Sophia's POV

I felt numb...not totally nothing but just numb as I laid on the couch completely still as I stared up at the ceiling, it's been hours since Kol died and I had cried my eyes out until I had nothing left to cry and now there was next to nothing to feel except the sunlight and moved across the floor as the sun rose in the sky before casting it's light across my face but I barely even felt the warmth of its rays and I twirled the daylight ring around on my finger.

Nik wasn't in much better shape as he stood to the side, right in front of the barrier in which kept him entrapped from the kitchen where Kol still lays left to rot which is why I'd moved to the couch so that his burnt corpse was hidden from my sight since right now I was content to remain numb.

"Morning Sunshine, you look pathetic" I lifted my head with a glare towards Tyler Lockwood since I couldn't deal with him rubbing Kol's death in our faces.

"Only until Bonnie's spell locking us in here wears off, then I'll look different...angrier perhaps or I won't look like anything, because I'll have gouged your eyeballs from their sockets" Nik replied and I sucked in a breath since just picturing that filled my head with blood and in turn it make me thirsty since I was still weak from the blood loss.

"My friends will be back with the cure by then, so I could shove it down your throat and make you mortal" Tyler protested and I finally sat up sending an even deeper glare towards him.

"I'm an original, what makes you think my entire vampire bloodline won't be cured along with me...i.e.: you" Nik argued and I frowned turning my head towards him wondering if that was even possible since that meant we'd both me turned human.

"You know what I think?" Tyler snapped arguing. "I think that's impossible, I think the moment you stop being a vampire our whole blood connection to you is broken and your sire-line ceases to exist, so whatever happens to you happens only to you which means I can kill your ass and no one else has to die" Tyler added and I sped towards him.

"Go ahead and try" I growled out angrily but he just had the balls to smirk in my face before he turned towards Nik again.

"Although I am still debating just how to do it" he went on like I hadn't just threatened him.

"I recommend drowning, there's nothing quite like the feeling of someone fighting for something as basic as human breath and let me tell you, your mother was a fighter" Nik smirked clearly enjoying the change in Tyler's cocky bravado.

Tyler refused to leave but thankfully he was keeping his damn mouth shut which at least left me to my own thoughts which unfortunately wasn't as good as people would think especially since my thoughts we plagued with replaying those final moments and watching my best friend burn to death as I stared at his burnt corpse feeling the numbness want to take over again but I instead chose to focus on the anger...and revenge since I would make Elena pay with blood, I was going to kill the person that meant everything to her...her brother and I didn't care about the consequences, I can live with being tortured for the rest of my life if it meant that Kol was avenged and my brothers would know exactly the person that she was if it was the last thing I ever did since they'd also tried to kill me and that I hoped my brothers cared enough to see past her allure to aid me but I wouldn't be able to warn them of anything seeing as my phone sat just outside the barrier having fallen out of my pocket in the fight and out of reach.

"You're still here?" I heard the blonde vampire barbies voice and looked up seeing Caroline had joined the party making my eyes narrow as I got to my feet looking over at her talking to Tyler who was in the kitchen. "What are you doing?"

"Gloating" Tyler smirked as I approached the threshold that lead to the kitchen.

"Hello, Caroline" I smiled at her but she just turned to look at me before looking back at Tyler.

"Come home, don't stoop to his level" she argued with Tyler.

"He destroyed my life, I plan on being present for every second of his misery until I can kill him myself" Tyler argued and I glared at Tyler since he could try but I wasn't losing anyone else especially Nik.

"Fine, you can gloat and multitask" Caroline sighed giving in. "This place is a disaster, starting with a horrific burnt corpse" she added looking down at Kol's body and I clenched my fist.

"That's a person you're talking about blondie, my best friend so hold your tongue or I'll rip it out of your head" I threatened but they ignored me as she pulled out a table cloth and used it to cover Kol's body and my face dropped as I watched the action, it finalizing the fact that Kol was gone and as much as I wanted to break down I held back since I wouldn't give them the satisfaction.

"Tyler's mother is dead so is my brother, we're even call Bonnie and get her to let me out of here" Nik said having come over and watched the action as well, an equally tortured look on his face.

"I will never, ever, help you" Caroline spat glaring at him.

"How quickly you forget the part where I saved Tyler from the misery of being a werewolf or the night your mother invited Sophia into her home to save the life of her precious daughter with my blood" Nik argued with her.

