully this time with a happy ending. Something inside me tells me this time is going to be different, better.

Luckily for me the morning passes by quite quickly. I haven't been sick anymore either so that's good news as well. When it's lunchtime I go to Mrs. Crook to pick up the basket she prepared for Jamie and I. I thank her for it and then make my way towards the stables to find my husband.

He's just finishing up feeding the horses as I arrive at the stables. He immediately notices me an walks over to me and kisses me. "God, I haven't seen ye all morning Sassenach."

I smile. "Well then it's a good thing that I thought we could have some lunch together." I say and hold up the basket.

We decide to go sit in the grass by the tower. We eat lunch and talk about all kinds of things, but for some reason I'm suddenly finding it hard to tell him I'm pregnant. There are just these thoughts in my head… what is he isn't happy about it? What if he isn't ready?

"What's troubling you mo nighean donn?" He asks. I must have been staring out in space for a while.

"Nothing… nothing's troubling me." I smile. "I just… I have something to tell you."

I see he's trying to read my face to see what it is, so I decide to just get it over with and hope that my feelings are right and he will be happy with the news.

"I'm pregnant Jamie."

For a moment he just looks shocked but that doesn't last long. He kind of jumps at me and hugs me while we roll on the ground. He kisses me all over. It makes me giggle.

"So I take it you're happy about the news?" I ask while I already know the answer, but just to be sure.

"Oh sassenach, I couldn't be happier. I love you so much!"

"I love you too Jamie."

We just lay there for a while, Jamie's hand rests on my belly. Our miracle.