Sorry for the delay in posting. I'm having some personal issues that need attending to. I will actually write about it in a chapter for a different book to help work through the issues in my mind. Thanks for reading.


It was opening day of Kim's new show. Her nerves on fire. She never felt like this with a show before but this was different. She had never performed this piece before. It was completely brand new to her and that caused all kinds of nerves. She absolutely hated feeling this way. She was trying to workout her feelings. She could normally numb her feelings by working out. But not today. She needed help. She needed a stress release. She headed to the bedroom hoping Adam would be in the shower already. She knew he wasn't a fan of stress releases. So she would take care of it herself. As she entered she saw him stepping out of the bathroom in his boxers. "Morning darling. How are you feeling today?" He had no idea what her first day routine was like. "Um morning." He watched her as she played with her fingers looking nervous.

"What's going on?" He asked worried about her. "I'm just really nervous. And I'm not normally. I couldn't even work out. I was coming in to stress release." She watched him realize what she meant. "By yourself?" He asked confused. "Um yeah I know you don't really appreciate when I just need a stress release so I figured I would do it myself." She shrugged a bit. "Kim." He sighed heavily. "I don't hate doing that. It was just those few weeks that's all it was. No passion, no love, no fire. It was just fucking. How about we try giving you the stress release but not just a fucking, just yet. Let me play with you for a bit. I think you will enjoy it and get the stress out. You okay with it?" He asked moving closer to her. He saw fire in her eyes.

"Do we have time?" She asked curiously. "We have plenty of time. Now strip down while I grab a few things." He walked to the closet grabbing the new paddle and a tie. He also grabbed a phone. It had no internet connection, no service plan at all. Just enough to video them like they talked about doing. He came back finding her naked and waiting nervously. "Hands please." He watched her hold out her hands and then tied them together. "Now lay partly on the bed. Feet still on the floor. Remember my proper name and the safe word." He watched her nod. "Nope use your words baby girl." He warned as he ran his fingers over her butt cheeks. "Yes Officer. I remember." She needed the release and this was not working so far at all. "Good girl. Now we are going to play with your new paddle. You said you liked being spanked so I'm going to start spanking you. Count them as I do." The first spank was not too hard.

"One officer." Kim moaned. "Two Officer." Kim groaned. She counted each one as they got closer to her age 25. Adam said nothing the entire time. He was rock hard watching her body move with each spank. It was almost torture for him. "You've been a good girl. Are you feeling better?" He asked wondering what she was thinking. "Somewhat Officer." Kim moaned out feeling his hand on her butt cheeks. "Well I guess you need more pleasure and pain. Are you ready to be fucked?" He growled at her. "Yes please Officer." Kim moaned feeling him spread her cheeks apart. He gave her no warning before he slammed inside her. She groaned loudly when she felt him inside her.

He thrusted hard and fast giving her no time to adjust it even breath. She needed a release she was going to get one. He pounded into her over and over till she was literally screaming his name begging for her release. He didn't even care that she cried out Adam not Officer. He was too in the moment to care. And when she came it was loud and hard. Her whole body shaking as she rode out her orgasm. Adam followed right behind her feeling her warm juices washing over his cock. He pulled out flipping her over before she even finished shaking. "I'm going to untie you and then I'm going to turn on this camera on the phone. It has no service, no internet. We agreed to try making a video so now I want you to to please me since I took care of you." He watched her look a little shocked but she'd never saw no to him. Unless it involved other people. That was a hard no. "Okay but I want your head at the foot of the bed and I will perform closer to the camera for you." She watched him swallow hard but did as she asked.

Once the camera was turned on and he was laying how she asked she got on all fours over top of him. Her butt in his face and she went down on him. She started by licking the tip and sucking on just the tip. Taking the pre cum in her mouth. He groaned loudly grabbing her thighs. She then opened her mouth running her tongue all around his erection . Once she locked it clean she flicked the tip with her tongue before taking the full erection inside her mouth. She sucked softly at first moving her head up and down grazing her teeth every once and awhile. She loved hearing him moan and enjoying himself. "Darling! Your dripping wet!" He growled at her. She just worked harder to bring him to his release drinking in every ounce of his warm seed that shot into her mouth. After licking him clean once more she kissed his tip before turning to kiss him.

