This past month has been such a struggle for Beca. After her performance she flew back to New York and packed up some of her things to take to LA because Theo wanted her there immediately. When she entered her empty apartment, she shared with Fat Amy and Chloe she broke down crying. After watching Chloe flirt with Chicago all throughout their trip she was finally going to confess to Chloe that she had feelings for her.

Unbeknown to Beca that Chloe would be kissing Chicago after her performance. It broke Beca's heart but she couldn't let anybody see it. So, she just sucked it up and moved on talking with Theo about what to do next. Her goodbye with Chloe wasn't what she wanted but her heart was broken and couldn't take any more than just a quick hug goodbye. So, when she came in all alone, the memories of all of them went through Beca's mind and she couldn't take it anymore.

After what felt like hours of crying, which was only 30 minutes, Beca packed what she deemed important to her. Most of her clothes, her laptop, and headphones. She left behind photos of her and the redhead, and a note asking Fat Amy to pack up the rest of her things and she would pay for the shipping once she got her own place. As Beca was walking out the door she saw the yellow cup the two of them fought over for years. She quickly made the decision to take it as the only thing to remind her of her feelings for Chloe Beale, and with that she left.

Her flight wasn't that bad, since they splurged and got her a first-class ticket, she thought about her friends and once again she thought about Chloe. All the thoughts of them together and how she had so many chances to tell the redhead how she felt. She had feelings for Chloe since she first met her but was too afraid to indulge in those feelings, so she dated Jesse. Beca knew back in high school that she was bi.

Then her mind went to Jesse and their relationship. How much it hurt her when it ended, but it wasn't necessarily how it ended, but what he said. His words still ringing in her head, "Beca, face the facts you are in love with Chloe and have been for years. I am tired of being your beard, I know you don't love me anymore and frankly I don't even know if you ever did." The two haven't spoken since, because Beca wasn't sure what to say to him. She knew he was in a relationship, and he seemed happy. At least that is what social media is portraying of him in his new life.

Beca just needed to focus on her music, her and Theo talked about her producing her own album and a few other albums. He wanted to see what she did with her own album first before he decided on what artists she can work with. He saw something in her on the tour but wanted to make sure she could continue to live up to it and not be just a one hit wonder. So that was what Beca was doing, she hit the ground running and never looked back.

She got messages from Chloe but ignored them or told her that she was too busy to talk. It was partly true but most of it was that Beca couldn't handle talking with her. Beca was recording songs, and even writing her own. She was at the recording studio late, and everybody had left so Beca found herself in the booth recording a song that expressed how overwhelmed she was feeling.

Help me, it's like the walls are caving in
Sometimes I feel like giving up
But I just can't
It isn't in my blood

Laying on the bathroom floor, feeling nothing
I'm overwhelmed and insecure, give me something
I could take to ease my mind slowly
Just have a drink and you'll feel better
Just take her home and you'll feel better
Keep telling me that it gets better
Does it ever?

Help me, it's like the walls are caving in
Sometimes I feel like giving up
No medicine is strong enough
Someone help me
I'm crawling in my skin
Sometimes I feel like giving up
But I just can't

It isn't in my blood
It isn't in my blood

I'm looking through my phone again, feeling anxious
Afraid to be alone again, I hate this
I'm tryna find a way to chill, can't breathe, oh
Is there somebody who could help me?

It's like the walls are caving in
Sometimes I feel like giving up
No medicine is strong enough
Someone help me
I'm crawling in my skin
Sometimes I feel like giving up
But I just can't

It isn't in my blood
It isn't in my blood (oh)

I need somebody now
I need somebody now
Someone to help me out
I need somebody now

Help me, it's like the walls are caving in
Sometimes I feel like giving up
But I just can't

It isn't in my blood
It isn't in my blood, oh, oh
(Oh, oh, oh)

It isn't in my blood
I need somebody now
It isn't in my blood
I need somebody now
It isn't in my blood

Beca came out of the booth and stopped recording. She played it back to listen to how it sounds, her raw voice giving it that much more emotion. She did a little tweaking for now because this was just a private thing. It wasn't until she heard clapping that she turned around. She found Theo leaning against the door clapping his hands at her.

"What are you doing here Theo? I thought everybody went home for the evening." Beca said surprised to see him standing there. "Oh no, I just went for dinner, I don't go home until you go home." He replied as he walked through the door. "The song is good Beca, where have you been hiding this from? I think we should put it on your album and release it as a single." Theo stated.

"This was just something for me to get out of my head, I had no intentions of putting it on the album, but you really think it's that good." Beca questioned, because usually Chloe was the only one telling her she was brilliant. So Beca was still getting used to somebody else praising her talents.

"Yes, and I think you should make it a piano version and release it as a single. I also think you need a few days off; I've realized you haven't had any days off in a little over a month. So that a long weekend and I'll see you back here on Tuesday." Theo replied packing up his things. Beca nodded because for once she was tired and wanted to sleep and unpack her stuff that Fat Amy sent over two weeks ago.

Beca got back to her apartment the studio put her in until she could make it on her own and was exhausted. But she decided to start unpacking some of the boxes. One of the boxes she worked on was full of memories of her and Chloe. She saw all the pictures that were taken of the two, and it looked like there was some new ones that she and Chloe didn't take. As she was looking through, she could feel her heart break all over again. So, she picked up the phone and make the phone call she really needed to make.

"Hey Jesse, it's Beca."