"How delusional are you?" she scoffed in his face making me glare feeling the veins moving beneath my eyes. "You killed his mother and let's not forget that we're standing in a house where Elena's Aunt Jenna used to live or did you think that your charm would make us forget how you killed her, too and that you stood by and helped?" she spat glaring at us. "You know what...no I am not going to engage in this, you are not even worth the calories I burn talking to you" she added but I noticed that she'd stepped closer to the boarder and was practically in reach, I turned and saw a lamp next to me which I wasted no time in grabbing and stabbed her through the stomach.

"NO!" Tyler yelled out but I had already used it to pull her over the barrier and into Nik's hands who caught and bit her in one fluid motion before he releases her and she falls on the ground.

"Now, that was definitely worth the calories" Nik turns back to Tyler and smirks making my smile widen as I approached him and leant up on my toes to kiss him tasting the blood on his lips before pulling away and licked my lips.

"Mm...I'll say, my lover" I smirked over at Tyler myself as he stood staring motionless at us.

When Caroline woke up from the drained blood she immediately started freaking out and crawled her away out of the barrier to Tyler who wasted no time grabbing her and pulled her further away into the other sitting area placing her on the couch as she continued to annoyingly freak out.

"Hey, hey look at me, look at me I can fix this" Tyler tried calming her down while Nik and I smirked at each other.

"How?!" Caroline exclaimed. "The only thing that can heal me is his blood, oh my god..." I knowingly played with my necklace holding it up so the red liquid caught the light.

"I know, I'll fix it" Tyler argued before he stood and turned to face us. "She'll die if you don't heal her"

"Okay" Nik replied before biting into his wrist before holding it out for view as the blood dripped out. "Beg me to save her life"

"Is this what you want, to remind me that I'm powerless against you?" Tyler asks him "Fine you win I'm nothing, now save her please"

"I'm sorry mate, I didn't quite catch that" Nik smirked at him as the wound began to close on his wrist.

"Please"

"Please?" Nik urged him to keep going.

"Please save her life" Tyler begged and I scoffed shaking my head.

"See, now I think you're just telling me what I want to hear, I mean you did call me pathetic earlier and wouldn't it be more pathetic of me to help now, knowing that hours ago you announced your plan to kill me in a manner in which you're still debating because you want it to have a certain amount of flair?"

"I'm just asking, I'll be your slave again, I'll do whatever you want, just help her" I rolled my eyes since now he was the pathetic one.

"No" Nik replied and Caroline looked up almost shocked.

"Get me out of here, I can't even look at him" she finally said and Tyler went over picking her up in his arms.

"Hope you enjoy what little time you have left blondie, it's more than my best friend ever got" I called after them as they left smirking to myself as the door shut behind them before I turned around to face Nik staring a look before I looked over at Kol's covered body and finally felt the flood gates burst open, the tears started and I couldn't get them to stop since I should have been here, I should have saved him, he was my best friend and I'd let him down because I hadn't been there when he needed me the most like he had been for me whenever Nik pissed me off, whenever I needed to take a break he was there and now he was just gone.

It was hard to tell how long it has been since they left but I wiped my tears since I had to stop crying here, there was a time and place to mourn my wingman and right now was not it since not a moment after I'd stopped crying and wiped my tears did I hear the front door open and Tyler walked in carrying Caroline in his arms.

"You want to be in control, Klaus?" he asked glaring at us as he laid Caroline down on the ground. "Here, now you get to be in control of her life, if you want her to die fine but then you can sit here and watch her die yourselves" he spits before he leaves.

"Nothing personal, love" Nik said looking down at Caroline.

"Well it's personal for me" I argued and he smiled over at me before looking back at Caroline.

"If I heal you that means victory for him, don't worry it won't be long now" Nik told her and I moved towards him as Caroline weakly moved herself to the couch and laid down while Nik and I stood to the side ignoring her slowly dying.

"If you don't feed me your blood, I'll die" she decided to speak up clearly trying to appeal to our better natures.

"Then you'll die and Tyler will have learned his lesson the hard way" Nik argued making me smile since we didn't really have better natures.

"How could you do this to him, to his Mom, to me?" she asked making me look over with a small glare, who did she think she was anyway and why the hell would we care about any of them after everything they've done to us.

"I'm a thousand years old, call it boredom" Nik shrugged wrapping his arms around my waist as we leant against the wall.

"I don't believe you" she argued and I rolled my eyes wishing she'd just die already.

"Fine, then maybe it's because I'm pure evil and I can't help myself" Nik replied making me look up over my shoulder at him with a frown since that wasn't true and he knew that.