"Do you feel better now?" He asked seeing her eyes still full of fire. "Yeah but I'm enjoying this game. I'm not ready for it to end." She looked at him smiling again. 'Well I'm glad and it doesn't have to. We can play another round or two. We will turn the camera off though." He smiled reaching to grab the camera and turn it off. He showed her that it was turned off before they started to make out once more. He could feel she wasn't totally there even with the fire in her eyes. "Hold up darling. What's going on with you? Something is off." He asked watching her get annoyed a bit. She didn't want to talk. But he wasn't going to allow her to hide. "I'm nervous about the show tonight. I'm not normally this nervous but it's the first time I have ever dance this show. If I fail, if it fails, there are so many jobs on the line. I feel like it's all on me. I don't want to mess up. I can't mess up. I never felt like this." Kim sighed heavily.

"Oh darling! That's what this is all about? Kim you are going to be spectacular like always. You have worked so hard on this show. It's going to be amazing like everything else you do. I know it in my heart. Look I get why you wanted to get a stress release today but if you would have just explained how you were feeling I could have taken care of you in a better way. I would have shown you love in a better way. I would have throughly loved your body making you feel everything other than nerves. You have to let me in." He sighed pulling her to his chest. "I'm sorry. You are right but you did a video out of it. And it was fun." The fire was back full on. "I will give you that. And I will enjoy that video when you travel but let me love you properly." He asked knowing it what she actually needed. Not the other.

She never responded just pulled him closer kissing him lovingly. She allowed him to take full control again. But he didn't need control he just listened to her body. He let her body tell him everything he needed to know about what she wanted and needed. He spent literally the next half an hour loving every inch of her body before she came moaning his name. Before she could even think straight he was picking her up and carrying her to the shower. He held her tight while the water warmed up. "Feeling better now?" He felt her body molding to his. "Absolutely! You were right. You knew what I needed. I love you baby!" She whispered into his neck. "I love you too! And that's what I'm here for. Some times we know the other person better than ourselves. You know your body tells me everything I need to know about you. So next time you feel like that just be honest with me so I can fix it properly." He kissed her carrying her into the shower.

He placed her down making sure she was steady before he turned his attention to washing her body lovingly. He washed ever inch before washing her hair for her. Every time she tried to take over he stopped her. He wanted her to feel loved and cherished before she left for rehearsal. The last one before the first live show. After he finished washing her he let her get out to dry off. He then washed himself knowing he was going be late at this point but he didn't care. He jumped out quickly drying off fast to get dressed. "Hey I'm running late. I have to go but I will see you tonight. I will be watching the whole show and be there for the Gala afterwards. My tux is at the district already waiting for tonight. Call me if you need anything. Okay? I love you darling. Break a leg!" He kissed her just before grabbing his jacket to head out. "See you tonight. Love you too baby!" She held him a little longer enjoying the closeness but knew he had to go. He kissed her forehead just as she let go.

She watched him get on the elevator before she closed the door locking it behind her. She started to get dressed to leave for the studio. She was still nervous but feeling more optimistic for the day ahead. She grabbed a piece of fruit and headed out the door. She drove to the studio ready to rehearse one last time. She just prayed it went well. Adam on the other hand was running into the bullpen late for work. "Ruzek! Your late!" Voight barked at him. "Yeah I'm sorry it won't happen again." He nodded and joined the team hearing about their case. As they headed to the scene Voight stopped him to check in. "What's going on Adam? You are never late." Voight was stern but concerned. "It's nothing really. Kim had a bad morning, nervous about the show. Weight of the world on her shoulders. So I took the extra time to help her calm down. Other that it's fine." Adam explained knowing it probably sounded silly to his boss. "Well I'm glad she's okay. With her job she needs the extra support. Let's get going now. You have places to be tonight." Voight patted his back as they headed to the cars.