"No, it's because you were hurt...which means that there is a part of you that is human" she replied and I turned back to her.

"Of course there is, you know you and your friends make him out to be the bad guy but you've all done bad things, you've all killed people for your own personal gain and the dopplebitch has killed not one but two of his brothers for her own moronic delusion that the world revolves around her and that no matter what she does she's innocent because were the evil ones but were not, there's no such thing as good and evil...only humanity and we have ours, it's just not clouded like the rest of you's" I spat stepping out of Nik's arms as I moved towards her listening to her breathing get even more weakly than before and frowned since she really didn't deserve this given she hasn't really done anything to us other than be a pawn in Elena's world where she was all important and those around her were collateral damage so long as the doppelbitch was safe...that and thinking she could seduce my husband but that was a fool's errand anyway and I couldn't blame her given my husband was practically god looking gorgeous. "Oh for god's sake" I pulled my necklace off and un-screwed the cap on the vial.

"Sophia" Nik warned.

"She doesn't deserve this Nik" I told him as I lifted the back of her head tipping the vial into her mouth letting Nik's blood drain out of it down her throat watching it work instantly as her breathing got better and the wound on her neck healed before she opened her eyes seeing me above her. "You owe me debt barbie and I will collect" I warned her before I stepped back moving as far as I could away from her as she recovered.

"You really think that way about me, love?"

"Of course I do because I've seen firsthand that you are capable of love, which is more than these idiots chose to believe" I told him smiling as I stepped back into his arms. "Because I know that you're in love with me and that's all that matters to me because I'm in love with you too and will be for the rest of my life" I clarified before leaning up and kissed him. "If I was you I'd get out Blondie" she frowned but got up and left the house leaving Nik and I alone since while I'd saved her life that didn't mean I wanted her sticking around to continue to be an annoyance but she only began to leave before her phone rang and she answered it leaving us to listen in.

"Tell me you're not serious" Caroline sighed with the knowledge that it clearly wasn't going very well for the search for the cure given that Elena just filled her in on everything that's gone wrong so far and they haven't even found the damn thing yet.

"I wish I weren't, when we got back from looking for Jeremy, Shane and Bonnie were both gone too, Shane needs Bonnie to cast a spell on Jeremy's tattoo in order to find the cure, and he managed to sneak them both out from under our noses"

"Well, where's Damon in all this?" Caroline asked her and I looked over waiting for Elena's reply since I had noticed the lack of mention of my twin there.

"We had an argument" Elena replied and I smirked excited by that prospect. "I thought he was just taking a walk but then when we went to the beach, we saw signs of a struggle" she added and my face fell since that can't be good.

"Meaning what?"

"Meaning somebody probably jumped him and then grabbed him"

"Do you think Shane took him?" Caroline asked her but I scoffed since that idiot couldn't take out my brother.

"No, I mean, he's not strong enough to take Damon on, even with the element of surprise. He must have someone or at least a few someone's helping him" Elena replied practically voicing my very thoughts.

"I am so sorry, I wish I was there to help" Caroline sighed and I rolled my eyes.

"Well, maybe there's something you can do from home"

"Anything, tell me" Caroline told her.

"So Shane's looking for the cure, we think we can find him we have pictures of Jeremy's tattoo but we just can't translate the map"

"Unless you get the hunter's sword from Klaus" Caroline said looking over at us and we both smirked since now they needed us, how inconvenient for them.

"Exactly"

"He'll never give up the sword" I heard Rebekah say in the background and frowned since of course she was with them.

"Yeah but if anyone's gonna get him to give it up, it's Caroline" Stefan replied and my eyes narrowed since I was so sick in tired of them thinking she had a sexual hold over Nik like he was actually interested in her in any way.

"He will never give up the sword, not even for Caroline especially with him and Sophia back to their sickening selves" Rebekah argued with him and I frowned. "He's terrified we'll use the cure against him to make him mortal and even if he wasn't he wouldn't want any of us to derive a moment's worth of happiness from being human"

"Well maybe he doesn't have to give it up, Klaus is stuck in Elena's house by Bonnie's spell and my sister took off after we killed Kol" I heard Stefan reply and frowned confused, why the hell did he think I took off, did he not know that I was trapped here as well...did Elena and Jeremy even tell my brothers that I had been there and that they'd tried to kill me. "He can't go anywhere, there's only so many places you can hide a 3-foot piece of metal"

"I'll find it don't worry, just email me photos of Jeremy's tattoo I'll find the sword and I'll call you back" Caroline replied while Nik and I shared a look knowing that they'd most likely find the sword but they'd never be able to read the map without us.