Adam settled in the car next to his partner ready to head out. "Everything alright?" Al raised an eyebrow looking at his partner. "Yeah. Kim had a bad morning. She is doing better now though. Still not perfect but the lights back in her eyes. Just needed some understanding, assurance and stress release but she's good now." He didn't want to dwell on it too much. "Good glad to hear it." Al wasn't much into people's personal lives so he let it go. They worked the scene for several hours ripping the house apart and talking to all the neighbors. Like normal no one saw anything. They got back to the district around 1 to see Kim waiting for them. "Hey Darling! Everything okay?" He was concerned. "Everything is fine. But I realized you didn't eat this morning. So I brought lunch for everyone and fresh coffee." Kim held up the bag showing them the food. "Thank you! That was so sweet of you." He hugged her tight handing the food to Kevin.

Each member hugged her thanking her for her kindness. It was truly sweet of her to think of them all the time. "Thank you Kim. Really. We all appreciate it. Also good luck tonight!" Voight gave her a quick hug before they all headed upstairs leaving Adam with Kim. "How did I get so lucky? You have the most beautiful soul. Always looking out for others. Thank you darling. I really love you, only you!" He hugged her tight. Tucking her head under his chin. "I'm the lucky one. In you I found a home and a family. I can truly start living, not just surviving. And I love you too! My only one!" Kim whispered as he held her. "I know you have to go. So I will let you go. I'm headed home to meditate, then a long hot bath, a quick shower to prevent UTI's then a clean dinner before heading to the Opera house for hair and make up. See you at the gala my love." She kissed him softly but lovingly.

As Kim left she headed to headed home and Adam headed up to the bullpen. He reached the top seeing everyone devouring lunch. "Man this was really nice of her. She's definitely a keeper. Not screw it up." Jay stated eating his lunch. "Oh I know man. God I love her. She's one of a kind for sure. And I don't plan of screwing anything up." Adam sat to eat his lunch beaming with pride. "Yeah man she's so out of your league! You're gonna have to kill it to keep her." Kevin joked looking at his buddy who was just too happy all the time anymore. "Well I'm doing everything I can. And that includes helping to buy a second home at the lake. And helping renovate it. We are really excited about it." He finally told his friends their big news. "Oh and the wedding is the first weekend in November." He added for good measure. "Damn dude! You guys are moving full stream quickly. Good luck!" Antonio was surprised but happy for him.

"Hold up a sec. Buying a home together? How did this come about?" Kevin was shocked by this revelation. "Well we went up there for the weekend, you all know that. I can't explain it, she was glowing looking over the water. Literally the most stunning thing I've ever seen. She was relaxed, laughing, having fun. She had a dream while we were there the first night. It was long into the future. We were at a lake house. She was in a small pool with a child, a small little girl. Apparently I was watching them from the deck. Telling my girls how much I loved them. I even called the little girl by her name. Kim said it in her sleep. It haunted me all night worried what she meant till she told me the dream. So I suggested we buy a place. It's kind of small but 4 bedrooms two bathrooms. Needs a shit ton of work but I think it's the perfect place for Kim during off months to relax and really live." He paused collecting his thoughts.

"Today she told me that she in now living her life not just surviving. This place could be the perfect place for her to live all those childhood things she never got to experience. No ice skating, no roller skating, no carnivals, no fairs, no pony rides, I'm not even sure she knows how to ride a bike. She was literally a slave to dance her whole life. This is going to be great, I can feel it." He smiled thinking of all the things he wanted to experience with her. "Ruz! That sounds amazing! I'm really happy for you both. Making each other's dreams come true." Erin wipes her eyes a bit trying to dry the tear that fell. "Yeah I can't wait to get started fixing it up. The carpet is legit the first thing to go. Gross!" Adam shuddered thinking about it. "Count us in on helping. At least with painting." Jay offered the team. "Thanks pizza and beer on us then." He knew they would help for pizza and beer.

"So can we know the name you guys picked?" Al asked looking from around his computer. "Um I don't know. She never said not to tell anyone but she never said we could. But I guess it's alright as long as you don't tell anyone else. The name she picked is Harlow Grace. Unique, but not weird and old Hollywood vibe according to Kim." He watched them all take in his words. "I love it man. It's perfect for your kid. Have a boys name picked out?" Kev asked. "Thanks man! I really love it too. And no, no boys names picked out. The other was spur of the moment. A dream she didn't realize she spoke aloud. But I'm glad she did. Even if it freaked me out for a bit trying to figure out what she was talking about." He admitted. They all chuckled thinking about how he freaked out.

They got back to work trying to pass the time till the end of shift. It seemed like time was ticking by slowly. It usually did when they had places to be. He'd rather be at home with Kim while she tried to relax before her show tonight. He could picture her meditating in their room. He loved watching her meditate. It helped relax his own mind. He was no pro at it but he tried occasionally hoping it would relax his spinning mind. After long hard cases it did help him a bit but working out was his still his favorite stress release. Then coming home to Kim, being with her was a different type of stress release. She knew how to help him without asking and she was good at drowning out the turmoil in his head.

"Guys patrol has brought in a ton of cases and the phones are still ringing. We are going pair off and each group will take a case to help get them caught up a bit. Most of them are interrogating the suspects and sending them back to holding cells waiting for transport. Let's get started. I would 10 cases off their desk before shift end." Voight dropped the cases down on Erin's desk for them to pass around. "Alright Kev. Let's bust through this. I got places to be." Adam grabbed two files handing one to Kevin before heading down to get their suspect. This was such a better way to pass the time he thought as he moved.

Kim was getting into the tub to soak away the aches of the day. And hoping to relieve the last few nerves she had about the upcoming show. The bath was helping big time to easy the muscle strain she was feeling. It always seemed to be worse the first day of a show. She loved her job but it took a toll on her body. The older she got the worse it got but she had 4 more years to go. They would fly by with all the fun things the couple had planned going forward. Next week they would be closing on their new home and starting the renovation process. As she closed her eyes she allowed herself to envision the home redone, refreshed. Subconsciously smiling as she took in each room fully renovated.

After her bath she stepped out to take a quick shower washing all the soap off her body. She knew one to many ladies who didn't wash after a bath and got a UTI. So she was careful about that. She hated antibiotics and how they effected her body so she fought hard not to take them. The shower was quick before she was out drying off and putting lotion all over her body. She grabbed her robe sliding it on before heading to the kitchen for her clean, healthy dinner. She always tried to eat healthy before shows especially on opening night. As she ate she checked her email. Replying to those that needed attention right away. Deleting those that were junk. A great way to pass the time.

She cleaned up the kitchen and headed back to her closet looking for something easy to wear and getting her outfit for the gala. She headed into her secret closet going for the dress she had purchased just for this event. It was Kelly green, off the shoulder with an a line skirt that was high in the front long in the back. Ruffles along the edges of the skirt and shoulders. It wS high fashion and super expensive but she loved it as soon as she saw it. She didn't think twice about buying it. She bought playful shoes that matched the outfit and grabbed some jewelry that would compliment but not over shadow the dress. She packed her dressed and accessories before dressing in her casual Danskin outfit. Her assistant Kaitlyn would be waiting for her to take photos for her instagram before getting ready for the show.

Hair and makeup plus getting dressed at the Opera house would take two hours before the show. So she didn't have time to mess around. She needed to get going. She headed to her car full of luggage for the night ahead. She drove full of confidence knowing it would be a great show. And having Adam in the crowd gave her even more confidence. He sat at his desk filing the paperwork from the first case they pulled. It was a simple domestic case. A wife threatening her cheating husband, caught on camera. She had a knife and he was pressing charging. It was pretty open and shut but they needed to file all the appropriate paperwork to have her arraigned.

"You ready to get this done so you can get out of here?" Kev asked watching Adam typing away. "Yeah let's do this. I gonna need some time to shower and change before heading to her show so yes let's get this done!" He opened the file looking to see what the next case held for them. "Lovely! Drunken disorderly, public nudity and public urination. God let's hope this isn't close to a school. That's way more paperwork to fill out then." Adam rubbed his face annoyed they had pulled this case. "Nah man! Just an alley. Bartender caught him gave a statement to patrol. Just need to get a statement from the perp and file the necessary paperwork." Kev answered. "Let's hope he has clothes on now." Adam laughed as they headed to lock up to collect their perp.