"Thank you Caroline, bye" Elena said before hanging up.

"Need my help with anything, love?" Nik asked her as she started to leave.

"Nope" she states before she walks out the door leaving us alone.

"Elena's lying to my brothers, they don't know I'm trapped here with you" I spat glaring at the direction that Caroline had disappeared. "They think I ran off, they don't know that she tried to kill me too...what's she playing on doing finishing the job when they get back so I don't tell them"

"They probably wouldn't care, they've chosen a doppelganger over you before love" Nik pointed out and I frowned turning to him.

"Yeah but it's..." I trailed off when I went to say this time was different because was it really, we weren't even as close as we had been before Katherine so did I really believe they'd pick me over Elena now when they hated the fact that I was married to Nik and threw me in with the Mikaelson's more than once turning their backs on me, I mean yeah we'd been getting closer especially me and Damon but he loved Elena and was fighting so hard to prove that what she felt wasn't just the sire bond controlling her feelings. "It doesn't matter I'm not letting her get away with thinking she could lie to my brothers" I spat sitting down on the coffee table crossing my arms.

"You don't need them, my love" Nik replied sitting next to me placing his hand on my cheek and ran it through my hair.

"They're my brothers Nik, I think I'll always need them in my life but I'll always need you by my side" I smiled moving to sit across his lap placing my hands on his shoulders. "If it came down to them or you...I'd chose you"

"Always & Forever" he smiled pressing his lips to the top of my head pulling me close as we sat there, my head resting on his shoulder and his resting on top of mine in a quiet peace for what I wished had been our entire imprisonment but it only lasted half an hour before the peace and quiet was interrupted by the door opening with Caroline and Tyler entering with a laptop and the sword making me frown.

"Well if it isn't little orphan Lockwood, come to show how laughably impotent you are against me?" Nik goaded as soon as he saw Tyler.

"I'm just trying to help my friends find the cure" Tyler argued smugly meaning he of course didn't learn his lesson and I was a fool for healing Caroline. "Found this in your attic" he added uncovering the sword.

"And you think finding the sword brings you closer to the cure?" I asked raising my eye at him.

"You tell me, I was playing around with the handle on the ride over...and I found this" Tyler argued unwrapping the leather from around the handle as I stood up allowing Nik to stand.

"And what do you think this is?" he asked him as he approached the edge of our barrier.

"It's called a cryptex" Caroline stated making me huff since maybe she wasn't a stereotypical blonde after all. "I've seen 'The Da Vinci Code'..." she added towards Tyler and I retracted my previous thought. "You turn the different sides to the different symbols to get the translation on the other side and with the magic of the Internet, Elena sent over these" she shows us the pictures of Jeremy's tattoo. "So now all we have to do is cryptex away, if you happened to want to help we wouldn't stop you" she adds looking at Nik.

"Right well might I suggest using the magic of the Internet to purchase an Aramaic-to-English dictionary from your nearest retailer?" Nik suggested making me smirk when I saw Caroline's face fall.

"What's Aramaic?" Tyler asked turning to Caroline.

"It's a dead language, it hasn't been used since like biblical times" Caroline replied as Nik and I smirked.

"Qetsiyah's native tongue I'm guessing" Nik shrugged now the one who was smug. "You know even if you had the best dictionary in the world, it could take days to translate...perhaps weeks...'In bas so-teen-too ara-ma-eet'..." I lowered my eyes to hide my smile.

"What does that mean?" Tyler asked him.

"If only you spoke Aramaic" I replied and watched the teenagers turn to me in shock that I had understood him.

"You understood him?" Caroline asked me.

"Amazing isn't it, what you can learn from a thousand year old husband with an infinity for languages, works wonders when we want to have a conversation without anyone understanding us" I replied not even bothering to hide my amusement and smirk this time as I turned to Nik. "Isn't that right my lover?" I asked in Aramaic and he smirked.

"Indeed, my love" he replied and their expressions sank even more with the knowledge that all the help they needed was right in front of him but so out of reach since we wouldn't be helping them unless it benefited us which they knew so they were stuck translating by themselves and from their very first try I knew they were way off.

"Ok this is it, we've translated all the symbols on the tattoo...'Passage inside...requires a young senator and a pretty flower'...ok, none of this makes sense" Caroline huffed throwing down their translations which were obviously wrong which Nik and I of course knew and shared a knowing smirk before Nik decided to read out the passage in Aramaic and they looked up.