"Oh lovely! No such luck. Let's get him a uniform before we move him." Adam headed to grab the man some prison gear before they removed him from the room. Neither needed to see this man naked and no one else did either. "Here put this on so we can get you processed." Kevin tossed him the clothes and they waited for him to dress. After he dressed they cuffed the perp and started to head upstairs not before stopping at the front desk. "Hey Serg?" Adam called towards her. "Ruzek! What do you need?" She snarked back at him. "Could you have a talk with your patrol officers who brought this guy in. I get he was brought in partially because of public nudity but he was still naked when he came down to get him. They really should have given him something to wear. What if this had been Lindsey or another female detective or Officer? This is not okay. Plus the man deserves dignity, we all do." Adam watched the shock come over her face. "I got it handled. Thanks for letting me know. You are completely right. I'm sorry that happened and it won't happen again." Platt nodded towards them as they took their perp upstairs to get his statement.

Almost no one was left in the bullpen when they returned as everyone was busy working cases. "Ruzek! Watch your time! You don't want to be late!" Voight reminded him as he came through. "I know my suit is here. And the show starts at 7. I have some time still. Thanks for reminding me." They all heard the office phone ring as they headed different directions. They led their perp to the interrogation room that was open to get his statement on camera. As they interviewed him it turned out he was homeless and suffering from mental illness. And with all honesty he would have been dead if he hadn't been brought in from the cold temps outside. They decided the best course of action was to get him admitted to Chicago Med for treatment. It was the only thing that seemed fair. Once he was taken into custody to be transferred to med they finished up the paperwork needed to close out the case.

"Dude that poor guy! I feel bad for him. I hope he gets the help he needs." Kevin shook his head sadly. "Yeah. It's sad to see people living on the street but also don't get the mental health services they need. That huge. A little help could change his whole life." Adam decided he was going to get more involved with charity. He knew there were multiple foundations that helped provide mental health services to those who couldn't afford it. Maybe there would be less crime if people could afford to get help? He needed to talk to Kim about it. He knew she was into charity work and could give him advice. "Alright let's finish up so I can get out of here on time." He had received a photo from Kim showing her getting her hair started. He sent her a heart emoji and let her know he was leaving on time.

With the paperwork finished Adam headed to the locker room to shower and get ready for his night out. He thought about how the night would go and he was nervous for the gala. He hadn't been to one before and wasn't sure what to expect. But he would do it for Kim. He needed to do this for Kim. As he dressed he saw Kevin coming into the locker looking for him. "Hey. Med called about the guy we transferred over there. I'm gonna head over with Al to see what's going on. Just wanted to give you the heads up. I will keep you in the loop but I know you won't answer." Kevin knew it would upset his partner but Kim was important too. "Thanks for this man. Hopefully it's nothing too major. Though something tells me that it's going to lead to more work. Man had no idea why he was walking around naked. Was he mugged? Robbed? He really needs help." Adam sighed still getting ready. "Agreed. We will figure it out. Just go support Kim. She needs it tonight. And the guy is safe where he is so let's not worry to much about him." The Guys did their secret handshake before Kevin left with Al for the hospital.

Adam exited the locker room headed back to the bullpen grabbing his phone off his desk. "Damn buddy! Looking good!" Jay whistled as he saw Adam. "Look all you like but sadly I'm taken and so are you!" Adam sassed back at his friend who was laughing just as much. "Really man! You look good. Remember to breathe tonight. And just support her." Jay walked over to fix his bow tie on his tux. "Thanks I will. She's been sending me photos of her getting ready. It's pretty cute." He pulled out his phone to show Jay the process. "Adorable! Alright now go! You don't want to be late!" Jay was joking but also somewhat serious about it. "Oh I'm going. See ya tomorrow." Adam headed out the bullpen and out the building before anyone could stop him.