"Requires a powerful witch and a hunter in full bloom" I translated in the English version.

"What are you two doing?" Tyler asked us clearly suspicious of our true motives for helping even if we were just doing it for the amusement of their faces.

"We don't need to tell you our reasons" Nik replied before turning to Caroline. "Bring my sword over here" he asked her and the two of them shared a look before she grabbed the sword and walked towards us but being mindful to remain a safer distance from the barrier and out of reach this time. "...'Silas rests on the far side, the means of destruction at hand'..." he read then looked over at the pictures of the tattoo. "Turn the cryptex to the right" he instructed and Caroline turned it. "Stop...the top of the hilt reveals a key to a nautical map...turn it to the left" Caroline turned it again. "Now turn the other piece" she turned a smaller mechanism under the hilt. "There's something else" he added before he read the transcription in Aramaic and I smirked since this was actually kind of perfect...for us anyway.

"What does that mean" Caroline asked when neither of us translated it. "Klaus, what does it mean?" she demanded but we continued to ignore her so she called the others to tell them where to find the cave.

"Hello?" I heard Rebekah reply and my smirk grew since we could warn her about what we'd discovered.

"Hey it's Caroline, we have the translation of the tattoo we're emailing you pictures of the map and instructions right now" Caroline told her.

"Got it, thanks" Bekah replied when the message went through.

"Actually, it was me" Nik spoke out.

"Nik, you helped?" Bekah asked with disbelief.

"You sound so surprised, Bekah" I laughed letting her know I was here since perhaps she'd let my brothers in on the fact.

"Shouldn't I be?" Rebekah asked. "Sophia I didn't know you were with Nik" she pointed out what I had suspected.

"Yes well I've been here the whole time considering Elena and her brother tried to kill me too" I shrugged looking at Nik who was smirking knowing exactly what I was doing.

"Well I mean, Nik doesn't want me to be human, he doesn't want any of us to be human, so why would you help us find the cure?"

"Maybe I finally realized the longer I stand in the way of what you want, the longer you'll continue to hate me" Nik replied and I reached down squeezing his hand. "Perhaps I want my sister to finally know happiness"

"Fool me once shame on you, fool me a hundred times..."

"No more fooling, no more games" Nik argued cutting Bekah off. "I hope you get to live and die, as you wish"

"So do I" she replied and I could hear the smile in her voice, she desperately wanted the cure which meant we had to ensure that she got to it.

"There is one more thing Rebekah" I spoke up seeing Tyler and Caroline look towards me confused. "There is only one dose of the cure, you need to find it fast and take it, it's the only way you'll..." Tyler rushed to hang up before I could finish but Bekah had gotten the important part of the message anyway so job fulfilled and enjoyingly watched as Caroline and Tyler stood going outside.

I slumped down onto the couch laying back staring up at the ceiling again really over these torturous walls we've spent two days staring at and really just missed the sun but before I was able to voice my annoyance I heard a set of footsteps walking back into the house and looked up seeing Caroline walking in and she looked over at Nik who was sitting in one of the armchairs.

"You can't kill Tyler" she stated and I frowned standing up.

"Not only can I, I have to I have a reputation to uphold...moreover, I want to" Nik argued with her.

"I'm not asking you to forgive him, all I'm asking is that you let him live somewhere far from here" Caroline argued looking at him pleadingly.

"So he gets to live a happy life after he turned all my hybrids against me, after he tried to kill me, after he made it his life's mission to find the cure so he could use it against me" Klaus argued right back, standing up and walked towards her stopping at the barrier.

"We all want the cure!" Caroline insisted and I scoffed.

"Do we?" I asked drawing her attention. "Do you?" I asked her.

"It doesn't matter, there's only one so it's not like I'm gonna get it anyway" she argued and I shrugged nodding since of course she wouldn't get it, that cure was going to Elena even though she really didn't deserve it over anyone else, my idiot brothers would make sure of that.

"But if you could...you wouldn't, would you?" Nik asked her and Caroline's face said it all...she wouldn't. "You prefer who you are now to the girl you once were, you like being strong, ageless, fearless...we're all the same, Caroline" he added looking at me as I smiled a little.

"Then show me, you know how much I love Tyler, you can see how scared I am to lose him...you'd feel the same way if it was Sophia I know you would, so show me your compassion, show him the mercy that I would show you" Caroline said and I frowned at her using his feelings for me as a bartering chip.

"Mercy...for Tyler?" he asked slowly. "Very well, tell him to leave town immediately and tell him to run and hide in a place I will never find him" he replied and I raised an eye a little confused that he'd given in to her request.

"Of course" Caroline smiled excited over the news and turned to go and tell Tyler the news quickly grabbing her jacket off the couch putting it on.

"Tell him that this is the mercy I extend for your sake...that I will give him a head start before I kill him" Nik added and Caroline froze turning around to look at him in disbelief before she frowned and left the house knowing that was the only deal she was going to get and that she ought to say her goodbyes now.

I watched as Nik sat back down in the armchair before I made my way towards him and sat across his lap letting my legs hand over the armrest wrapping my arms around his shoulders as I played with the collar of his shirt.

"Answer me honestly Nik...would you take the cure?" I found myself asking after a couple minutes silence, keeping my voice barely above a whisper seeing as we could still hear Caroline and Tyler outside on the porch.

"Why?" he asked making me frown.

"I don't know, a chance to grow old, a chance to have a family?" I asked feeling insecure of myself at the look on his face, I didn't want him thinking I didn't like being a vampire or that I would ever betray him or leave him to become human.

"Perhaps it couldve been a dream to have a family of my own but why dream about such things when they'll never come true" he argued and I frowned nodding my head agreeing with him.

"I used to dream about having kids of my own, growing up I always knew I had a role to play and when my father sold me to be married I knew one day I'd have to have kids with him even though I didn't want to since I only wanted kids with a man that I loved which of course I didn't find love until I lost the ability to have my own and when I first heard about the cure that's what had drew me to the idea of taking it-"

"And now?" he questioned.

"Now, knowing you wouldn't take it and that I'd be giving up the strength, speed and amazing eternal beauty" I joked making him smile a little as I dragged my hair over one shoulder twirling it with one finger. "I couldn't imagine becoming weak again, I love being a vampire and if not having kids is the price to pay for being with you forever than I'm glad there's only one cure so I have an excuse not to take it" he reached up and cupped my cheek.

"Sophia if I could have a family with you I would but you are all I need"

"Your all I need too" I smiled leaning in and captured his lips slowly moving as his hands travelled along the curve of my leg but before it got too heated we suddenly felt the magical force in which had been suffocating and trapping us these past couple of days fade away making us both frown as we stood and made our way towards the barrier and Nik lifted his hand waving his hand in and out making my eyes widen when the barrier was no longer there, we were free and so we walked out finding Caroline alone on the porch swing.

"How did you two get out?" she asked getting up.

"I fear something awful has befallen your friend Bonnie" Nik replied and I smiled a little since that witch had been nothing but a pest since we'd returned to this godforsaken town so I wasn't gonna be feeling sorry for her death, we moved and she automatically flinched.

"Oh don't worry, blondie you know I can't seem to kill you or let you die-" I spoke smirking at her.

"You've done enough"

"We've done more than enough, we've shown kindness, forgiveness, pity..." Nik argued before he took my hand and we walked away heading home and I immediately jumped into a nice shower to rid myself of the dirt and blood in which had stained my clothes these past couple of days before I grabbed my phone which I had placed on charge seeing I had a missed call from Kol and I nearly dropped the phone but I held onto it and pressed on it lifting it to my ear.

"Sophie...I'm sorry darling but I have to do this and whatever happens know that I love you-" it cut out making me frown and instantly replayed it before the phone fell from my hand and I let myself break downagain and this time I allowed myself to cry, to feel all of the pain knowing that his death was final and that I would never see him again which soon turned into a mourn filled scream of agony as I dropped to my knees.

"Sophia!" I heard Nik call out before his arms were around me holding my back against his chest as I had snapped and lost control of my emotions emptying out everything I had been bottling up these past couple of days into one huge explosion which he didn't try and calm me down since he obviously knew it would be futile, that I needed to feel everything, that I needed to get this out. "Don't hold it in, my love" he soothed running a hand through my hair once I was done screaming and sank against him.

"It hurts so much Nik...he can't be gone, I don't want to feel any of this"

"You have to feel all of it, don't turn it off Sophia" I frowned looking up wondering how he even knew that for the first time in my existence that I had contemplated the idea of flipping my switch. "Please my love, I need you" I didn't reply because I couldn't, what could I say to explain how I was feeling, I'd lost my best friend but he'd lost his brother and I was the one breaking down which is why I couldn't turn it off because he was right, I had to hold onto my humanity as a way to honor Kol's memory and to care enough to avenge him by killing that doppelbitch.