He bought some roses on the way to the Opera House. As he arrived he asked if it was possible to head backstage to see Kim. They called her and she allowed it of course. He was escorted to her dressing room where she was stretching her legs preparing for the show. "Hey Darling! I won't stay long just wanted to give you these. Tell you I love you and wish you luck." He kissed her softly but allowed her to continue. "Awe you are too sweet! Thank you baby! I love you too! I'm almost set to take the stage. I'm ready because I have you here watching me." She walked towards him on pointe to give him a big kiss and hug before she checked her make up once more. "Alright I will let you finish your warm up. Break a leg darling! See you afterwards at the gala." He blew her a kiss and headed to his seat.

He was escorted to his seat easily enough before he sat to wait. It wasn't long before the lights flickered signaling the show was beginning. He waited patiently for it to begin. He did check her professional Instagram while he waited seeing her most recent posts. He knew her assistant posted them but he still loved looking at the photos they posted. One was of her sponsors outfit and the other was her dressed ready to take the stage. He liked both photos before closing the app. He refused to comment not wanting anyone to attack him or their relationship. No one needed that in their lives. They both had personal accounts that they posted each other in but those accounts were private keeping their personal life personal.

The lights faded to black and crowd hushed. The music started and curtains opened. He gasped as he saw her dance onto the stage. Yes he had seen her before on stage but this time it was different. This time she was his fiancé, the love of his life, his partner for life. It literally took his breath away. He was mesmerized by her movements. Mesmerized by the beauty before him. Her strength never ceased to amaze him as she jumped on pointe using only foot to cross the stage. It was unreal this women in front of him. Before he even knew what was happening the curtains were closing and the show was intermission. He exited to grab a drink at the bar before checking his phone. He sent her a quick message saying beautiful so far. Love you. Before looking to see the message received from Kevin.

Kevin was letting him know the man from earlier had in fact been attacked but the meds still not in his system enough they had no real idea of what happened to him. But that the man was safe and accepting help and medication to help him become lucid again. It was the best outcome possible at this point. He responded right away thanking him for the update and promising to check on the man the next day. It was the best he could do considering the situation. The lights flickered once again so he returned to his seat. Once again the second half took his breath away once more. He couldn't imagine how anyone wouldn't enjoy this. The movements were just simply stunning.

When the curtains faded to black once more the audience clapped. The dancers came out to bow for the audience like every night. They were polite claps till Kim and Steven came out. They received a standing ovation. Kim stepped back to let Steven have a moment before they switched places. As Kim took front and center the claps got even louder. Flowers being thrown on stage. She truly looked happy and in her element on the stage. Bowing, waving and blowing kissing to the crowd, mouthing thank you every so often. Adam watched in awe of his girl and how people truly respected her talent.

He was one of the last people to leave and headed directly to the gala location. He showed his ticket and headed inside. It was warm inside, full of light and music. Catering was walking around with glasses of Champagne and plates of appetizers. He helped himself to some snacks and a drink as he waited for Kim to arrive. He knew it would be a bit based on her hair, make up and outfit but he was content to wait. He knew no one there but he was fine with that. The anticipation of seeing Kim kept him going. Close to an hour went by before see arrived. Once again the crowd applauded her performance and she graciously bowed thanking them for the praise. This was a completely different side of her. She was poised, polished but still perfect. Their eyes met as she made her way towards him.

"You look incredible darling!" He hugged her tight before kissing her lips. Nothing over the top as they were in public. "Why thank you! You look pretty hot yourself." She winked playfully. "Down girl! We are in public, at a gala no less." They both laughed before mingling with the crowd. While she had no intention on staying to long she did need to make a proper appearance with the wealthy benefactors who funded the Opera House and the Chicago Ballet. Proudly introducing Adam each time as her fiancé. He beamed with pride as they worked the room. Seeing the Chicago wealthy elite fawning over his girl. If they only knew how she grew up and how they lived they would probably have a stroke.

The night came to a close when she could barely keep her eyes open. He helped her to the car and drove them home. By the time they reached their home she was sound asleep. He chose not to wake her and carried her to their apartment. It wasn't the easiest task given her dress was long and puffy but he made it work. Placing her in their bed before stripping her of the dress and jewelry. Before getting her into bed. He knew she needed the sleep and tomorrow they could celebrate properly. For now he just stripped himself before sliding in next to her. Holding her tight as he drifted off to sleep next to her.